stayed up to do MCAD ppt.

i am so mentally drained.

cant stop thinking... yet trying to stay strong.

haha... fb and internet.. oh anything to do with web, i HATE you so much.. web communication is EVIL!

my friend said:"you emo until crazy already ar? can feel you are very sad about something yet you are still entertaining me with your jokes.. are you ok?"

i said: "nah, don worry.. im fine (:"

TIME to slp... nitenite everyone..

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a totally random song playing on my totally random itunes which stuck to my totally random mind. random.

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.tim *hmmm, nah. (:*

040110 - nature's course

No school today.. did some house chores and washed my hoodies... its so heavy! back breaking in a way.. yet makes u feel happi after u get it clean.. wash the rest of the clothes and finally i decided to wash the blood stain away. after so many mths.. BYE. haha... simple lunch while watching bolt.. the show is cute lo.. went sch for band..

i dono why but i was so DISTRACTED. first i walk the wrong way to the mrt.. took the longer route.. then instead of stopping at serangoon, i stopped at potong pasir.. nvm.. train back to serangoon then i took the train to bartley instead of marymount.. am i dum or wat? sighs. went for supper at popeye's after band and half the time i was like.. staring into space? anyway.. the bus was damn cold.. almost froze to death.

king kong was showing on tv when i got home.. watched it.. nice yet saddening.. anyway. today's god msg is worrying.. ok... fb is like crap rite.. but watever is goin thru my mind.. somehow has some link to it.. am i just thinking too much? somehow i don't know.. i think just let things flow ba.. how its gonna be and the outcome.. let nature take its course... oh.. theres so much tots in my mind its so draining me..

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.tim *faith hope trust. i'll respect the decision. patience. or maybe im just thinking too much*

030110 - "ah Choo~"

today is a ah choo day.. woke up 9 plus lo.. dono for wat also.. church home.. eat slp proj eat slp proj... haha.. glad tat mcad is almost done! yay! and i tot tml got sch lo.. so silly! omg.. tml no sch! yay!! but tues have.. aww... haha... nvm... went out in the evening.. and i fat already.. 2 days ago i tried this trousers and it fits nice but no size! but today i wan go buy the correct one.. aww... can fit la.. but abit too fit.. im fat! omg. had laughs... =) otw home.. this song suddenly came to my mind.. its a very old song.. but its nice...

.tim *사랑해요*

020110 - childhood flashback

woke up so earli in the morning.. and the bus dont want co-operate with me.. work was ok.. did wii station.. haha. i have a few flash back of my mummy bringing me to the zoo when i was very very small... hmm.... kfc and home. overslept and when to my fren's mummy's advance bday party. =) the moon was very very bright and round today.

.tim *really really*

high school musical on disney channel again.

.tim

wee hours.. time to leave the house..

woke up with this tune in my head from the same dream..

.tim

010110 - good start.

happy new year. today's good start i guess... got home real late slept quite alot.. had good food.. helped mummy. bathed and went tree hunting.. i had fun today.. crazi crazi unglamly making a fool of myself on the streets.. how often do i do it? seldom. walk till my legs so tired.. but im happy. the moon was very very round and bright tonite.. at least, it made me smile.

on a side note, gotta wake up at 530am tml! Zzz Zzz. GG. and phone died.

.tim *tell me*

311209 - byebye! Hello!

byebye 2009.

its a year full of alot lot lot lot of happenings, challenges, difficulties... of cuz i rmb all the fun i had.. the laughter the friends.. i made new frens.. i rmb them all.. i lost some frens.. one day i will get them back.. =) and of cuz.. BYE NIGHTMARE! u !@#$%^&.

anyway.. 2010 is here.. its gonna be a great, smooth, happening one.. i know it will be.. i made my resolutions.. =) forward 2010.. yay! simple yet memorable countdown.. actually one of the few i ever attended.. definitely one of the happy happy days.

.tim *=)*

301209 - New Hair? Locked in

went for a haircut today. now i look likeof cuz its the uglier version but in short.. its quite short yet long.. and i think i want it shorter... soon.. soon.. ha ha ha.. anyway.. meet up with my fren and went back to sch.. i told him not to be shocked and he saw me and commented.. u think u korean ar? then i ehh.. no.. i just went there and say i wan a very short hair.. then i closed my eyes.. haha.. anyway.. i was locked up in the sportshall.. like wth? its not even 10 and im locked in... watever. anyway.. i said alot of things today.. can say.. i feel better yet i don feel too good.. like middle middle.. not here not there.. i dono.

i don feel like goin out for lunch outing tml.. maybe i shouldn't... shd i go club tml? ha ha ha.. watever... maybe i shd cut my hair shorter tml..

.tim *not hoping for much. still, i want u*

i boarded the new train.

i saw this on disney channel.

time to prepare. i am GOIN FOR A HAIR CUT! this time for real.

GOODBYE.

.tim

291209 - piece it back tgt

i had popeye's today. =) thank you! Currently sneezing away.. =( anyway. your life. your responsibility. its time to piece it back tgt.. if angel happens to help.. good for u.. if not, u still have to do it.. one challenge, one plus point, one more puzzle piece. paint your own picture.

reminder to self :"don expect anything. anything can happen"

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faith hope trust. dictionary? brain? heart?

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.tim *i still cried otw home in the end*

Another day.. Another New Beginning...

was it just a dream or was it all too real?

uncertain of the path. blurred by obstacles..

but press on.. ur pot of gold awaits you.

.tim *ehh! i miss you! so much!*

281209 - drifts

nth interesting today. lunch with sec sch classmate and he was late! headed to sch.. self pract a little.. i think i shall do it more often. band was okay? bro came to help.. thats one thing off my load.. phew.. thanks.. am now home.. eating my cake for dinner. cake is a nice thing.. it makes u smile but ice cream and chocolate still work best...

browse thru my picture folder, fb.. alot of memories.. i miss the holidays.. i miss the old sch days..

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sometimes u wonder why are u the one doing all these.. its amazing how a tot of it can change ur mood... sometimes u just feel so USED. is this wat they call FFB? oh.. the projects i have to do..

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.tim *i'm finding my answer*

New Day, New Beginning

Brand new day, Brand new start.

Time to prepare for school.

*My Mask*

its been a roller coaster ride today... im very very tired.. 我真的好累了。。好累。。

tml will be a better day thou i know wat i have to do.. i tried to smile =) i will try again tml..

im tired.. good nite..

tender loving care from up above

some ppl ask me how can u be so nice to ppl who hurt u? i have been asking tat but i dono why.. maybe i just like to do it.. im brought up this way.. tats jus me. went posting letters with mummy.. and she told me this.. which i cannot stop laughing...

"today morning, ur daddy was doin the usual.. smoking at the balcony befor his daily business.. then i made him his brandy creme coffee.. then he said this to me... " wa, (mummy's name), u take very good care of me hor.." then i feel so happy the whole day"

i cannot stop laughing... haha.. its amazing how a small sentence can make someone so happy for so long... of cuz i have my moments. i think its true.. i learnt to do this from up above...

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part 2

"sometimes ur daddy scold u all for nth rite, is not he want... is cuz he work.. then stress and pek chek... he also don like to scold u all.. he cares alot abt you kids also... see, every sunday.. he will stock up the fridge and cook ur favorites.. so when he is unreasonable.. u all must uds... don get upset... left year in right ear out.."

haha.. its true i guess.. give and take.. try to uds... cuz afterall.. these are the ppl u can rely on... as for ur frens... u decide urself... i always complain alot.. but in the end.. i will do it.. cuz if u can help.. just help.. cuz if u are in need of help.. u wish they will be there for u too rite?

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every relationship is a dedicate unique balance... give and take.. understanding and tolerance.. love and care... faith and trust.. hope and sweetness... theres so much in it... happiness and sadness.. its part of it... how long it last lies in ur hands.... maintain it...

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.tim *we will still be as loving if not more loving 1 yr, 10 yrs, 100 yrs down the road.*

271209 - love your enemy

nth much today. went amk for a stroll. theres pop's eye there.. =) currently in a moodless mood as per the last few days. so very sian..

love your enemy.. u must be thinking i mad already rite? nope.. im crazy but i think this is a good idea.. how can u find peace if u urself ain't peaceful at all? no matter wat.. its a vicious cycle isn't it? if someone does sth nasty and mean to you, and u do it back. then that person do it to u again.. then when is this goin to end.. both of u get more and more hurt isn't it? this is one of the reason why sometimes i just keep quiet. its not tat i don't care or im nice to bully.. its just i think its pointless to do anything. ha.ha.

.tim *i want to put tat smile back on ur face again*

261209 - Tuaygi Tuki

rainy cold day. eat and eat. slept alittle. tot alot. watched “妻子的诱惑”.

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watching the DVD, u feel life is unfair. why are there always these ppl. who just wanna ruin ur life. have they nothing better to do? if i could. i would erase them away.. reading some things makes me feel so ??? of cuz im upset.. but im more hurt... u actually wrote tat. and it's pointless to ask u to del it or anything.. wat's happened already happened.. let it be..

time and time again.. there has been many rumors abt me.. scandals.. silly ones.. serious ones.. nonsensical ones.. there was even one abt me quiting sch and migrating. when will they stop? its silly isnt it.. and others actually believe.. i have no comments.

no matter how you feel. happi or sad. angry or calm. u know who will be there for you. deep down inside.. small actions. treasured feelings. only you know. actions speaks louder then words.

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.tim *will u take me on a holiday? away from all these challenges?*

clear the air

cleared with the person.. but then start another tot of mind.. why is tat things like this always happen when a particular person is there? suspicious rite? haha.. yet.. nth is mentioned here. no names were ever mentioned.. =) smile... this particular person. THANKS! u are such a *toot*.

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i have my tots. 1 years ago, u did this..this year, u do it again to me.. just that the other person changed. wat have i even done to u? haha. guess it just pleases u to see me suffer rite... karma ok.

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.tim

251209 - don't think so much.

241209 - kite

woke up quite earli to prepare some food for sentosa.. sorry for being late.. really didnt mean to.. anyway.. run ard, played. tried to fly my kite but no wind.. aww... overall.. i am happy.. =) had dinner out went home rest awhile and met the rest at cityhall.. again.. sorry for being late.. thanks for waiting.. headed to esplanade to chill.. and i knocked out eventually cuz i was too tired.. cabbed home.. merry christmas.

251209 - don think so much

sent my day at home slping away in the end.. so much idle time = more time to think. which is bad. anyway.. merry chirstmas everyone. =) hope u had a great one.

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wat would u do when u are accused but am innocent? was it just a miscommunication or has the wordS of mouthS changed the whole picture? clear conscious. watever it is. do as u please.

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.tim