sch was -.-! i am damn stressed now.. everything in life is going anyhow... its the time when u just want to say.. i give up. do watever u want.. i don want to care anymore.. but i cant.. oh well.. remind me next time not to go home and leave the hse 10 mins later and be caught in the rain.. my head is going boom boom boom... best if i don have wake up tml.. no one cares anyway...
sight reading today.. ok.. my sight reading improved.. but still a long way to go..am i playing for concert? its in june.. am i enlisted already? i dont know a thing abt it.. anyway... i think its physiological but my chest is painful.. ok, im aching everywhere but my chest is pain.. am i like really crumbling already? breaking down.. dying soon... ha ha ha... maybe i just need a breather.. wat do you do when u keep having this nitemare? is it just u think too much or does it really mean sth? its just me myelf and i... so tim, please bring tim for a break.. before theres no more tim..
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pillar of support
everyone has one or more.. sorry. this pillar is crumbling.. plaster, marble, concrete... whos gonna repair this pillar? whos gonna be this pillar's pillar of support? everyday is jus another day.. nth to hope for.. nth to look forward to.. no motivation.. cuz theres just so much that one has to think about. and its ok. this pillar has decided not to stand anymore.. the pillar has fallen.. who will mend this pillar? one tot too many... maybe.. maybe..
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.tim
*life has lost its colours.. life has lost its meaning.. life has lost its hope... i really really miss you... =(*