day in day out worry this and tat...
so busy.. i am like having a full day work.. after tat go for band... then rush home to teach homework.. hais... after tat still got my other work to do... trying very hard to multitask already.. but jus seem to not have enough time... i sometimes jus feel like quiting evrything... don care... jus relax and enjoy.. is anyone else more busy then me? hais! HATE IT.. its worse when other ppl are not being helpful at all... maybe i shd be more selfish..
cuz of this.. i have been losing myself.. i no longer have control over wat i do.. i act like a lunatic.. wat happen to the old me? wheres the happi little boi.. why do i now have to take all those remarks, comments, responsibilities... sometimes being a kid is such a bliss.. so carefree.. so peaceful.. ignorance is a bliss... i wan a break.. i need it.. before i go mad... which i think am 80% mad already...
wat if one day i totally loss myself... will i get admitted to IMH? will i still know who i am? who will rmb me.. who are the true frens.. who cares? who understands?
life has alot alot of question marks.. the optimistic comments and self encouragement seem to have numb off... none of which is helping.. no longer... like a drug overdose.. useless...
if there is a time machine.. i would like to not have alot of things.. sometimes u just feel like u are in all these alone... everyday is jus another day of torture... so busy.. so tired.. i don even have time for myself...
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