in less then 18 hrs... it will be concert... in abt 23 and 1/2 hrs.. it will be 19 jan... haha... wat if wat i dream of came true? haha...

so wat did i dream of... carn really rmb... but i remember so vividly.. i saw 1111 inside... so is it goin to be 1111 on 18 jan? or 1111 on 19 jan? or wat? i have mixed tots man... haha.. anyway.. tml concert.. JJYJY.. don nervous okie... =) u can do it... smile!

today i rested at home.. im almost fully recovered already... good good... =) haha... being happi is the best way to recover..... nua-ed until so song.. i slp alot also.. anyway.. tml gotta wake up so earli... =( hai... but nvm... jyjy.. its onli 5 am in the morning.. =) u can wake up de... lols.. im so blogging nonsense... maybe this is the last post... haha...

alright.. shall blog again.. somehow...

-TiM-

*was it really like tat? hmm.. wat if i really disappear tml.. im so scared... i dare not tell u.. cuz i know u don like it.. hai... im still hoping u know.. lols.. thou i told u the opp ans.. oh well.. jyjy ba... u happi is the most impt 33*

so tired so tired...

currently waiting for my hair to dry... then i can go slpslp... yeay! im kinda sick... and i skipped lecture today.. how sad... but sick ma.. wat to do.. haha... self denial... anyway... today had my HR presentation... i tink it was kinda lame.. but not tat bad la... shd pass.. hee... and sad case.. my HRM ICA 1 like nv do so well... so sad! but i pass la.. no A =(...

after class, met up with lala to pass her tickets... sorry eh.. cannot pei u wait for kai kai.. dono how u rotted jus now.. haha... my sisters and lif dated me for lunch.. =x and ya... we went KFC... tsk... sick still eat KFC... blame on my lif lif... he wan eat.. haha.. but it was quite shiok la.. =x but then ~~Memories~~ haha... emoed for like 2 mins.. then back to the self denial self... haha.. so optimistic rite... =)

went back to sch and virtually rotted my time away.. i tried to slp but so uncomfy.. it was kinda noisy too.. lol.. but i bet i looked damn unglam jus now... im imaging myself slping in those position.. ~ had pract.. it was cold... then hot.. then cold... Zzz siao siao eh...

anway... thanks for all the nice nice get well soon care and concern showered onto me... =) haha.. thanks ^^

im goin to prepare for bed already... and ya! my nose and lip is red and burning.. so pain! sister say look like luve luve bite.. -.- its pain! ~~

-TiM and his nonsense... yeay! no more proj for now.. *rejoices* -

*today hong ghee pass me some medicine lo... how i wished it was you.. i think eve if u say one get well soon.. don need medicine also next day okie.. haha.. mad.. self deception.. self denial.. i know its impossible.. but im still one siding.. cannot stand myself... tsk... love is such a complicated thingy - - - luv dumdum - - - *

AHHH.. im sick again...

my left arm is so pain... =( dono wat happened.. i cannot straighten it... how am i goin to bring my laptop tml? =/ currently having sore throat and abit of cough... =( y ar.. concert coming then sick... -.-

today.. is a very very very sian day.. things like super go against me... but wat can i do... jus accept it... im so sad... my jap role play... i kinda forgot some of my lines.. sigh... sorry to my grp mates... didnt meant for tat to happen... sorry... thou u don blame me but i blame myself... -.-

everything seems to be jus a wasted effort.. first and foremost... marketing... still haven gotten over tat proj.. then results... the input so much.. output like shit... -.- try so hard stil like tat... can die ar! today i woke up earli.. skip lecture jus to pract my jap... but in the end.. too nervous... or i shd say distracted... i forgot... even when i do things for other ppl... seem to be jus a wasted effort...

anyway... today my mood not good.. so when to find my fren after setting up the stage at the audi... ya.. my hand hurts but i still helped out.. don scold me... i jus wanna do it... zi zhao de rite.. now the hand cannot even straighten.. Zzz.. pei him pract his french role play.. got bored and started folding things... and i folded like this super small crane.. its smaller then a 10 cent coin.. lol

oh well.. tats all for now i guess... im very very very tired...

-TiM-

*the pain tat no one sees... why does this have to happen to me.. why me.. carn u jus even say like a nice sentence jus to cheer me up.. -.- *

oh how sad!!!! i got a C for my bfin proj.. ARGH! hate it... =( y ar.. Y Y Y!

anwyay.. i got a B for my Law Proj.. ok.. not tat bad.. btu i wanted an A...

and i got A for my marketing individual proj ... which is GOOD=)

tml is japica.. i haven even memorise the script.. DIE... really die liao... tml is goin to be a long and busy day for me... jyjy...

*i damn miss u can... AHHH... can i jus text u "eh.. dumdum, i love you"... life is so hard to pass lately... *

actually i don wanna blog one... but here goes

i don like ppl to watch me and qn me... i feel like a criminal.. invaded... anyway... if u have probs, i listen.. i have nv once felt u were annoying... so u don have to say sorry for disturbing me... and another thing is tat sometimes u say things that don make sense... like i always say.. is it worth it.. why would u wanna care so much... ppl try so hard to cheer u up... and there u go... no one cares... it gets tiring at times.. and i have given up...

i have to care abt the welfare of others.. aside from mine... i try so hard.. but, everything seems to be my fault in the end.. i don uds why... if u are my fren.. should u be trying to help me instead of adding on? i really don uds... have i been used? like always.. USED... hai... when will this ever end... im gona be tat self reliant self sufficient guy again... 1 boi, 1 life, 1 self....

anyway... i have been reminded of the embedded word since 2005... am in a super bad mood now... im not goin to say much.. tak care all.. byebye

*so near yet so far... life have since became monotonous*

lets talk abt wat happen this 2 days.

wednesday.. i became a superman... ICT presentation at 9am, then i requested to go first cuz i gtg.. haha.. and yea.. i finish at 920? but my group like do abit wrong eh.. hope everything will be fine... hope won get lousy marks... thanks group for all ur hard work.. and helping with the editing.. sorry i gtg earli...

okie.. so 920 ended... i like walked super fast to the mrt.. my legs almost broke... took a train to cityhall... rushed to esplanade... reach at 1005... superman... my leg cramped halfway while walking to esplanade... =( stupid legs.. lousy... production meeting was okie... but so paiseh.. i was late... =( had lunch with the ppl who went... Dr Goh, Alvin, star, aidil, hong ghee, allan. initially wanted to go back sch find halif, but he nv reply my sms... so i changed plans.. i wanted to go home to slp.. cuz i was slpy.. but sister carol jio me go DMJ (Da Ma Jiang).. lol.. okie.. i agreed.. but when i reach home.. i feel like slping seh!

ok, so i was late.. i fell aslp ma.. =x meet jj, carol, ryl, whit, and reen reen.. went jj hse for dmj session.. haha.. i accidentally wont abit more chips then carol.. then u can see ryl complaining in the tag board... but it was fun.. and i was quite lucky? always the last card of the game... then i hu... haha.. they wang me... =x after tat.. went to sch for pract with reen reen.... didnt had dinner.. after pract went s11 at amk with ZZ and jolene... reach home late...

Thursday...
i woke up earli to do the schedule for open house... then went to sch.. at interchange ilah smsed say shes sick... aiyo! nv tc.. tsk.. get well soon okie.. halif also sick le.. how can... my brother sick.. tsk... nv tc.. tsk... take care ar.. smile more okie... haha.. happi little kiddos.. anyway, tiff smsed and ask if wanna postpone... after much tot.. we decided to cancel.. so i took a bus home.. at the stop i alight i saw my mum.. caught up with her and pei her to hg mall.. ate... then i made a new pair of glasses.. its like SO EX =( im broke again... but im happi.. spending is my happi drug... xD

went home.. i went clean frenzy again.. i went to pack my clothes.. i realise tat i have alot alot of clothes tat i have not wore... and they are yellow already... so off they go... bye bye... some are still clean.. so i put them aside.. i don like them anymore.. lol... see who don mind, pass them.. so wasted lo, if i throw.. so ex.. =( i shd not buy so much clothes... again.. while packing.. i found alot of other things.. i found many boxes... many bottles... filled with star, turtles, hearts, double hearts, letters, cards, presents, pics, cranes.. which icarn resist but to read them all again.. -.- yes.. i read them all.. there were nice memories.. but i emoed again.. the pics, letters, memories =(

oh well.. tml got HR proj meeting.. then open hse.. hope everything will be fine.. =)

-TiM-

* i miss you i miss you i miss you so so so much... dum dum... looking at them, i tot of the past... but then u are my present.. and i wanna be with you more... its rather impossible anyway.. shd slap myself awake.. stop dreaming.. how many days which seems like eons have i not seen u =/*

+Have i used up all my luck?+

i really wonder wat when wrong.. lets go down the list... i have been pretty tied up with everything... im so busy busy... =( really busy.... did i use it all up already? or have i mistakenly gave it away... onli i know...

last friday was marketing submission.. i tried my best to make it as perfect... i did not slp alot... like 2 hrs for thursday? why is it tat i still left out some points.. nvm... friday i went to print... i skip lect jus to print... 1) i printed 2) i binded 3) i forgot to print some appendices 4) i reprint at IT block.. 5) i left my 2 thumbdrive there cuz they are attached tgt.. 6) i forgot abt it... 7) i realise more errors 8) i carn find my thunb drive... 9) i stayed back to print and edit 10) i press sth wrong and my data jus printed and printed... i spent $7 plus on waste paper.. -.- 11) i didnt eat... 12) i feel like dying... 13) i dono y im so distracted maybe im really missing u badly

nvm... wat a day rite.. weekends, tired my best to make the proj possible.. my group members helped... but but but.. i still didnt slp alot... trying to make things good and reasonable... lack slp de me.. arrange to reherse with shareen at 1130 cuz she got MMLee performance at 12... nvm.. no time to eat... then later print print print... things went wrong.. nvm... meet the rest at 1, some where late.. reherse.. not enough time... nvm... went to class... and shitty irritates me.. nvm... then hungry me.. trying to make everyone feel less nervous, entertains them.. presentation, everyone overtimed.. my group was the last... 1) sch comp don have my font type.. it was screwed... 2) we tried to present faster... 3) some lect came in and chase us halfway while we were presenting.. 4) my lect interrupted us and skip many parts... 5) cut cut cut.. so much... im so sad... all the hard work my group has put in like gone down the drain.. wat seem to be a almost perfect marketing plan with the most asthetically prestige designs wasnt presented... wth... all the sleepless nites.. all the effort... washed down... thanks...

i have 2 icas tml... starting at 8 am... finance and efma... i feel so tired.. but concert is nearing.. i feel the need to attend.. i went... now im back... im so tired... hungry cuz i nv ate a proper meal the whole day.. onli a pack of my favorite panda panda.. sitting here, thinking... wat else do i have to do...

1) sinfonia booklet (band)
2) sinfonia production meeting (band)
3) open hse... excuse letter blah blah (band)
4) finance ica (sch)
5) efma ica (sch)
6) ict Proj (sch)
7) HR proj (sch)
8) jap test next week which i haven got the script (sch)
9) finish packing the hse
10) alot alot other things... personal stuff.. other stuff.. =(

im so tired of everything.. y must i entertain them.. i was so sian 1/2 i left almost immediately after pract today... didnt wan to see anyone... i tried to act normal.. maybe they were jus normal... jus i was too sensitive...

and to you.. i have so much things to tell u... but i dono how to say... i feel like jus slping and not wake up...

and ppl ppl are not helping by keep changing things.. like the data for the booklet.. its damn confusing.. so wat is it that u wan.. maybe i shd jus QUIT! and leave.. i have said this again and again.. i wanna leave.. but im still here... its ok.. jus abit more.. bare with it... i can do it.. i won die b4 sinfonia... let jus hope things go well.. if ppl attitude me.. so be it.. i don wan to care anymore... its time i have more time for myself... i need some slp.. some rest.. a vacation.. a break....

bye, i don feel like typing anymore...

*dumdum, where are u... how was ur test... i wanted to msg u but i don think u wanna read it.. oh well.. everything is not going tat well.. wat happened... i feel like talking to you.. but i dono wat to say.. i see you, thou u nv talk to me.. but im also contented... hai.... i really dono wat i writing le.. i give up... im so confused now... wat are u to me... are u tat impt to me?*

2009 is here~
happi new year all... haha... hope u guys have a joyous and merry new year...

hmm, new yr resolution? i dono leh.. haven really tot abt it...
1) be more hardworkin?
2) be a nicer person?
3) save more money?
4) spend more with with my family and frens?
5) better time managment...
6) be happi little boi... but be matured when needed
7) love u even more?
8) learn and care more abt u?

anyway... marketing proj is coming to an end.. like FINALLY! it this goes on any longer.. i think i will die soon... =( so nonsense... so much to do.. argh.. lets not ask y... anyway... ict is almsot done too.. yeay! we are efficient.. =) presentation for google reader was a breeze? i haven got to say anything and he went like.. okie.. next group.. then i huh?! i haven talk leh.. he say no no, its done already.. then we all, o.o oh ok lo.. haha.. next week 3 ica.. efma, bfin and ICT presentation... =( gotta prepare for JAP test too... and HR proj.. AR!! busy.. and SINFONIA.. and the many other things... =( i need more time...

halif and carol still doin marketing nw lo.. poor them.. tml i will see zombies.. jyjy ar! faster finish... lets not ask y are they so busy now... u know i know we know can already... jus like i say "tell me y am i doin all these again?" hopeless....

my back is super aching... now its the right shoulder blade... =( i dono wat happen! i need to find time to do alot of things leh... seee a doc, get my specs made... alot alot other things.. =( so busy!

anyway.. lets jyjy! haha... hor shareen and halif... JY!

-TiM-

"i'll be back so soon u won't have time to miss me. look after my heart,i've left it with u" will u be so sweet to say tat sentence to me? i miss you like 24/7... and you don even know.. lol... i shd stop all these... i think i think...