konnichiwa...

today is a sunday... but i don feel sunny at all.. lol..

ytd went for NP concert with miki, denise, kesha and leon...

we saw fireworks during intermission... =) hmm... after tat wanted to go tou hua de.. but kesha and leon gtg.. so miki denise and me walk there.. like WALK u know.. and its so hot... navigated with gps and denise's brain...

omg... ytd i was totally imageless.... sugar rushed all nite long... talking nonsense... singing and whining.. its so not me! there goes my image... LOL... but ya... how often do u see it... hmm.. got sugar low after tat.. emo... haha.. tim is such a nonsense guy... i think everyone is scared of me like after last nite... "keep away" sign... =x

want to drop at AMK then take bus.. but! my ezlink when cash low... omg... so had to jus train straight to hougang instead... =/ oh well.. went home... wanted to do proj but cant concentrate.... yup.. waited and waited.. then decided to slp at 3?

hmm.. sch starting tml... tuesday presentation... like.. omg... hais... its goin to be a very stressful 2 weeks for me! hopefully i find time to meet up with the ppl i need and must meet... hopefully i rmb to pack my stuff... hmmm... shd be employing all possible help to get thru already ba...

-TiM-

anyway... im upset... haha... ok.. i know i shdnt be but.. im like tat wat.. i get jealous very easily ma.. u also know... then then.. like hais.. nvm la.. i don wan talk abt it le... *silently.. beyond words..*

Plan B

Sinfonique 09 is cancelled.
like omg? all the efforts... the planning.. the sleepless nites... everyone kinda put in so much and its cancelled... like.. SAD! but wat can we do... stupid H1N1... hate it... cause so much probs... SHOO SHOO! go away.. don come back... argh....

pack pack pack.. no concert but still got lotsa band pract in preparation for WMC... 2 more weeks! 2 mroe weeks to finish all my proj.. 2 more weeks to perfect my songs... 2 more weeks... jus 2 more... the last lap...

anyway.. today had montfort band BBQ... not bad la hor.. see alot of ppl that nv saw for quite some time le.. haha... quite fun la.. chat abit..

anyway.. today's mood is a roller coaster... i was home like 10 am? slept alittle.. then did work.. then bbq then find fren then home... i dono leh.. today's mood like abit sensitive? and jus got a feeling like my fren nv do the promised thing.. like have fun then forgot abt it already... and i dono watever im doing is rite anot... oh well... shall not think abt it ba... let fate decide... tim is hungry now.. he shall stop here...

-end of rubbish..-

*hrtwj... hais... forgot? / planned? / sianed?.. i really dono wat u are thinking... hais.. so sad*

im jus wondering wat will happen to someone who don slp alot everyday...
i wonder where is the limit... where is the crumbling zone...
i wonder wat will happen when all thing fails...
i wonder when will it all end
i wonder why i even get myself into it
i wonder if theres a time machine
i wonder i wonder....

i know wat to expect
i know wats to come
i know wats the outcome
i know i know

i do not want
i do not need
i do not seek
i do not anticipate

i need more time
i need some help
i need a break
i need myself and my babyy

oh well... thing are bad.. really bad... time to plan.. and plan again... the signs have to be ignore... don have much of a choice... i'll just let it crumble when it needs too... i'll just do the max i can.. and let fate take over...

-TiM signing off and not blogging for now.... take care all-

*hrtwj... so much to say... but just dont know how... the 3 letters say it all...*

Hello... =)
Im like sitting outside the band room now... haha.. came to sch to do work cuz tot i can concentrate... but like no use ar.. still quite distracted... haha... sot de eh..

anyway.. heres a nice video someone showed me... =)
oh well.. shall try to do work now... =)


*timmie loves his honey red tea with jelly... =)*

[someonesaveme!]

oh well.. things happen for a reason? but wat is it? things haven been going well.. like why why why?

its beyond my control... but can i do sth abt it? im trying very hard to stop it from happening.. but it just.. i cant do work.. carn think... carn focus... i need a remedy...

am i just too stress again? but isnt it term break? ain i supposed to be less stress? maybe theres jus too much to do ba... tim! =] bare with it...

i have to control myself... i have to.. i carn be doing wat i do now... i will go crazy soon... and i hate blood.. worse of all.. i don like to see you pek chek..
things will get better in time... =) smile tim... smile.... =)

[the unspoken]

hmm.. looks like its 1 more week added to term break... doesnt mean less things to do lo.. means more pack actually... haven been eating well or slping well since i got ill... haha... like im hungry now but dono wat to eat...

concert in 2 weeks eh.. omg... and in 3 weeks/ 23 more days im flying.... means i need to finish alot alot of things b4 i fly lo... omg... really omg... like not enough time.. seriously... ahh...

the unspoken... the quiet side... haha.. like no one really understands lo... trying very hard to do everything already but ya, its nv ending... and ppl onli see it as tat section of it but not as a whole... actually i also abit dono wat im typing... haha...

10 days... omg... 10 days leh... haha... think i can control la hor... i'll take it as my challenge... oh wait.. i dono wat im bloggin le... haha.. all the i wan to say de things i cannot say... oh well.. byebye ba.. haha.. blogg rubbish again.. spoil market.. later ppl scold me ar... =x

*unspoken... it will get better in time*

wat do u do when u feel helpless....
u have 1001 things to do.. and u are sick...
wat can u do?
wat can u do when u see ppl ard u falling sick and u cannto do anything abt it...
wat can do u when u have alot of obligations...
the amt of load carried is weighing me down...
all i wan is jus a simple life with my honey red tea with jelly
so diff meh.. haha.. tim moodswinging again.. jus ignore...

*i wan to be with you but i think its best i let u rest.. then u can faster ok... ily... my honey red tea with jelly*

so busy eh....

haha.. so many emails abt proj, gotta start doin them all le...
tim tim.. jyjy... still got concert... ahh!... so many things eh.. nv ending...

anyway.. i hurt myself accidentally... ahh... so much blood lo.. but not say very pain also.. haha... but now i very scared of the "piak" snap sound... >.<

oh welll... dono wat to blog le.. but not bad la.. this few days happi.. thou im falling sick.. but im still happi... haha..

*my honey red tea with jelly... i love u so much! im glad i have u by my side.. muacks.. *hugs* get well soon..*

Hello... =)
Im like sitting outside the band room now... haha.. came to sch to do work cuz tot i can concentrate... but like no use ar.. still quite distracted... haha... sot de eh..

anyway.. heres a nice video someone showed me... =)
oh well.. shall try to do work now... =)


*timmie loves his honey red tea with jelly... =)*

absolutely adorable pics.. lols..

here are some pics tat my frens drew for me over the few mths... ain they so cute? omg... ^^

alright.. so the hols are finally here.. but also no rest.. not much of a diff.. haha... cannot stand it... haha... proj.. band... frens... wow... chalet? dono will stay anot... haha... oh well.. tim tim.. accept it..

hmm... so much to do... projs.. concert... WMC... wow... hope everything goes well.. im so bored lo.... haha.. sian... always sian... i dono wat i blogging also... sitting at the back of the band room.... blogging.. haha... frens say.. "tim, u no life lo.. day day band..." haha... band geek.. =x

so bored.. i shall stop here.....

haha.. heres a pic i made... taken while in the plan to london on 13 july... haha... miss the time in vienna.. now its goin to be 1 mth and i will be goin to kekrade... hope it will be as enjoyable... =)

*i wish u would take me away... im so tired.... looking forward to my holidays.. thou u wont be there... haha.. its ok.. tim is always solo...*

haha... im aching all over now... finally got to slp abit more...
ytd i slept at like 4? doing my CRM? haha... oh well..

ytd was nt a very nice day... firstly... not enough slp... slept at like ard 6 and woke up at abt 9? haha... so went to sch for a stupid 2 hr tut which is so so so boring... haha.. then i quarel with my fren... over a small matter... but i think its either im oversensitive ytd or my fren was jus being insensitive.. that last msg sent was like OMG can.. i read le so angry lo... i threw my phone... then my other classmates were like o.oo.oo.o??? wat happened.. so ya.. i had no more appetite for lunch.. there goes the food..

after tat... the grumpy and moody me went to meet my cher... but he was not there.. onli come back like next tues? but hello? tuesday i lesson till 6 eh... he knock off i still having lessons lo.. how to get things done... not much time le.. very stress de eh.... so many ICA.. still must do those things... save me can...

after tat... the even more sian diao de me.. went to get my hair done... haha... was in such a rotten mood tat i say anyhow cut la... then i anyhow dye my hair.. so its like blackish green? haha... grats to me! i am a weirdo monster now...

after tat.. went out with my fren... blah blah.. shant talk much abt this thing.. but i was happi.. yea... yup.. then on the way home... so so angry... haha... oh well.... (i got too worked up i guess... i had another relapse.. and this time i got a jab... saturday still need go back lo... =( hais)

and ya.. home... do proj... feeling so argh.... blah blah... and many other things happen... haha...

this para is for a fren of mine...
i dono why u are like tat lo... tell u liao... i got my reasons... u haven see the full story then so insistent about that issue... then if u don wan to tell me wats wrong.. i will nv know rite... and the way u sms is like.. so hostile lo.. then now u wan to come find fault? whos to blame? wats ur agenda of that post and sms? resolution or find fault... this sms i will rmb forever one lo... "no.. if u treasure our frenship u sms me" like.. i xploded after tat... haha! tim ar tim.... hais...

so yea... tats abt it ba... anyway.. i got a nice nice nice nice nice chicken chop and western goodies platter for lunch.. yeay!!! love my mummy lots... wake up got good food liao... haha... (tim.. must stay happi okie... don get so worked up again.. rmb wat the doctor say..)

*lost for words, just feel like being alone...*

jus wan to nag here...

today napfa... got a new pair of shoes jus for it.. waste money... cuz my old one opened... sadly... hais.. waste time lo... so tired... lesson.. after tat go eat buy shoe go home change go sch napfa... after tat band... so damn tired la...

and reach home.. still need do tut... still need plan event.... still need do so much other things... like... damn damn damn stress la... i still haven do my crm... friday need to hand in le... hais... 3 ica next week... will see how i die lo... 4 days of band.... i still need to do entre... like... really no comments le lo...

*hais... i really dono how to cope now...*

wow.. its like 1220 already... so wat have i done the past few hrs..

lets see.. woke up at 7 plus? went to sch... study.. train napfa stations... and sadly... i think wed i will be wasting my time... can i like go another time? when im like more free? and i nv land properly during one of my attempts for standing board jump... my right knee HURTS! i can straighten my leg...

so ya, after sch went straight for band.. finish like 610 la... =( and band start at like 630? wow.. superman... haha... so much to do! ahh... u see ar... this week must hand in my WHP E tut which is liek 10% of CP and CRM ica1... next week got Human behaviour ICA 1? and HRD ica1? and AUDITION? omg... im so so stress lo... still need to think abt WMC and Sinfonique... ahhh!!!! save me... =( not forgetting the irritating on goin ENTRE! so many tight deadlines...

to my frens... sorry if i offend u or wat... haha... tim is always tim eh.. hope u all uds... quite a stressful life u know.. like sch... then band... then still need to coach my younger bro's studies... yup.... =)

today i was chit chatting with one of my classmates.. and i came to realise that im already in my yr 3.... final year le lo... this 2 yrs... i have been so busy... have i ever like enjoyed my poly life? (except maybe tat few mths when u spend it with me? i was really happi then)
so busy.. so stress... again and again lo... i tell myself.. it will get better.. but it jus gets worse.. haha.. more and more stressed... when will i get to enjoy..

haha... a moth landed on my head lo... jus now... is it a good sign? or a bad sign.. haha... im goin to be so busy.. i can tell... haha.. mon to thur band... plus sch... i hope things get better ba... now.. tonite.. i don need slp le.. alot of work to be done.. lets hope i don fall aslp while trying to do them... okie... dono wat to blog le... and don wan to blog le... byebye...

*mydumdum... im so stressed... really really... but i miss u.. alot alot more.. *

so stress!!!

so much to do!!

so sad!!

so STUPID!!

i cannot stand myself... why am i so stupid... can i stop doin those stupid things? argh.... =( if onli life was easier... its jus not getting anywhere... i am tired le... so tired lo.. many a times... i tired so hard.. but... still getting no where... one day i will jus gif up.. and disappear... byebye...

*=( why?*

hello everyone...

i dono wat to blog.. haha... hmm.. recently very very busy lo.. alot of proj and sch work... erm... ya... now even tut also need do powerpoint eh... very sad eh... like... got sch work.. already drowning le... then got band work also... and soon i need to go work... time to save mroe... i've got plans.. lols... tim ar tim.. haha...

i think hor.. for the past few years.. i become nicer.. then become nasty.. then nice then nasty.. lol.. ok.. i shall conclude.. i shall be nice.. haha.. ok tim.. be nice now... =) stop being nasty.... unless u really have too.. haha...

ok lo.. ppl say until i very bad.. so fierce... but.. don really have a choice ma... i like the middleman... need to meet expectation of so many parties... haha..
u know... so stress ar... haha.. and i always say.. band is not a hotel.. u don come and go as u want... haha... ppl just don uds.. haha.. wat must i do to get their understanding and cooperation... HAHA! tim.. stop dreaming okie.. even ur PEM also say u spending too much time not studying already... haha.. get a life la... haha.. i think i shouldnt be blogging abt this... but oh well.. don really care anymore... 1 tim doin 10 000 tim's work..

lols.. i think i really bad mood this week lo... all my proj like heated discussion... haha.. hope my frens forgive me ar... hor.. haha.. i know u all will uds de... haha.. tim! hang in there okie...

haha.. and i was msging my fren.. and i wrote this...
"i think love is hard to come by, and i think that one should not think so much but jus treasure the moments together..
love is a chemistry.. sometime it goes boom but it has more interesting outcome..
love is like a learning journey.. getting to know each other more and me each day... and thats where u find more things to talk abt.. haha..
love is paitence and tolerance... we learn to see the beauty of imperfection..
love is sweet yet bitter.. too much of anything and it sucks..
love is jus a sweet gift from each other.... learn to love and appreciate...
don think so much... jus let it flow.. be happi and enjoy..."
haha.. then i was thinking.. why i can tell ppl tat but i carn do it for myself...
i always end up doin stupid things.. lol... ya lo.. tim ar tim.. y u so stupid... how many times have u did tat... so stupid lo!!! slap urself...

haha.. ok.. think i abit mad mad le.. ate like 2 lollipops and 3 pandas le... really a not good day for me.. haha... i wan more lollipops and pandas! ok tim.. onli 3 ppl will uds the meaning of tat.. haha... shh.. eat so much sweet later fat.. cut down okie... and u got napfa on wed.. sure fail.. haha...

ok la.. don wan type le.. sian.. very very sian... byebye... go stare at my lollipops...

*TiM*

*feel like talking to u.. but dono wat to say... do u even know?*

today's not a very good day... bad mood...

i hate to be angry... i hate to have to scold ppl... but sometimes, i have to do it cuz of my responsibilities... and today, i quarrel with my fren over something.... which is like damn stupid... ahhh.. hate it... sometimes i think tat this job of my is really ruining my life... ahh!

im so stress u know.. so many deadlines!! and audition coming.. and ahh! concert... ah!!! managment~~~ ahahah..... tim is goin mad mad... today i was so worked up... i had no appetited to eat.. and during tat 30 mins when i was so angry... i started trembling... i think i shd go for anger management... haha... bad temper...

*mydumdum, i was so sick and scared jus now... how i wish u were here... could you comfort and take care of me like before? =) miss u so much.. as usual... i wonder what are ur tots...*

hello!

jus tot of blogging... tml goin to run in the morning... but like so earli.. but have to.. for napfa sake... haha... hope my back will be better.. =)
deadlines are coming nearer... tim tim.. tim to start working hard... jyjy!

*mydumdum, i really wan to know wat u are thinking... miss you so much*

hello everyone..

its 2 weeks into sch.. haha.. hows everything? hmmm.. so so lo.... =)
yup... and tim is abit more motivated now.. need alot more... lotsa deadlines.. i dono how but i sprain my neck and shoulders.. got a weird feeling abt it... but shan't comment on it here... yup...

napfa on 20 may.. like.. OMG... 2 weeks time? can i jus skip it.. sure fail anyway... let me train liao then go take can? haha... or can i jus excuse myself from it totally? haha...

dono wat to blog liao eh... haha.. and aiyo.. hate ppl to advertise on my blog.. Zzz... slap..

*mydumdum - counting down till i smile... feels like forever... ahhh...*

tim tim tim...

tim lacks motivation... everything is so sian sian sian...

*dying to hear dumdum say it*

im here to blog nonsense again...

how ar.. my report like not goin anywhere... so distracted.. so inefficent... =x...

tml welcome tea.. wonder how things will be... haha...

*i miss u... so much... mydumdum.. but i carn tell u*