irritating. u and ur stupid ideas.

u got an extra line. u ask me to use. then someone say shes gonna sponsor cuz no one is using and its wasteful. now u throw it to me. ask me to pay myself. thanks ar. actually come to think of it. i also don use it anymore.. i use to use it for awhile.. cuz of some ... oh well.. GUESS IM BONDED FOR THE NEXT 2 YEARS PAYING FOR YOUR MISTAKE. thank you working adult with your empty promises. U AND UR STUPID IDEAS. anyway. i hate it when ppl give empty promises. if u cant do it. DON PROMISE AT ALL. irritating. this reminds me how much i wan u to move out. watever. i'll live with it for the next 6 mths till i get enlisted. and HOPEFULLY sent abroad. then i don have to see ur face. 4 child. all hopes on one. no wonder im stressed. thanks.

i have 2 weeks to complete it all. thank you. ppl ask why u don wan others to help. i say. its cuz of the many empty promises. watever. i Do it is faster then i ASK ppl to help. wat time already. half study. half work. still need do hse work. teach little devil. take all the attitude and yet maintain a super high GPA cuz why. all the hopes on 1. thanks ar. if i fall and faint and hopefully loss my memories. its thank to u hor. u and ur empty promise. watever la. i hate it. i hate IT. EMPTY PROMISES! ARGH. memories that huant me. im gonna emo again. thanks to another u. =(

im just venting my anger. cuz im so tired. pffffft. reminder to self.. "good intentions" ok. i shall just swallow it all. next time, i know not to trust YOU.

.tim *hey, im starting to miss you alot already*

"is this bottle empty? no. its full of empty promises"

211109 - Travel. Happi earli bday jolene.

Woke up at 8 today.. again. so tired! i wonder why. last nite i was so tired but my head was painful.. didnt slp well.. went labrador park to work today.. set up the place in the morning.. then the main event.. the boy's home guys are ok leh.. just abit rude here and there but overall they are ok la... and it rain and shine and rain and shine and rain. the wind was so strong! omg. i wan fly kite! i WANT!!!!!!!!! who wanna bring me go? =) anyway... got caught in the rain again. pfft. its a nice place thou.. i like. i wan go. =)

train to jolene's chalet. happi 21st! i was too hungry so i ate old chang kee and cup walker while waiting for vivien. =x.. oh ya.. WISH U HAPPI 21st okay! my DA JIE hor. wish u happi happi always and pretty pretty ar.. and GROW TALLER ABIT. =x jkjk.. all the best! =D hope u like the gift we got u ^^

tired.. tml 6am need wake up.. pffft

.tim *it starts tml*

"Labrador Park - Windy, clear blue sea, cruise, greens, PLAYGROUND. lovely"

201109 - Drenched. Rest.

Tiring day. lessons at 8 am. i was so lethargic.. guess wat. i slept in lecture and Charlie's angels said my neck was 90degree. omg. isnt tat super unglam? IHRM lesson was ~~ lo. my team wont the mini game cuz i was bored so i just anyhow raise.. and ms tan gave us chocolate pie! CHOCOLATE! U KNOW? CHOCOLATE?! i ate. i was hyper. then i went emo. cuz cuz cuz. stomach pain. =( and i wan chocolate.

stayed in sch to finish up the posters banners and all. i was like doing it in class lo. and can u please reply my email? =( anyway. when we were abt to leave sch. it started to rain. like snow. then suddenly the cats and dogs came crashing down. i was DRENCHED. got home, too tired. fell aslp. woke up with the. OMG, wat happen? my head hurts. and it still hurts.

next 2 days will be a long day. i have much to do. 2 more weeks. rush rush. mentally challenged. but. nv say die. soon it will be over. projects please give me a break can? tutorials step aside. concert for now. wat abt myself? hmm... next life? pffft. take care.

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i saw the numbers on the watch. but do they have a meaning? only i will know. =]

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.tim *its been barely a day but i have to say. imy. hope the next few days will be easy to pass*

191109 - im FINE. "its true! i tell u, its true!"

1 word. Exhausted.

long long day. MOODSWING? even ms tan ask if im ok. haha. thank you everyone. the kid is FINE. he is really really FINE. thank you very much. lessons as usual. headed to band room awaiting C.O.'s arrival to collect the chimes. piano awhile. see HAN regarding concert. gosh. lots to do. im fine. band room again. this time no piano. =( lie on the platform. stare blank. went for a short walk to sbm block and back. sat down. think. ok. nvm. i shall go home. then i change my mind. i wan to eat. HUNGRY. ate chicken rice with lets see 4 serving of chilli. someone call me a chilli monster! tsk. ya, stomach pain. stayed out for awhile then home. gonna do tut and slp i guess. im so tired. really really tired.

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always go for wat u really want. tats wat im doing right now.

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.tim *thank you*

181109 - Silly Choices

the day was such a silly one. i CABBED to sch cuz i tot im gonna be late and i don wan to miss the class. and guess wat. theres onli this 2 hr tut and THE TUTOR WAS SICK. everyone came for nth. no prior notice. nothing. wasted cab fair. wasted trip. blah blah.

went for brunch with the girls and sufri, halif. bought koi and decided to stroll back to sch. piano therapy for awhile. did tut. some band publicity stuff. and ya. paino again. then dinner and band. i realise. i lost my appetite for everything. and i was screaming and shouting.. haha.. tired maybe?

band was ok. cuz i was abit pek chek so i decided to just forget everything and pract. guess wat. i am 90% confident with my parts. and i was still quite distracted. sorry ben. took up alot of time to go thru with me. and thank you! very patient. very encouraging. thanks.

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Student. Musician. Leader. Brother. Son. Friend.

obligations. passion. rest.

lots to do. as usual. nth is impossible. just how long can you last.

physiological. physical. emotional.

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Treasures. choices. emotions. time.

when things you need/want seems so near. it moves away from you again.

continue pursuing it? give up? choices again.

life is simple. you complicate it.

solution; REMOVE foreign contaminant and its simple again. don bring in things or stuff that is not in the picture. wat matter most is wat u really want/need. cheers.

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rain. pain.

don rain so much can? its painful.

the usual + on offs. it turns you off.

all i need. CHOCOLATE.

chocolate is my life. my motivation. my passion.

.tim *all i need is just chocolate*

Smile. =)

Smile alright. =) should always take everything with a smile. cheer up.

tml's gonna be a new and better day.

=D look at my hand

.tim *i'm sorry. =)*

171109 - soul-less

i lost myself. again. im just a floating shell. missed my bus in the morning. tot of train but who knows. i overshot my stop and i was late. sch was blank. mine was somewhere else. and i will use the overhead bridge if theres one from now on. my back and leg hurts.

i am sad. leave me alone.

.tim *were u serious?*

161109 - Moody. Raindrops.

Today's a busy and moody day. raindrop keeps falling on my head. lessons were ok. wanted to skip IB for watever reason but didnt. rushed home for driving lessons. driving was ok... nth much.. drove in the rain today. at first scary. then ok already.. scary cuz its so noisy.. and irritating. but rest was ok.. i anyhow drive again. no mood. went home. HUNGRY LIKE DONO WAT. ate plain bread. tsk. NTH at home to eat. rest awhile. fell aslp. someone came. woke me up. irritated. decided to go into the room lie down awhile and dressed up for sch again. went amk to get koi for amanda. sch, sian. no piano for me today. upset. band was ok. shall not say much. mood is sian. everything also sian. headache again. dot dot dot. hais. SIAN!

sometimes u wonder if this is really you. u didnt knw u could do such things. u go the extra mile.. and maybe its time to draw a line. anyway.. headache.. nite.

p.s. i wan my chocolate!

.tim *sometimes u wonder how u could miss someone so much. imy*

151109 - Jerold's 20

wow! so many november babies! happi birthday jerold! =)

before meeting up with the rest, decided to ask kor out for cake.. BUT as usual.. they don have the cake i wanted. so we made do with icecream.. i had topless 5 + chocolate fudge, marcus ate chewy chocolate sth sth.. haha both of us went.. AIYO, STOMACH PAIN LEH. met up with the rest later on.. went to spizza to surprise jerold. i think esther is such a sweet girl.. every year, she plans sth for jerold.. so nice rite.. tsk tsk..

went home after tat... headache ar.. i dono why... tml theres sch and driving.. then band. hope i get better. and this is the song of my nite.. it rings in my mind.. i dono why also... =)

.tim *wat matters is that we are in our hearts*

141109 - sleepy head. stop staring

131109 - Carol's Birthday!

happi birthday carol!

went to bugis for steamboat to celebrate.. the food was ok.. we planned a surprise which didnt go as much as we planned. but SHE was abit surprised.. and best of all. happy =) tats most impt.. oh man... we braved the rain to go to the steamboat place.. and i went to fetch the blur mr halif.. and i got wet. -.- while lighting the candles. she already saw us.. ahhh... =( but haha.... everyone was happi =)

after steamboat when walking ard bugis.. took neoprints and off we go. went to find my fren after tat for chillax.. cold and rainy nite. i like the calming feel but my back so pain =( went for a walk and got scared by an ah neh.. no wonder they say fri 13 is a black friday.. black indeed.

and wats with ppl and staring at me. don so rude leh.. i paranoid leh.. u all wan stare don let me know ok... thank you... =) im jus another average kid.. stare at me makes me feel like.. wat? got sth on my face is it? or did i do sth wrong?

141109 - sleepy head

i dono why i slept so much today.. just so lazy.. pfft.. eat and slp, eat and slp. like a pig. i guess its good in a way? cuz i haven been sleeping enough... today catch up ar.. but slp too much now abit headache already.. and i feel so fat! omg. i ate so much. nth much already i guess... i am goin to bed soon.

.tim *every moment, every tot*

131109 - black friday

121109 - movie was a disappointment

nth much happened today... watch a movie.. sorry my fren, haha.. i got at fright towards the end i and i think i grab too hard... the day ended well.. i am still happi despites external influences. thank you.

131109 - black friday

i already don like them. and they make it even so. am so tired now. nites all. blog tml.

.tim *you light up my life*

Tired. but smiling. =)

i'll post tml. nites.

.tim

111109 - pout pout pout.

wow.. today is 1111 eh... haha.. i i i i actually had so much plans.. haha.. la la la la la... anyway... today was a long and tiring day... and i keep pouting.. i dono why but it feels so fun.. =x went for super lunch with the girls. i realise we always feast! i like the food today.. eat until i explode... went jj's for mahjong.. quite fun ar.. but i missed out on the dinner.. =( pout. went back to sch cuz i had band...

band was ok i guess. had to do some urgent stuff while practicing so ya.. do do do... then practice then do then practice. rushed back home and stupidly cooked tomyam noodles with extra padi. =( pout.. stomach so pain.. dum dum. did abit of tut and now.. my brain is so dead.. im so not absorbing anything.. haha.. i dono wat i talking... maybe i use my brains too much today.. EHH! i wan astroboy. this one i cfm i wan. =D

i have so many stuff i feel like doing. haha.. but but.. for now still cannot. but im already very happy. just the tot of it puts a smile on my face. im glad and happi in many ways.. so many ways.. beauty lies in the simplicity of life. just like astroboy. pure genius + pure love + pure astroboy. ok.. im like having some world war in my head now. byebye.

.tim *imagination goes a long way*

time is all i need.

was so tired ytd... i woke up at 959 today.. and 20 sec later, my alarm rang. wow. feels so lazy.. i didnt wanna go to school but! i cannot. so ya.. dressed up, got irritated by the little one and left in a rush to school. currently having Business Outsourcing Process tutorial. bored.

lets talk abt ytd. i wan to say i want to say! CAROL SPOILT THE TABLE IN THE LECTURE HALL! haha! jj was saying, wat if u press too hard then the table break. and awhile later, it broke. omg. haha... Wrestler is like tat one.. hor carol? haha.

anyway.. ytd was such a memorable day. shant say much but ya, i remember it. every moment of it. and this song keeps ringing in my head.

.tim *you know*

101109 - a day to rmb

LONG day in sch.. so many stupid short breaks.

anyway. today is a day i will rmb! very well! =D

i cant seem to get enough of chocolate. chocolate = my life = i must eat = alot of other things! haha... im so tired today~ im like typing and falling aslp. oops! nites.

.tim

091109 - eyes and lens

my eye is so swollen like 2 fishballs.

lack slp maybe? or sth else? only i'll know. my contact lens i think, went into my eye, if not it dropped out after facing a space constrain with all the water. argh. i cant see! but i managed to find my way home. hope i don go blind. haha.

anyway. the day was so rush, sch driving and went out.. but it ended well! despite the tireness.. im smiling. =) driving was good. getting a real hang of it. i shall pass it on my first attempt! i've got plans. =) i shd change name to mr fishball eyes. nites everyone. im fine. don worry.

.tim

081109

i don wan to talk abt wat happen.

im just craving for chocolate.. alot alot alot alot alot~~~~~~

i don wan to talk.. haha. bye.

.tim

071109 - the day.

its gonna be a long post.

woke up, dyed my hair. ate lunch. did mask. dress up, prepare gift. left home. went for a concert in the evening... stomach pain. upset. question marks. went off after tat. I CUT my hair again.. its time.. its time.. i have decided. dinner. wonder and wander abt. tot thru things. i made up my mind. home. otw home, debated with the taxi uncle over which expressway to take. -.- IM ALREADY SO UPSET, CANT U JUST SHUT UP AND DRIVE? but to think of it. im happi too. i decide my future and its gonna be a good one.

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Chances are limited. treasures are for you to treasure. u are responsible for it. being patient is good. being too patient is not. being nice is good. being too nice is not. being there is good. never here is not. promises are good. over-promising is not. perhaps its human nature. u don realise how fortunate u are until u lose your treasures. decisions are made.

theres only 24 hr a day. you manage it. no time? always no time? is it no time or no tots. its clear. tolerance and patience. limitless? wrong. fairness? u ask urself. have u been fair? if not don talk abt it. you had ur chances. realise it or not. take them for granted. and so be it. no one is dum. they act dum for a reason. complicated yet simple. how much do u really know. or rather. how much do u really care. you don need it at all, thats wat i see. anything too sweet becomes bitter. anyone too painful becomes numb. decisions are made.

"the sun is setting". "the sun has set". "the darkness of the night unfolds". clueless? u will soon understand. wat is true darkness? are u scared? wat abt all the promises. the truth. i know. i know. even in the darkest nights, there are moons and stars to light your path. fear not. soon, the sun will rise again. =)

to my dear fren so close to me, u feel like my identical twin. i hope u really cheer up. the sun will rise again. u have ur moon to light your path. smile. no matter wat's the outcome. no matter wat's the decision. be strong. u tot thru it. facts are laid. chances given. decision made.

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i was tired. but so awake now. so many tots. all these were happening silently. read the signs. grab your chances b4 its too late. tim is very exhausted now. i wan a break. seriously enough. woo... i dono wat to do now. haha! lets play this game call "i spy". i spy the future. i smell sulphur dioxide. i feel the heat. i see red orange black gray. fear not. fear not. woo... i dono wat im saying now... i wan to eat chocolate again. i want nth more nor nth less.. chocolate. smile. =D

.tim

Answers.

just woke up. shivering. yet another bad dream.

i couldn't slp last nite. i'm wondering why sth is happening.

sometimes, when your close fren is upset. u get affected too.

maybe i was? i'm just wondering abt the short replies.

read the signs. i have my conclusion. but is it wat it really is.

hope not. i wonder if i done anything wrong.

i wonder how today will be.. i feel so ??? now.

i dono wat to do now. *shivers*

maybe... maybe...

guardian angel.

.tim *why cold me?*

061109 - full of tots. chocoholic.♪

wat a long and tiring day... lecture at 1110 and i tot was at 1010... so i rushed to prepare and left.. anyhow wore! msg shar and she said she's waiting for bus.. then i ask.. huh? wont late meh? she ans.. lesson at 1110 ma.. then i OH IS IT! argh... dum me.. so i went home to change to sth more presentable...

this 2 irritating cheebongs block my way, snatch my 2 chicken bao, irritated me and argh.. jus the voice annoys me... =x lesson was boring as usual.. OHP spoilt but i think i concentrate better... rushed to band room to get ties for ridwan.. just nice their members came so i don need to walk to TFA... stayed in the band room with the lovely piano... absolutely love it... cuz apparently i was agitated la.. same old prob.. =/ music works wonders, it cheered me up..

home, rest abit, HUNGRY like dono wat... ate cheese fishcake plus pandan bread b4 driving.. i know its weird but NO CHOICE. driving was like initial D. i drive too fast again.. then dio meh. one point i turn, the car like wan flip.. lols.. then ya... traffic was bad.. keep stopping then feel like puking.... got home, ate 1 big piece of meat... YAY! meat!

went for ice cream at mof then movie with jojo and ah da... poker king.. ok la.. not bad... somehow, can relate.. abit emotional.. and can u believe.. i jumped.. cuz the glass dropped on the floor and it was so loud. -.- koi after tat and home. decided to run cuz i was so so so so so pek chek.

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this was on my FB.

Timothy got a message that on this day, God wants him to know...

... that the way you know you have found the right one is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with the person.

See what God wants you to know...

Having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. - a quote by Dinah Craik

is it jus a coincidence or was i thinking abt it ytd? and today.. aside from this. tml will be an interesting day. i dono how things will go. maybe.. maybe.. many ? and ! oh watever... i already made up my mind... bye. im hungry. however, feeling better after the run.

.tim

agitated. calm. if u get my point

omg. moodswing? anyway, i know why im so hungry already... cuz my meat intake was so scarce its not enough to keep me sane. and the best way to calm urself is to rinse ur face with water.. somehow.. it worked.

anyway... the prob with ppl with strong stand is that its hard to change them. let me ask a analytical qn. look at the broken wine glass. will u be able to fix it back? glue it? its no longer perfect anymore. isnt it? scar lines.. missing bits... holes that becomes weakness points. the best way.. perhaps, is to put it away... melt it down... and remake a new wine glass... memories of the past forms moments of the future. u shape your future... don let the past be forever broken and haunt ur future...

.tim

051109 - LONG Think Alot DAY

wat a long day... lesson started at 9.. and i was abit late so i took train and i was earli! thanks jj for giving me a lift from the station.. if not i will be like... half dead after walking in... it rain rain rain rain rain so much today.. lunch at south, curry katsu don.. and i barely ate half. =(

lessons were such a bore.. i cant concentrate at all.. AT ALL. my mind was drifting.. thinking abt sth.. i seriously think im thinking too much.. too much for today.... =/ during the cursed 3 hr break... 7 of us squeeze in the car to jj's.. had fun there.. as usual... mind elsewhere.. i shall not eleborate on wat happened in the car... haha. thanks JJ again... went back to sch for last lect and i give me.. i just open notes.. and stone. think.

dinner at bishan! YAY! food! i was so hungry suddenly.. dinner was great... =) after dinner had a big big big serving of chocolate.. thou i was thinking and thinking.. but chocolate just makes u feel better.. its like a happi drug... what would i do theres no chocolate in this world... i think i would have jumped into the pond and drown.

i am SO HUNGRY now. i wan chocolate. i wan food.

.tim *hope + faith = love*

041109 - Careless.

im so careless today.. haha.. i dropped my wallet 2 times! wth! lucky my fren saw... phew... if not i cry.. i will eat grass.. haha! the day was okay... went to sch for 45 mins lesson. -.- lunch at banquet amk with ilah and husband, halif, jj, carol. TOMYAM steamboat! WOO! SHIOK!

self pract for band today.. ok la.. i sort out quite alot of things.. i pract outside while the others used the room.. haha.. HOT! sweat like a pig.. and had a short piano flute accompliment play along session! so fun! headed home for my tomyam mee supper... i think tml i shd wake up earlier... sure stomach pain...

lessons pushed back to 9 tml.. LIKE THANK YOU! if not i need to wake up like 5 plus 6.. phew... LONG DAY TML! ahh! stupid 3 hrs break followed by 1 hr lecture. lame. anyway... i so feel like running now.. considering its a long earli day tml.. nah, i will die a horrible death like monday if i do... or maybe tml morning... haha! SEE HOW! and the moon went hiding today.. =( rain rain.. wet wet.. and the song which im posting struck me when i was on the bus to sch.. watching the rain water drizzle down the glass window... its nice.. calm and peaceful.

.tim

031109 - blonde! dumdum!

omg, i feel so dum u know... ytd i cook noodles.. i boil the water with the packet of seasoning then i cannot find.. i go stir then i realise its inisde.. wth! then i set alarm.. and i nv switch it on! omg.. its onli the 2nd day of sch and im like... haha.. overslept... oops...

im not so much of a MJ fan but i think.. hes not bad ar... can dance can sing... =) lastly, yet another bright moon night! omg.. its so lovely can... u can see the reflection off the water... rawr! u all shd try it one day... jus stare at it.. it will talk to you... and im craving for chocolate =D heehee! i wan my chocolate! i wan i wan i wan i wan! =x...

oops.. ok.. stop whinning.. lessons at 12 tml! like YAY! tim please don oversleep kaes... set and on ur alarm now now now! nites all. im still so happi! haha...

.tim

021109 - pffft. Tired!

hello everyone...

today's a tiring day.. so so so tiring.... i was like.. pfft.. lets have a quick run down on today's happenings... lessons were okay... the notes are so thick... OMG! like... argh! heavy =( pffft...

went out for lunch after sch with wonderful ppl. haha.. damn happi.. repeat again.. DAMN happi!

driving was ok.. i learn parking like... easy piggy... watever... maybe cuz he instructed? but its still like damn easy.. over confident onli ar.. =x band was TIRING! when i reash band room i was like... pffft. hungry.. tired. slpy.. ahhh.. aircon..cold.. slp.. hibernate... fighting to keep myself awake... haha.. i must say.. today, my playing not so good.. =( upset. shall pract more.

on a side note.. today was a tiring day.. so tiring.. but but but! im like damn happi.. for a reason.. my reason... =) im glad.. the day went well.. so well.. it outweighs my tiredness.. im so happi today.. woo.. so happi! so so happi! i am a happy boy today. =) the moon was the icing to the cake.. muacks.

.tim

011109 - moon light. so bright.

ITS NOVEMBER! welcome november.. are u gonna haunt me? NEVER! no way am i gonna let u do it.. pfffft! in your face! watever with the handsign! get a life!

the moon is so bright today! pure, bluish, bright like... with a spark to it. looking at it makes u smile even thou u're upset.. food today was not bad.. i had cake.. woohoo! too bad theres no chocolate indulgence.. but still 2 chocolate cake? sinful but how often do u get to eat it? i ran for a reason okay... i am happy today.. overall.. the day ended well.. big smile! =D

okay.. so theres sch tml... 9 - 12. damn it, its gonna be a 1 hr tut + 1 hr break + 1 hr lecture. pfft. im gonna become stone. well, theres driving tml.. and band.. =) time to be discipline tim. this sem's goals are? last sem already u know... rmb.. rmb...

.tim

miles apart... same bright moon... =)

blank out.

blank as a piece of paper.

monotonous vision.

chilly winds.

frozen tots.

i know, i know.

its so painful, i dono why i cant stop them from rolling down..

its been a long night, goodnite.

.tim *so near yet so far*

Moodswings.

the day was ok.. it rain.. and my mood followed the weather... went down.. my back is pain... went for nasi ayam penyet with hasneh. the sambal was good.. i actually finish the sambal b4 i even touch the chicken.. as usual, chilli = stomach pain but still.. shiok.. then went shopping for sth and my stationaries for sch... and i bought the wrong maker.. ARGH! too thick.. darn it.. was trapped at orchard central.. pffft. rain so heavy.. argh. i wanted to go somewhere else.. RAIN RAIN RAIN... HOW TO GO? IRRITATED. by the time i reach, it would already have ended.. =(

and moodswings.. theres sth with me and moodswings.. i wonder wats wrong with me.. even i cannot stand my moodswings.. argh.. i am emo, upset, angry at the same moment..

bye.

.tim *im on the edge*

rain rain/ sneeze sneeze

lonely day...

as usual.. i woke up in the noon with no one at home... mummy packed lunched and i ate with her.. the day went by so fast... one moment it was abt 1.. then when im done doing my kiddo drawings.. its already 4 30... like FLEW... online... dinner alone! aww man.. i hate it.. thou i had the whole salmon and like every other dish to myself but eee.. theres sth with me and eating with family... i must eat with ppl im close with.. if not, the best food will nv be satisfying..

watch tv after tat.. cuz as usual.. stomach pain.. and i started sneezing real bad when it rain.. back hurts.. i was lazy to move but haha.. my fren told me tat acutally running can unblock the nose.. so i tried.. and it worked! THANK YOU! did the usual warm ups... today i did more.. but i forgot to STRETCH.. man.. wasted.. the run was good.... it was cooling.. and i lost track when i ran, i was listening to music and i jus ran and ran... -.- and MY IPOD EARPIECE IS SPOILT! AHH! stupid.. and someone snapped a pic of me. wth. anyway, i feel slimmer.. i feel good.. da la da la da la da.. so good! so good!

currently watching exorcism of emily rose... ok, its spooky.. i realise rite... i get very into movies.. and i always jump... kia dio ar.. chua dio... maybe cuz im tired? i dono i dono... tots were everywhere during the day.. at nite... when i run.. even now.. i shall slp soon.

.tim

*rindu kamu*

301009 - movieton

wow. this 2 weeks really alot of movies... think tml got 1 more.. not confirm... 2 movies today..

500daysofsummer.

movie was not bad, rewatchable. can relate. the songs are nice. the girl was like, wth?! so indecisive. nth serious.. ya.. i know i know.. nth serious.. den don even start. miserify other ppl's life. oh man.. haha.. ok la.. can watch again.. i drifted off to my own timmi land after awhile..

jennifer's body.

blood blood blood. squirt squirt squirt. piak. i was petrified cuz im scared of piak and blood. the movie was cool. nice. but holding my niao niao made the movie less enjoyable.. argh.

pastamania for dinner. i like. i realise ar, everytime i go cine, its either hongkong cafe or pastamania. but, its nice.. =) walked ard.. chilled talk crap. happi day.

driving.

argh. today im like.. argh. so not smooth ar.. and i stalled. -.- damn it. i think i was distracted again today... HAHA! driving is gonna be intensive next mth.. =( i'm gonna have a hard time.. darn it.. reminder to self.. stay calm and drive. stop thinking.

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after my koi cafe session.. i've tot alot.. after today, i really think thru it. wat i really want.. wat am i doin now. i guess.. i've found my answers.. yes.. i playing a waiting game. its not time to make a decision yet.. soon soon. soon.. i'm waiting for signs, facts and confirmation b4 deciding.. sch's starting.. hope everything falls in place... even if it doesnt.. i'll make it..

.tim

*the truth*

271009 - koi cafe

koi cafe.

addiction. absolute love.

went for bbtea again with the usual.

had a long long long long.. SI BEI long.. heart to heart talk..

and i realize alot of stuff.. and i finally came to terms with myself..

its true tat alot has happen.. and i have been thinking abt it...

i guess i know wat should i do next.

things happen. it doesnt only affect you...

it affects others too.. things happen. doesnt mean u dont know... u just kept quiet.. certain things are ok to be quiet.. some are not... well.. i know i know.. i know... im solving it slowly... and i came to terms with so many things.. its so scary.. i came to realise the truth... sun set, darkness of nite, shinning moon/ star appears, break of dawn.. i guess i know wat i can do next. as for those who like to build their happiness on others' misery.. thank you.. u shd think of urself too.. if one day, its you. don blame anyone but yourselves. yes.. yourselves.. not yourself.. =) fren's advice.. have good intentions. don curse... okay, i wont. i take it with a smile.

lastly. this sad case spine of mine is giving me problems again.. i shd really just go for the op.. spinal disc herniation. thank you for coming in my life.. who cares abt me anyway.. i know.

.tim

i feel so sian suddenly.

so sian u know.. like sian sian.. like no meaning tat sian sian..

i suddenly have nth to do... hmm... something in my life went missing? i feel like running but its so late already... and i shd really think b4 i do anything... haha.. i think i upset someone... oh man. wat shd i do now.. i really dono wat to blog abt.. like blank blank blank.. knock knock?

argh.

anyway.. nites.

.tim

crippled left arm.

ahh... had a bad nite slp.

and my left elbow is PAINFUL! cannot straighten. cannot lift up.

DIE! got band later... how to play flute? no piano? ahhh!

hmm.. meeting Mr Han at 3 later... time to put things into perspective..

1 more week to settle concert stuff, then school starts..

.tim

251009 - the sun is setting soon.

its a rot rot rotting day...

lunch was eek, dinner was eek too...

haha.. i jus rmb i had a box of rochers someone gave me in july.. happi ate them.. nth much to be done.. tv tv tv tv... rot rot rot rot rot... rot till i become a pile of gluey rotten nua nua de mashmellow.. haha...

doink doink.. bouncy bouncy

i decided to run till i drop... so i warmed up at home... then ran a few rounds.... ran until my legs gave way.. drop dead on the grass beside the pond.. the sky is so nice tonite... so clear... (: and i was thinking abt this: "thou we're distant apart but we're staring at the same sky" i said this to a fren of mine.. in july.. hmm.. i feel slimmer.. haha! feel so bouncy.. doink doink doink... running is good.. just run and run and run. distract urself.. run till u drop.. pffft.. and feel the breeze, listen to nature symphony.. life is short.. be happi.

the sun is setting soon.

thou i don want it to set... but how can i stop it? let it be ba... even if it wants to set.. lets make it a beautiful sunset... my head hurts.. tats all for now.

.tim

*maybe i've been wishing and trying too hard*

241009 - scrub scrub~

i love the sweets... they are so cute... sweet and nice... i ate too much thou.. i have sore throat and stomach upset =( hmmm, i was hungry and my fren was kind and sweet enough to fly here and we went for supper.. thank you very much.. =)

rest of the day was nth much.. church... someone sat on my seat when i went to the toilet.. WTH!.. =( nvm... hmm.. i scrubbed myself from head to toe... i am so renewed and smooth now.. woo... i like... mask later? or tml? don't know...

i guess i was too free. i think and think again. tot and tot... its happening infront of you.. maybe its a different thing altogether now... how? you heard from so many frens.. advise after advise... ur mind and heart don telly.. HOW! shd u or shd u not? u wan to stay but the reasons are so negligible... there's still hope.. u are still hoping... so ya.. i guess u shd will stay... time will tell it all.. ur treasures ur choice.. smile... don let go yet...

.tim

*holding on*

priceless treasures

Driving was great just now..

drove from home to ubi to try out the test routes.

ok, i know i shd be patient but the L plate infront is SO SLOW! keep go stop go stop.. irritating... and traffic light turning CMI! irritated much, we decided we shd overtake.. yaya already.. i know.. turning effortlessly... woo.. master the art of speed gear change... can u move off the traffic light, speed up, change from gear 1 to 2 to 3 in 6 sec? i onli have circuit and parking to do.. and im all set.. lets make this the 1st and last driving test... sure pass... went for lunch with mummy then accompany her shop... now im home.

i've been thinking... abt this.

treasure your treasures before you loss them... sounds simple? not easy at all.

treasures can be people or things... losing them doesnt mean they die... they just say byebye to you.. how long can 1 person tolerate, wait, accommodate until he/she decides.. its time... its this moment of truth, a split second that things decide to take a turn. so wat if u managed to find it back... its never the same i guess.. just like broken glass. even if u piece it back.. there are scar lines... u can try to sand those scars away.. but are u patient enough? are u willing? if only u were sensitive enough to sense sth was wrong... things could have been better.. actions speaks louder then words... its up to you now... stagnant.. time will decide.. treasures are everywhere... treasure ur treasures before they being other's treasures.

going for dinner with the HUA sisters... sh and yh later... =) hmm... tats abt it i guess... bye all.

.tim

*are u treasuring?*

221009 - movies.

had 2 movies today.

julie and julia

great.. love it... the food made someone high..

Halloween 2

shocking... i jumped a few times... bloody and scary...

but i like...

macs for supper and chat a little...

good day.

.tim *when will it be my turn?*

i woke up at 1112.

darnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

its so noisy... 8 plus and daddy's making such a din...

9 plus, sister wakes up...

10 plus brother wakes up... rawrrrrr!

i dono wat to do now..

.tim

*into your arms*

november is coming.

november is coming...

its tat time of the year again....

the tots are haunting me again...

i wish they'll stop...

how many people actually know what i am saying?

doubtfully, a handful, literally...

well... i've to live thru it.. no matter wat...

its not the first time anyway.. 3rd time...

right.. now... smile... stop thinking...

.tim

*my shelter, my refuge. tat's you*

hungry

i am hungry.

sushi with joseph, amanda, francesca, betty.

ok ar.. not bad.. but i didnt eat to i explode like wat i wanted to..

band was.... lets not talk abt it...

mummy was talking to me abt saving up.

boy, don spend so much ok... must save up..

for rainy day and also for ur marriage.

i was speechless.. haha... i said.. orh.

i go shower...

goin movie tml. yay!

i have alot of brain activity now. hope it stops soon.

.tim

*i have alot to say*

201009

nth much for today.

woke up, pack my table. waited forever for lunch. continue packing.. wait for phone call. online. showered and headed to woodlands to meet jolie and marcus. yup.. had mos burger... then chat abit, walked ard abit and home home home.............................. see.. it's a boring day. and i think... army changed my brother.. HI MR VAIN! now people wear baggy shirt and shorts and specs no more... welcome the new mr handsome.. he is... im advertising him on my blog.. lelong lelong! but too bad he's taken! too late! in ur face! no wonder ppl say love changes a person... haha... right? wishing the both of u the best best best! not marcus and jolie but marcus and his mrs right.

hmm.. its been a totful day. i feel it's pointless to block the tots. they just come... i've tot, and tot, and tot. i cant come to a concrete resolution yet. so ya.. let it be.. take it as it comes.. anyway... my books fell on me when i opened the cupboard.. so this goes to show, ITS TIME TO CLEAR!... i think im suffering from selective concussion thanks to the books. i don seem to rmb certain things. bah.... SUSHI-ing with band peeps tml! woo. another good time to distract myself!

decipher it yourself ba..

*patience, my turn will come*

.tim

sleepless. i wonder, right?

the following post is a piece of crap.. don read it if u don like talking abt life.

was chatting with halif the sleepless boy last night and i caught the sleepless virus..

i can't seem to fall asleep last night. well, eventually i did but i woke up at 8.

i had many many dreams... and i start to wonder... not wander but wonder.

things are happening. wat can i do abt it. if i don anything abt it. how will the outcome be.

but if i do sth abt it. how much better then, will it be... i wonder i wonder...

19 and 1/2 years of my life... i've been thru ups and downs.

all kinds of shits... all kinds of nice happi moments..

life is about choices... the choices u make, the ppl you meet. its part of a growing process.

i've always complaint abt how stressful sch has been.. and now.. im hoping it starts today.

right now.... i miss sching... at least... it keeps me occupied... studying is good.. u become smarter.

sometimes, u give.. and sometimes u take... dr goh said... 势必寿根优福。i dont know if my chinese is right but giving is better then receiving... in many situations... i've given in... from past till now... i grew from being a selfish "it must go my way" to "watever, as long as everyone is happy" to "i feel there shd be a compromise".. what should my next step be. go my way? watever? or compromise... easier said then done. i know wats the outcome... so just shhh.

i've been typing and typing.. how much is in my head.. how much is said? i guess i'll stop here.

life is short... u choose how to live it.. happi or sad... i choose to be HAPPY.

.tim (happilittleboi)

control stress and not let stress control you.

i think i have been quite worked up and lost my mind a few times...

today i found TONNES of white hair on my HEAD!.. DARN!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm aging too fast.. haha.. its abt time... i tell myself..

tat sentence again!

"Control stress and not let stress control you"

thanks to WW and ah DA who taught me this sentence...

i still rmb it till this day cuz its true tat stressed is desserts spelled reverse.

positive thinking and motivation goes a long way.

yes tim.. u can do this.. its nth compared to wat u been thru last time...

1 man or not.. u still can do it.. HA HA! help is out there... u just need to open ur mouth.

quote no. 2

"shared grief is halved and happiness doubled"

its true tat if u share it.. it is so...

recently.. many of my frens are facing probs...

thou i may not be able to help but i think the ears were enough...

just like they are there for me, im there for them...

hope you're feeling better...

but i came to this tot.

if i can even help myself, how can i help others?

think think think.. i realise.. sometimes the 3rd party sees the situation better...

sometimes the ans is simple, but u are just to worked up or sth tat u don see it..

sometimes all someone needs is jus to let it out.. things will solve by themselves..

well... so much so... there are still things that one cant help..

it's sometimes better to accept it that way... and as for me...

there are things tat i will say and things that i cant... its just like working in the bank..

too much is at stake.. i just cant... please understand...

thanks to those who have been there for me...

so much of talking... i feel tat i grew today... or rather... woken abit...

things tat u cant control then let it be ba... u tired...

it's 2 sided.. just be patient for now.. ur turn will come...

driving was crappy.. thou i mastered the illegal 1 hand turning..

i almost bang car.... but at least i was smart enough to do the biting point thing.

dinner sucked... and my pay cheque has my name spelled wrongly.. =(

hmm.. im hungry.. and band room was cold... and i jus feel like typing none stop..

so here i am crapping..... ok.. im done....

.tim

*i wish*

headache.

nth much happened today.

having a headache now... hmm...

here is a nice song.

There's some things we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

.tim

*its a nice song. imy*

171009

friday 161009

the meeting was lame.

it was with the board of governors...

i did the talking... hope i did a good speech..

ended rather earli...

went for lunch at amk... +koi cafe

then chopped my hair at orchard...

i've got bangs again! =D

tired.. slpy.. went amk for koi again.

no wonder im so poor lately.. koi-ed too much..

went back to sch for orchestra.. self practed alittle..

too tired.. floated to the band room. sat in... and fell aslp at one corner of the band room.

suppered with dr goh and the rest. home. and lets not continue wat happened.

171009

WOW! guess wat i saw when i woke up...

1111. i made my wish.

went back to slp thou...

woke up.. cooked aglio pasta.

ate... nua on the sofa. fell aslp..

stood up too fast... fainted on the floor... ha ha.

help dad with his work.

church.

home. and i had half a salmon to myself. =)

online. suppered.

now gonna slp.

.tim

*i am learning. =) wish ur day went well*

STOP BLAMING ME!

I AM NOT AN INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY STUDENT.

I STUDY BUSINESS!

STOP BLAMING ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO FIX THE HOUSE COMPUTERS AND PRINTER ISSUES!

2 PERSON ASK FOR HELP AT THE SAME TIME.. WAT U WAN ME TO DO...

DAMN IT.. FUCKING STOP ASKING ME! IFUCKINGDONTKNOW!

I AM GOIN TO GO OUT NOW.

BYE!

CB.

.tim

BLUR.

today is a blur day...

i seem to be in a slping state the whole day..

i seem to be floating... drifting everywhere..

lunch with mummy, and i said i wan to eat noodles at the chicken rice stall -.-

went home.. sat down.. fell aslp.. wake up.. slp.. wake up and slp..

when i finally decided to take a nap.. i cant slp.. -.- wth...

washed up, dinnered, and went out for a walk..

my fren said.. why u like blur blur emo emo one? like ur shirt pic..

then i like.. hurrrrr... dono.. had some soup... and went walking ard...

walk until dizzy.. blur blur dizzy dizzy.. went home..

rest awhile.. mask and showered.... now uploading pictures...

and its irritating.. cuz its very troublesome to upload.. and im half way..

don wan to leave it half doned...

gotta be in sch for an interview/meeting at 8am tml..

SO EARLI! =( darnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn it...

with moe ppl.. wonder wat they will ask... hopefully send me on a scholarship =x

hope i wont be blur tml... formal wear... -.- and im gonna chop my hair tml.

well.. all the best tim... stop venting here... go upload... and slp...

.tim

*take care*

the little stomach of mine haven been co-operating today...

its very very painful now...

blister on my feet... =( pain...

a mysterious cut on my little finger... =(

i am still smelling tat stupid smell and taste in my nose and throat...

an open wound somewhere...

haunted by guilt...

tired.

and i cant slp.

tml will be a better day... yes it would be...

.tim

*[ ]*

sunday... and a packed week.

nth much today...

i ate dumplings for lunch.. like SUPER ALOT cuz i love them! daddy made wat... its sunday ok.. only day in the week where i can enjoy his cooking... hmm... went out for a walk... and ate chicken rice? and i ate super alot... i dono why.. walked ard.. and home...

going out to celebrate ww's bday tml... then head to sch to get things done...

band.. and not home.. im staying out... wed go home change bag and sch again.. omg..

tue got sectionals? if have means i need to go sch again... oh man... much more planning to do..

alot more to settle.. 2 more weeks.. time table gonna be out on tuesday... maybe i shd bring my comp along... so i can do my work and also... surf the net... haha... tats all for now... ok ok.. i know.. uncap the bottle.. ok ok.. im uncapping.. =)

.tim

*i know u are busy, lotsa things to settle.. jiayou ok! im always here to support*

pricked and scratched.

woken up by phone calls...

settled some stuff... had lunch.. tv abit and went for a walk...

bought some kueh...

today is cousin's wedding...

help my mother set her hair.. and choose her outfit..

but her gold needle pricked and scratched me..

ITS VERY PAINFUL! stupid "ko-lo-san"

tsk... off to church i went...

homed... onlined, dinner.. rested abit cuz i was dizzy...

showered.. and ya.. nth much today...

my medical is booked... dec 8 at 10 am...

remind me... tats all... byebye...

.tim

*where youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*

091009

hi blog.

today was a sian sian day.. daddy was home in the morning...

noisy! yup... then then then... cuz theres too many ppl at home..

i decided to head to sch.. to print some stuff....

headed off to sch... and wa liao! i nv bring my thumbdrive! tsk!

then went band room for piano... not bad.. i think now it sounds better..

but dono why theres this irritating metal sound when i play A & G#..

stupid.. must get it solved! and i think shd get it tuned too.. abit off ar..

enjoyed myself... immersed myself in music.. embraced by chords and harmony..

woo.. help jojo with some transposing, arrange the room and dinner...

wanted to head home but was rush hr.. so i stayed, wanted to pract but no room! =(

stay in band room use comp.. settle band stuff... update my itunes.. and UHHHH!!!!

i need a new mp3.. not enough space... thou i love mine now, but i think an itouch would be handy.. xD shall save save.. =)

took a long long time to go home.. suppered a packed food.. and after finishing it.. i realise.. ehh, the chilli abit sour ar.. lols.. tml i stomach ache.. i will know why... hmm.. enough crap..

tml shall unpack the rest of my luggage and i dono.. find sth to do ba... cousin's wedding tml.. don feel like going.. haha..

.tim

*all the best, jiayou. im supporting you*

back

its been 2 days since im home...

band was ok... didnt wanna take sectionals but i guess its for the better ba..

dono wat they think but.. i tried... my hand are swollen! =(

went for supper with the clars, 2 tpets.. kfc... not nice... but was quite fun...

today, i was home all day.. planning and planning...

did up a few things and planned many more....

done my pre-enlistment documents... shall book the date tml.

time to put everything into perspective... things haven been going well..

i think i had enough.. i say we do it this way... since no one wan to do it...

u don have much of a choice... live with it...

list of qns... uninformed... blamed...

and all this while... i jus took it all.. so the least u could do is try to help and not create prob.

oh man.. the things i do... many a times i qn myself.. why?

haha... i know my ans... do u know mine? more calling and planning tml...

3 weeks to sch start... 3 weeks to solve it all.

.tim

*let's jiayou together*

byebye

bye bye everyone..

take care ok...

my frens.. elites... everyone.. esp u

bad day

everything is goin bad and i cant help it.

alot of urgent probs cropped up..

clashing schedule and ppl jus throw everything to me..

everything seems to be my fault somehow...

stressed out.. i predict this 6 days there will not be good.

thank you for doing this to me...

feeling uneasy and all.. dont feel like goingi but i still have to go..

nonetheless, i will try to enjoy myself...

enough said... im tired... bye world.

.tim

*i wish i can jus say anything i want, take care...*

smiled. =)

today was a not bad day.

had lunch at pizza hut.

went for desserts at mof.. YAY!

and movie... at first i don like thou.. but i like it towards the end.

i smiled. from deep within today.. woo! long time no smile.

yup.. in 30 hrs or so.. im going away for awhile.

i have still yet to pack and all.. abit don feel like going...

but oh well.. =) gotta drop by a few places to get thigns done tml.

take care everyone else... (esp u, my babyy)

hope everything will be find when im gone... it will be.. rite? haha.

hmm.. tats all for now i guess. and the ah nehs downstairs.. please DIAM.. gui diam liao? mian kun?

.tim

*hee hee.... over the moon already*

i am feeling abit better now.

im goin out for a walk.

take care everyone.

.tim

*ty for cheering me up*

bad bad headache

i'm having a sudden headache attack.

maybe cuz i think too much the whole day?

and im very upset. leave me alone.

wat i did today.

driving in the morning.. which i onli spoke 2 sentence to my instructor.

went off speeding my way.. anyhow drive... argh... im just so DISTURBED!

sadly, the car was still intact... next lesson is on 19th oct.. how far away..

went home... rest alittle.. tired.. had lunch..

entertain my mother's fren who destroy my slp.

showered.. went to sch.. which pissed me off.

carn find the key. went for a run.. hoping to tired myself out to remove all those tots.

onli effective for awhile.. sadly.

band time.. damn damn damn irritated... not with pract but with sth else...

i hope i can jus FORGET EVERYTHING.. ARGH...

can the headache go away? Zzz... anyway... met bro at station.. =)

and tats all for today...

i hope tml will be a better day...

really hope so. [sigh]

.tim

*can u be here for me? jus for now?*

just another boring day.

nth much today...

food was so so... watched abit of drama...

went church and tats it...

weather was hot.. hate it..

tats all.. morning driving tml..

.tim

*i cant help it, i just suddenly miss u alot*

lobster red.

just got home not long ago from PQ's..

the stayover was fun... we had mahjong... swimming...

DVD and chit chat! woo... and of cuz the slp over part....

currently in the lobster red condition.... nv intended to tan at all..

i like my fair skin.. lols.. still, i was alittle burnt..

hmm.. my family went overseas today again... like 9 plus msg me..

bye timo.. we're off to jb to walk walk... then i was like, HUH?! then wat am i gonna do later?

and guess wat... im home later then them.. lols..

ok.. wat did i do on friday?

lets see... went to amk with kit for lunch and headed to sch for meeting...

ended at 4? so we went amk in a random spike of toto craze.. 7 of us bought.. but we didnt win.. haha.. it was for fun anyway! its funni how we talked abt the things we wanna do if we won the prize... yup.. we queued for like 45 mins? =x while the rest went back to sch for wind emsemble..

karlyn and i walked ard, chat alittle till its like 6 plus? then we went our separate ways... me to yishun to pass marcus some stuff.. and her to her daddy's bday.. happi bday uncle..

the train was so SQUEEZEy! argh.. rush hr... then bus home... showered and prepared to meet fren at seragoon and we flew to pq's... yup... im jus crapping... tats abt it... byebye..

.tim

*i'm happi*

just another day

yup... just another day..

did some self pract today...

hmm... mummy talked alot today.. and i actually rmb wat she said..

wow.. pampered myself alittle b4 heading to bed...

my face is GONE thanks to the spring cleaning.. =(

feeling alittle better thou my nose and ears are still blocked.

rmb.. lunch and meeting tml.. yup.. im like back to the everyday band me...

alright.. enough rubbish.. current mood.. deep tots..

hmm.. having stay over at PQ's place.. and SWIMMING.. thou i dono how but ya! play water!

ok.. its gonna be fun.. the sound of it already says its fun.. lol!

alright... time for last min touch ups b4 i slp...

nites tim!

.tim

*smile.*

tired.. and abit sick..

oh man.. the kid has fallen ill!

he has block nose and ears.. don think theres any mind block..=x

a slight fever and flu! thanks to allergies to the TONNES of dust from ytd spring cleaning..

haha.. enough.. wat did he do today?

hmm.. woken up at 10 plus by mr halif over the results!

dum dum toot toot.. my results not say very good la.. but i expected it..

bounded by wat.. WAT TO DO! darn it.. but my GPA still maintain in the 3.4 range.

luckily... if not i wound have bang wall and died... sian 1/2 already la.. my aim of getting 3.8 is a big byebye! haha..

after checking.. watch abit of tv and decided to help mummi clean the hse..

its my hse anyway... i have to do my part in one way or another...

vacuumed and mopped it! clean clean.. i like =)

but my didi soon dirty it with his dirty socks when he came home..

showered and prepare for driving while waiting for lunch..

had my delayed chicken rice lunch at 3... symptoms of full.. i fell aslp..

shitty.. reluctant to leave.. but gotta go for driving...

driving was ok la.. i was practically speeding.. =x abit scary thou..

i mastered my clutch and accelerator pedal skills.. almost stalled..

hmm.. turning was better... woo.. confident already...

tired me... drove to sch today.. how cool is tat... quite la.. alot cars thou..

yup... band.. my ears were block i cant hear myself well...

nonetheless tried to stay in tune and all... tired neh...

and irritated cuz i cannot hear properly...

gotta practice harder tim... get well soon also..

tats all for now ba..

.tim

*im happi theres you*

tired

so tired...

ytd worked...

haha... shall not mention the name.. but quite torturing!

sit there for abt 9 and half hrs collating papers..

paper cuts and numb legs are a norm..

and cuz i wanted to distract myself... i did damn fast..

and so.. hurt myself...

today spring clean the band room..

its damn damn dirty and messy...

other users PLEASE KEEP IT CLEAN! thank you.

thanks to those who came to help! thank you very much!

yup.. cleaned it... climb up and down... took down curtains...

pack the room.. wipe abit... wow.. lucky there were here to help..

if not! i would have died...

i got more cuts today.. not from paper but from sth else.. hais... pain pain!

and old already.. my back is breaking! legs are aching... cant even sit properly =(

i think i breathe in too much dust.. not feeling too well now...

sore throat since a few days ago.. =( scally no tml voice make announcement! i LAUGH!

hmm.. so much so abt my boring and tiring day...

tml results will be out... wonder how i will fair...

and theres driving tml.. and i will be driving to SCH! how cool is tat!

hope everything goes well and im not tat distracted again...

lotsa plans for band.. alot of things to do...

oh well... hi life.. u are back to haunt me... =)

.tim

*i really miss you*

就往另一方想吧

好几天没写日记了。。。

我的电脑终于可以用华语打字了！！ 好开心。

星期六，陪老哥吃午饭。。

然后就上电影院看了 “Gamer"

还好吧。。

然后,两人就没目地的走来走去。。

哈哈。。。 好久没这样了。。

有点怀念以前的日子。。

我说吗。。还好有这个好大哥。。

就是那个会听我发唠哨，陪我一起转可爱，说笑，谈天的老哥

哈哈。。不管发生什么事， 至少还有他来安慰我。。

这就是我生命中的其中一件好事吧。。

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我想，有些事是不能勉强的。。

我担心也没有用啊。。想了这么多。。 做了则么多。。 情况还是没改变。。

有时好像放弃。。 可是就是放不下。。

何必把自己弄得心不在焉，闷闷不乐的。。

就往新方面想吧。。 是你的就是你的。。 别为了默默人而误了大事。。

我还没放弃哦。。 我只是找你说的。。 别那么用心。。

。财财

*im still loving as deep as b4.. hope u are too =)*