280210 - FULL MOON..

General Stuff

EXAMS ARE OVER! like.. yay! papers were ok lo.. passable.. is whether how well i do only.. surprise! rmb IB ICA 2? the paper i study until so drama? my notes all smerged.. haha.. i got 52/70! the lecturer said its considered very good.. woo.. happy eh.. but no reward also.. haha.. last day of exams.. went out to Manhattan Fish Market at Marina Square to celebrate! went with carol, shareen, halif, shiteng, clement & v. shopped a little and off to esplanade.

Friday. kite

supposed to go sentosa but last min cancelled cuz halif was sick. but ilah was out already so cheryl and i went to find her.. we went marina barrage.. fly kite.. then walk walk... it was DAMN FUN! =) lets go again!!!!

Saturday. BBQ+Chalet

went out in the day.. i had icecream! haha.. cab to chalet cuz i was late late late.. haha.. my BBQ skills were put to good use.. i know how to set fire! i know how to BBQ! lol.. right Sylvia? overall.. the chalet was fun.. floating ard.. haha.. i am awake already ok! haha.. don feel like blogging liao.. byebye..

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To live is to die and to laugh is to cry.

To live is to love with all your heart.

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.tim

EXAMs.

Exams are here.. and i haven studied for any.. lols.. heres to motivate myself.. timmi! jiayou! last sem last sem! last exams.. u can do it... easy easy one.. all common sense plus crapping =) after this u have alot of fun fun plans.. and u will get ur reward =) yes.. i can do it.. woo! good food awaits me.. cakes and chocolates... ice cream and panda...

alright.. i can say i am stressed up but i am controlling it.. its times like this when u go... oh.. i wish u were here to cheer me on.. but but but.. haha.. its alright.. i have me.. =) jy timmi.

4 more papers! compen tml! jy!

.tim *will that day ever come? i wish it does...*

180210 - tolerance Level up.

supposed to study but went for food therapy. shabu-shi with jojo,bryan,leon. ATE like a pig. eat and eat and eat. EAT! walked ard alittle and home. i didnt get to eat my SWEET ice-cream nor did i have my CAKE. went home. forced to eat again. and later EAT again. this whole day is EAT till i explode day. my mum wans to rear a pig. mum! i am not thin.. don need eat so much..

totally no motivation to study at all.. haha.. my day is always about managing my anger. tolerating people. oh... maybe i shd just DON CARE abt it. no point in wasting my efforts. i shall bring myself out for some ice cream tml. maybe have cake for tea. hmm.. sounds like a good idea.

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i have an irritating brother.

13 years ago. i complaint that i wan a little sibling. my karma is here. this little boy seeks joy in irritating the hell out of me. tsk. its ok. a few more mths. lets talk abt the IF. if only that house is still there. i would have moved out long ago. or in another context. THROW u out. no point looking back. its no longer there. nvm. one fine day, i will single handedly restore whats rightfully, mine. =) confident little chap rite? nah.. no fear. theres substance to that. not just some EMPTY promise which i always hear. haha... oh.. its now gonna be just abt me me and oh ya.. me. right? tim timmi and soonchye...

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fighting the emo monster with a star

.tim *私の感じを隠すこと*

170210 - 一波未平，一波又起

i had a nightmare last night.. maybe cause of the heat? its pretty warm lately.. i really wanna rmb the dream.. its similar.. very familar.. wat was it abt? why did i dreamt of it? woke up at 5 plus after a 2 hr "sleep" great..

a day of thoughts and reflections. 一波未平，一波又起。人生往往都是这样。就当生活慢慢地上轨道，坏事又把你给打倒。。。 有时，你就想这样放就算了吧。。。 何必非经力气呢？值得吗？i mean like, whats the point in trying anyway.. things just don't wanna work out.. so what should one do now? living a life of lies and deception.. how realistic is that? face the music.. its a sooner of later issue.. no matter what. thou it is not my obligations to do it. i will.. for the better of me and everyone else. u can go on and live ur life of ignorance.. like i always say.. you happy can already..

maybe its the weather. maybe its me. being over sensitive and easily irritable is my norm. sometimes u just wan to shut urself from the world. live my life of fantasy. with whoever I CHOOSE and I WANT to be with. my life. i decide.

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Here's Sth that i don uds.

life is simple. why do u always have to complicate it? a picture of 2 always end up as a picture of 3. its like NO LINK? ain things going ok? why do people just want to pick a fight and spoil the so called relationship and later regret. and why do people know what is the problem but only know how to complain about it? find solution! actually i am quite fed up. MAKE UP YOUR MIND. and MAKE SURE YOU LIVE BY IT. decide already then just follow la.. don promise promise then later break the promise.. promise = increased expectation = increased risk of disappointment. whats so difficult? this is not lip service. if you cannot do it. don promise.

its not a one time. 2 time thing. many times. many different scenarios. different character. same problem.. maybe its just me.. and my silly PRINCIPLES of life. so be it. *one day, this person will come by*

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.tim *being individualistic as a backup plan*

a moment of tranquility

160210 - soon to be "have had enough"

such a warm warm day today. don't really rmb wat i did today.. here's some highlights.. i shd go for first aid course - "it will come in handy sooner or later". i should continue to train my tolerance level. the small one at home is. SUCH AN IRRITATING IRRITANT! ok.. dono why but he seems to find joy in irritating his brother.. for a matter of fact.. everyone.. and i chose to ignore.. what else can i do.. i have 2 old ppl at home.. don wanna bust their blood vessels and boil their tops..

its ok.. i know, i will be successful in the future anyway.. its so bright.. "blink blink" soon, there will not be a need to tolerate his nonsense.. haha.. but by that time, i think he's already a grown man with sensible tots.. or maybe not. some seniors act like juniors anyway. oh Whatever. short temper today~ haha.. anyway.. i shall start studying tml. final lap.. even if not one wanna walk this last lap with me.. i will~ like before, its been so anyway~ =)

my impression is so. i see and judge for myself. and so be it. doesn't really matter.

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i'm on a journey

somewhere over the rainbow

where i know there will be

happily ever after...

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.tim *who will walk with me on this journey? ans lies within*

140210 150210 - CNY

新年快乐！万事如意！年年有余！身体健康！万事如意！吉祥如意！让顺财更大家拜个年！

ji jia lu yi! seng li tua tang! seng ti jian kang! gong xi gong xi! cai cai ga le bai ni lor~ dai geh jing ni soon soon lee lee! huat ah!

gong hei lei! zhu lei xin nian kuai le! zhu lei guo ge hou nian!

oh! i got limited language~ anyway.. happy new year everyone! here's wishing everyone a prosperous and great new year! huat big big ok! yup.. this 2 days have been busy entertaining ppl.. selling smile.. answering questions.. typical.. so are u working already? nope, im gonna finish my poly next week, after my exam.. oh, u study poly(glass in dialect) ah? i study plastic leh~ diao... so lame lo.. omg... but funny la.. now i know why am i so lame.. cuz they are lamer...

alot of questions lo.. haha.. got gf anot? blah blah blah... and the typical.. don go pierce ur ear ok.. no tattoo.. no this no that.. lols.. save me! anyway.. i think im getting more and more ego.. many went "blink blink" wa, so handsome now ah.. (ju lai ju yan dao lor~) haha.. at first it was nice.. then later like alot ppl say then like.. immune.. so last year i was a taiwan model.. this year im a korean band boy.. so wat am i next year? (botak chao tar pao)

the year was ok.. not alot of red packets this year.. small small only.. awww.... but i realise alot of things.. i must continue to uphold the image and expectations of the elders.. i must not stain the family name.. and stick to my baba nonya roots and traditions.. wat ever i do i need to consider the elders... haha.. but will i? =) some yes, some no. it depends.. as in, i wont become a hooligan or social disturbance.. still maintaining the high maintainance boy image..

and ok! im determined to save up. i really have alot of clothes. i shall start wearing them. stop buying more. alright.. thats enough nonsense.. hope u had some fun decoding the dialect~

.tim *oh, just take it with a smile =) *

130210 - Shopping Spree. Clean the house.

Friday.

Last day of sch.. went out with my classmates.. we shop and shop and watched a movie.. haha.. i realise.. i like to buy on impulse.. and i found my new shopping partner.. right clement? and i shall change my style so halif cant guess...spent alot.. i shd cut down.. the day was pretty good =) i had fun.

Saturday.

i woke up earli to clean my area.. yup.. its not 100% clean but its clean ok.. cleaned the whole hse.. and my irritating bro onli know how to sit there and watch.. then walk ard when u are mopping.. haha.. deserve a slap rite? and he just splash water on the floor.. next 2 days cannot sweep or mop oh.. stupid boy.. and worse of all... i can onli tolerate... cny cannot flare up.. oh well!!!!!

did i mention.. my gold chain almost broke while vaccuming the floor? technically it came loose but it hang on my neck till half the hse was sucked clean.. when i saw it.. oh oh.. i am fat. i ate alot.. and i look fat.. =x

anyway.. happy chinese new year. happy holidays. happy valentine's day.. haha.. thou im single but ya.. wish all the couples long long smooth smooth stable relationship. =D yup.. take care.. have fun =) and timmi shall keep the rest of his tots somewhere else.. nitenite! long day tml!

.tim *happy valentine's day*

120210 - 1 question too many

not a good day. trying to smile.. which i did.. last compen tut.. abit sad... did a small tribute thing for fun cuz i felt like doing it.. did personality test.. i understand alot of things.. now i know why.. rushed home to change.. and went out..

lets say i tried too hard to smile? haha.. shopping was ok. i saw alot of things i like but i didnt buy. not in the mood. someone asked me a question which spark off too much of a tot. i am goin off now. good nite. bye.

its been 3 days.. i have 1 more day.. lets spam panadol..

.tim *and the balloon popped. in the end... 1 more day for fever to subside. pls go away*

i just saw this on american idol... its a nice song..

.tim *突然好想*

100210 - .tim's life as a high maintainance boy

tiring tiring day.. sch was short.. 1 hr then i went for lunch and shop alittle.. and i fell sick.. -.- headache.. i shd rest soon... anyway.. back to main topic...

a few years back, my aunts say i very guai blah blah.. then my dad said.. u don see he like tat.. he's very high maintainance.. which i think is quite true.. looking at my last mth's card bill.. omg... i shd really cut down on buying nonsense.. =) the amt im spending is quite alot.. haha.. if lets say, i go to work with my diploma as an entry in the HR department.. i cant even support half my spending.. lets say i go accounting.. still cannot! i was looking at where i spent my stuff.. then i realise.. haha.. food food food.. clothes clothes.. and buying other tings... i shd stop! TIME TO SAVE UP! no more spending! time to save for a car..

oh ya.. i dono wat i ate wrong or wat i did wrong.. the boy has fallen.. a few days b4 cny.. omg! i must recover b4 cny! no seafood! no fired food.. no nuts... no soft drinks for now.. no more lok lok dip =x awww...

.tim *i got weird nitemares and its scary*

090210 - Dwaeji tokki....

lets see... i overslept my 9am tut.. =( i am a pig. haha! anyway.. hungry hungry... meet them for abit of food. thanks ilah! haha.. tml my turn ok! lecture.. ib rehearsal.. IB! omg.. i like bullet train can.. speed thru.. really speed... will i get a speeding ticket and 12 demerit points? =x i was tired.. i fell aslp on the table soon after...

bought some food cuz i was DAMN hungry... very very hungry.. went home.. fell aslp.. tvtvtv.. food.. more tv and phone and now.. blogging nonsense... omg... on a side side side note.. I WANT EAT POPEYE FRIED CHICKEN! badly.. haha.. uhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i wan i wan...

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how shd i put it...

at times... even the independent gets dependent... haha.. then theres this 冲动。

oh oh! anyway... its frozen! so ya.. nvm~

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.tim *theres a longgggggggggggggggging*

090210 - Burppppp~

the day started pretty well.. no lessons but IB meeting at 10. woke up rather earli today.. as if i know i have to take care of some stuff.. yup.. gotta help someone at 11.. tot it would last till 12 so i could go for lunch but nope.. ended at almost 2.. i am HUNGRY! waited for ms tan to come back cuz i need to make sure the report zoe entrusted me is safe in ms tan's hands.. and of cuz, my peer evaluation form. =] yup. met my fren for some food and walked ard.. and food and home.

as the day come to an end. it's really quiet.. small one sick. no one at home.. blah blah.. abit emo ah.. maybe cuz i was really tired.. and someone lost her stuff and like become my fault ah.. cannot ask for help nicely meh.. i really have sch till 5 wat. which office hours is like over? how to call.. and its not just school. its my final presentation! oh well. focused on preparing my cue cards for tml. i am all set for the last ppt.. =) make it a blast! 9 am sch tml.. omg. i shd slp.. i am really tired today.. really... and sorry for burping so much.. couldnt help..

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my day ended with this song in my head... the person who made this quite emo ah.. haha..

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someone gave me joy when i was stressed. thank you.

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.tim *thou it only lasted for awhile, you still made my day =)*

.tim's life as a bandsmen in NYPSO

Year 1

Night class every tues.. cant attend tues pract so i decided to stop for 1 sem. joint back during year 1 sem 2. named as the Golden hair monkey by audrey chan! and the ah beng who can play flute.. LOL... the year past by.. i cant remember much that happened..

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Year 2

band was starting to pick up.. voted as Vice-President cuz of sinfonia.. oops. next time don so helpful.. starting to blend into band well.. alot alot of friends.. happy happy year.. first event as VP was investiture.. i still rmb.. rushing to school after attachment with a someone who always get me cookies and make sure that im well taken care of. thanks hasniza, fahmi, yvonne for helping me with the event.. it was fun... vivid memories..

then was clubcrawl, freshmen orientation and sinfonique 08... then came along my senior good friends.. allan sarah marcus and many more.. it was the start of something new.. i was really blending into them alot.. they have became an inseparable part of my band life.. thank you for the fun and joy! i still rmb celebrating jason and ray's birthday at the band room at 12.. with my bleeding finger and someone who freaked out.. haha.. funny and memorable

Summa Cum Laude Youth Festival 2008 @ Vienna, july.. my first overseas band trip! ppl who i remember vividly.. marcus my elder brother! Charlene little sister. cheryl NG, my classmate and good fren! Jolene JIEJIE! ALVIN president.. and meifen and alot alot of ppl.. this trip was a very happy one.. its the really someone supporting u time of life.. u are busy with managing the ppl.. then ppl come along helping.. thanks jolene for shouldering my big big load.. sadly, many do not see the real pic.. wonderful memories with marcus korkor, charlene and cheryl! i really miss those time.. thanks bro for taking care of me when i was sick.. and see to my well being everyday.. i can onli say.. aisinilela.. =) and francesca! i rmb u too ok! don think i forgot abt u.. i rmb alot of things ok...

back to sg.. then came TEP attachment.. i still rmb skipping class to the movies with someone.. skipping lesson to study with someone.. hanging so much with someone that i became friends of the classmates.. haha.. till now we are still friends.. wow.. can say, its one of the happiest times of my poly life.. watch movie almost every week.. eat tgt.. do everything tgt... and then came rumors... lame lo.. curse u all rumor makers.. nth better to do is it? and came the downfall of the friendship.. sad... lost contact for some time...

sinfonia 2009

don rmb much.. mr tan's last concert.. quite emotional.. thank you alvin president for teaching me alot of things.. jolene for helping and teaching.. and the comm.. and alot alot of ppl... it was a good year..

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Year 3

elected as President. balancing sch life.. attachment and band.. its the time when u feel the full force of the stress.. first sem was ok.. i dono why.. but it was.. just that towards the end of sem 1.. things start to happen.. haha.. this time.. someone from the past came into my life.. a fren for 5 years.. supporting me in watever way she can.. thou the short short sweet time we spent. and the on off friendship we had.. and the silly things i did.. we still are friends.. she nv failed me.. always supporting me.. thank you.. amanda

WMC 2010

my 2nd trip with the band.. it was pretty different.. my seniors are not ard anymore.. its on me now.. happy times with my section.. funny silly arguments with ppl.. mr bao gao liao.. finally.. the stress was too great and i broke down.. its the time when u feel so alone.. u miss ppl.. and alot of problems occur.. u just wan to give up.. u wan to go home.. yup.. the first time i cried in 4 years? the last time i did was sec 3.. when my seniors grad.. haha.. cried in the city square of Amsterdam.. how no face.. spot by ppl.. haha.. "u eat already? wan eat ice cream?" haha! why make someone cry and later say that.. its funny but thanks.. i appreciated it.. yup.. im sorry for shouting at u too.. but, guess we were both TOO over.. cried and cried walked ard.. emo.. i really miss people.. oh well.. alot of thigns happen... H1N1? haha.. surprise sms.. surprise fb msg.. thank you... and stupid u ppl.. if u are not helping jsut shut up la.. don have to back stab me.. no balls ah u.. got balls say infront of me la.. asshole.. call urself an alumni and professional band player.. pui! and rumors again.. haha.. it really brought me down.. back to sg.. up to someone to cheer me up which tat someone did.. thank you..

sinfonique 09

postponed.. delayed.. many things happened.. i was DAMN EFFING stress.. thank you ppl for helping.. esp u.. ahda! thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. during this time... sth good tat was happening in my life got screwed up.. but came another support.. haha.. i still rmb.. going supper with my friends. =) nth much i can remember..

long lost friend.

then came my long lost friend... time heals i guess... started talking again.. it silly and we laughed over it.. silly rumors.. omg.. slap those ppl man.. haha.. you say i know u so well.. but do u know me? now, my long lost fren is lost again... where are u! i got alot alot to tell u! haha.. you got new fren again is it? forget me again.. tsk tsk.. how can..

life as a president was indeed very very stressful.. i gave up on many RS that i could have taken on.. i gave up on my friends.. sorry, i had band.. and they go.. u everyday also band.. no life ah.. and i can only smile... people come and go in life.. those who cant uds u leave u.. those who can, stay with u... who can and who cant.. i know..

i made new friends.. i wake out of my shell.. friends in band.. i will rmb down the long road in life.. thank you for making my life in band.. wonderful.. benny, jason, sar, joseph, hasniza, ray, fancesca, denise, xinhong, benji, jinyu, xinying, huijun, seeha, hafiz, yuqi, miki, jolene, eunice, geraldine, kaixin, vivien, wanie, esther, kheeyang, nelson, alex, eugene, alvin, edward, karlyn, meifen, louis, shumana, that tbone girl, rahayu, kesha, chun kiat, faizul, hweeling, tat tpet boy, eugene pang, kitying, rouzhen, caroline, nathelie, sarah, allan, yvonne, and many many others.. MR TAN, DR GOH, LAOSHI, TSAI LAO SHI...

THANK YOU!

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its quite emotional to think back.. i really miss the time i have in band.. of cuz, i think faster then i type.. so my tots are alot alot more then this.. i really miss alot of people.. haha... oh oh.. tim is so emo now... NEXT BATCH! rmb to make YR 3 farewell grad ceremony AKA installation a bang i tell u.. if not i take gun "bang" u then u know.. i wan my throphy and my cert! =) love my band.. hate my band.. its a love hate relationship.. i love them more thou.. i will miss u.. NYPSO.. now and forever be.. a part of my life.. to greater heights! CHEERS! next batch comm... need help or advise can still come to me... =) i wan the band to remain one of the top tertiary bands! next P! good luck and take good care of the band!

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.tim *emoemo, i wan hughug*

060210 - God is fair

toilet thinking.. god is fair.. yup! he is.. lets take me for an example..

im ok, quite good looking.

im ok, quite smart.

im ok, quite talented.

im ok, quite successful.

im ok, quite well presented.

im ok, quite well looked upon.

but but but...

wats bad abt me? cuz god is fair.. if u are good in sth, u are bad in others ah.. no one is perfect.. but u can work ur way to perfection. so wat is my weakness? complaisant, weird, moodswing, emotional? haha.. wats bad about me?

i was doing my uni application.. SMU NTU NUS.. i see my grades.. i see my achievements... wa! not bad ah.. thou im like onli 3.448 GPA and the cut off for smu is 3.5, ntu 3.7 but still... not bad ah.. my CCA max already and still counting... 34 pt... but but but.. all these achievements didnt come easy... the hard work.. the blood.. the sweat... the tears.. the sacrifices.. i will work harder.. i will be successful.. my life plans.. my future is bright =) haha.. those who didnt manage to see it.. too bad.. not many ppl have a second chance.. maybe thats why im always too good for anyone.. oh well.. LONER! haha.. okok.. i shd stop.. i shall be patient.. for now.. study la boy..

and darn. i have to go to sch to open some door in the evening tml. anyone wanna date me for dinner? haha... oh ya, reminder to self.. start studying for exams soon.

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flash back flash back

turn back turn back

stop stare stop stare

let go let go

look far look far

when moments turn into memories.. things i will rmb for life... haha.. still clinging i guess

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.tim *if i could turn back time. i would have held on tighter. haha*

tell me how?

skip what happened today. anyway.. gastric pains are kinda hard to deal with.. back to main topic ba... its really not that i force myself to don see you.. its not tat god made it that way.. i am trying very hard.. i am.. its not an overnite thing.. give it some time.. please?

everything seems to come down hard on me.. even the slightest.. if i don even bother.. i wont even ask.. i really dono wat else i can do already.. im really at my edge.. i am trying.. i am... if anyone know how to settle my weakness of being unable to spot things i shd.. please tell me.. oh tim.. oh tim.. maybe.. maybe... i am really tired.. i shall go.

.tim *i could put them into words.. i want to say.. .......................................................................*

030210 - Hilarious much day.

the usual morning routine.. and i will nv wear 3 layers to sch again.. and omg! some girl left her red droplet on the mrt seat! lols! icant stop laughing.. everyone was like.. go there. see then the eewww disgusted face then walk away.. haha! hilarious much! BPO ppt was ok.. first time i don need to ans QnA? but i feel weird.. haha.. cheryl and clement made me so nervous.. cuz we are the first group... and they werent here yet! but alls well..

CNY is around the corner... so i went for a new hair cut.. same style thou.. and recoloured my hair.. I NV CHANGE MY HAIR COLOUR OR STYLE OK! im still quite into my current hair style =) tired much.. i sat there for 3 hrs.. looking after jolie, joanne and erica's laptop.. haha.. happen to see me so they deposit there while they went shopping... tired much i went home after the hair thing.

hungry like mad i had to wait till 8 to eat. and my dad spike my drink and food.. there was wisky in them! omg.. i was so hungry i was like gulping the drink.... then i realise why my coke like leave a warm feeling in me? -.- my dad mixed drinks for me and my mum.. thanks ar.. nv tell me.. knowing i am alcohol intolerant.. i shall not continue on the rest of the nite.. i am plain, really being weird according to many ppl...

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hungry? is it a hunger for food or sth else? can be water u know.. or power.. or frens.. or love.. or even slp.. haha... decifer..

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.tim *My couch feels so empty without u. imy*

020210 - motivated~

the day was pretty much motivated.. lets see.. i drag myself up as usual.. left home damn earli jus to renew my PDL.. YAY! i can drive again.. haha.. went to sch.. i was so earli i had time to print my transcript.. then go photocopy it.. then go certify it.. then photocopy more.. then get some food... then go lecture? omg.. i was DAMN earli.. and guess wat.. i didnt fall aslp during BPO revision lecture! i think sitting near zoe is good... she got the aura that makes me stress.. like OMG.. her pen doesnt stop.. haha.. i shd right?

then came the 3 hr long break. lets see.. ate half a mac meal cuz 1) my double cheese had pickles which i took them out. 2) my fries has salt when i say large fries no salt. 3) my ice tea was rather.. ice water.. siew tai ah? or was it ice tea o? haha.. went to print some stuff again.. then i dono.. tour ard the school? ibrc, print shop. south. ELDC. IB was okok.. but i fell aslp in the end.. sorry ah.. haha.. oh ya! shareen's group! the qn i ask right.. i wanted to ans myself one.. =x oops.. no offence..

off to bring my fren out for icecream which when we arrive, it was close! wTh. dinner and home. and its been projs.. and mini proj till now.. oh.. im such a good script writter.. 1 hr gao tim! yes.. i am back! wooo hooo.. efficient and wonderful me. muacks.. love myself.. haha.. okok.. i shall stop promoting myself.. and sadly.. gastric buddy is back =( i ate ok! why u come find me? tsk.. go away! ok. time to slp.. gotta wake up earli to choose my presentation wear... nites.. timmi continue to smile!

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its hilarious

i was thinking abt the things i did.. and the things ppl are doing now.. omg. i laughed.. like.. why do we like to bicker and make things difficult for each other? like wat i did to shiteng.. lol.. i jus had to right.. cuz i was bored.. alright... no offence.. i'll be nicer to everyone from now on.. wat for make myself upset right? come timmi.. smile! its contagious.. go spread it.. =)

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On this day, God wants you to know...

... that as you surrender to divine providence in your life, you will feel lifted and carried and held. All is well, all is well, all is well.

all is well.. haha! i did a reading just now and i was happi.. really happi.. then fb gives me this.. all is well.. haha.. ok.. tat shall continue to motivate me for now.. =)

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.tim *smile with me. dance with me. sing with me. SMILE OK?! =)*

010210 - Start of something new

today is the first day of feb.. also the 1 yr for my hand phone and also the start of sth new... yup... did project till 8 plus in the morning! omg! took a short nap and woke up to do somemore project... and yup.. to sch to hand it in and do some band stuff... went out for a walk and some food with my friends...

the day past like a daze.. its like u are watching a movie? no tots or actual feelings.. just been living it like an empty shell.. haha.. like wat my fren say.. you are WEIRD! u are exceptionally weird today.. u keep talking but you don make sense.. haha... yup.. u know, an empty vessel makes the most noise.. and these projects are really kind of a killer... i shall not talk abt wat happen but ARGH! i wan to slap u u u u u u u and u... oh well.. live with it.. 3 more projects.. jy timmi.. remember to smile!

310110 - the end of the month and the start of sth new..

well.. the day been pretty much dull.. proj the whole day and really unmotivated... ate super alot.. i don know why.. anyway.. went out at nite... hmm.. can say.. really alot of things happen.. and i dono how to put it to words... an end? a new beginning? oh man.. i can see myself 3 years ago.. me and my ice cube... and its gonna be zombie for the next... i dono.. 3 yrs b4 it happen? or when the sun is warm enough.. tml maybe? anything can happen.. haha.. *but i am still holding on*

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Whats there to regret and blame when it was well spent? i see a lifetime more of happiness =) its my new perspective.. wat i regard as a life.. *yup.. thank you for giving me a life*

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.tim *this space will stay vacant for you for now*