070510 - the human way.

i have been working.. like a cow.. ha ha ha... for all i know.. i will nv nv nv nv ever treat my employees like that.. i don see them as slaves.. oh wait.. theres only one me.. for 4 dept... wow. and everyone is chasing after me to help them even with the most trival of matters like BRINGING YOUR OWN BOX WHICH IS SO LIGHT I CAN CARRY 4 OF THEM AT ONE GO.. let alone.. pasting 4 sticky board thingy on the wall.. wow.. all i can say is.. i laugh at you.. so useless!

"does our JD including climbing up and down?" i feel like telling tat person.. "does my JD include becoming a bangla? move things.. and also.. THROW UR RUBBISH? and ur fucking heavy things.. haha.. its not light.. seriously.. all u all can do is "xin ku ni le" like wtf? u think we bangla meh? i think my this one colleague very poor thing.. injured her leg.. hope she is ok.. thanks for helping.. even thou it was irritating to ask me to pack and unpack and reshelf.. and move the super heavy things.. haha...

helping ppl is good.. maybe its time to take into consideration my own well being before saying yes.. it is even worth doing it anot.. for this case.. it was.. i just had to.. because im grateful to have a friend like this.. thats why i helped... and yes.. there no inferior motives.

oh well.. what to do.. money is hard to earn.. and i don dare to tell my parents im working this hard.. they would have said.. please don work.. i give u allowance again.. anyway... i have my reasons why i working so hard to earn some cash... ive got a plan.. a plan that i hope will ...

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i have 1 mth left.. exactly... so fast.. so fast... i tot it would be ok.. but as it draws nearer.. my life has change.. its no longer the same.. this shall post as a challenge for me... and..

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.tim *im working hard.. so that you can smile*

300410 - WORK AGAIN!?

i realise the definition of "Money very hard to earn ah!" after all the events. theres nth much to do.. so just go find other stuff to work.. but but but.. lols.. some of them are quite demanding.. i mean.. as a HR person, we know that being fair is very important so is taking care of ur employee's welfare.. lols.. some people are just.. "WHATEVER" haha.. but what to do! imagine i tell my dad. he sure go "don work la." he don even allow me to work events.. saying things like don go there and be a coolie and carry heavy stuff.. ur hands not cut out for rough work.. well, at least they don OVERLOAD you.. lols and u have a trolley. =x its ok! this is call training! training to be tough.. i can do this. woo... maybe i shd spend less.. on others and me. lols. bye.

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its something new. somehow i feel its something good.

cheers.

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i know some people must be feeling like this song. i dont know wat to do! =(

270410 - i see the true colour

as the cloud grew bigger. you come to realise that “这世上是没有不散的筵席，我的时辰已经， 该是时候接受实施了” you realise the fact but you just don't want to accept it, pretending like nothing happen. well, some stuff i have accepted... it's ok.. fated to be so. it will be so. every relationship has an expiry date, some may last until your death. some only last for awhile.. no matter what it is.. i have enjoyed and i am just gonna rmb it as a happy memory.. 有效期~当你的服务被取代了，你就变得无效了。该是时候被遗弃了。当让，我们应该往好的方面去想。 不是没断交情都喊着不平凡的意图。可是事实就是那么的残酷。

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my passion. my heart. my soul.

Music has inevitably became a part of my life. no many how harsh the comments are. how challenging it is.. i learnt to persevere. i grew up with music. my life is music. i realise it's just so hard to just abandon it.. i cant. its like my life.. without it. things are so different.. recently i had my graduation day in band. thank you my band.. i realise i really love my band alot. i cant bear to part.. every inch of the room. every cupboard.. every shelf.. i know whats there.. its like my second home.. the piano.. my flute... my chair.. my stand.. my kids.. my frens.. i love it all.. the nice ppl.. and the extremely shitty people.. haha.. thank you for making this expired old man's last day such a wonderful one.. my friend said.. "5 yrs i know you, i've nv seen u shed a tear" and indeed. i was on the verge of bursting.. to think.. im willing to do anything for band.. i've abandon some of my closest friends. my family. my partners. just because of band. some say i am mad.. but that's where my calling is.. my life.. hope to see NYPSO continue to grow and excel. i've brought back 4 certificates as a band member and as a leader.. and i am proud of it.. i am very proud of it. i love my band. soon, it will be my last goodbye.... i'll miss you.

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the orh ok attitude

i've grew tired. some matters are just really. i give up. i can only go.. orh okay.. doesnt really matter already..

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.tim *chocolates and cakes and icecreams*

Let Music Heal This Soul

200410 - its a double 1111

last day of work. work was horrible i suppose? its either BORED AND ROT till u cannot take it. or busy till your back gives way... and of cuz you get difficult customers. lets not elaborate. in short. i am damn pissed today evening...

went off to meet my fren for cake and shoot zombie time.. i had fun! venting all the air inside.. woo.. if not i sure explode.. maybe its tat time of the month! haha.. i had cramps (tummyache) for the past 2 days.. and PMS... haha.. siao..

i got to see 2 times.. 1111... once was the balance on my ezlink card! like WOW! and another after i step out of the shower.. double 1111.. do you wonder if its true? you know? i wan to know the mystery behind 1111.. i really want.. till then.. its a good nite.. i am hungry and i am having a bad bad headache...clubcrawl tml! gotta go help.. =( and band.. and theres cough.. how to breathe!

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i came to realise many things... i wanna give up on the matter.. cuz im tired... u are the one who've got new frens and all.. not me.. im letting it go not cuz its not worth saving.. its because you seem very happy now and it shall remain so.. take care. it was nice having you as a close fren.

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.tim *you know anot? how much is inside?*

180410 - restless.

work was boring... i am so tired. i couldnt sleep last nite! again.. 4 am.. and i gotta wake up at 6.. =( no internet. no nth.. how to survive the next 2 days! omg... oh well.. tml is a freaking long day. theres work. and band. =( jy timmi...

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thanks for the reminder..

why do you have to ask me abt it? its been so long... i have already forgotten abt it.. ask ask ask.. thanks for.. for making me think so much.. i am not going to bring anyone back for now.

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.tim *i wan chocolate! baby, i want to go home*

recharge!

seriously very very tired today... i couldnt even concentrate in band.. i keep playing the wrong things.. oops.. =x however so. i could get to bed.. not cuz i don wan to.. but i just couldnt fall aslp.. ha ha ha. sth is really not right.. oh no.. slpless and appetiteless.. whats next!

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a little magic. a little miracle.

how would this world be if there were a little magic? would it be used for the better of people or would it be for selfish reasons. nonetheless. you could be that magic. you could use ur magic for the better of others. or the better of urself.

its yours to choose... use them wisely... and when your fairy dust is all used up... others will use their magic to help you.. isnt it wonderful? this world of magic.. the world of love and peace.. if u had the magic.. how would u use it?

.tim *my magic never fails & nth is impossible. so is your's*

140410 - weaken.

feeling quite weak today. like no energy to move.. first time i cant finish my food.. actually, i haven been finishing my food lately.. like half? or 1/3 of it? sth is not right... hmm.. anyway.. timmi! save money ok.. the watch is a want.. not a need.. u have other watches!

i chance upon some random pictures and i started remembering things.. i would really love to not recall them for the moment because today's troubles are more then enough to handle.. don't intend to recall them tml as well because im sure theres more to handle tml. oh.. talking nonsense again.

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timmi's theory of a support column

many a times i said that every successful man has a supportive partner behind. Because no one can be successful without neglecting another aspect of life. the supportive partner comes into the picture to take care of these neglected aspect.. such as daily chores or even the simplest of things such as food. because the opportunity cost of handling such things urself would mean less time for the bigger stuff.. and of cuz this partner is willing to do anything for him or her just because theres unconditional love.

unconditional love takes patience, trust, tolerance and understanding. each of them can be represented by a column. without it, the structure(LOVE) will crumble.. and so will the the successful man fall.. but yet again. its easier said then done. where do you find this, supportive partner with this unconditional love you speak of?

the ans is . . .

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.tim *where's my column?*

130410 - tots.

i stepped back into being an active band member today. i like to help out ard. but reminder to self.. "timmi and his golden basin theory" anyway.. MY SECTION PAHSEHED ME! i was like the only flute player there! i leveled up. i was trying so hard to play the right sound! but nonetheless i was overpowered.. woo.. anyway.. i improved. so ya.. good job timmi.. i onli compare myself to myself.. =)

University

many of the rest already have a confirmed place! WHERE's MINE! omg. so sad lo.. like.. i wan go study my accountancy! i wan i wan i wan! tsk.. anyway... wait wait wait. wait. emo liao. bye.

.tim *emo!*

080410 - reflections

a day of reflections. ytd was a mess. i've tot alot.. am i doing the right thing to step in. or shd i let them sort it out.. my time has expired.. is a comeback right? or does it spells disasters.. alot is at stake.. i risked it last nite and i feel the pinch.. yet again.. blame no one. big picture.

today's god msg. is this a sign? maybe i should not interfere.. its not like they cant solve it.. so wats next? more tots.. really a process.. woo. ans.. i need them like now. hmm.

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*the following comment is a general statement, not directed at any living souls.*

heres another thing i don uds. is this call over protective or wat. but dont i have the freedom to decide wat i wanna do. 20 years. its was so, is so and will be so. i don see a reason why YOU shd feel that way.. Never ASSUME. Never JEALOUS. this is the reason why GOOD INTENTIONS are over-rated. we are afterall friends. i treat every friend the same. i treat my close friends another way. cuz i know they will uds me better and know how i feel. this is why they are my close frens.. im very sure everyone treat their frens differently.. don't think so much.. just enjoy it while we can. life is awesome, only if u make it awesome.

*Disclaimer*

this is a general tot of what i been thru. it serves as a general statement which is not directed at anyone. if u feel offended and feel that this is directed to you, please approach me because i think there's an underlying problem which i may have overlooked. thank you for the understanding as a person and as a friend.

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就让歌词代替语言吧。

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.tim *幸福是那么的脆弱*

060410 - reality strikes yet again.

went gai gai with clement... omg! i spent like so much... tsk.. i shd like leave the money at home.. then i wont spend.. lols.. anyway... yea.. nth much liao.. we walk from orchard to haji lane.. ate at aston.. thats all... anyway.. is this shirt nice?

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wake up timmi.. wake up..

.tim *wat is this tingling feeling?*

040410 - happy birthday small one.

today is didi's birthday.. happy birthday small one.. hope u like the present.. 13 yrs old liao hor.. must know how to think.. don always irritating ur brother... haha.. leave him alone.. and ya.. guai guai. study hard.

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today marks the end of my 2 days work at 50+ expo.. 2 days of hard work.. i lost my voice ytd.. but KESHA got me liang cha and sweets.. woo! u're the best! THANK YOU!!! =) yea.. and yup.. really no time to eat.. of cuz i had some fun here and there.. but its still.. a train of tots rolling off my head.. choo choo....

alright.. i dono wat else to say.. so ya.. byebye..

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you never knew. you never know. you never.

.tim *sohard.sodifficult.socomplicated.*

i give up.

.tim *lup dup. lup dup. tiiiiiiii*

a series of misfortunes

tuesday - i came across a pervert

wednesday - i fell sick

thursday - i tripped and fell on the ROAD!

friday - i accidentally bite my lips and its so swollen at one corner...

i dono wats wrong with me... one after another.. hmm.. maybe i dropped my lucky star somewhere.. oh STAR!! come back to timmi.. =) come come..

tml working! omg! how to talk with a swollen lip, sore throat, blocked nose and ears? and worse of all.. i look so zombie... i am disfigured!! omg... my lips.. =( not handsome le.. later no one want.. oh well.. timmi jia you! tml! wat shd i eat.. hmm..

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i shd stop watching movies that make me think alot and emoemo.. but! i think i am very selective.. im onli sensitive to certain genre of movies.. not ur everyday cartoon or romance.. when i say selective.. i mean SELECTIVE.. haha... oh timmi...

*when i watch them. i relate and see us inside.. hais.. imy*

.tim *doyouknowhowmuchyoumeantome?

yes i dono how to..

worked another 12 hrs and im dead... thats how strong i am.. -,- maybe things happen and it just add on thats why im sick.. just a flu thou.. a few pills shd do the trick.. tml driving.. timmi jiayou.. must wake up in time.. must drive carefully and drive well....

lots of interesting humans ard tpy.. and i mean interesting.. can spend 40 min of ur time talking.. and 20 mins of ur lunch time talking abt singapore history... . . . . . . ok. i need rest... i cannot take it le.. anyway.. i jumped up from my slp with a nitemare.. again. =( go away!!!!!

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the whole day has been abt "yes i dono how to coax ppl.. and i am trying to learn.. wat shd i do so as to do a good job coaxing ppl?" i really dono.. seldom happen cuz i seldom offend ppl? i really dono.. i really dont.. nvm.. i shall go read up on it.. somehow someway sometime. i will uds and master it..

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.tim *i am really =(*

things happen. we learn to pick ourselves up and be objective... yet another 12 hrs today... time to go to work.. =( today will be a better day...

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take the eraser and erase my brainnnnnnnnn. . .

.tim *goin home alone spells trouble*

night mare! i learnt my lesson.

fuck! i will nv nv nv meet a new person alone ever again..

u cheebye.. u fuck off... go away..

ARGH... FUCK YOU LA.

its all a bad dream.. it will nv happen again.. i learnt my lesson.. fuck. =(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(=(

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wa liao!!!!! GO AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!! !!!! =( =(!!!

260310 - Where's the Wind?

i officially learnt parking today.. i think, its DAMN easy.. it was like.. fun and much easier then with the pole.. oh.. i forgot.. im lazy.. woo.. speeding again.. shh.. i'm just but abit impatient...

i went kite flying today.. wasnt very good.. i bought a new kite! and its like 18 bucks.. haha.. oh well.. anyway.. wasnt very windy and was super wet.. and i almost let my kite fly away... my shoes wet soak.. not wet but soaked.. haha.. i had ayam penyet! but my stomach is damn pain now... *i dono wat i wan to do now*

250310 - Chicken and Rice

went out with carol shareen and clement for Seoul garden at taka.. i ate quite alot... thanks to clement.. shopped ard and went to meet marcus for dinner... THANKS clement for staying ard keeping me entertained... and also the girls! for the much fabulous afternoon... and yup... more shopping.. i have so much i wanna buy.. but not for the time beingggggggggggggggggg... But i cant

240310 - Swensens and a late night.

went out in the noon.. and met whitney cheryl halif ILAH clement for swensens... and we saw ms Tee! our crm tutor.. omg.. its a small world.. thanks everyone for the fun evening.. =) ST joined and we went walking ard.. wasting time.. i had fun meeting everyone again! really fun.. right ilah!? but im sad cuz i lost Gucci.. oh where are you! =(

yup.. and i went out after that.. was pretty ok.. a new experience.. =)

my face got cut =(

i love my new watch.

.tim *me - (brown leather + 600) = me + emo*

230310 - 20 liao lo! happy birthday timmi =)

woo.. timmi has turned 20 today =) so he is so called 2 years old now.. still a kid.. haha... went to celebrate my bday with LAT, lala, fian at secret recipe at IMM... i had lotsa cakes.. i love cakes.. thank you guys.. =) timmi is super full and satisfied and happy... =)

so the day concludes with

67 FB wishes - 1 duplicate which is = to 66 FB wishes

22 SMS

2 phone wishes - 1 cuz shiteng wished me by sms too which is = to 1 phone wish.

i think 8 face to face wishes..

total of 98 wishes.. woo!

i am contented... this birthday has been a blash and its gonna get even better tml! celebrating with my best-est classmates.. =)

i think im too high today.. i got overly excited and yup... relapse! lucky i was at home. haha.. anyway.. i ate a total of 11 kinds of cake already... 7 types today.. haha.. am i a cake lover or wat? still.. timmi! calm down! don jump around and let go hei gu=ing scaring everyone in the house...

my one and only SISTER bought me 3 kinds!

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today is also results day.. i got 2 As, 1 B+, 2 Bs and 1 C+ =( not very very fantastic results but who cares!!! for 3 years i maintained my gpa at 3.4 with a sudden increase to 3.5 which later drop for a particular reason which cant be named.. haha... now it time to await university admission and also army enlistment... its like nv ending!

irritatingly, my aunt woke me up today.. and she went on assuming i have a GF and she gave me such a atas watch.. and blah blah blah... hello! single la! oh watever...

im so tired today... too high already.. high until low.. haha... tml is a long day! SLP EARLI!

.tim *i wan i wan i wan can can can?*

220310 - a simple yet happy day =)

a simple day... a very happy one!

went to celebrate my bday with a surprise at nyny.. followed by great food! =) thank you Weiwen JIEJIE and ahDa! i am a happy boy today =) headed to band.. tiring! but i pretty much enjoyed it! to top it off.. went for latenight movie with my fren.. Thanks for the surprise! im contented and happy =) "how to train your dragon 3D" was cute! its nice..

thank you all for making my day such a memorable one.. thank you =) timmi is emotional today!!! too happy already... its the simple things that makes life wonderful.. don expect anything and everything will be a surprise.. i realise the significant of it today.. =)

.tim *almost like a dream come thru*