Its A Long LonG StoRy...

oh well.. jus reached home.. =) jus now joseph and weeong ask me y i stay with my dad.. lol... haiz... since i told them le... i shouldn't hide it anymore...

here goes the truth tat i'll been trying so hard to hide... =(
A few mths back.. my parents had a tiff over some personal matters... after tat.. they fell out... and my mum left... haiz... wasnt ard to stop her... regretted... i had band tat day... =( oh well..

ever since then.. i'll been running between both hses.. but currently am living with dad cuz its nearer to sch.. its not easy u know.. im sandwiched in the middle.. i don want them to D.... but... its realli difficult.. lately.. i carn contact my mum... which made me real sad... and the darling i speak of in this blog is her... i hope u guys read le wont anyhow go spread tat my darling is someone else... its not nice and oh nvm.. haiz, the reason y i use the name darling is cuz i wanna hide the truth tat stm like tat has happened...

oh well... today its my turn to fall out... i recieve a msg.. from someone... i couldn't explain... haiz... nvm abt tat... tat someone wish mi and darling well... =\... oh well... how many of you guys reading know this is happening to me? do u guys know how much i envy you? having a warm and lovin family? my life used to be so perfect... i had such a huge hse... warm family... money and all... and slowly its all being taken away from me... it always happens this way.. when i finally start to recover from it.. it comes again... haiz... sometimes i jus wanna let go of everything... jus don wake up from slp or sth...

how i wish i had someone to talk to... someone to care for me.. someone to share my troubles... oh well... frens are all i got now.. and my blog... haiz... try having to handle all those + stress from frens + stress from studies + stress from teachers + many many more... esp band... im so attached to it.... i carn leave... alot of things has happened... some confidential... some happi.. most sad... but i still love my band... i donno why...

and now...im feeling lost again... what shd i do... i want my old life back... my family and all... guardian angels.... pls come help me... give me hope b4 i give up hope... haiz... im so super sad now... i need to be alone... sry my fair bloggie..
hope those who read will try to uds...

-timmi signing off =(