trust?

i need to learn how to trust. sometimes its very difficult, you cant force urself to trust and respect others just like that.. its built~ i have 6 days left... if i still cant trust, i dont know how things will be.. it will be bad.. i guess... time and time again.. we talk abt things.. and the next day, its like nth happened.. its kinda tiring thou.. so much happening at this moment.. and time and time again.. the promise was broken.. i am starting to speculate.. i dont know how things will be during the 2 weeks...

i guess i need a miracle...

.tim

290510 - a bad day

unexpectedly. caught off guard.. i've lost my bestest frens.. i guess its ok.. i have myself to blame.. thank you for all you have done for me.. i really appreciate and enjoy being ard u.. sorry for the unhappiness i brought to you.. i can only wish you all the best.. take care.. stay happy and healthy.. i'll miss you.. as my fren.. as my close close close fren...

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how many are considered your true fren? treasure them..

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.tim *i'm refraining myself from laying my hands on that silvery shiny thin piece of thing*

260510 - its been draining..

i need a sanctuary to heal these wounds..

to regain my trust and confidence..

to renew my faith..

to paint my rainbow.

to genuinely smile.

.tim *will you make me smile?*

sometimes curiosity is bad

sometimes i just hate myself for being so curious.. the more u wan to know abt sth.. the more upset i get.. then i cannot slp.. wth... its already in the past.. don dig it out anymore.. just dont.. don find trouble.. live life normally.. but sometimes you just really want to know what happened.. what can i say? maybe its insecurity.. maybe sth else..

sometimes u just wan to wonder why are the things still lying there when they odd to be thrown away.. like some tots... this is the time when u really want to just take an eraser and erase it off.. hais.. my day was pretty good until my curiosity destroyed it... sigh.. i don need a time machine.. i just need an eraser...

oh well.. some things are better left unknown i guess.. hais.. sigh.. nvm.. slp slp slp.. tml will be a better day.. =) don think abt it le.. just throw them away like nth happen.. (: tml will be a great day.. it will be.. haha.. ok timmi.. don think so much.. stop rolling in bed.. its been almost 5 hrs.. go slp now.. good nite world.............................................

.tim

190510 - relax.. let the universal energy flow in you

don get too tense up.. relax.. relax.. don stress so much.. everything has a plan.. just let it flow..

i have a plan for the future.. i know where i wan to be.. i know what i want to do.. i know how i want to live.. and im sure i will get there.. somehow.. i will work hard.. i will.. (: for now... lets settle the little things.. like concert and blah blahs... nus sent a rejection letter.. oh well.. theres many universities out there.. so yup.. nth to get upset abt.. haha.. smile.. ming tian hui gen hao..

.t

170510 - PMSB.

*disclaimer* this post is not for C2

went to the dentist and burnt a hole in my wallet.. but oh well.. as long as it gets better... anyway... yes i am a PMS Bitch... i have moodswings worse then the changing winds.. i pms very day.. every 3 mins my mood change.. deal with it.. u are welcome to walk away from my life.. im a walking time bomb... i will explode anytime.. or for the kids.. my balloon will pop any sec...

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No promise is better then empty promise..
With promise comes expectation..
With expectation comes disappointment..
Learn to live a simple life, with nothing more then contentment..

its good to stop expecting anything cuz all you get is disappointment...

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.tim *SIGH*

110510 - the most impt.

no matter what happens.. or how things seem to go against you.. never say no.. never say i give up.. take everything with a smile.. and a good intention.. things will get better... it will.. cuz you have faith.. hope.. and trust.. always look on the bright side of life..

i learnt to appreciate the things and people i have.. b4 i have to say good bye to them.. cuz u nv know what will happen tml.. treasure these sweets while they last.. appreciate them.. and show them you care too..

its been tiring.. my energy level is running very low.. i need a recharge.. soon..

.tim *im willing, are you?*

070510 - the human way.

i have been working.. like a cow.. ha ha ha... for all i know.. i will nv nv nv nv ever treat my employees like that.. i don see them as slaves.. oh wait.. theres only one me.. for 4 dept... wow. and everyone is chasing after me to help them even with the most trival of matters like BRINGING YOUR OWN BOX WHICH IS SO LIGHT I CAN CARRY 4 OF THEM AT ONE GO.. let alone.. pasting 4 sticky board thingy on the wall.. wow.. all i can say is.. i laugh at you.. so useless!

"does our JD including climbing up and down?" i feel like telling tat person.. "does my JD include becoming a bangla? move things.. and also.. THROW UR RUBBISH? and ur fucking heavy things.. haha.. its not light.. seriously.. all u all can do is "xin ku ni le" like wtf? u think we bangla meh? i think my this one colleague very poor thing.. injured her leg.. hope she is ok.. thanks for helping.. even thou it was irritating to ask me to pack and unpack and reshelf.. and move the super heavy things.. haha...

helping ppl is good.. maybe its time to take into consideration my own well being before saying yes.. it is even worth doing it anot.. for this case.. it was.. i just had to.. because im grateful to have a friend like this.. thats why i helped... and yes.. there no inferior motives.

oh well.. what to do.. money is hard to earn.. and i don dare to tell my parents im working this hard.. they would have said.. please don work.. i give u allowance again.. anyway... i have my reasons why i working so hard to earn some cash... ive got a plan.. a plan that i hope will ...

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i have 1 mth left.. exactly... so fast.. so fast... i tot it would be ok.. but as it draws nearer.. my life has change.. its no longer the same.. this shall post as a challenge for me... and..

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.tim *im working hard.. so that you can smile*

300410 - WORK AGAIN!?

i realise the definition of "Money very hard to earn ah!" after all the events. theres nth much to do.. so just go find other stuff to work.. but but but.. lols.. some of them are quite demanding.. i mean.. as a HR person, we know that being fair is very important so is taking care of ur employee's welfare.. lols.. some people are just.. "WHATEVER" haha.. but what to do! imagine i tell my dad. he sure go "don work la." he don even allow me to work events.. saying things like don go there and be a coolie and carry heavy stuff.. ur hands not cut out for rough work.. well, at least they don OVERLOAD you.. lols and u have a trolley. =x its ok! this is call training! training to be tough.. i can do this. woo... maybe i shd spend less.. on others and me. lols. bye.

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its something new. somehow i feel its something good.

cheers.

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i know some people must be feeling like this song. i dont know wat to do! =(