so busy eh....

haha.. so many emails abt proj, gotta start doin them all le...
tim tim.. jyjy... still got concert... ahh!... so many things eh.. nv ending...

anyway.. i hurt myself accidentally... ahh... so much blood lo.. but not say very pain also.. haha... but now i very scared of the "piak" snap sound... >.<

oh welll... dono wat to blog le.. but not bad la.. this few days happi.. thou im falling sick.. but im still happi... haha..

*my honey red tea with jelly... i love u so much! im glad i have u by my side.. muacks.. *hugs* get well soon..*

Hello... =)
Im like sitting outside the band room now... haha.. came to sch to do work cuz tot i can concentrate... but like no use ar.. still quite distracted... haha... sot de eh..

anyway.. heres a nice video someone showed me... =)
oh well.. shall try to do work now... =)


*timmie loves his honey red tea with jelly... =)*

absolutely adorable pics.. lols..

here are some pics tat my frens drew for me over the few mths... ain they so cute? omg... ^^

alright.. so the hols are finally here.. but also no rest.. not much of a diff.. haha... cannot stand it... haha... proj.. band... frens... wow... chalet? dono will stay anot... haha... oh well.. tim tim.. accept it..

hmm... so much to do... projs.. concert... WMC... wow... hope everything goes well.. im so bored lo.... haha.. sian... always sian... i dono wat i blogging also... sitting at the back of the band room.... blogging.. haha... frens say.. "tim, u no life lo.. day day band..." haha... band geek.. =x

so bored.. i shall stop here.....

haha.. heres a pic i made... taken while in the plan to london on 13 july... haha... miss the time in vienna.. now its goin to be 1 mth and i will be goin to kekrade... hope it will be as enjoyable... =)

*i wish u would take me away... im so tired.... looking forward to my holidays.. thou u wont be there... haha.. its ok.. tim is always solo...*

haha... im aching all over now... finally got to slp abit more...
ytd i slept at like 4? doing my CRM? haha... oh well..

ytd was nt a very nice day... firstly... not enough slp... slept at like ard 6 and woke up at abt 9? haha... so went to sch for a stupid 2 hr tut which is so so so boring... haha.. then i quarel with my fren... over a small matter... but i think its either im oversensitive ytd or my fren was jus being insensitive.. that last msg sent was like OMG can.. i read le so angry lo... i threw my phone... then my other classmates were like o.oo.oo.o??? wat happened.. so ya.. i had no more appetite for lunch.. there goes the food..

after tat... the grumpy and moody me went to meet my cher... but he was not there.. onli come back like next tues? but hello? tuesday i lesson till 6 eh... he knock off i still having lessons lo.. how to get things done... not much time le.. very stress de eh.... so many ICA.. still must do those things... save me can...

after tat... the even more sian diao de me.. went to get my hair done... haha... was in such a rotten mood tat i say anyhow cut la... then i anyhow dye my hair.. so its like blackish green? haha... grats to me! i am a weirdo monster now...

after tat.. went out with my fren... blah blah.. shant talk much abt this thing.. but i was happi.. yea... yup.. then on the way home... so so angry... haha... oh well.... (i got too worked up i guess... i had another relapse.. and this time i got a jab... saturday still need go back lo... =( hais)

and ya.. home... do proj... feeling so argh.... blah blah... and many other things happen... haha...

this para is for a fren of mine...
i dono why u are like tat lo... tell u liao... i got my reasons... u haven see the full story then so insistent about that issue... then if u don wan to tell me wats wrong.. i will nv know rite... and the way u sms is like.. so hostile lo.. then now u wan to come find fault? whos to blame? wats ur agenda of that post and sms? resolution or find fault... this sms i will rmb forever one lo... "no.. if u treasure our frenship u sms me" like.. i xploded after tat... haha! tim ar tim.... hais...

so yea... tats abt it ba... anyway.. i got a nice nice nice nice nice chicken chop and western goodies platter for lunch.. yeay!!! love my mummy lots... wake up got good food liao... haha... (tim.. must stay happi okie... don get so worked up again.. rmb wat the doctor say..)

*lost for words, just feel like being alone...*

jus wan to nag here...

today napfa... got a new pair of shoes jus for it.. waste money... cuz my old one opened... sadly... hais.. waste time lo... so tired... lesson.. after tat go eat buy shoe go home change go sch napfa... after tat band... so damn tired la...

and reach home.. still need do tut... still need plan event.... still need do so much other things... like... damn damn damn stress la... i still haven do my crm... friday need to hand in le... hais... 3 ica next week... will see how i die lo... 4 days of band.... i still need to do entre... like... really no comments le lo...

*hais... i really dono how to cope now...*

wow.. its like 1220 already... so wat have i done the past few hrs..

lets see.. woke up at 7 plus? went to sch... study.. train napfa stations... and sadly... i think wed i will be wasting my time... can i like go another time? when im like more free? and i nv land properly during one of my attempts for standing board jump... my right knee HURTS! i can straighten my leg...

so ya, after sch went straight for band.. finish like 610 la... =( and band start at like 630? wow.. superman... haha... so much to do! ahh... u see ar... this week must hand in my WHP E tut which is liek 10% of CP and CRM ica1... next week got Human behaviour ICA 1? and HRD ica1? and AUDITION? omg... im so so stress lo... still need to think abt WMC and Sinfonique... ahhh!!!! save me... =( not forgetting the irritating on goin ENTRE! so many tight deadlines...

to my frens... sorry if i offend u or wat... haha... tim is always tim eh.. hope u all uds... quite a stressful life u know.. like sch... then band... then still need to coach my younger bro's studies... yup.... =)

today i was chit chatting with one of my classmates.. and i came to realise that im already in my yr 3.... final year le lo... this 2 yrs... i have been so busy... have i ever like enjoyed my poly life? (except maybe tat few mths when u spend it with me? i was really happi then)
so busy.. so stress... again and again lo... i tell myself.. it will get better.. but it jus gets worse.. haha.. more and more stressed... when will i get to enjoy..

haha... a moth landed on my head lo... jus now... is it a good sign? or a bad sign.. haha... im goin to be so busy.. i can tell... haha.. mon to thur band... plus sch... i hope things get better ba... now.. tonite.. i don need slp le.. alot of work to be done.. lets hope i don fall aslp while trying to do them... okie... dono wat to blog le... and don wan to blog le... byebye...

*mydumdum... im so stressed... really really... but i miss u.. alot alot more.. *

so stress!!!

so much to do!!

so sad!!

so STUPID!!

i cannot stand myself... why am i so stupid... can i stop doin those stupid things? argh.... =( if onli life was easier... its jus not getting anywhere... i am tired le... so tired lo.. many a times... i tired so hard.. but... still getting no where... one day i will jus gif up.. and disappear... byebye...

*=( why?*

hello everyone...

i dono wat to blog.. haha... hmm.. recently very very busy lo.. alot of proj and sch work... erm... ya... now even tut also need do powerpoint eh... very sad eh... like... got sch work.. already drowning le... then got band work also... and soon i need to go work... time to save mroe... i've got plans.. lols... tim ar tim.. haha...

i think hor.. for the past few years.. i become nicer.. then become nasty.. then nice then nasty.. lol.. ok.. i shall conclude.. i shall be nice.. haha.. ok tim.. be nice now... =) stop being nasty.... unless u really have too.. haha...

ok lo.. ppl say until i very bad.. so fierce... but.. don really have a choice ma... i like the middleman... need to meet expectation of so many parties... haha..
u know... so stress ar... haha.. and i always say.. band is not a hotel.. u don come and go as u want... haha... ppl just don uds.. haha.. wat must i do to get their understanding and cooperation... HAHA! tim.. stop dreaming okie.. even ur PEM also say u spending too much time not studying already... haha.. get a life la... haha.. i think i shouldnt be blogging abt this... but oh well.. don really care anymore... 1 tim doin 10 000 tim's work..

lols.. i think i really bad mood this week lo... all my proj like heated discussion... haha.. hope my frens forgive me ar... hor.. haha.. i know u all will uds de... haha.. tim! hang in there okie...

haha.. and i was msging my fren.. and i wrote this...
"i think love is hard to come by, and i think that one should not think so much but jus treasure the moments together..
love is a chemistry.. sometime it goes boom but it has more interesting outcome..
love is like a learning journey.. getting to know each other more and me each day... and thats where u find more things to talk abt.. haha..
love is paitence and tolerance... we learn to see the beauty of imperfection..
love is sweet yet bitter.. too much of anything and it sucks..
love is jus a sweet gift from each other.... learn to love and appreciate...
don think so much... jus let it flow.. be happi and enjoy..."
haha.. then i was thinking.. why i can tell ppl tat but i carn do it for myself...
i always end up doin stupid things.. lol... ya lo.. tim ar tim.. y u so stupid... how many times have u did tat... so stupid lo!!! slap urself...

haha.. ok.. think i abit mad mad le.. ate like 2 lollipops and 3 pandas le... really a not good day for me.. haha... i wan more lollipops and pandas! ok tim.. onli 3 ppl will uds the meaning of tat.. haha... shh.. eat so much sweet later fat.. cut down okie... and u got napfa on wed.. sure fail.. haha...

ok la.. don wan type le.. sian.. very very sian... byebye... go stare at my lollipops...

*TiM*

*feel like talking to u.. but dono wat to say... do u even know?*

today's not a very good day... bad mood...

i hate to be angry... i hate to have to scold ppl... but sometimes, i have to do it cuz of my responsibilities... and today, i quarrel with my fren over something.... which is like damn stupid... ahhh.. hate it... sometimes i think tat this job of my is really ruining my life... ahh!

im so stress u know.. so many deadlines!! and audition coming.. and ahh! concert... ah!!! managment~~~ ahahah..... tim is goin mad mad... today i was so worked up... i had no appetited to eat.. and during tat 30 mins when i was so angry... i started trembling... i think i shd go for anger management... haha... bad temper...

*mydumdum, i was so sick and scared jus now... how i wish u were here... could you comfort and take care of me like before? =) miss u so much.. as usual... i wonder what are ur tots...*

hello!

jus tot of blogging... tml goin to run in the morning... but like so earli.. but have to.. for napfa sake... haha... hope my back will be better.. =)
deadlines are coming nearer... tim tim.. tim to start working hard... jyjy!

*mydumdum, i really wan to know wat u are thinking... miss you so much*

hello everyone..

its 2 weeks into sch.. haha.. hows everything? hmmm.. so so lo.... =)
yup... and tim is abit more motivated now.. need alot more... lotsa deadlines.. i dono how but i sprain my neck and shoulders.. got a weird feeling abt it... but shan't comment on it here... yup...

napfa on 20 may.. like.. OMG... 2 weeks time? can i jus skip it.. sure fail anyway... let me train liao then go take can? haha... or can i jus excuse myself from it totally? haha...

dono wat to blog liao eh... haha.. and aiyo.. hate ppl to advertise on my blog.. Zzz... slap..

*mydumdum - counting down till i smile... feels like forever... ahhh...*

tim tim tim...

tim lacks motivation... everything is so sian sian sian...

*dying to hear dumdum say it*

im here to blog nonsense again...

how ar.. my report like not goin anywhere... so distracted.. so inefficent... =x...

tml welcome tea.. wonder how things will be... haha...

*i miss u... so much... mydumdum.. but i carn tell u*

sch term is finally starting?
so how will things be?

haha.. roughly have a mental image le ba...

anyway.. i think im always slow eh... i think that sometimes... im so slow.. i don even realise wat has happened... ur closest fren may become ur worse enermy... wa... so fierce... haha... tim tim.. just give up ba... ppl always K.S. u.. u always slow by abit.. haha...ok.. tim doesnt know wat he is blogging...

but ya.. when moments turn into memories... wat ppl don see behind those smiles... well.. tim always say its now now now... no more things of the past.. but he still clings on to his "lost" fren.. frens who were once best buddies... are now... strangers... which makes him emo.. and jus don uds wat happened.. haha.. oh well.. anyway..

I HATE PPL TO TOUCH MY THINGS... like.. ya.. hate it.. please ask b4 taking.. and return after using... hais... and stop eyeing my stuff la... i onli got those left with me le.. stop taking them away from me.. give me some peace... i lost so much already... hais...

*dumdum.. im so sad now... will u cheer me up?*

so now... i have completed my attachment.. like YEAY!!! but also =( ... goin miss my supervisors..... . . . . .. . .. . . .

have been overworked and YEA, sick... haha... can u imagine goin to work with 38.5? lucky im better now... haha.. hmmm.... kinda funni thou... monday wil be back in school already... . . . . gotta JYJY!!!! haha...

i dono wat im blogging.. im jus blogging.. blogging.. blogging....


*dumdum... when moments turn into memories....*

theres onli one me in this world.. and there are never ending things to do... i wonder... i really wonder... when will it all end... its getting more and more personal.. i think tat if i don like vent it out here i will explode soon...

i really really neglected my frens la.. damn it... and i carn free myself up... ARGH... DAMN! i hate it... sorry my frens.. i wish i could.. ireally really miss some of u... but... i dono wat to do now... things at work is getting me and more busy... so is band... i wish i can find help... but... where can it be found? i don even have time to do up my report.. like... =( im really damn irritated by it... im too stretched... i haven even start sch.. lecturers start calling me... like WAT?! Zzz im already so caught up.. and there they go... =/ nv ending thigns to do.. i keep tinking... wat if ... wat if i handed in tat letter? will i be better off now... i tink i will be less stressed up... its so difficult to get things done.. and PPL KEEP THROWING THEIR ATTITUDE AT ME... hais... i can jus accept it... and to all who got nth better to do... COULD U JUS LEAVE ME ALONE FOR AWHILE?

stop asking me for things.. this and tat.. stop it... i might jus walk off if i had enough.. and i already am having enough... i know i should be blogging abt this but who cares... im already losing myself.. i lost my brother, my best frens... my frens.. wat more to loss... i had enough... really... its getting too personal... too personal...

wat for hide all these emotions... and be the puppet slave? do i have a choice? i don think so... who uds? WHO? well.. onli i do... alone in this world... life has been so.. will be so.. and hope will nto be so... my future looks ruin.. by tat one responsibility tat grew..

this is back to his busi self.. now even mroe busy then ever... haha... TIM AR TIM!!! wat a sad life u have.... sometimes i wish i had more time...
i have so much to do... and ppl who are damn free keep ADDing more things for me to do... i already try my best to gif others le.. but they also alot of thigs to do ma... how how how? i need everyone to co operate... yes! if everyone can don delay.. everything will be much easier... everyone is being squeezed.. and its a vicous cycle.. ur delay will delay others and everyone will get affected...

sometimes i wish i have 10 more hrs a day... like 34 hrs.. btu i think i wil still complain 34 hrs is nto enough... maybe maybe... alot of wat ifs... haha... i can onli say... i brought this among myself... i don blame anyone or myself.. this is anotehr challenge i have to overcome.. once i live thru it.. i grow stronger... i BELIEVE tat i can do it... =) okie.. im self motivating again..

i wan to say also tat... sometimes i be nice... and tat does mean im not aware of things... u can lie to me... i know u are lying but i hope u know wat u are doin.... i hope its all genuine... i jus hope so... i choose to believe so... and don go overboard cuz i may jus explode... and its not goin to be a pleasent sight... tolerance has its limits....

and its 1 more week.. and i hope i will have mre time for other thigns... i must start mugging for my studies... i wan better results... no more slacking... study is my main priority... yes... at all cost... =]

i have been neglecting my frens... i am so busy i carn think of a reply.. i carn meet them.. i have to reject them... i try to meet up.. i am trying... i jus need more time in a day... i don wish to loss any... so heres my sincere apologies if i have neglected u.... GOMENASAI.... dui bu qi... sorry.... i really treasure my frens alot.. they support me when im down... encourage me when i wanna give up... and they try to uds when i have no choice but to reject them....

and the more personal side of me... i really wish to do some things.. but i jus don have the time... im so busy... the amt of time i spend at home awake is not even enough to fully charge my mobile... but some may think... if u prioritise ur time well.. u can do it.. or some might even think... are u sure u are so busy... wat can i say... i don have time to care abt it... i have decided to give up on certain things for the bigger picture.. the personal side has to wait... i really have no time.. thou for the past few years.. i have put it aside.. this is another one of those countless time im setting it aside.. i jus hope things will get better.. and i will have more time... time time time.... if there is a time machine tat can stop time... i want it... i need it.... at least get some rest.... i am so tired.. so slpy... i rush everywhre... i think abt everything even in my slp... i can even dream of ans... omg... i NEED A BREAK...

ok... tim... now u speak part of it... its time to slp.. tml is anotehr day... challenge... take care... u can do it... lets wish tat i will not be sick tml again... u can do this... yes u can.. i know u can.. and yes i can... =)

*really no comments... hais... dumdum is really dum... so much i carn say... one day.. its gonna explode... *

こんばわ。おげんきですか？
わたしは　ちむです。
どおぞよおしく。。。。

えと。。。

so how has life been? like tat lo.. so bored.. so lifeless... haha... im so SIAN of everything... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . so monotone...
i jus feel like staring into blank space... wats the motivation in waking up everyday? nth.. haha.. oh well... so sian.. . . . . . . . ... . .. . .. . . . . . hais.... sian sian sian ar sian sian sian.... . . . . .. . .. . .typing nonsense.... . . . . . . . . .

byebye

*わたしのdumdumです。。。＊

aren't they so cute? thanks for all these cheery pictures... =)

sometimes i wish things were different.. but things wont change so jus live with it... =]

*hais... mydumdum.... my dum dum.... mydumdum... my dum dum*

Control and tolerance is the key word for today

*how? same old sentence.. so much to tell u*