270410 - i see the true colour

as the cloud grew bigger. you come to realise that “这世上是没有不散的筵席，我的时辰已经， 该是时候接受实施了” you realise the fact but you just don't want to accept it, pretending like nothing happen. well, some stuff i have accepted... it's ok.. fated to be so. it will be so. every relationship has an expiry date, some may last until your death. some only last for awhile.. no matter what it is.. i have enjoyed and i am just gonna rmb it as a happy memory.. 有效期~当你的服务被取代了，你就变得无效了。该是时候被遗弃了。当让，我们应该往好的方面去想。 不是没断交情都喊着不平凡的意图。可是事实就是那么的残酷。

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my passion. my heart. my soul.

Music has inevitably became a part of my life. no many how harsh the comments are. how challenging it is.. i learnt to persevere. i grew up with music. my life is music. i realise it's just so hard to just abandon it.. i cant. its like my life.. without it. things are so different.. recently i had my graduation day in band. thank you my band.. i realise i really love my band alot. i cant bear to part.. every inch of the room. every cupboard.. every shelf.. i know whats there.. its like my second home.. the piano.. my flute... my chair.. my stand.. my kids.. my frens.. i love it all.. the nice ppl.. and the extremely shitty people.. haha.. thank you for making this expired old man's last day such a wonderful one.. my friend said.. "5 yrs i know you, i've nv seen u shed a tear" and indeed. i was on the verge of bursting.. to think.. im willing to do anything for band.. i've abandon some of my closest friends. my family. my partners. just because of band. some say i am mad.. but that's where my calling is.. my life.. hope to see NYPSO continue to grow and excel. i've brought back 4 certificates as a band member and as a leader.. and i am proud of it.. i am very proud of it. i love my band. soon, it will be my last goodbye.... i'll miss you.

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the orh ok attitude

i've grew tired. some matters are just really. i give up. i can only go.. orh okay.. doesnt really matter already..

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.tim *chocolates and cakes and icecreams*

Let Music Heal This Soul

200410 - its a double 1111

last day of work. work was horrible i suppose? its either BORED AND ROT till u cannot take it. or busy till your back gives way... and of cuz you get difficult customers. lets not elaborate. in short. i am damn pissed today evening...

went off to meet my fren for cake and shoot zombie time.. i had fun! venting all the air inside.. woo.. if not i sure explode.. maybe its tat time of the month! haha.. i had cramps (tummyache) for the past 2 days.. and PMS... haha.. siao..

i got to see 2 times.. 1111... once was the balance on my ezlink card! like WOW! and another after i step out of the shower.. double 1111.. do you wonder if its true? you know? i wan to know the mystery behind 1111.. i really want.. till then.. its a good nite.. i am hungry and i am having a bad bad headache...clubcrawl tml! gotta go help.. =( and band.. and theres cough.. how to breathe!

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i came to realise many things... i wanna give up on the matter.. cuz im tired... u are the one who've got new frens and all.. not me.. im letting it go not cuz its not worth saving.. its because you seem very happy now and it shall remain so.. take care. it was nice having you as a close fren.

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.tim *you know anot? how much is inside?*

180410 - restless.

work was boring... i am so tired. i couldnt sleep last nite! again.. 4 am.. and i gotta wake up at 6.. =( no internet. no nth.. how to survive the next 2 days! omg... oh well.. tml is a freaking long day. theres work. and band. =( jy timmi...

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thanks for the reminder..

why do you have to ask me abt it? its been so long... i have already forgotten abt it.. ask ask ask.. thanks for.. for making me think so much.. i am not going to bring anyone back for now.

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.tim *i wan chocolate! baby, i want to go home*

recharge!

seriously very very tired today... i couldnt even concentrate in band.. i keep playing the wrong things.. oops.. =x however so. i could get to bed.. not cuz i don wan to.. but i just couldnt fall aslp.. ha ha ha. sth is really not right.. oh no.. slpless and appetiteless.. whats next!

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a little magic. a little miracle.

how would this world be if there were a little magic? would it be used for the better of people or would it be for selfish reasons. nonetheless. you could be that magic. you could use ur magic for the better of others. or the better of urself.

its yours to choose... use them wisely... and when your fairy dust is all used up... others will use their magic to help you.. isnt it wonderful? this world of magic.. the world of love and peace.. if u had the magic.. how would u use it?

.tim *my magic never fails & nth is impossible. so is your's*

140410 - weaken.

feeling quite weak today. like no energy to move.. first time i cant finish my food.. actually, i haven been finishing my food lately.. like half? or 1/3 of it? sth is not right... hmm.. anyway.. timmi! save money ok.. the watch is a want.. not a need.. u have other watches!

i chance upon some random pictures and i started remembering things.. i would really love to not recall them for the moment because today's troubles are more then enough to handle.. don't intend to recall them tml as well because im sure theres more to handle tml. oh.. talking nonsense again.

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timmi's theory of a support column

many a times i said that every successful man has a supportive partner behind. Because no one can be successful without neglecting another aspect of life. the supportive partner comes into the picture to take care of these neglected aspect.. such as daily chores or even the simplest of things such as food. because the opportunity cost of handling such things urself would mean less time for the bigger stuff.. and of cuz this partner is willing to do anything for him or her just because theres unconditional love.

unconditional love takes patience, trust, tolerance and understanding. each of them can be represented by a column. without it, the structure(LOVE) will crumble.. and so will the the successful man fall.. but yet again. its easier said then done. where do you find this, supportive partner with this unconditional love you speak of?

the ans is . . .

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.tim *where's my column?*

130410 - tots.

i stepped back into being an active band member today. i like to help out ard. but reminder to self.. "timmi and his golden basin theory" anyway.. MY SECTION PAHSEHED ME! i was like the only flute player there! i leveled up. i was trying so hard to play the right sound! but nonetheless i was overpowered.. woo.. anyway.. i improved. so ya.. good job timmi.. i onli compare myself to myself.. =)

University

many of the rest already have a confirmed place! WHERE's MINE! omg. so sad lo.. like.. i wan go study my accountancy! i wan i wan i wan! tsk.. anyway... wait wait wait. wait. emo liao. bye.

.tim *emo!*

080410 - reflections

a day of reflections. ytd was a mess. i've tot alot.. am i doing the right thing to step in. or shd i let them sort it out.. my time has expired.. is a comeback right? or does it spells disasters.. alot is at stake.. i risked it last nite and i feel the pinch.. yet again.. blame no one. big picture.

today's god msg. is this a sign? maybe i should not interfere.. its not like they cant solve it.. so wats next? more tots.. really a process.. woo. ans.. i need them like now. hmm.

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*the following comment is a general statement, not directed at any living souls.*

heres another thing i don uds. is this call over protective or wat. but dont i have the freedom to decide wat i wanna do. 20 years. its was so, is so and will be so. i don see a reason why YOU shd feel that way.. Never ASSUME. Never JEALOUS. this is the reason why GOOD INTENTIONS are over-rated. we are afterall friends. i treat every friend the same. i treat my close friends another way. cuz i know they will uds me better and know how i feel. this is why they are my close frens.. im very sure everyone treat their frens differently.. don't think so much.. just enjoy it while we can. life is awesome, only if u make it awesome.

*Disclaimer*

this is a general tot of what i been thru. it serves as a general statement which is not directed at anyone. if u feel offended and feel that this is directed to you, please approach me because i think there's an underlying problem which i may have overlooked. thank you for the understanding as a person and as a friend.

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就让歌词代替语言吧。

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.tim *幸福是那么的脆弱*

060410 - reality strikes yet again.

went gai gai with clement... omg! i spent like so much... tsk.. i shd like leave the money at home.. then i wont spend.. lols.. anyway... yea.. nth much liao.. we walk from orchard to haji lane.. ate at aston.. thats all... anyway.. is this shirt nice?

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wake up timmi.. wake up..

.tim *wat is this tingling feeling?*

040410 - happy birthday small one.

today is didi's birthday.. happy birthday small one.. hope u like the present.. 13 yrs old liao hor.. must know how to think.. don always irritating ur brother... haha.. leave him alone.. and ya.. guai guai. study hard.

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today marks the end of my 2 days work at 50+ expo.. 2 days of hard work.. i lost my voice ytd.. but KESHA got me liang cha and sweets.. woo! u're the best! THANK YOU!!! =) yea.. and yup.. really no time to eat.. of cuz i had some fun here and there.. but its still.. a train of tots rolling off my head.. choo choo....

alright.. i dono wat else to say.. so ya.. byebye..

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you never knew. you never know. you never.

.tim *sohard.sodifficult.socomplicated.*

i give up.

.tim *lup dup. lup dup. tiiiiiiii*

a series of misfortunes

tuesday - i came across a pervert

wednesday - i fell sick

thursday - i tripped and fell on the ROAD!

friday - i accidentally bite my lips and its so swollen at one corner...

i dono wats wrong with me... one after another.. hmm.. maybe i dropped my lucky star somewhere.. oh STAR!! come back to timmi.. =) come come..

tml working! omg! how to talk with a swollen lip, sore throat, blocked nose and ears? and worse of all.. i look so zombie... i am disfigured!! omg... my lips.. =( not handsome le.. later no one want.. oh well.. timmi jia you! tml! wat shd i eat.. hmm..

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i shd stop watching movies that make me think alot and emoemo.. but! i think i am very selective.. im onli sensitive to certain genre of movies.. not ur everyday cartoon or romance.. when i say selective.. i mean SELECTIVE.. haha... oh timmi...

*when i watch them. i relate and see us inside.. hais.. imy*

.tim *doyouknowhowmuchyoumeantome?

yes i dono how to..

worked another 12 hrs and im dead... thats how strong i am.. -,- maybe things happen and it just add on thats why im sick.. just a flu thou.. a few pills shd do the trick.. tml driving.. timmi jiayou.. must wake up in time.. must drive carefully and drive well....

lots of interesting humans ard tpy.. and i mean interesting.. can spend 40 min of ur time talking.. and 20 mins of ur lunch time talking abt singapore history... . . . . . . ok. i need rest... i cannot take it le.. anyway.. i jumped up from my slp with a nitemare.. again. =( go away!!!!!

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the whole day has been abt "yes i dono how to coax ppl.. and i am trying to learn.. wat shd i do so as to do a good job coaxing ppl?" i really dono.. seldom happen cuz i seldom offend ppl? i really dono.. i really dont.. nvm.. i shall go read up on it.. somehow someway sometime. i will uds and master it..

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.tim *i am really =(*