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well... sth happened last nite... reminded of my past and im pretty lost and unhappy abt it...
for the past few mths, slowly trying to put aside wat happened and move forward...
was slow and torturing but i did it... now back to square zero again.. sad

pretty heartbroken... i went back to band with the intention of helping out... even more heart broken again... band~ dono at to say la.. sometimes things are jus like tat and we have to accept the fact... i wont be popping by tat often le bah... maybe once a year? in the morning, there was some probs and we had to wait 1+hr... sad.. maybe tat someone donno wat to say bah.. maybe tat someone thinks we're all evil creatures here to create trouble.. well.. later mrs leong came to talk to us~ meaning kai, marcuz and mi.. dono wat to say la...

saw sth happened today too... think most hurting de bah... thou we're jus frens but jus dono y i wanna care so much... i think i shd have stayed at home.. shouldnt have gone out at all...
sometimes i think i care too much abt everything.. in the end, i always lose out... i don show much emotions.. act normal... but how long can tat last? think im gonna adopt the "none of my business" attitude towards some probs... don wanna be hurt any further...

conclusion~> 9th march and 10th march was by far the worse days of 2007... and it'll be long before i forget everything again.... few mths bah... i'll have to stay happi i guess.... wont be online so often.... i gotta go somewhere.. and hope my sis will enjoy her Japan trip... hope im back b4 she leaves.... smile all~

~tim signing off