stupidity

hate myself for being dum.

i know it will happen.

its not the first time.

should have known better.

now things are worse.

remind myself to just my mouth.

less talk.

i have my bottle and book.

use it.

.tim

*im lost, slpless nites. huanted tots.*

hello all...

today is yet another boring day...

went out for lunch then headed home.

drown myself with taptap revenge 2 on my sis iphone...

blast music...

and like.. do nth...

i pack my table.. and vacumme abit..

i was so free, i decided to become a housewife...

this is another nice song.

.tim

*i ran out of reasons to go on. my mind says let go, but my heart is still holding on.*

When I'm With You.

When I'm With You lyrics

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me too
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough
But that's gonna change
Cuz' I'm coming back to show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cuz when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

the lyrics says it all.

*b~ imylc*

brainwash

its so difficult to forget abt sth..

even thou u manage to..

it lurks in ur mind subconciously.

its been there... the more u don wanna think.

the more u will think.

tell me wat to do now. i cant stop thinking..

.tim

*its been almost 31 hrs. im not upset but rather, im worried. did sth happen to u? please don ignore me.*

boring

its bored bored bored saturday.

woke up by the hse phone.

lied in bed.

thinking.

wash up.

online.

tv.

and now... i guess im gonna shower and head over to church.

haha.. bored like theres no tml.

.tim

*its been more then 24hrs since the last contact*

heavy head...

uhhh... my head feels so heavy..

the air feels so humid.... so moist... breathe until the boi's head feels so heavy...

hmm.. so wat have i been doin today?

nth much.. went out for lunch with joseph... then ya.. head home and did nth..

nua ard... watch tv.. slp abit.. think alot... lols..

the boi's tots:

i was thinking abt wat my fren told me on the last day of sch.

abt this sentence. "有男朋友好像没有男朋友！”

think think think... like..

ya lo... if one is like free, the other is not free.. then seldom meet..

like seldom get to spend time together...

then last nite she asked me... shd she go work..

then i say ya, u shd.. cuz we were saying like... no work no money.. then so free nth to do...

work then scared no time go out... but i think think think.. maybe its good ar... cuz the bf also busy.. u make urself busy u won think so much... maybe it sounds like u're jus lying to urself but at least u feel better... haha... no matter wat... they are still goin strong and tats they way...

no matter wat... they can still rely on each other... they are there for each other when they need.. so sweet! haha...

so tat's one of today's random tots.. and i feel like eating so many things..

ayam penyet... more chilli please..

satay...

laksa...

waraku's hot stone bowl udon!

mof soft serve ice cream...

blah blah...

and also.. to spend more time with my friend. not friends. friend. =)

oh well.. i shall find sth to do.. haha =)

.tim

*waiting patiently for that reply*

hello all...

i chance upon this song...

and i like the lyrics...

In Love With You Forever - Elliot Yamin

I'm gonna mind what my momma once told me
Don't fall in love if you can't fall all th ewway
She said go find yourself a dream girl give her every part of your world
JUst hold on tight and never let her slip away
And when I saw you that rainy nigh tin Cleveland
You lit me up like the sun lights up the moon
And that feeling I felt then
Every day it comes again
Yeah it feels my heart completely
You mean everything to me

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

My mind don't change with the weather
It will stand through the wind and the hurricanes
All around we can see love ain't all it used to be
But that just make smy heart grow stronger
It just makes my love last longer

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

And you are mine, yeah
Cause you are mine, oh yeah
I said you are mine, ohhh

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
I'm never gonna leave you never
Always going to be together
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine

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*for you =)*

tell me

change is inevitable.

change is everywhere.

change is good.

change is bad.

hmm.. things have change from many angles in the past few mths...

maybe i am retard or wat but i kinda still living in the past...

i know things are happening.. maybe its jus me... or is it not...

lately... i feel the ans is smurged...

wats the point really...

i dont know...

tell me..

so wat if i don wan it to change...

i guess its time to move...

thou its hard but life gotta go on...

so oh well...

i'll take it as it comes...

thank you for the past.

i appreciated it =)

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its been days...

days past... things happened...

how long more? tats not was i ask...

but, is this how it shd be? this is was i wanna know.

the habit comes and go...

i saw it came.. i saw it go... and here it comes again...

is this how it shd be?

if its so.. i have to know...

lurking in the dark...

blind, cold, clueless...

wheres the light...

that shining star?

i think i know...

tats for me to know..

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jus some random tots again.. haha... shopped alittle today..

im saving the splurging till im with my frens... later buy wrong things again... then nv wear.. haha... yup... tim is hungry... very hungry... but no appetite... sad... hmm... chocolates... lollipops...

.tim

telepathy or intuition?

do you believe in telepathy or intuition?

have u ever slept and woke up just before your phone rang?

like u know tat person's gonna call you.

have u ever fall sick when someone is sick?

have u ever experience the pain when someone is hurt?

its quite unexplainable thou... its like the 2 person became one... they are linked...

nothing much was said but they know wat each other is feeling...

even if they are far apart.. their telepathy nv fails...

its jus like this "miles apart but always near"

its kind of a good feeling thou.. it keeps you warm on cold nights..

reassure u when u're scared.. its nice... =)

but how many ppl have already experience it? i dono but its good to have.. haha..

jus a random tot in my dreams.. =)

.tim

*i found mine... im glad i did.. imy*

Exams are over.

yup.. exams are over..

lets recap.

E&IR

tim was overconfident and finish the 2 hr paper in abt half the time.. left cuz he wanna go to the toilet... then ya.. later found out he got careless mistakes... oh did he mention.. he drop his temp sticker only to find out after the exam tat it was on his notes... stupidly, he had to run down to get the sticker again b4 he could enter the exams.

WHP

the paper was ok ok ba... nth much.. maybe a B

ok.. so tats so much for the exams.. so wat have this boy been up to lately? seriously! nth much... friday went for sarah and jingsi's bday party at ECP... haha.. =) went off at 6am. and sat nite.. omg... he got virus infection in the stomach again... yes.. again.. so he was puking and shitting all night long... its really gastric pain until like theres no tml.. worse then giving birth.. and ya.. saw the doctor.. but puke again.. glad to know, hes feeling quite ok already.. =)

so wats up next..

tuesday, tats tml.. nth in the day... Dr Goh's concert at esplanade in the evening... hmm.. and carol is asking me to go drink on sunday... LOL...

tim wans to work... hes under-employed... like hes really bored sitting at home doing nth... yup... tats all for now i guess.. till we meet again... see u bloggie...

.tim

*mind control.. im trying my best =)*

.iobelttilippah

tim shall blog abt today.

woke up, wash up, study.. cook mushroom cheese pasta! study.. slp.. study, slp... go out... eat... study... eat.. come home... online.. apologise... ans exam enquires... phone.... shower... online... fb... study.. blog...

okie.. lame... haha... hmm.. went to popseye for supper/dinner? i dono.. haha.. ok lo.. the food is ok lo... like ok... nth special... =x hmm.. ATTITUDE problem employees... but i don blame them.. seems like they are not motivated.. maybe low hourly rate of pay? no benefits? haha.. wat! im a HR student wat... =D yup... tml is EnIR.. hopefuly i can do well to make up for HBO... and ya.. JY for WHP... i am motivated now.. =D

thank you. im really very happi.. and motivated... enjoyed. happi. =)

well.. shall not beomce mr. chatterbox... off to be mr nerd... =)

.tim

*ty.*

First Paper

HBO was shitty... lost 20m straight.. cuz i skip childhood... oh well.. moving on..

wed is EnIR.. hopefully its better... =) was pretty upset cuz i told mummy i this paper sure flunk then she say no luh.. my son so smart sure can get good grades.. wa.. i stress... =x..

slp most of the day, wasnt feeling too well.. haha.. headache ar.. but noe okok le..

im happi today thou.. very happi... =)

this is a nice song.. =)

.tim

*thank you for being my light =)*

Human Behavior

yup.. having a paper on it tml... 9am..

im like not half done but ya.. gonna take it easy..

i don like the module but i think its nice too.. i dono.. haha..

i learn why some ppl act tat way... which makes me even scarier..

oh well.. lets jy ba..

.tim

* =) jiayou kaes. *

[insert title here]

totally moodless and feelingless.

i don't know what to feel, how to feel, when to feel.

i don't know what to do.

i don't know why.

tell me.

.tim

*[fill in the blanks]*

こんばわ～

いと。。。。こちらは、わたしの心の愛。（：

あなたは、おげんきですか？

so wat did this crap do today... went out to celebrate weixin's birthday but sadly, gotta leave earli.. exams + mummy = omg. HAPPY 18th birthday u thai slut... haha.. may u be as slutishly bitchy forever. =) oops... haha.. ya, all the best to u! may ur wishes come true!

so sad! i miss out on all the fun.. anyway.. i learn how to swim abit.. after being throw into the pool, with my left contacts running into the back of my eye. haha! i was thinking.. if it was other ppl, what would i have done to them. firstly, stare, then depending on the mood at the moment, punch, kick, slap, pinch.. i dono.. haha.. but ok, it was quite fun... =]

yup.. headed home with the sian mood... and fell aslp in the bus and got woken up... hmm.. oh ya... did i mention... i don like strangles talking to me? haha.. someone irritated the hell out of me today... like! hello... alone time for awhile please... wrong timing luh... caught me in my exam and leave me alone mood... poor thing... haha.. ignores...

so ya... enough crapping.. im hungry again... hmm.. maggie? maybe... haha.. oh ya.. forgot to mention, i saw cherry at tampines... (in case she reads and accuse me of not featuring her) okie.. bye peeps.

.tim

*motivation*

おはよございます～

おげんきですか？

=) yup... rather earli today... haha.. i think i lost my feelings while slping last nite.. i don feel anything.. like a stone... living under the rock... hmm... feel so sian... don feel like doing anything thou... miss using my jap.. maybe i shd blog in jap.. this way.. no one uds... haha... ok... talking nonsense again...

hmm... thou i slept for like 6 hrs.. but it feels as thou i nv... i think i was having a dream? i cant rmb... but there were flashbacks... like im going to die... then suddenly got a life review.. lol... then i start to think... eh.. did i do all those? wow... is it worth it anot... haha... sometimes, its not.. sometimes it is... oh well... only i will know myself...

hmm... 3 papers... just get it done and over with ba.. 1 week... after tat, holiday! hk shopping~ ok... sth to look forward to... =) ok tim.. stop crapping... no one's reading... haha... bye.

.tim

*behind those feelings*

EXAMS!

ok.. reality check timmie... exams are like... next week? OMG!

so how much have i study.. like.. 2 %? omg!~ die ar...

haha... who ask tim.. slack slack slack... not motivated... skip lect, skip tut... funfair ar... see luh.. now have to work so hard... waste time here and there... slap! now wake up and study liao... don flunk! don make ur 2 1/2 years effort go to waste... not worth risking... its jus another challenge that tim will overcome... im tim eh... nth is impossible.. for IMPOSSIBLE = It Means POSSIBLE... =)

today went out for abit... watch abit of fireworks... but whole day.. just have the floating feeling... haha... so tim floated... then dizzy... then blank out... haha.. why! scary leh... please hor.. wan boom also after exams please... 2 more weeks... ok... can one can one... jy! *im scared, i don wan it to happen.. but it just does... i don wan to say.. i don wan ppl to worry...*

hmm.. so now.. shall stop fb and other stuff ba... focus abit... 1 week plus onli.. can one.. after tat can go enjoy all i wan le.. yea... physco myself... haha... yup... look forward to holidays! finally some rest... =)

.tim

*b~ lets jy tgt.. i dono how i can help u but i will support u in watever way i can.. our love is my motivation.*

tots

i have rashes on the back of my neck...

its irritating... ahh! hate it... =( im like scar... sad leh... ugly as i already am.. im even uglier now...

hmm.. went for ichiban udon feast at amk hub today... cuz i felt like eating it... then went for UP 3D today.. hoping i will feel better but no diff... then had bbtea at usual then MOF jap ice cream.. dono wats the name but its nice.. i like it.. =) shall go again soon... haha..

hmm... i have been thinking... how shd i react to some situation.. and im trying to do it... hope things will get better... but how long do i have to do this... holding back is not me... but... i'll do it... for the better of it.. i will... =) i can do this... i will control.. =D

.tim

*endless tots, but jus 3 words for you...*

tiring day...

went out to meet my fren and had ayam penyet at lucky plaza! nice...

tml shall start studying le... jy tim.

test results came out today... its the same old list of old probs... plus a few new ones? haha...

and a whole nex box of 'sweets' hate them but gotta finish them... hmm... =)

.tim

*im scared b... i wan to be well.. we still got lots of plans... hmm.. nathaniel & adeline... lols... so fast decide already ar... haha... hope things will continue to be good*

ups and downs

sunday was a tiring day... ran a few places... haha...

i went home, in a stonning state. then nua on the bed and stare into blank space.

haha... i shall name myself... eh u stoner... stop stonning.... stone stone stone. u rock ar...

haha... i think the human body is wonderful. it has all these fail save mechanism.... it work wonders.

ok... random.... *sneeze* stupid sinus...

.tim

*timmie is strong... he can do it.... i am strong. =)*

sometimes i hate myself for thinking so much.. why am i able to predict wat ppl are thinking? why did i show that side of me..

all i wanted was things to get better.. wat should do now.. i'm sorry.. really really sorry... i don want to loss it.. i regret.. wat was i thinking.. Haix..

wat should i do now...

reflection

=) many things happened this week... so i relflected...

hmm... heres a quote from my good fren.

"don promise sth that u cannot do. cuz if u break it, the person will be even sadder."

i think its damn true lo... like wat we learn in CRM, nv overpromise the customer. however, go the extra mile and ur customer will feel treasured. i guess i am too nerdy.. im applying everything i learn into life... even when i play games... i will calculate rate of return on investment b4 i decide wat to invest on... oh tim... slaps...

hmm... many things happened maybe cuz i think too much? or i rely too much on others... i have tot thru wat happen... and came to a conclusion of how i wan to resolve it... haha... things will get better ba.. i need to bare with it..=) jy timmie..

.tim

*i wan spend time with u*

Bad Day

today is like PMS day lo..

haha.. everyone is stepping on my toes today...

and i hate waiting... haha..

stupid traffic police department... so slow...

if its restaurant city.. i think they died already...

stupid... until now i still don have my pdl.. how to start learning... uhhhh

i wan to drive soon.. shall be a good boy and hope santa give me a car... =)

tim is thinking too much lately... he needs to do sth... but he dono wat...

sian... wat shd i do tml...?

.tim

*imy*

this feeling feels like 27july09,

outside van gogh musuem at Amsterdam, Netherlands.

don feel like talking... just wanna be alone.

.tim

*when teardrops turn dry*

deep tots

what have the boy been doin today?

thinking and more thinking... have been mood swinging since last nite.

i think alot alot alot... many many tots..

today's a rotten mood day for me...

decided to meet up with some of my frens.. hoping to distract myself...

but i think even more... maybe cuz the subject wasnt there for me...

this was wat i concluded.

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when you are down, whos there for u?

when u need someone the most, whos there for u?

who is the person who really understand u.

who is the person who u can trust.

whos can be your eyes, your ears, your support?

who can you rely on?

many other qns pop out... these are just some...

for 19 years of my life... friends come and go... i lived thru it...

once a while, my little guardian angel appears and walk me thru my darkest times.

and today, when my sunshine and rainbow when on holiday..

the person who i want to be with wasnt there...

i dono how to react now... im back to the old self... its again, me myself and i.

i like to think think think. i like to bottle it up.

sometimes, i just don feel like talking... maybe cuz its beyond words.

and sometimes, its nice to have someone who really uds u to be there for u.

know how to cheer u up.. but today... i saw myself thru. me myself and i.

oh well... emo tots again... tats y i decided to add a rainbow to my blog... hopefully, it cheers me up.

.tim

*where were you?*

Relationships

Relationships,
to me, it revolves around 4 key attributes.
1) Paitence
2) Understanding
3) Trust
4) Maintainance

no matter wat happens in a relationship, one has to be paitent and understanding.. and put oneself in the other's shoes and u'll see why they acted that way. sometimes, in a moment of folly, we may sprout insensitive remarks.. humans are humans, we make mistakes... sometimes selfishness overtakes humanity.. ur frens may become selfish-er.. and all u do is to hate them.. have u tot of why this happen? does the friendship between you over the years mean nth? things happen for a reason, choose not to blame but to solve and support.

Trust is very important. no matter wat are the rumours flying around.. no matter wat u think he or she is doin. u should always trust ur fren. isnt that the way things shd be? why should be believe others and spoilt ur wonderful frenship? lols.. things tat i don uds... rumours are rumours.. see for urself to believe... even if its true, there must be a reason tat it happened.. lols...

so wat if u have a wonderful fren.. if u don maintain it... it will be gone soon... haha... relationship is jus like a balancing scale... its a joint effort to balance it.. gif and take... do unto others wat u wan others to do unto u.. but don expect a return for u will be sad if u do get it.. but if u don expect it and u got it.. it comes as a suprise.. isnt it better? lols...

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many a times we see our frens having probs.. but theres onli so much we can do... haha... oh well.. i kinda dono wat im blogging le..

-tim-

*imyhrtwj...*