151109 - Jerold's 20

wow! so many november babies! happi birthday jerold! =)

before meeting up with the rest, decided to ask kor out for cake.. BUT as usual.. they don have the cake i wanted. so we made do with icecream.. i had topless 5 + chocolate fudge, marcus ate chewy chocolate sth sth.. haha both of us went.. AIYO, STOMACH PAIN LEH. met up with the rest later on.. went to spizza to surprise jerold. i think esther is such a sweet girl.. every year, she plans sth for jerold.. so nice rite.. tsk tsk..

went home after tat... headache ar.. i dono why... tml theres sch and driving.. then band. hope i get better. and this is the song of my nite.. it rings in my mind.. i dono why also... =)

.tim *wat matters is that we are in our hearts*

141109 - sleepy head. stop staring

131109 - Carol's Birthday!

happi birthday carol!

went to bugis for steamboat to celebrate.. the food was ok.. we planned a surprise which didnt go as much as we planned. but SHE was abit surprised.. and best of all. happy =) tats most impt.. oh man... we braved the rain to go to the steamboat place.. and i went to fetch the blur mr halif.. and i got wet. -.- while lighting the candles. she already saw us.. ahhh... =( but haha.... everyone was happi =)

after steamboat when walking ard bugis.. took neoprints and off we go. went to find my fren after tat for chillax.. cold and rainy nite. i like the calming feel but my back so pain =( went for a walk and got scared by an ah neh.. no wonder they say fri 13 is a black friday.. black indeed.

and wats with ppl and staring at me. don so rude leh.. i paranoid leh.. u all wan stare don let me know ok... thank you... =) im jus another average kid.. stare at me makes me feel like.. wat? got sth on my face is it? or did i do sth wrong?

141109 - sleepy head

i dono why i slept so much today.. just so lazy.. pfft.. eat and slp, eat and slp. like a pig. i guess its good in a way? cuz i haven been sleeping enough... today catch up ar.. but slp too much now abit headache already.. and i feel so fat! omg. i ate so much. nth much already i guess... i am goin to bed soon.

.tim *every moment, every tot*

131109 - black friday

121109 - movie was a disappointment

nth much happened today... watch a movie.. sorry my fren, haha.. i got at fright towards the end i and i think i grab too hard... the day ended well.. i am still happi despites external influences. thank you.

131109 - black friday

i already don like them. and they make it even so. am so tired now. nites all. blog tml.

.tim *you light up my life*

Tired. but smiling. =)

i'll post tml. nites.

.tim

111109 - pout pout pout.

wow.. today is 1111 eh... haha.. i i i i actually had so much plans.. haha.. la la la la la... anyway... today was a long and tiring day... and i keep pouting.. i dono why but it feels so fun.. =x went for super lunch with the girls. i realise we always feast! i like the food today.. eat until i explode... went jj's for mahjong.. quite fun ar.. but i missed out on the dinner.. =( pout. went back to sch cuz i had band...

band was ok i guess. had to do some urgent stuff while practicing so ya.. do do do... then practice then do then practice. rushed back home and stupidly cooked tomyam noodles with extra padi. =( pout.. stomach so pain.. dum dum. did abit of tut and now.. my brain is so dead.. im so not absorbing anything.. haha.. i dono wat i talking... maybe i use my brains too much today.. EHH! i wan astroboy. this one i cfm i wan. =D

i have so many stuff i feel like doing. haha.. but but.. for now still cannot. but im already very happy. just the tot of it puts a smile on my face. im glad and happi in many ways.. so many ways.. beauty lies in the simplicity of life. just like astroboy. pure genius + pure love + pure astroboy. ok.. im like having some world war in my head now. byebye.

.tim *imagination goes a long way*

time is all i need.

was so tired ytd... i woke up at 959 today.. and 20 sec later, my alarm rang. wow. feels so lazy.. i didnt wanna go to school but! i cannot. so ya.. dressed up, got irritated by the little one and left in a rush to school. currently having Business Outsourcing Process tutorial. bored.

lets talk abt ytd. i wan to say i want to say! CAROL SPOILT THE TABLE IN THE LECTURE HALL! haha! jj was saying, wat if u press too hard then the table break. and awhile later, it broke. omg. haha... Wrestler is like tat one.. hor carol? haha.

anyway.. ytd was such a memorable day. shant say much but ya, i remember it. every moment of it. and this song keeps ringing in my head.

.tim *you know*

101109 - a day to rmb

LONG day in sch.. so many stupid short breaks.

anyway. today is a day i will rmb! very well! =D

i cant seem to get enough of chocolate. chocolate = my life = i must eat = alot of other things! haha... im so tired today~ im like typing and falling aslp. oops! nites.

.tim

091109 - eyes and lens

my eye is so swollen like 2 fishballs.

lack slp maybe? or sth else? only i'll know. my contact lens i think, went into my eye, if not it dropped out after facing a space constrain with all the water. argh. i cant see! but i managed to find my way home. hope i don go blind. haha.

anyway. the day was so rush, sch driving and went out.. but it ended well! despite the tireness.. im smiling. =) driving was good. getting a real hang of it. i shall pass it on my first attempt! i've got plans. =) i shd change name to mr fishball eyes. nites everyone. im fine. don worry.

.tim

081109

i don wan to talk abt wat happen.

im just craving for chocolate.. alot alot alot alot alot~~~~~~

i don wan to talk.. haha. bye.

.tim

071109 - the day.

its gonna be a long post.

woke up, dyed my hair. ate lunch. did mask. dress up, prepare gift. left home. went for a concert in the evening... stomach pain. upset. question marks. went off after tat. I CUT my hair again.. its time.. its time.. i have decided. dinner. wonder and wander abt. tot thru things. i made up my mind. home. otw home, debated with the taxi uncle over which expressway to take. -.- IM ALREADY SO UPSET, CANT U JUST SHUT UP AND DRIVE? but to think of it. im happi too. i decide my future and its gonna be a good one.

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Chances are limited. treasures are for you to treasure. u are responsible for it. being patient is good. being too patient is not. being nice is good. being too nice is not. being there is good. never here is not. promises are good. over-promising is not. perhaps its human nature. u don realise how fortunate u are until u lose your treasures. decisions are made.

theres only 24 hr a day. you manage it. no time? always no time? is it no time or no tots. its clear. tolerance and patience. limitless? wrong. fairness? u ask urself. have u been fair? if not don talk abt it. you had ur chances. realise it or not. take them for granted. and so be it. no one is dum. they act dum for a reason. complicated yet simple. how much do u really know. or rather. how much do u really care. you don need it at all, thats wat i see. anything too sweet becomes bitter. anyone too painful becomes numb. decisions are made.

"the sun is setting". "the sun has set". "the darkness of the night unfolds". clueless? u will soon understand. wat is true darkness? are u scared? wat abt all the promises. the truth. i know. i know. even in the darkest nights, there are moons and stars to light your path. fear not. soon, the sun will rise again. =)

to my dear fren so close to me, u feel like my identical twin. i hope u really cheer up. the sun will rise again. u have ur moon to light your path. smile. no matter wat's the outcome. no matter wat's the decision. be strong. u tot thru it. facts are laid. chances given. decision made.

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i was tired. but so awake now. so many tots. all these were happening silently. read the signs. grab your chances b4 its too late. tim is very exhausted now. i wan a break. seriously enough. woo... i dono wat to do now. haha! lets play this game call "i spy". i spy the future. i smell sulphur dioxide. i feel the heat. i see red orange black gray. fear not. fear not. woo... i dono wat im saying now... i wan to eat chocolate again. i want nth more nor nth less.. chocolate. smile. =D

.tim

Answers.

just woke up. shivering. yet another bad dream.

i couldn't slp last nite. i'm wondering why sth is happening.

sometimes, when your close fren is upset. u get affected too.

maybe i was? i'm just wondering abt the short replies.

read the signs. i have my conclusion. but is it wat it really is.

hope not. i wonder if i done anything wrong.

i wonder how today will be.. i feel so ??? now.

i dono wat to do now. *shivers*

maybe... maybe...

guardian angel.

.tim *why cold me?*

061109 - full of tots. chocoholic.♪

wat a long and tiring day... lecture at 1110 and i tot was at 1010... so i rushed to prepare and left.. anyhow wore! msg shar and she said she's waiting for bus.. then i ask.. huh? wont late meh? she ans.. lesson at 1110 ma.. then i OH IS IT! argh... dum me.. so i went home to change to sth more presentable...

this 2 irritating cheebongs block my way, snatch my 2 chicken bao, irritated me and argh.. jus the voice annoys me... =x lesson was boring as usual.. OHP spoilt but i think i concentrate better... rushed to band room to get ties for ridwan.. just nice their members came so i don need to walk to TFA... stayed in the band room with the lovely piano... absolutely love it... cuz apparently i was agitated la.. same old prob.. =/ music works wonders, it cheered me up..

home, rest abit, HUNGRY like dono wat... ate cheese fishcake plus pandan bread b4 driving.. i know its weird but NO CHOICE. driving was like initial D. i drive too fast again.. then dio meh. one point i turn, the car like wan flip.. lols.. then ya... traffic was bad.. keep stopping then feel like puking.... got home, ate 1 big piece of meat... YAY! meat!

went for ice cream at mof then movie with jojo and ah da... poker king.. ok la.. not bad... somehow, can relate.. abit emotional.. and can u believe.. i jumped.. cuz the glass dropped on the floor and it was so loud. -.- koi after tat and home. decided to run cuz i was so so so so so pek chek.

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this was on my FB.

Timothy got a message that on this day, God wants him to know...

... that the way you know you have found the right one is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with the person.

See what God wants you to know...

Having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. - a quote by Dinah Craik

is it jus a coincidence or was i thinking abt it ytd? and today.. aside from this. tml will be an interesting day. i dono how things will go. maybe.. maybe.. many ? and ! oh watever... i already made up my mind... bye. im hungry. however, feeling better after the run.

.tim

agitated. calm. if u get my point

omg. moodswing? anyway, i know why im so hungry already... cuz my meat intake was so scarce its not enough to keep me sane. and the best way to calm urself is to rinse ur face with water.. somehow.. it worked.

anyway... the prob with ppl with strong stand is that its hard to change them. let me ask a analytical qn. look at the broken wine glass. will u be able to fix it back? glue it? its no longer perfect anymore. isnt it? scar lines.. missing bits... holes that becomes weakness points. the best way.. perhaps, is to put it away... melt it down... and remake a new wine glass... memories of the past forms moments of the future. u shape your future... don let the past be forever broken and haunt ur future...

.tim

051109 - LONG Think Alot DAY

wat a long day... lesson started at 9.. and i was abit late so i took train and i was earli! thanks jj for giving me a lift from the station.. if not i will be like... half dead after walking in... it rain rain rain rain rain so much today.. lunch at south, curry katsu don.. and i barely ate half. =(

lessons were such a bore.. i cant concentrate at all.. AT ALL. my mind was drifting.. thinking abt sth.. i seriously think im thinking too much.. too much for today.... =/ during the cursed 3 hr break... 7 of us squeeze in the car to jj's.. had fun there.. as usual... mind elsewhere.. i shall not eleborate on wat happened in the car... haha. thanks JJ again... went back to sch for last lect and i give me.. i just open notes.. and stone. think.

dinner at bishan! YAY! food! i was so hungry suddenly.. dinner was great... =) after dinner had a big big big serving of chocolate.. thou i was thinking and thinking.. but chocolate just makes u feel better.. its like a happi drug... what would i do theres no chocolate in this world... i think i would have jumped into the pond and drown.

i am SO HUNGRY now. i wan chocolate. i wan food.

.tim *hope + faith = love*

041109 - Careless.

im so careless today.. haha.. i dropped my wallet 2 times! wth! lucky my fren saw... phew... if not i cry.. i will eat grass.. haha! the day was okay... went to sch for 45 mins lesson. -.- lunch at banquet amk with ilah and husband, halif, jj, carol. TOMYAM steamboat! WOO! SHIOK!

self pract for band today.. ok la.. i sort out quite alot of things.. i pract outside while the others used the room.. haha.. HOT! sweat like a pig.. and had a short piano flute accompliment play along session! so fun! headed home for my tomyam mee supper... i think tml i shd wake up earlier... sure stomach pain...

lessons pushed back to 9 tml.. LIKE THANK YOU! if not i need to wake up like 5 plus 6.. phew... LONG DAY TML! ahh! stupid 3 hrs break followed by 1 hr lecture. lame. anyway... i so feel like running now.. considering its a long earli day tml.. nah, i will die a horrible death like monday if i do... or maybe tml morning... haha! SEE HOW! and the moon went hiding today.. =( rain rain.. wet wet.. and the song which im posting struck me when i was on the bus to sch.. watching the rain water drizzle down the glass window... its nice.. calm and peaceful.

.tim

031109 - blonde! dumdum!

omg, i feel so dum u know... ytd i cook noodles.. i boil the water with the packet of seasoning then i cannot find.. i go stir then i realise its inisde.. wth! then i set alarm.. and i nv switch it on! omg.. its onli the 2nd day of sch and im like... haha.. overslept... oops...

im not so much of a MJ fan but i think.. hes not bad ar... can dance can sing... =) lastly, yet another bright moon night! omg.. its so lovely can... u can see the reflection off the water... rawr! u all shd try it one day... jus stare at it.. it will talk to you... and im craving for chocolate =D heehee! i wan my chocolate! i wan i wan i wan i wan! =x...

oops.. ok.. stop whinning.. lessons at 12 tml! like YAY! tim please don oversleep kaes... set and on ur alarm now now now! nites all. im still so happi! haha...

.tim

021109 - pffft. Tired!

hello everyone...

today's a tiring day.. so so so tiring.... i was like.. pfft.. lets have a quick run down on today's happenings... lessons were okay... the notes are so thick... OMG! like... argh! heavy =( pffft...

went out for lunch after sch with wonderful ppl. haha.. damn happi.. repeat again.. DAMN happi!

driving was ok.. i learn parking like... easy piggy... watever... maybe cuz he instructed? but its still like damn easy.. over confident onli ar.. =x band was TIRING! when i reash band room i was like... pffft. hungry.. tired. slpy.. ahhh.. aircon..cold.. slp.. hibernate... fighting to keep myself awake... haha.. i must say.. today, my playing not so good.. =( upset. shall pract more.

on a side note.. today was a tiring day.. so tiring.. but but but! im like damn happi.. for a reason.. my reason... =) im glad.. the day went well.. so well.. it outweighs my tiredness.. im so happi today.. woo.. so happi! so so happi! i am a happy boy today. =) the moon was the icing to the cake.. muacks.

.tim

011109 - moon light. so bright.

ITS NOVEMBER! welcome november.. are u gonna haunt me? NEVER! no way am i gonna let u do it.. pfffft! in your face! watever with the handsign! get a life!

the moon is so bright today! pure, bluish, bright like... with a spark to it. looking at it makes u smile even thou u're upset.. food today was not bad.. i had cake.. woohoo! too bad theres no chocolate indulgence.. but still 2 chocolate cake? sinful but how often do u get to eat it? i ran for a reason okay... i am happy today.. overall.. the day ended well.. big smile! =D

okay.. so theres sch tml... 9 - 12. damn it, its gonna be a 1 hr tut + 1 hr break + 1 hr lecture. pfft. im gonna become stone. well, theres driving tml.. and band.. =) time to be discipline tim. this sem's goals are? last sem already u know... rmb.. rmb...

.tim

miles apart... same bright moon... =)

blank out.

blank as a piece of paper.

monotonous vision.

chilly winds.

frozen tots.

i know, i know.

its so painful, i dono why i cant stop them from rolling down..

its been a long night, goodnite.

.tim *so near yet so far*

Moodswings.

the day was ok.. it rain.. and my mood followed the weather... went down.. my back is pain... went for nasi ayam penyet with hasneh. the sambal was good.. i actually finish the sambal b4 i even touch the chicken.. as usual, chilli = stomach pain but still.. shiok.. then went shopping for sth and my stationaries for sch... and i bought the wrong maker.. ARGH! too thick.. darn it.. was trapped at orchard central.. pffft. rain so heavy.. argh. i wanted to go somewhere else.. RAIN RAIN RAIN... HOW TO GO? IRRITATED. by the time i reach, it would already have ended.. =(

and moodswings.. theres sth with me and moodswings.. i wonder wats wrong with me.. even i cannot stand my moodswings.. argh.. i am emo, upset, angry at the same moment..

bye.

.tim *im on the edge*