231209 - Tiring!

had project in the morning. chat with jiamin after tat.. haha.. abt band.. and her band seniors.. and my band.. memories... went taka to shop.. wanted to get a wallet but ya... don waste money ar.. my wallet still so new.. haha... travelled ard.. and went back to vch for philyouth concert... its not bad u know... i like 3rd symphony's 3rd movement.. so EMOTIONAL... can feel the emotions building up.. mac and homed.

tml is kite day! yes! and after tat is Esplanade tonning! i have life ok! who wan come? haha. ok.. the current mass convo with gerri, janey, benny, sarri, raywee, jasony has made me all crazy.. who wan join us for tonning sms me! ask me for details. lai.. all invited... its a all merry christmas!

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i realise alot of things today again.. haha.. kite day.. let the wind bring you far far away.. good bye.

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.tim *umm hmm =D*

GO AWAY. LEAVE ME ALONE

JUST GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE.

I HATE SCH. I HATE WAT I NEED TO PUT UP WITH. I HATE MY JOB.

GO AWAY. U STUPID IRRITATING IRRITANT.

WTH.

BYE. ASSHOLE

221209 - i feel so N-ed

woke up earli. went for medical. i tot i was late.. so cabbed from queensway mrt.. wth.. i wasnt.. i had to wait so long.. anyway.. went home after tat.. EAT alot and slp... woke up.. went to chinatown with mummy... while exploring the area.. i had a flash back... i use to walk along the linkway between OG and people's park.. last time, theres this toy uncle.. and i always stand there and stare at the toys.. i sometimes miss being a kid.. i want to eat ice cream. i wan to fly kite.

theres alot of time to slp and think today.. it seems like a long day.. and as im blogging now.. i see 1111... oh well... proj tml. concert in the evening...

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R vs PI, when will it all end?

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.tim *staring out. waiting.*

211209 - bad day.

not a good day. my phone kept ringing... its the same old responsibility vs personal interest. and still.. my responsibilities got the better of me.. hais. upset! anyway, went home and ate alot and slept. like a pig. woke up.. drag myself to sch.. set up the band room as usual and i think i pulled my nerve. my should pain =( and i cant reach. oh well.. band was....

up earli tml. travelling to a dreadful place..

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wat else you want? i guess its not time yet... tolerance and patience.. even if it means sacrificing everything else.. hasnt it been like this? i guess tats my life. haha..... when will i finally find my box full of double chocolate hello panda with chocolate cream in every panda biscuit?

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.tim *i am sad but i don wan to show it*

201209 - bye weekends.

zoom. weekends are gone! sat driving.. it was great! everything was quite ok.. except i stalled 3 times.. nah.. nth big.. im confident already! often, we are who we think we are and what we can do. so i shall think tat way =) went home to freshen up b4 meeting halif for jon's xmas.

halif was late! anyway.. he said im a rose in the bed of thorns? o.0 haha... and the you tiao. went to jon's and left after while.. went shopping! i got a new shirt. yays. went out for late nite dinner and home.

sunday.. wa.. woke up damn earli... am so shagged now.. church, lunch. met fian. hello dey, u said 2 lo.. walked ard while waiting, i could even file my nails. strolled from douby to raffles to meet him. i rmb how to walk! thanks to the someone who teach me! haha.. had lunch again at ms which sucked. got some stuff and left for vch. yuhua in concert. not bad. first time thou.. steel drums were interesting. waited. dinner at macs and home. last train last bus. i was lucky today. =)

.tim *i am willing. my glimpse of sunshine*

181209 - GG SOQM, Holidays!

Lesson at 8! omg. imagine dragging urself to sch.. i slept 3/4 of the train ride.. i slept standing up -.-.. anway, not many came.. thanks ms tan for the hashbrown and laugther.. =) lecture ended at 12. studied in the library. did some band stuff.. and ya.. here comes the paper... and i was so tired and pfft.. didnt study much... wa... the things i study nv come out leh.. the things i didnt came out.. omg! first time spot wrong qn.. maybe too tired.. GG, maybe a 60%? sadded.

rush to finish up my band worked.. then left to celebrate jolie's bday in advance.. woo.. time to save! getting tight.. but yay! hols are here.. on the bright side.. i can have a break.. time to let go abit.. time for a break.. =D study.. rmb.. study.. driving tml morning! last lesson! then goin to my fren's place for advance xmas in the evening. wonder who i will meet there.. haha. yup.. tiring day.. slp earli. new straight soft bed sheets! thanks mummy!

.tim *Jiayou! you can do it! i'm here, supporting you all the way*

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its time to let go. its time to loosen those tense muscle. its time to wash it off. time to be like the little kitten. smileeeeeeeee. =D

171209 - part 3

long long day. having slept for less then 4 hrs. dragged myself up for the 8 am lesson.. everyone was still slping when i left. =( i want to say. attending miss tan's lesson was not bad.. at least it puts my mind away from other tots for tat period.. and i can just laugh it off.. im sorry i had to leave the class to do band stuff again.. i'll arrange a better system.. tml theres a ms tan's laughaton session at 8 tml.. i shall go.. and pull my mind away...

decided to skip MCAD lecture again.. went home.. took a 10 min nap.. and got summon to pass the key... and i was late to meet my fren... sorry.. had a few laughs with everyone b4 goin our seperate ways.. Ramdan was pretty amusing.. miss the show.. went for another one.. had prata and cake b4 that.. chocolate =) thanks for the company.. the day was full of ups and downs.. ended in happiness. =) thanks.

theres a test tml.. and guess its gonna be a long day. got shit to clear. had to sacrifice celebrating ppl's bday. wow. R vs PI.

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manage my thoughts. =)

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.tim *the present*

161209 - watiting.

compensation paper in the morning.. pretty ok.. my gastric pains almost killed me.. had double patty straight away after the paper.. supposed to have a meeting but the subject wasnt ard.. went to class.. whitney and cheryl started taking pic.. so ya, join in.. bpo tut, who's listening again? haha. TEP awards.. its boring. lame. whats the use of the cert when so many ppl have it? relative worth.

waited in sch till abt 6 to have a short meeting over a specific subject matter.. saw yh while waiting so sat tgt to chat and catch up.. started thinking lot and ya.. swing swing... well.. the needle is found. and i had a moment of truth. so now how am i goin to progress... am i supposed to be on 24/7 standby? erm, reality check, i don stay in NYP hostel. ummm.. dono la dono la. otw home, war brewed in thou skull. alot alot of tots. my decision is this for now. for the better. its time. so much to decide. i have my tots.

i am having a prediction. it feels logical and real. hoping it will not happen just will not work.. taking too much precaution may back fire.. contingency plans. you just have to trust! i keep telling myself tat. and i will continue to do it. for the better. =) action speaks. others can feel.

test on friday. 5 lectures. all the best. good nites.

.tim *smile*

151209 - Emo-tional. bye IB.

i am doin wat i can do already. its not like i don wan to help. i HAVE been doing alot of things. i go back to that dark room hoping it will appear. i really wonder.. who might be doing this. you hate me so much ar? thanks ar. even if its personal, don drag other ppl into the picture la.. -.- ok. i shall not assume anything.. but but.. its not funny lo.. during this test and project week.. u have to leave the class to do stuff, ans phone blah blah blah.. its not fun at all.. oh where oh where.. oh where might thou be.. please come back.. i am giving myself a time check. i am washing my hands.

on the other hand. bye IB. had to live on mentos jus to get myself hyper.. -.- sorry girls, i know i crazy.. i shall not scream and shout and jump ard for no reason.. haha.. Ms Ang said my group's topic was good in a way and bad in a way.. bad cuz for 3/4 of it she was thinking abt the link.. cuz its abit bias.. WHO ASK SOUTH KOREA TO BE SO SUCCESSFUL? haha.. lucky she said, the conclusion was good.. i phew on the SPOT. at least its done and over with for now.. thanks for the red tie.. it breezed me thru the ppt..

compensation ica1 tml. shdnt be too bad since the focus is clear lect 1-5 mcq, 3 casestudy.. should be able to =) i shall eat my chocolate. and look for my lollipop. and hide under my blanket to study. =( umm.. moody~

.tim *faith*

141209 - irritated

topic 1

today is an irritating day... stop askinggggggggggggggggg... i am doing wat i can already... give time can? hello? i still got sch can. i know u need the tings. but wait la.. there's a certain reporting process we have to follow. be patient abit can? ok.. i am so wanting to wash my hands already. tsk. i have ppt tml! how to have meeting.. argh... and im the last group, sure overrun.. i don want! slice me into 2 la.. half ppt half meet. =.=

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topic 2

i am disappointed in u. to think u shd be more matured. but u are not. althou im not the main subject matter.. but wat i feel is, omg. u are such an idiot.. i wan to wake u up.. but i dono how. maybe u might not agree with my tots.. but u are a guy. do the right thing la...

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topic 3

some ppl are so childish. no balls. no nehs. not happi come la. don do it behind. got prob don wan solve.. then still ACT frenly.. HAVE A STAND CAN? keeping quiet doesnt mean i dono.. doing nth doesnt mean im letting u step over.. like i say.. im neutral.. i let do wat pleases u.. step over and i'll retaliate..

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topic 4

am i too nice? a stranger on the street asked me for money to take train... and i gave.. he look decent, maybe he lost his wallet or wat... oh well... anyway, when ppl need help.. i always try go and help.. when i need help? how many ppl will help u? onli i know who are my supportive frens lo.. don worry. i wont forget u.. i said this since pri sch.. and i will say it again.. u nice to me, i nicer to u.. u bad to me, i evil to u...

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i ha ice cream cake.. yum yum.. hee hee.. =D walked ard.. and i finally got tat box! i am clearing those things away... ummm.. enough for the day.. tml will be a long day. hais. jy!

.tim *faith hope trust*

131209 - mind control

today's a bored bored bored day... i slept alot.. at least, i caught up with slp.. i clean the hse.. and did my project... i haven study thou... haha.. my table is still half packed.. omg. i am so lazy can?! had yong tao fu for lunch and for dinner.. not bad.. today i got family day... at home.. its been awhile since we sat tgt to eat... haha... but but but! i wan eat ice cream.. i wan eat chocolate.. dark chocolate! i wan eat laksa... i wan new earphones.. i wan my ipod touch... i wan new phone.. i wan more clothes.. i wan this i wan tat.. its endless rite.. haha.. okok... im fine with them or without them.. most impt.. i know i have someone i can always depend on.. =) tats all i need.. rich or poor, i am still like this... happi =) materialist me has been replaced.. cuz cuz.. =) shhh...

anyway.. my needle is still missing.. irritating leh.. appear leh... dear ghost of G301, i think u had enough fun... next time then play can? thank you.. and and.. aiyo.. stop asking le la.. i explain until i give up... i say i will update once i get any update... and i don like it leh.. don ask me to do stupid things can? not i selfish or wat la but you are so irritating can... give me a break la... i am so wanting to wash my hands in the golden basin... 2 words for u. irritating irritant. ha ha.

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happy also one day, sad also one day... u choose.. its the way u see things.. open up and see beyond ur sight. hear it, feel it, taste it. there more happiness ard then you think there is. smile.

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.tim *i want u more then anything =) with u, im the happiest guy on earth*

busy busy slpy slpy stressy stressy

the past week has been, TIRING! but quite fruitful. =) i had fun in the midst of all these stresses. 3 papers for the week. IHRM, okok.. =) BPO, after 5 hrs of muggin in the library. okok. MCAD - cant be bothered. problem!

i've been falling aslp everywhere i go.. haha.. and clement slps with his eyes open.. scary right... lebin knows it best. busy week... but i enjoyed it.. it was fun.. thou stress.. had fun bitching ard with my lecturers and classmates... takes the stress away for awhile.. let alone my wonderful frens who accompany me thru the long stressful nites.. great company. great food. i am happy.

upcoming, tuesday IB ICA1, wed COMPEN ica 1, friday SOQM ica 1 and SOQM project survey. monday driving test. tue medical. we MCAD proj... i am quite packed. hold on tight.. its gonna be a tough ride.

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you are too much. finding a needle in the haystack. i am gonna wash my hands in the golden basin

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.tim *u make me smile*

one big thank you.

Concert is over. =) thank you one and all for all ur efforts and dedication. thank you to my frens for being understanding during this period. thank you my friends for helping me when i need you most. thank you for putting up with my nonsense. thanks. one big thank you! =) thanks.

upcoming. testS. project. driving test. open house. im taking a 2 weeks break from band to focus on sch work. after tat. its back to band.. jan will be crazy.. its major projects month. oh man.. when can i get to enjoy my fast few mths in sch.. haha...

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i have lotsa tots running in my head now.

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.tim *i'm adapting*

i am goin crazy. ahh!

concert tml.

.tim *imyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimyimy! iwyiwyiwy*

坏人

.tim *sighs*

坏人

.tim *sighs*

maybe i have given up

everything is not going too well.. i have ran out of motivation for anything already... im just gonna do wat i need to do.. one person.. selfish.. well.. no one cares anyway... 5 projects.. 1 test.. tell me wat to do... lost, fragmented. maybe i have given up.. its ok... no one cares.

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okay.. let me recalled wat happened ytd..

went to sch.. lessons was so so so boringgggggggg. i skipped IB and compensation.. compensation leh... one my of favorites. =( ms tan was asking where was i.... anyway.. was moving the stuff to audi.. the usual.. concert is in a few daysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

last nite's pract was so tiring lo... omg. after moving.. i was like pffft. already.still pract for 4 hr.. haha.. went for dinner.. was so full! haha.. i was like.. im so lazy to move.... im so lazy to eat... haha.. i dono wat i blogging also. oh ya. tat z in you is still so irritating.

BYE

011209 - Shag is an understatement

i am so tired today. sch. then i had to skip lessons to move stuff to the audi. so slow.. and hot! argh.... then pract.. 4 hrs of playingggggggggggggggggggggggggg... so hot.. so tired... my joints are all cuiiiiiiiiiiiiii! i am shagggggggggggg. and achingggggggggggg. and worried abt lessonssssss... went for dinner after band. =D and home... the next few days will be SHAG-ingly, irritating. oh ya.. tat z in you is still as irritating.

hope everything go well tml.. i will blog properly tml.... i hope i got the time. nites...................

.tim *can i slp on u? haha*

301109 - falling in place. falling apart.

definitely a long day today. sch. boring. rushed home for driving. HE FORGOT TO BOOK MY CIRCUIT! i wasted my time driving on the road for 2 hrs. wth. sit until my butt pain. =( drove to sch. ordered food. put up posters. hais... no appetite. i am upset with alot of things. SENSE OF URGENCY? 4 more days! where is the sense of urgency? don last min again. i HATE it I HATE!. tsk. oh ya.. and the Z in u is so irritating. argh! everything please go well for the rest of the week.

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Falling in place.

slowly, everything is taking its respective place. its a sooner or later thing. im still stressed up with unfinished business. but it will all fall into place.. i have faith. =) tml will go well. yes it will.

Falling apart.

as u focus on one. u neglect another. my studies is worrying me. im gonna miss 3 weeek of IB in total. =( hais. sorry frens. wait for me. after this concert i will come back to u =). sorryyyyyyyy. lastly.. im falling apart. can u sit there and play ur flute until u get so dizzy it worries you? alot of other things in my life is not goin too well.. slowly.. i will get a hold of them.. slowlyyyyyyyyyyyy..

deep down inside.

i have so much to say. so much i wanna do. was looking forward. hmmm. faster please. faster... i feel i might just explode soon.

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.tim *put my tots into words and it paints a picture*