the last note.

choosing to sleep all day long is unusual.. or is it? thinking? avoiding? running away? or just facing the music.. up to u to decide.. music it is.. the last note was played.. and the end has come. hate it, love it? up to u to decide.. the time will come.. one day..

signs.. it wasn't untold of.. no excuse.. no reasons.. unprepared? prepared? so shag.. it doesn't really matter.. selfish.. selfless.. so tired.. enough is said.. nothing was said.. ambiguous.. crystal clear.. who really understands? it doesn't really matter..

*a fermata too long*

140810 - sit back.

yet another week has gone by.. this week was quite shitty as usual.. lets see.. i had my ippt and i was FAULTED for 1 chin up.. if not i would have passed.. but i ain't gonna fight about cuz i know myself.. a pass is not good enough.. so tim shall continue to work harder.. yup.. =)

and there was some field lesson.. and i feel my knees and elbows a goner.. but wait.. there 6 more days of these.. haha.. did i talk about the wonderful green and black watermellow on my face.. its giving me a break out! omg.. save me.. oh well.. next week marks the start of a six day "whatever u want to call it" its gonna be fun or a torture? it depends on how u see it.. so just Sit Back and take it as it comes..

about everything else.. i guess i shan't pursue on things which i can't commit or watsoever u call it.. and other things... i did my part.. if u want to be stubborn.. so be it.. and something else.. forgoing one self's happy for another's, is it dum or is it "blah".. seeing other ppl happy makes u happy also.. so yup.. stop saying im dum.. thou i know im gonna get bashed up somehow or rather.. it does really matter.. i couldn't care more.. and wait.. i think i signed on a piece of paper which says i might want to continue my career in the army.. what was i thinking.. apparently.. many things... so thats about it for now..

.tim

Picture of you, Picture of me,

That's when moments turn into memories...

080810 - yet another mth has past...

yes.. yet another month has past and now i'm in my bmt stage... abt 2 more mths to go.. always want to blog but just don have the time to... anyway... a few main things... i just spoilt my laptop! haha.. the L key came off.. and also.. im so tired of all the shit... i am shutting myself off... and i think i am stupid or sth... why am i helping? and later clear all the shit and attitude thats thrown onto me.. haha.. dum rite.. i could have just ignore them all.. its so hard to be frens nowadays.. its a good thing im going into the jungle for 2 weekends.. good bye world.. maybe i will miss u.. maybe i might decide to stay there forever..

oh anyway... last week was all abt my rifle and shooting... i got marksman.. but nth big.. so many other ppl got it too.. and im still aching from it.. haha.. and the best thing is.. I LOST MY WALLET!! WOO!! it goes to show how much im hating this life.. haha..

abt friends.. true frens understands u.. frens dont.. how much time do u actually have to stare at the phone.. u can never confirm.. cuz its not like u have a choice.. ppl say when boys go to army.. they change alot.. now i understand why.. its not really their fault.. its also not the frens' fault for thinking they changed, its just a different world totally.. i have this army fren who would talk all nite long and still wake up to train.. i wonder how he does it... anyway.. it doesnt really matter.. i've tried.. but it takes 2 hands to clap.. it takes 2 people to maintain a frenship.. its sad to say.. i have lost faith in this world.. this cold sick selfish world..

yea.. toot toot toot.. yes im swearing.. but i shall control =) bye!

***SO BE IT***

.tim