Holland! (:

hello everyone...

hows life? heard that its like hot in singapore now... hmm.. its kinda hot ytd too.. but today its quite cold... like aircon lo... abit lower ba.. haha... but still.. we're wearing shorts and all... lols..
hmm... everything here is okok ba... practice eat and practice or shop... theres really nth much to shop for... the majority in the town are like.. elderly... so ya.. nth much lo.... but they have nice scenery.. (:

hmm... actually its kinda tired being a leader... haha.. sometimes u wish u could jus let everything go and like.. be a normal person.. all i wan is jus to be a normal person and enjoy my life... haha... and shittiness lo... so many projs... when im away... and if suay suay i got quarrentined i will die a terrible death... really badly... haha.... oh well.. we'll play by the ear ba... hmm... i miss so many ppl... daddy mummy jiejie didi korkor... my other band frens, my classmates and like frens and my Babyy!!!

hmm.. competition is like in 2 days? omg.. scary eh... JYJY!!! we must get the gold.. haha...

hmm.. tim is signing off le ba.. its like.. my bed time.. 1 am already...

.tim
*babyy... i miss u so much... jus a few more days babyy.... imy ily iwy... (:*

hello everyone.

in a few hrs time. tim will be away... for 10 days.. cut off from singapore communications... tats so sad... so so sad... haha...

i was packing whole nite... and like.. ok.. my luggage like so empty can.. omg.. like i forget to bring alot of things like tat... hmm.. how sia...

anyway... projects are stil hanging.. hais.... how sia! tsk! i don wan to be a free loader... tats so irritating... i don wan to be an irritating burden.. lols..

hmm.. dono wat to write le ba... tats all..

take care eveyrone.. i m goin to miss u all...

*hrtwj, please take good care of yourself! thou we are distants apart... but we're right beside each other.. staring at the same sky*

flying soon

haha... yup... todays is like sat already.. and im flying tml..
and i stil have not packed...

oh well.. haha.. do it later ba...

hmm... ytd i screamed at the band.. lol.. sorry... i think i was kinda worked up ba.... not feeling too well too... hmm...=)

anyway... hope things will go well...

tats all fornow... shall blog again later...

byebye...

*ilyb*

wandering thinking reflector

its been a busy day today...
had sch... but its like as if i wasnt there at all... i nv study.. at all! whole day have been thinking and thinking...

maybe trying ur best is not good enough... theres always 101 things to do... ppl say just keep trying and trying... but sometimes.. u try so hard... but they jus don wan to move! wat shd u do then? i carn possibly give up rite? just keep pushing and pushing...

haha... like... i dono how to say lo... maybe it all boils down to me... im not doin a good job ba... its like... maybe i shd have been firmer and stick to my initial plans... wouldnt cause so much trouble for everyone.. and now im like, goin to cause sth bad to happen... wat if nv get it? its in my hands tat this has happen... i need solutions... how how how... talking and motivating jus don work.. go the hard way? how hard shd it be.. the limit? not much time left... there onli so much u can do now... PLEASE let things be better... im running out of brain cells le... i don wan to freak out in the middle of the nite again.. i don wan to be paranoid... i want to trust them! they can do it.. yes they can! i shall give it another shot! i trust i believe.. when u believe it, u will see it...

5 more days... wat shd i do.... what do i have to do... wat will i do...

haha... u know... my stomach is so pain now i can sit up straight... and guess wat... my nose bleed... LOL too heaty le ba... shall drink more water...

*i wan to tell u but i don wan u to worry... its jus like tat [ ] u see... carn be put into words*

hello (:
today is saturday... like in 1 week's time i will be byebye in the plane le... haha.. well.. the pass few days was quite hectic as expected... alot to do alot alot to do... hmm... ytd sth bad happen... and i panicked... and like left abit earlier.. i think i was like white face red eyes? scary... haha.. fortunately i had wonderful exco who i can trust...

oh well.. today i woke up at 645? haha... then slp then wake then slp.. till 11? woke up use comp.. eat lunch and do my entre website... more or less done le ba... =) its simple.. hope its ok ba.. haha.. lalalala... tim ar tim... u still got alot more projects to do and test to study hor hor.. rmb rmb.. list them down..

EnIR
CRM ICA 3
CRM ICA 4
WHP
HBO
HRD
Entre

i don wan to be a free loader hor! i wan do my part! roar!!!! but im gone for like 2 weeks.. with no internet!!! aiyo! how how how!!!! i must do sth abt it... think! tim think!!!!

oh ya... next week everyday band.. onli tuesday free but ya.. end at 6... haha.. not much of a rest day... think i will go practice my part ba... hmm...
oh ya.. thursday 16th july.. FTT 415... haha.. haven even touch the book.. DIE! haha... and yes... i still gotta pack my lagguage! omg... omg omg omg.. haha... siao ar...

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its been a mth of ups and downs...

but im happy abt it..

i see my rainbow from afar...

its a journey i choose...

i live it.. the way i wan.. (:

happi 1 mth babyy.

.tim

yet another sleepless nite

haha! yes.. yet another slpless nite! omg! can feel the weight of my eye lids..
ytd was a hectic day... rush ard.. hmm.. u know.. for the first time... i fell aslp during CRM Lab! omg.. first time! haha... its either the video is boring or im jus too tired... haha.. i think its cuz im overworked... haha...

hmm.. sch ended at 6, rushed for dinner at koufu... the tasteless tom yam ramen.. think my taste buds decided to slp first.. haha.. rush to band room.. like make sure everything is taken care of.. haha.. u know.. ppl talk to me.. its like left in right out? i cannot uds or absorb... OMG... first time.. oh well..
so yup.. i ran between band room and business block.. rushing my project and multitasking at band... haha.. i almost rolled down the stairs... almost... but nv.. =)

my friend got me brownies... its very very very nice okie! really... can feel the love... it got me thru the night ok... till now.. im still munching on it.. =) my motivation.. xD mad mad me... hmm.. went to macs after band and reach home like 1 am.. then chiong the stupid proj... hate it!

Hmm... i shd go prepare le ba... sch at 9.. omg! haha... so much to do.. so much to bring.. and im so slpy...

-zombie timmieboi-

*thanks for being there! -muacks! =)*

more time?

hello...
im back again.. just got home? and think i don need to slp le ba...
projects.. and more projects... hate it...

im flying in 2 weeks... i really have not enough time... schedule clashing... its been almost a mth... haven got a proper one... haha.. i kinda sad... hmm.. maybe one shd learn to listen harder? things loss it's intended meaning when its repeated.. like a joke.. first time is funni.. say a few more times.. it becomes lame... haha...

i really dono wat im thinking... im always on this roller coaster of ups and downs... now im at the down again... wat shd i do? wat am i really thinking? the mind is but an organ... a simple yet complicated one... its kinda having a war now... today is a war day for me... and sneeze sneeze.. its cold...

1 word for me... upset...

tim is signing off to shower and do his proj.. not planning to sleep.. so if u see him, please leave him alone... ty...

-timmieboi-

*i really dono wat to do already*

life is a learning journey

life is a learning journey...
we are learning everyday... today i learnt more about you.. thanks for being there... thanks for understanding... we're both learning... more abt you.. and more abt me... actions speaks louder then words.. but words are easier to understand... it takes time... i dont know everything.. if you dont tell me.. i'll nv know... jus like if i don tell u, u'll nv know.. so let's talk when we shd... haha... im happi really.. im glad theres u... the telepathy.. the co-incidence... they are unexplainable.. but i only know.. i have tat 5 words for u... with a left bracket and a colon....

-timmieboi-
*hrtwj... you're my sugar rush... (:*

konnichiwa...

today is a sunday... but i don feel sunny at all.. lol..

ytd went for NP concert with miki, denise, kesha and leon...

we saw fireworks during intermission... =) hmm... after tat wanted to go tou hua de.. but kesha and leon gtg.. so miki denise and me walk there.. like WALK u know.. and its so hot... navigated with gps and denise's brain...

omg... ytd i was totally imageless.... sugar rushed all nite long... talking nonsense... singing and whining.. its so not me! there goes my image... LOL... but ya... how often do u see it... hmm.. got sugar low after tat.. emo... haha.. tim is such a nonsense guy... i think everyone is scared of me like after last nite... "keep away" sign... =x

want to drop at AMK then take bus.. but! my ezlink when cash low... omg... so had to jus train straight to hougang instead... =/ oh well.. went home... wanted to do proj but cant concentrate.... yup.. waited and waited.. then decided to slp at 3?

hmm.. sch starting tml... tuesday presentation... like.. omg... hais... its goin to be a very stressful 2 weeks for me! hopefully i find time to meet up with the ppl i need and must meet... hopefully i rmb to pack my stuff... hmmm... shd be employing all possible help to get thru already ba...

-TiM-

anyway... im upset... haha... ok.. i know i shdnt be but.. im like tat wat.. i get jealous very easily ma.. u also know... then then.. like hais.. nvm la.. i don wan talk abt it le... *silently.. beyond words..*

Plan B

Sinfonique 09 is cancelled.
like omg? all the efforts... the planning.. the sleepless nites... everyone kinda put in so much and its cancelled... like.. SAD! but wat can we do... stupid H1N1... hate it... cause so much probs... SHOO SHOO! go away.. don come back... argh....

pack pack pack.. no concert but still got lotsa band pract in preparation for WMC... 2 more weeks! 2 mroe weeks to finish all my proj.. 2 more weeks to perfect my songs... 2 more weeks... jus 2 more... the last lap...

anyway.. today had montfort band BBQ... not bad la hor.. see alot of ppl that nv saw for quite some time le.. haha... quite fun la.. chat abit..

anyway.. today's mood is a roller coaster... i was home like 10 am? slept alittle.. then did work.. then bbq then find fren then home... i dono leh.. today's mood like abit sensitive? and jus got a feeling like my fren nv do the promised thing.. like have fun then forgot abt it already... and i dono watever im doing is rite anot... oh well... shall not think abt it ba... let fate decide... tim is hungry now.. he shall stop here...

-end of rubbish..-

*hrtwj... hais... forgot? / planned? / sianed?.. i really dono wat u are thinking... hais.. so sad*

im jus wondering wat will happen to someone who don slp alot everyday...
i wonder where is the limit... where is the crumbling zone...
i wonder wat will happen when all thing fails...
i wonder when will it all end
i wonder why i even get myself into it
i wonder if theres a time machine
i wonder i wonder....

i know wat to expect
i know wats to come
i know wats the outcome
i know i know

i do not want
i do not need
i do not seek
i do not anticipate

i need more time
i need some help
i need a break
i need myself and my babyy

oh well... thing are bad.. really bad... time to plan.. and plan again... the signs have to be ignore... don have much of a choice... i'll just let it crumble when it needs too... i'll just do the max i can.. and let fate take over...

-TiM signing off and not blogging for now.... take care all-

*hrtwj... so much to say... but just dont know how... the 3 letters say it all...*