rain rain/ sneeze sneeze

lonely day...

as usual.. i woke up in the noon with no one at home... mummy packed lunched and i ate with her.. the day went by so fast... one moment it was abt 1.. then when im done doing my kiddo drawings.. its already 4 30... like FLEW... online... dinner alone! aww man.. i hate it.. thou i had the whole salmon and like every other dish to myself but eee.. theres sth with me and eating with family... i must eat with ppl im close with.. if not, the best food will nv be satisfying..

watch tv after tat.. cuz as usual.. stomach pain.. and i started sneezing real bad when it rain.. back hurts.. i was lazy to move but haha.. my fren told me tat acutally running can unblock the nose.. so i tried.. and it worked! THANK YOU! did the usual warm ups... today i did more.. but i forgot to STRETCH.. man.. wasted.. the run was good.... it was cooling.. and i lost track when i ran, i was listening to music and i jus ran and ran... -.- and MY IPOD EARPIECE IS SPOILT! AHH! stupid.. and someone snapped a pic of me. wth. anyway, i feel slimmer.. i feel good.. da la da la da la da.. so good! so good!

currently watching exorcism of emily rose... ok, its spooky.. i realise rite... i get very into movies.. and i always jump... kia dio ar.. chua dio... maybe cuz im tired? i dono i dono... tots were everywhere during the day.. at nite... when i run.. even now.. i shall slp soon.

.tim

*rindu kamu*

301009 - movieton

wow. this 2 weeks really alot of movies... think tml got 1 more.. not confirm... 2 movies today..

500daysofsummer.

movie was not bad, rewatchable. can relate. the songs are nice. the girl was like, wth?! so indecisive. nth serious.. ya.. i know i know.. nth serious.. den don even start. miserify other ppl's life. oh man.. haha.. ok la.. can watch again.. i drifted off to my own timmi land after awhile..

jennifer's body.

blood blood blood. squirt squirt squirt. piak. i was petrified cuz im scared of piak and blood. the movie was cool. nice. but holding my niao niao made the movie less enjoyable.. argh.

pastamania for dinner. i like. i realise ar, everytime i go cine, its either hongkong cafe or pastamania. but, its nice.. =) walked ard.. chilled talk crap. happi day.

driving.

argh. today im like.. argh. so not smooth ar.. and i stalled. -.- damn it. i think i was distracted again today... HAHA! driving is gonna be intensive next mth.. =( i'm gonna have a hard time.. darn it.. reminder to self.. stay calm and drive. stop thinking.

==============================================================

after my koi cafe session.. i've tot alot.. after today, i really think thru it. wat i really want.. wat am i doin now. i guess.. i've found my answers.. yes.. i playing a waiting game. its not time to make a decision yet.. soon soon. soon.. i'm waiting for signs, facts and confirmation b4 deciding.. sch's starting.. hope everything falls in place... even if it doesnt.. i'll make it..

.tim

*the truth*

271009 - koi cafe

koi cafe.

addiction. absolute love.

went for bbtea again with the usual.

had a long long long long.. SI BEI long.. heart to heart talk..

and i realize alot of stuff.. and i finally came to terms with myself..

its true tat alot has happen.. and i have been thinking abt it...

i guess i know wat should i do next.

things happen. it doesnt only affect you...

it affects others too.. things happen. doesnt mean u dont know... u just kept quiet.. certain things are ok to be quiet.. some are not... well.. i know i know.. i know... im solving it slowly... and i came to terms with so many things.. its so scary.. i came to realise the truth... sun set, darkness of nite, shinning moon/ star appears, break of dawn.. i guess i know wat i can do next. as for those who like to build their happiness on others' misery.. thank you.. u shd think of urself too.. if one day, its you. don blame anyone but yourselves. yes.. yourselves.. not yourself.. =) fren's advice.. have good intentions. don curse... okay, i wont. i take it with a smile.

lastly. this sad case spine of mine is giving me problems again.. i shd really just go for the op.. spinal disc herniation. thank you for coming in my life.. who cares abt me anyway.. i know.

.tim

i feel so sian suddenly.

so sian u know.. like sian sian.. like no meaning tat sian sian..

i suddenly have nth to do... hmm... something in my life went missing? i feel like running but its so late already... and i shd really think b4 i do anything... haha.. i think i upset someone... oh man. wat shd i do now.. i really dono wat to blog abt.. like blank blank blank.. knock knock?

argh.

anyway.. nites.

.tim

crippled left arm.

ahh... had a bad nite slp.

and my left elbow is PAINFUL! cannot straighten. cannot lift up.

DIE! got band later... how to play flute? no piano? ahhh!

hmm.. meeting Mr Han at 3 later... time to put things into perspective..

1 more week to settle concert stuff, then school starts..

.tim

251009 - the sun is setting soon.

its a rot rot rotting day...

lunch was eek, dinner was eek too...

haha.. i jus rmb i had a box of rochers someone gave me in july.. happi ate them.. nth much to be done.. tv tv tv tv... rot rot rot rot rot... rot till i become a pile of gluey rotten nua nua de mashmellow.. haha...

doink doink.. bouncy bouncy

i decided to run till i drop... so i warmed up at home... then ran a few rounds.... ran until my legs gave way.. drop dead on the grass beside the pond.. the sky is so nice tonite... so clear... (: and i was thinking abt this: "thou we're distant apart but we're staring at the same sky" i said this to a fren of mine.. in july.. hmm.. i feel slimmer.. haha! feel so bouncy.. doink doink doink... running is good.. just run and run and run. distract urself.. run till u drop.. pffft.. and feel the breeze, listen to nature symphony.. life is short.. be happi.

the sun is setting soon.

thou i don want it to set... but how can i stop it? let it be ba... even if it wants to set.. lets make it a beautiful sunset... my head hurts.. tats all for now.

.tim

*maybe i've been wishing and trying too hard*

241009 - scrub scrub~

i love the sweets... they are so cute... sweet and nice... i ate too much thou.. i have sore throat and stomach upset =( hmmm, i was hungry and my fren was kind and sweet enough to fly here and we went for supper.. thank you very much.. =)

rest of the day was nth much.. church... someone sat on my seat when i went to the toilet.. WTH!.. =( nvm... hmm.. i scrubbed myself from head to toe... i am so renewed and smooth now.. woo... i like... mask later? or tml? don't know...

i guess i was too free. i think and think again. tot and tot... its happening infront of you.. maybe its a different thing altogether now... how? you heard from so many frens.. advise after advise... ur mind and heart don telly.. HOW! shd u or shd u not? u wan to stay but the reasons are so negligible... there's still hope.. u are still hoping... so ya.. i guess u shd will stay... time will tell it all.. ur treasures ur choice.. smile... don let go yet...

.tim

*holding on*

priceless treasures

Driving was great just now..

drove from home to ubi to try out the test routes.

ok, i know i shd be patient but the L plate infront is SO SLOW! keep go stop go stop.. irritating... and traffic light turning CMI! irritated much, we decided we shd overtake.. yaya already.. i know.. turning effortlessly... woo.. master the art of speed gear change... can u move off the traffic light, speed up, change from gear 1 to 2 to 3 in 6 sec? i onli have circuit and parking to do.. and im all set.. lets make this the 1st and last driving test... sure pass... went for lunch with mummy then accompany her shop... now im home.

i've been thinking... abt this.

treasure your treasures before you loss them... sounds simple? not easy at all.

treasures can be people or things... losing them doesnt mean they die... they just say byebye to you.. how long can 1 person tolerate, wait, accommodate until he/she decides.. its time... its this moment of truth, a split second that things decide to take a turn. so wat if u managed to find it back... its never the same i guess.. just like broken glass. even if u piece it back.. there are scar lines... u can try to sand those scars away.. but are u patient enough? are u willing? if only u were sensitive enough to sense sth was wrong... things could have been better.. actions speaks louder then words... its up to you now... stagnant.. time will decide.. treasures are everywhere... treasure ur treasures before they being other's treasures.

going for dinner with the HUA sisters... sh and yh later... =) hmm... tats abt it i guess... bye all.

.tim

*are u treasuring?*

221009 - movies.

had 2 movies today.

julie and julia

great.. love it... the food made someone high..

Halloween 2

shocking... i jumped a few times... bloody and scary...

but i like...

macs for supper and chat a little...

good day.

.tim *when will it be my turn?*

i woke up at 1112.

darnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

its so noisy... 8 plus and daddy's making such a din...

9 plus, sister wakes up...

10 plus brother wakes up... rawrrrrr!

i dono wat to do now..

.tim

*into your arms*

november is coming.

november is coming...

its tat time of the year again....

the tots are haunting me again...

i wish they'll stop...

how many people actually know what i am saying?

doubtfully, a handful, literally...

well... i've to live thru it.. no matter wat...

its not the first time anyway.. 3rd time...

right.. now... smile... stop thinking...

.tim

*my shelter, my refuge. tat's you*

hungry

i am hungry.

sushi with joseph, amanda, francesca, betty.

ok ar.. not bad.. but i didnt eat to i explode like wat i wanted to..

band was.... lets not talk abt it...

mummy was talking to me abt saving up.

boy, don spend so much ok... must save up..

for rainy day and also for ur marriage.

i was speechless.. haha... i said.. orh.

i go shower...

goin movie tml. yay!

i have alot of brain activity now. hope it stops soon.

.tim

*i have alot to say*

201009

nth much for today.

woke up, pack my table. waited forever for lunch. continue packing.. wait for phone call. online. showered and headed to woodlands to meet jolie and marcus. yup.. had mos burger... then chat abit, walked ard abit and home home home.............................. see.. it's a boring day. and i think... army changed my brother.. HI MR VAIN! now people wear baggy shirt and shorts and specs no more... welcome the new mr handsome.. he is... im advertising him on my blog.. lelong lelong! but too bad he's taken! too late! in ur face! no wonder ppl say love changes a person... haha... right? wishing the both of u the best best best! not marcus and jolie but marcus and his mrs right.

hmm.. its been a totful day. i feel it's pointless to block the tots. they just come... i've tot, and tot, and tot. i cant come to a concrete resolution yet. so ya.. let it be.. take it as it comes.. anyway... my books fell on me when i opened the cupboard.. so this goes to show, ITS TIME TO CLEAR!... i think im suffering from selective concussion thanks to the books. i don seem to rmb certain things. bah.... SUSHI-ing with band peeps tml! woo. another good time to distract myself!

decipher it yourself ba..

*patience, my turn will come*

.tim

sleepless. i wonder, right?

the following post is a piece of crap.. don read it if u don like talking abt life.

was chatting with halif the sleepless boy last night and i caught the sleepless virus..

i can't seem to fall asleep last night. well, eventually i did but i woke up at 8.

i had many many dreams... and i start to wonder... not wander but wonder.

things are happening. wat can i do abt it. if i don anything abt it. how will the outcome be.

but if i do sth abt it. how much better then, will it be... i wonder i wonder...

19 and 1/2 years of my life... i've been thru ups and downs.

all kinds of shits... all kinds of nice happi moments..

life is about choices... the choices u make, the ppl you meet. its part of a growing process.

i've always complaint abt how stressful sch has been.. and now.. im hoping it starts today.

right now.... i miss sching... at least... it keeps me occupied... studying is good.. u become smarter.

sometimes, u give.. and sometimes u take... dr goh said... 势必寿根优福。i dont know if my chinese is right but giving is better then receiving... in many situations... i've given in... from past till now... i grew from being a selfish "it must go my way" to "watever, as long as everyone is happy" to "i feel there shd be a compromise".. what should my next step be. go my way? watever? or compromise... easier said then done. i know wats the outcome... so just shhh.

i've been typing and typing.. how much is in my head.. how much is said? i guess i'll stop here.

life is short... u choose how to live it.. happi or sad... i choose to be HAPPY.

.tim (happilittleboi)

control stress and not let stress control you.

i think i have been quite worked up and lost my mind a few times...

today i found TONNES of white hair on my HEAD!.. DARN!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm aging too fast.. haha.. its abt time... i tell myself..

tat sentence again!

"Control stress and not let stress control you"

thanks to WW and ah DA who taught me this sentence...

i still rmb it till this day cuz its true tat stressed is desserts spelled reverse.

positive thinking and motivation goes a long way.

yes tim.. u can do this.. its nth compared to wat u been thru last time...

1 man or not.. u still can do it.. HA HA! help is out there... u just need to open ur mouth.

quote no. 2

"shared grief is halved and happiness doubled"

its true tat if u share it.. it is so...

recently.. many of my frens are facing probs...

thou i may not be able to help but i think the ears were enough...

just like they are there for me, im there for them...

hope you're feeling better...

but i came to this tot.

if i can even help myself, how can i help others?

think think think.. i realise.. sometimes the 3rd party sees the situation better...

sometimes the ans is simple, but u are just to worked up or sth tat u don see it..

sometimes all someone needs is jus to let it out.. things will solve by themselves..

well... so much so... there are still things that one cant help..

it's sometimes better to accept it that way... and as for me...

there are things tat i will say and things that i cant... its just like working in the bank..

too much is at stake.. i just cant... please understand...

thanks to those who have been there for me...

so much of talking... i feel tat i grew today... or rather... woken abit...

things tat u cant control then let it be ba... u tired...

it's 2 sided.. just be patient for now.. ur turn will come...

driving was crappy.. thou i mastered the illegal 1 hand turning..

i almost bang car.... but at least i was smart enough to do the biting point thing.

dinner sucked... and my pay cheque has my name spelled wrongly.. =(

hmm.. im hungry.. and band room was cold... and i jus feel like typing none stop..

so here i am crapping..... ok.. im done....

.tim

*i wish*

headache.

nth much happened today.

having a headache now... hmm...

here is a nice song.

There's some things we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

.tim

*its a nice song. imy*

171009

friday 161009

the meeting was lame.

it was with the board of governors...

i did the talking... hope i did a good speech..

ended rather earli...

went for lunch at amk... +koi cafe

then chopped my hair at orchard...

i've got bangs again! =D

tired.. slpy.. went amk for koi again.

no wonder im so poor lately.. koi-ed too much..

went back to sch for orchestra.. self practed alittle..

too tired.. floated to the band room. sat in... and fell aslp at one corner of the band room.

suppered with dr goh and the rest. home. and lets not continue wat happened.

171009

WOW! guess wat i saw when i woke up...

1111. i made my wish.

went back to slp thou...

woke up.. cooked aglio pasta.

ate... nua on the sofa. fell aslp..

stood up too fast... fainted on the floor... ha ha.

help dad with his work.

church.

home. and i had half a salmon to myself. =)

online. suppered.

now gonna slp.

.tim

*i am learning. =) wish ur day went well*

STOP BLAMING ME!

I AM NOT AN INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY STUDENT.

I STUDY BUSINESS!

STOP BLAMING ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO FIX THE HOUSE COMPUTERS AND PRINTER ISSUES!

2 PERSON ASK FOR HELP AT THE SAME TIME.. WAT U WAN ME TO DO...

DAMN IT.. FUCKING STOP ASKING ME! IFUCKINGDONTKNOW!

I AM GOIN TO GO OUT NOW.

BYE!

CB.

.tim

BLUR.

today is a blur day...

i seem to be in a slping state the whole day..

i seem to be floating... drifting everywhere..

lunch with mummy, and i said i wan to eat noodles at the chicken rice stall -.-

went home.. sat down.. fell aslp.. wake up.. slp.. wake up and slp..

when i finally decided to take a nap.. i cant slp.. -.- wth...

washed up, dinnered, and went out for a walk..

my fren said.. why u like blur blur emo emo one? like ur shirt pic..

then i like.. hurrrrr... dono.. had some soup... and went walking ard...

walk until dizzy.. blur blur dizzy dizzy.. went home..

rest awhile.. mask and showered.... now uploading pictures...

and its irritating.. cuz its very troublesome to upload.. and im half way..

don wan to leave it half doned...

gotta be in sch for an interview/meeting at 8am tml..

SO EARLI! =( darnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn it...

with moe ppl.. wonder wat they will ask... hopefully send me on a scholarship =x

hope i wont be blur tml... formal wear... -.- and im gonna chop my hair tml.

well.. all the best tim... stop venting here... go upload... and slp...

.tim

*take care*

the little stomach of mine haven been co-operating today...

its very very painful now...

blister on my feet... =( pain...

a mysterious cut on my little finger... =(

i am still smelling tat stupid smell and taste in my nose and throat...

an open wound somewhere...

haunted by guilt...

tired.

and i cant slp.

tml will be a better day... yes it would be...

.tim

*[ ]*

sunday... and a packed week.

nth much today...

i ate dumplings for lunch.. like SUPER ALOT cuz i love them! daddy made wat... its sunday ok.. only day in the week where i can enjoy his cooking... hmm... went out for a walk... and ate chicken rice? and i ate super alot... i dono why.. walked ard.. and home...

going out to celebrate ww's bday tml... then head to sch to get things done...

band.. and not home.. im staying out... wed go home change bag and sch again.. omg..

tue got sectionals? if have means i need to go sch again... oh man... much more planning to do..

alot more to settle.. 2 more weeks.. time table gonna be out on tuesday... maybe i shd bring my comp along... so i can do my work and also... surf the net... haha... tats all for now... ok ok.. i know.. uncap the bottle.. ok ok.. im uncapping.. =)

.tim

*i know u are busy, lotsa things to settle.. jiayou ok! im always here to support*

pricked and scratched.

woken up by phone calls...

settled some stuff... had lunch.. tv abit and went for a walk...

bought some kueh...

today is cousin's wedding...

help my mother set her hair.. and choose her outfit..

but her gold needle pricked and scratched me..

ITS VERY PAINFUL! stupid "ko-lo-san"

tsk... off to church i went...

homed... onlined, dinner.. rested abit cuz i was dizzy...

showered.. and ya.. nth much today...

my medical is booked... dec 8 at 10 am...

remind me... tats all... byebye...

.tim

*where youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*

091009

hi blog.

today was a sian sian day.. daddy was home in the morning...

noisy! yup... then then then... cuz theres too many ppl at home..

i decided to head to sch.. to print some stuff....

headed off to sch... and wa liao! i nv bring my thumbdrive! tsk!

then went band room for piano... not bad.. i think now it sounds better..

but dono why theres this irritating metal sound when i play A & G#..

stupid.. must get it solved! and i think shd get it tuned too.. abit off ar..

enjoyed myself... immersed myself in music.. embraced by chords and harmony..

woo.. help jojo with some transposing, arrange the room and dinner...

wanted to head home but was rush hr.. so i stayed, wanted to pract but no room! =(

stay in band room use comp.. settle band stuff... update my itunes.. and UHHHH!!!!

i need a new mp3.. not enough space... thou i love mine now, but i think an itouch would be handy.. xD shall save save.. =)

took a long long time to go home.. suppered a packed food.. and after finishing it.. i realise.. ehh, the chilli abit sour ar.. lols.. tml i stomach ache.. i will know why... hmm.. enough crap..

tml shall unpack the rest of my luggage and i dono.. find sth to do ba... cousin's wedding tml.. don feel like going.. haha..

.tim

*all the best, jiayou. im supporting you*

back

its been 2 days since im home...

band was ok... didnt wanna take sectionals but i guess its for the better ba..

dono wat they think but.. i tried... my hand are swollen! =(

went for supper with the clars, 2 tpets.. kfc... not nice... but was quite fun...

today, i was home all day.. planning and planning...

did up a few things and planned many more....

done my pre-enlistment documents... shall book the date tml.

time to put everything into perspective... things haven been going well..

i think i had enough.. i say we do it this way... since no one wan to do it...

u don have much of a choice... live with it...

list of qns... uninformed... blamed...

and all this while... i jus took it all.. so the least u could do is try to help and not create prob.

oh man.. the things i do... many a times i qn myself.. why?

haha... i know my ans... do u know mine? more calling and planning tml...

3 weeks to sch start... 3 weeks to solve it all.

.tim

*let's jiayou together*

byebye

bye bye everyone..

take care ok...

my frens.. elites... everyone.. esp u

bad day

everything is goin bad and i cant help it.

alot of urgent probs cropped up..

clashing schedule and ppl jus throw everything to me..

everything seems to be my fault somehow...

stressed out.. i predict this 6 days there will not be good.

thank you for doing this to me...

feeling uneasy and all.. dont feel like goingi but i still have to go..

nonetheless, i will try to enjoy myself...

enough said... im tired... bye world.

.tim

*i wish i can jus say anything i want, take care...*