monty's bored~

monty monty is bored... nth to do... maple abit sian le... >.<
now oso donno wat to do.... bored..... mokona slp le... no one talk to monty....

lol... i got so many nicknames... TiM, TimMi, monty, caicai, Ti-mo~, etc etc... lol...
wats my next nick gonna be?... heee.... anyway... i'll think abt goin back for band... nv go feel very weird... cannot slp...

anyway... monty feels normal... nth much to be happi or sad abt... ^^
and yeah!!! i finish my medication le... no need eat pills for now... shall be glad abt it...

0 lvl results coming out le... feel normal... not excited or scared... jus normal.. most likely wont do well de la.. expected le... too engrosed in doin other things during my sch days... not focused...
so all the juniors listen up... rmb to study hard... don be like mi... nv study... more focused on relationships and ya.. BAND... but band was my life... cannot blame... lol... =x

kae la... i go return testimonial for ah daz le... later she scold mi.... =x
okie ppl... Take care....

-TiM signing off~~ montymonty *bounce*

Hmm~ TiM is always TiM

as i said.. im always the way i am... many asked mi y i nv go for the SYF rehersal... i really wanted to... i really wanna go back to band every pract.. go back help help teach abit gif support... but the impression of the teachers are most dissapointing.... not tat i wanna say but... tats the reason y i didnt wanna go back for band....

as many already know... im kinda attached to MSSMB.. during my sch days... my form teacher keep nagging at mi for spending too much time there... my parents wanted mi to resign since i was like sec 2? but i held on... nv quit... nv leave... the sense of belonging is too strong.. but now.. even thou i have the urge to go back.. i wouldnt... i don like to go places uninvited or unwelcoming... well.. tats the impression of the teachers...

My juniors wants us to go back... but teachers don... what can we do.. some still go back.. well.. for mi.. i seldom go back... theres a reason for everything... its not tat i wanna abandon the band or anything... i love to go back.. but some ppl don like to see mi... so i carn pop by too often...

well.. if the teachers do read this... i jus wanna let u guys know tat im not aimming at anyone... its a general impression... i need no apology or anything of tat sort... but u guys have let mi down time and again.. u kinds treat us as free labour... come back when u need us.. when u don need us... u jus chase us away...
of cuz... not all teachers are like tat... some do welcome us... i understand that u guys gotta get work done.. but chasing us ard isnt the rite way... we were once ur students and we did do our part didnt we... so don push us ard... thx you...

oh well.. tat all abt band... i'll try to pop by more often... really miss u guys...
but theres nth much i can do...

well.. life jus such a bore.. nth much to do... laming ard... slack... trying to stay happi and help ard... nth much to rejoice abt.. anyway... CNY coming le.. wish everione a happi lunar new yr bah... wish u guys good luck... xue ye jing bu... wan shi ru yi.. smile...

-TiM signing off~ *monty monty monty*

sian...

moodless... lol... very sian la.. donno wat to do.... play maple oso sian... donno y... but everything is sian to mi... kaes.. tml aaron they all goin for rehersal...
wish them luck...

tats all for now....

-tim signing off... (Zzz)

sian sian sian.... abit absent-minded...

donno y abit blur these days... take very long to reply ppl... maybe thinking abt too many things bah... oh well... ytd celebrated my sis' 21st bday.. lol.. happi bday to her... had bbq and the cake was... beyond discription... too nice le la.. =x... abit jealous...

anw... jus died twice in maple.. its so bloody diff to train la.. and i died twice.. lame... diao... sian !!!

donno la... abit luan diao liao... haven slp again... later sure dio meh by some ppl de... =x=x.. not i don want slp.. my bed got raided.. like my zombie map.. oh well...

hope got someone to train with mi.. like last time like tat.... so fun la... can par tor and play at the same time... =x... hmm... not par tor all the time la... cuz some are jus frens... hee... now train along very sian de.. okie la... tats all for now....

-tim signin off..

Zzz moodless... PEACE people... peace...

this few days very sian.... bu shi kan yi sheng jiu shi zai jia li... haiz.... oso donno wat to blog bah....

okie.. abt my tagboard thingy... u guys are free to read and all.. u wanna comments, can... by all means... but sometimes... watever u wrote may backfire on yourselves...
i went to look out the work blog in the oxford dictionary... did it on longman's too... went to dictionary.com too... i used many sources.. so my conclusion is tat.. blog = online diary... diary = my life... so watever i wanna talk abt... is my prob... i don mind comments... but pls make them sensible... donno meaning can always check dictionary... im 16.. goin 17 soon.... i think i know wat im doin... u are not my parents... don tell mi wat to do... even my parents respect my comments and tots... im a person who enjoys freedom... im not one u can order ard and cage mi up... hope u uds... im not shooting at anyone... i don wanna open fire... y waste my time... im better off talking on the phone etcetc... u think i so free?

now.. as for using my tagboard as a warzone... i have no comments... even if i have.. i don wanna say it out... oh ya... before u wanna debate with mi... pls have the most reliable sources and the best arguement before u look mi up... check my history... i onli lost my debates with my very close ones.. cuz i don wan them to be sad... i can say tat im nice to everyone... cuz im neutral.. but when u form a negative impression in mi.. i'll rmb it... so becareful... oh ya... pls read more eng books and all... cuz sometimes its really hard to comprehen wat some of u wanna say.... not aiming at anyone hor... if u think im aimming at u... tats onli watu think... don jump to conclusion... rmb... the wall has ears and eyes... i know more then wat u think i know...

well... if u don like it here... u can leave.... i nv point a gun at u saying;"if u don come and read abt mi... i'll kill u... " uds? not too profound rite... my eng not very good de.... its average nia... uds bo? i use singlish liao hor.. buai hu heen, mai lai... bo nang jio le... =x im so bad... and again.. this is jus a general statement... not aimming at anyone....

hmm... life's like tat... always got some ppl who wanna bad mount u and all... y someppl remain quiet? u think they're gullible and u continue... wellwell.. u are very wrong.. they are the most dangerous.... they look harmless.. but is more dangerous then u think.... u think u are in the grp.. well... sometimes ur frens jus let u join for fun... they don treat u as a fren.. rmb.. u look for activities to go... ur frens choose which to go... uds? not aimming at anyone again....

kaes.... before another comment on my essay type entry... tats all for now... its a good practise for GP papers anw.... =x

-Tim signing off.... *pissed*

bday.... good / bad...

today leh. i oso donno good or not la... not really in the right state of mind.... but many turned up... was very glad they did... well.. went kbox... after tat went to esplanade for food... im super tired la... i reach home.. no need lie down oos can slp.... Zzz... still feeling weird.... as usual... as i predicted.... the things came true... /=

here are the pics...

wow... ah mah got 2 girls to pei... one daph one lala


my left view? with daph trying to take my pic


My right view!!!! we have Han the great and rain


hmm.. donnow at this is.. romantic view?


a funni ray pic?


another ray funni pic thing


Bday girl cutting her cake


Aaron's back view? abstract..


my favorite of the day.. us ur imagination.... wat do u see? sail? lol.. i see more

-why-

This few days... thou got happi times but alot of unfortunate events happened too...
there are somethings in life tat we carn explain... examples are why things happened... why do u learn to treasue the things ard more onli when they're gone? i always tell myself to be happi... cuz i want the ppl ard mi to be happi... don wanna affect them... but its jus so tiring to fake out a smile everyday.... sometimes u jus need a break.... how i wish i could be in a coma now.... lying in hospital.... care free... how i wish this was jus a night mare... how i wish i could wake up from it.... sigh sigh sigh.... later today, im gonna celebrate my fren's birthday... i'll be happi... jus cuz i don wanna spoil 13 ppls' mood.... well... hope tat things go well for this fren of mine cuz this outing was specially planned for u... u said u nv celebrated ur bday b4... so this yr.. i will go no matter wat... i treat u as a fren... hope u treat mi as one too...

relationships are impt in life... some ppl don like them... some ppl love them... as for mi... i think its the way one handles relationships tat create tat impression in one's mind... they must be set out clear... don leave it in a mess... i regretted living many of my relationships in a mess... i've been running away.. hoping tat time will settle everything for mi... but in the end... everyone suffers... be it ur frens... family.. loved ones... etc... i need a break... a break from all these... i need to set my mind clear... i need to draft out my rules and regulations.. i don wanna hurt anyone anymore... or be hurt... its not nice to have tat feeling in u... so don do it to others too... i really apologise to those i hurt so deeply... i want to do sth abt it... but i donno how... pls teach mi... tat remoseful feeling nv wears off... onces its there.. its like a scar... even when u are truely happi.. it wont last cuz once u see the scar.. u recall the bad memories....

the wise once said: "one must be forward looking.. treat past failures as a lesson... don look back, don regret... live life to the fullest" tats how im brought up... i love details... everything must be perfect.. but wat is perfect... well.. theres nth perfect in this world....

to those who read this far... grats to u.. for u know mi better... read on if u want... if u think this is lame... well.. i have to agree.. cuz my mind is in a daze right now... i donno wat to do... my eyes... they look watery... but im not crying.. my mind is as blank as a sheet of paper... i feel cold... i feel lost...

many ppl always ask others "why is it my fault?" well.. it depends on how u take the situation.... i used to do tat... but now i ask... have i done wrong? if i did... wat did i do wrong... well.. this is so random... totally no link....

do u think being a hamburger paddy is fun? well.. i don think so... i don like to be in the middle... i don like to get involved in others' business... i really dont... i don wish to lose any of my frens... its really difficult u see... "A" tells mi this... "B" tells mi tat... i carn side any party... i wanna be neutral... but i carn... sigh... well... i hope tat ppl will be less of a busy-body and jus mind their own business.... don ask others to pass message... u put them in a very difficult spot... if theres a prob... settle it urself... and im not aiming at anyone... do not misunderstand...

i get mad easily cuz im jus too sensitive.... i always tell myself to be opened... accept all ideas and critics... no matter wat they say... i will listen... but sometimes... i'll get mad... and i don like to show it out... do i look gullible? free frake... no i don.... i will fight if theres a need... im not a all talk and no actions... when i say sth... i mean it... if someone challenges mi.. i'll settle it... it has happened before... i fought with many ppl... i ended with bruises... and i don gif up unless im dead... im like a bull when im mad... almost impossible to stop.. for im in a sub conscience mind... if i fought and stop... im still in a clear state of mind... Right Dan? right mel? right mich... i fought with u guys many times when we were younger... and its my dad tat whack the sense back into tat rock hard skull of mine... i really regretted fighting... its not nice.. i don mean it.. if i did fight... remember to knock the sense back into mi...

i always try to be nice to others... some ppl complain... some ppl take mi for granted... but i always try to remain neutral unless i really dislike u... i wouldn't open fire at anyone for no reason... u attack mi... i'll attack u... tats my principle... if u wanna cold war... i'll cold war... if its official... i'll put our differences aside and get the job done... im quite petty actually... i say i don rmb things... i got STML... well.. sometimes i jus don wann bring it up...

Sunday, 21st Jan 07... how will it be? how will things turn out... i sort of predicted somethings already... as usual... jus like wat happened the day b4 m9... i predicted... will it happen again... i hope not... i don want things to go wrong... i don.... i need a break, realy really need one... im tired.. veryvery tired.... im afraid to slp... im afraid i'll remain aslp... im scared... im lost... what shd i do? wheres my angel? wheres the person i can rely on? where are u? now... im here... alone... cold... lost.... no one to support... no one to comfort...

im sry to those who read this and got affected... i truely am... but i need to pen this down... b4 i self mutilate again... alls bad... im sry...

-Tim signing off..

so far so good ^^

so far leh... i managed to stay happi.... but hor... GG liao la... my HP bill bao like donno wat... i sms like 1348 la... call for like 2182 mins la.. GG liao.. dio meh like donno wat.... but nvm la... mummi say she help mi pay... hee... donno y but my parents suddenly very nice to mi wor... weird... my dad still say wanna upgrade the hse internet... 0.o weird....

maybe hes doin well bah... so he good mood lo... hope he remains like tat... hee..

hmm sunday goin celebrate my fren's bday... hope everything goes well... tml i'll post some pics.... =) kaes... tats all for now...

-tim signing off...

wa.. sicksick... =x

now head spinning... whole day like tat... went out at 3+ am... i came home at 10am.. Zzz..

feel super heavy... cannot move.. slp very long... cuz of the medicine bah... so many sia... ytd go jab le still need eat.. Zzz..

hmm... today nth special la.. jus tat i got a new cash shop set.... lol.. now my char very cute... =) lol..

so now leh.. im on msn lo... and i'll be happi... =) hhahaa

-tim signing off....

im ok le... =)

hellos everyone... timmi is feeling pleasent today... thou its a tiring day and timmi was sad sad... but at 1 am.. abt tat time bah.. someone made timmi happi again... ^^

okie.. timmi is ok le... ytd de thing i forgot le la... ^^ everything ok le...
timmi is fine now... thx everyone for ur concern esp u...

timmi this few days not feeling well... so nv blog tat much.. sry ar... how i get well b4 sunday... if not go out will spread germs... =x..

ok la.. tats all for today... smiles

-TimMi signing off....

from =) to =(

today leh... sleep alot again.. don feel like waking up again... not tat i wanna be emo but it jus happens...

evening, i woke up.. overslept.. nv go church.. haiz... nvm.. evening.. teach my fren maths.. not bad la.. still managed to ans.. heard alot of ppl complaining abt their work load... anyway... got moodswing la.. after teaching become very happi..

then go maple awhile... then moodswing again... not very bad mood... someone made mi very very bad mood... and i mean it...
now leh.. emo lo... don wanna talk abt it le... shall let it pass...

some ppl very weird de... don like... the more they scold mi... attitude mi.. the more i don like... haiz.. lets jus drop the subject...

hope tml will be a better day...

-tim signing off...

wa liao... GG liao la...

today went to try working... ZZZ tell u ar... can die man... my legs all swollen!!! go there dio meh by the stupid head... Zzzz... siao nang ar... scold scold scold.... but then got some ppl very nice la... =)
i think hor... i wont go back le la... is tired until can die... labour intensive... sian diao liao... now aching everywhere.... Zzz....

ok.. tats all for now...

tim signing off..

its a bright sunday morning...

nth much today... smiles..

-TiM signing off

0.o meaning-less life...

everyday don feel like waking up de... ytd dio meh until very cham... cuz i went out the whole nite... ytd i hack carea la.. still go out.. reach home at 430... morning dio meh again lo... lol.. wat can i do... jus listen to him...

someone asked mi y i always sad sad de... hmm.. maybe there isnt a someone who is ard to make mi happi? lol.. who knows... well.. maybe excpet mi and tat person bah...
life suxs as usual... but have to make it rox if i wanna live on.. so oh well.. bluffing myself again....

anyway.. heres a pic of a hungry girl who mistook my hand for food!!!


-tim signing off... =)

boredom!!!

im so bored.... don feel like waking up... slp slp slp... lol... really nth to do lo.... rather go to sch... =x

now on the phone.... talk crap... hen sian... Zzz..

now leh... those go sch de concentrate on studies... mi leh... concentrate on healing my wounds... =P

oh well... mi will try o be happi... =)

okie.. tats all for now...

TiM signing off...

busy day... movie + shopping

well.. today had to wake up earli toget tickets for them.... my frens and i went to Plaza Singapura to watch "DeathNote 2" ^^... not bad la.. jus tat the sub titles got block by the guy sitting infront of mi.. =(

well.. i made a mistake... SORRY GUYS!!! showed my frens the wrong seats... =x=x... really SORRY... >.< forgive mi pls...

lol.. reach there at 10+ bought tickets then went toy catching... then phone catching.. almost dio lo... miss the last box.. =/ sad... spent 20+ bucks there... Zzz.. caught nth!!! but.. nvm la.. everyone happi... i oso happi..

went Nee Ann City after tat... ah mah shop shop... we oso shop shop.. bought a new pair flip flops... hee.. ah mah sponsor mi abit with his voucher... THX!!!! hee... ah mah bought a very cute tigger... and bought daph a pillow thingy for her bday..

well.. now feeling emo again... but i'll be happi... ^^ must be happi... no matter wat... ok la... wo jiu blog dao zher li.... take care everyone... all the best for ur sch tml... which i'll be slping... =x heehee...

TiM signing Off AGAIN!!! =)

New Yr Resolutions...

well.. since its a new yr... i shd change for the better...

La TiM's New Yr Resolutions...
1) Be Happy always...
2) make ppl happi
3) Treats Others Better!!!
4) be less critical...
5) don think too much
6) stop the Emo Kid thingy
7) Stop Suaning ppl... (tats Hard)
8) Be More matured and sensitive towards others' feelings...
9) Study hard...
10)well.. tats for mi to know and u to find out... *secret*

okie.. these are some of my resolutions... how bout u... feel free to tag it on la tim's tag board... So Long my frens...

TiM Signing Off... again.... ^^

happi new yr... new yr new beginning

Happi New Yr everyone... hope tat everything will go well for u guys this 2007.. wishing for peace and prosperity... happiness and transquility....

its a new yr and i shd start afresh.. mi shall put aside all the unfortunate events tat happened last 2006 for its all history.... and i'll be happi... wahhaha...

hope tat u guys will also start afresh... everything will go well for u guys...