Boredom

i shall blog b4 i dio meh by someone again....

kaes.. jus came back from jojo's hse... went to eat dumpling.. its weary nice lo.. (very nice)
lol... shall try to make it one day... improve my skill for a better mi...

kaes... nth much these days except im losing weight... tml goin for badminton at hg sports hall at 11am with marcuz,ahmah, JH, han and of cuz myself... hope to tone up and... ahem... u know.. "cut fat" lol...

hmm... rainald got ditched by his gf... sad-ed..
but i guess he'll find a better person to love... well, i hope so..
as for mi... still single and will be single for a very long time...
its too deep a cut to heal... need more time... wadever la.. don wanna think...

this few days leh... keep thinking abt my band life... must be those band songs... darn, now i wanna go back.. but don dare... sian-ed 1/2... don like to be pushed ard... oh well...
dono how they doin... hope everything's fine... shall try to sneak into the hall during their syf...

MOKONA!!! Boo~ lol..

so tats all for now while i rot in the shower later....

-tim signing off...

in a sian sian mood

this few days getting more and more sian ar...
lets see....


nth much... went out during wee hrs again...

a pic i took after movie at jack's place

nice chairs~ (mac, hg green)

some guy meditating in poungol park

kaes... nth much... must blog if not later dio meh... tats all for now

-TiM signin off

~scarified~

wa.. jus watched emily rose alone.... ALONE!!!! omg la.... scared the hell out of mi.... waliao!!!!! argh.... shouldnt have watched... don even dare go toilet....

ah mah!!!!! next time remind mi... don watch horror alone!!!! freak man.... super scared.... the dvd player oso kia nang ar.... press eject liao... go msn... later ownself load and play... turn back see the menu kia dio.... almost heart attack.... wa!!!!! y no one here beside mi de.... waliao... tonite no need slp le la....

scarified tim signing off....

~CNY~

DaE 1

today went my dad's side de aunties' residences.
lol... everyone asking abt my results and plans.... everyone stuff mi with food and drinks.. say i study study study, nv eat... become so thin liao... >.<>

sis' dog


The TV so Big >.<

lol... nice~



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DaE 2


kaes.... today busy le... morning went my kim kim house... hee... same thing.. eat eat eat... hhahaa.... then went to my lao gu's house... my grandad's sister's house... then went to my another gu gu house... stay there!!! yeah... finally... same thing happened... walked in all don reconise mi... the old ppl all call mi ang mo! Zzz wa... all surround mi... take turns la.... first... "grand dad and ah mah" not really mine but jus call for fun... both my cousins... lol.. ask ask ask... results.... plans... blah blah.. then keep on tellin mi... don ever go poke my ear... go poke = GG.... they'll tear it open... lol... fierce...
next table... my cousins... again... everyone older then mi la.. talk abt property, blah blah... land this land tat... sell and buy, not interested... then cousin susana Goodenough; her husband's name is goodenough... lol.. came to save the day... ask mi go find my nephews... kaes... change table... er.. to floor... lol... so many la... don even know who ther are... but cutest cousin is mark goodenough... come hug mi say... u look so nice... =.='l lol..

so many names... mark,ethan,gideon,natheliex2,michelle,merlisa and the list goes on... kaes.. enough words... now the pics...


All in a house... so many ppl!!!

kaes... today day three... not goin out with my family.... goin with my frens.... shall go get ready now... meeting at 1030 lol...

-tim signing off....

Happi Chinese Lunar New Year~

Helloz.... monty today feel weird... lol... want to go but don wanna go... lol...
last nite slept at 1+ woke up at 1.38am.. carn slp suddenly... then~ SMS! someone smsed mi.. lol.. then i read le.. suddenly can slp again... weird...

anyway... im all dressed up... hee... see my mood.. maybe got pic... provided got ppl ask mi take... lol...

kaes... heres to all...
business personnel; shen yi xing long~
student; hue ye jing bu
wealth seekers; xing nian xing da yun
couples; zao ri shene zhi
dating; ai qing mei man
and the list goes on~

LoLz... =P

~TiM signing Off... *poof*

LoneLy mi

okie~ results don ask... not as good as i expected... so advise to my juniors... start mugging~

monday went to TP... Temasek poly and NYP... ask abt courses and etc... went with ah mah, jh, han...

some weird stucture on our way to TP...



















tuesday went to jojo hse for dinner.... stayed till abt 6+ then went home... saw kaikai zakum....

















lonely 14th feb.... alone at home... slp slp slp... dreamt abt my valentine...
tats abt it....


today leh... got morning-mare... dreamt tat i got stabbed.... from the back!!!!! by a fork shaped thingy... pain.... but there wasnt blood... weird... oh well...

kaes... i blog le... all for now... i guess...

-tim signing off...

Aww... nervous

howhowhow.... aiyoyo.... nervous.... at a time like tat.... already not feeling too good... but got some ppl onli make it worse... shal not mention names....

hope my dream will come true tml.... tat damn dream.... aww.... if really come true hor i really no comments.... another prediction... Zzzz

oh okie... i needa to relax abit... before i go mad...

-tim signing off

aww... slpless...

monty's worried.... i don know y but suddenly keep thinking abt it... how will i fair? aww.... mokona.... syaoran donno wat to do.... RINRIN.... any suggestions?

=/ i had a dream a few days back... abt results day... i had dreams tat came true... will it come true too? its a good one btw... the results are not bad.. good... lol... had a bet with mokona... if i really get wat i dreamt i gotten.. i'll treat mokona... aww... pls come true... scared scared...

monty need sakura now... wheres sakura? hmm... monty need support... need someone to take care of mi 24 hrs... lol... monty worried sick... really sick... no voice le... hope i'll get well soon... and of cuz.. results to be good...

syaoran slpless le.... =/ anw... when mokona and rinrin online pls morning call mi kaes.... {";} syaoran talk to u guys....

kaes.. i gonna try to slp.... >.<

-tim signing off.... again..

monty's bored~ again

aloha.... today went to cut my hair.... dye too... but the colour wasnt wat i expected it to be.... abit too bright.. lol... no pic thou... haha... some outdated pics are below.... and best of all.. JH changed hair style le!!! wahahah....


JH with his new hair style... 0.o


wat we accidentally did while fooling ard one nite... abt 4+am



MoKoNa!!!!! abit random la... but i saw this while shopping.. =x


kaes... i blog le...
anw... abit worried abt friday.... donno wat i'll get... slpless... =/

-TiM signing off...

today boring... so went to look for some videos.... hope u guys enjoy too....

Stand By Mi


Ah Nan Cha Kuay Tiao


Ah Nan Hua Mu Lan


OnLi You~~


-TiM Signing Off

sian

siansian..... today met up with lala daph ahmah JH edward...... tats abt it..... sth wrong with my blog..... will upload some pics if i got time..

tim signing off....

oh.. its feb le... yeah~

hee... the tot of goin back to sch excites mi... carn wait to get my results.... carn wait to go poly/JC... carn wait to start mugging... carn wait to get a new lappy~ *montymonty*

lol... today went back to band... not bad not bad... i can still play... so fun... jinbin went back to... sadly... dickson had something on... so he carn turn up... the other one leh... don bother la... oso donno where he is.. uncontactable.... hee.... today mr tan not there... lucky lucky.. *phew*

hmm... one thing for them... JiaYou hor.... if the syf day i can go, i'll go support u guys de.... smile!!! must jiayou hor.... sat they got day camp... donno can go back anot.... hope can.. then go back see see look look help help...

anw... gtg eat le... later dio meh ar.... nv eat.. nag nag nag.... kae guys.... take care....

-TiM signing off...

monty's bored~

monty monty is bored... nth to do... maple abit sian le... >.<
now oso donno wat to do.... bored..... mokona slp le... no one talk to monty....

lol... i got so many nicknames... TiM, TimMi, monty, caicai, Ti-mo~, etc etc... lol...
wats my next nick gonna be?... heee.... anyway... i'll think abt goin back for band... nv go feel very weird... cannot slp...

anyway... monty feels normal... nth much to be happi or sad abt... ^^
and yeah!!! i finish my medication le... no need eat pills for now... shall be glad abt it...

0 lvl results coming out le... feel normal... not excited or scared... jus normal.. most likely wont do well de la.. expected le... too engrosed in doin other things during my sch days... not focused...
so all the juniors listen up... rmb to study hard... don be like mi... nv study... more focused on relationships and ya.. BAND... but band was my life... cannot blame... lol... =x

kae la... i go return testimonial for ah daz le... later she scold mi.... =x
okie ppl... Take care....

-TiM signing off~~ montymonty *bounce*

Hmm~ TiM is always TiM

as i said.. im always the way i am... many asked mi y i nv go for the SYF rehersal... i really wanted to... i really wanna go back to band every pract.. go back help help teach abit gif support... but the impression of the teachers are most dissapointing.... not tat i wanna say but... tats the reason y i didnt wanna go back for band....

as many already know... im kinda attached to MSSMB.. during my sch days... my form teacher keep nagging at mi for spending too much time there... my parents wanted mi to resign since i was like sec 2? but i held on... nv quit... nv leave... the sense of belonging is too strong.. but now.. even thou i have the urge to go back.. i wouldnt... i don like to go places uninvited or unwelcoming... well.. tats the impression of the teachers...

My juniors wants us to go back... but teachers don... what can we do.. some still go back.. well.. for mi.. i seldom go back... theres a reason for everything... its not tat i wanna abandon the band or anything... i love to go back.. but some ppl don like to see mi... so i carn pop by too often...

well.. if the teachers do read this... i jus wanna let u guys know tat im not aimming at anyone... its a general impression... i need no apology or anything of tat sort... but u guys have let mi down time and again.. u kinds treat us as free labour... come back when u need us.. when u don need us... u jus chase us away...
of cuz... not all teachers are like tat... some do welcome us... i understand that u guys gotta get work done.. but chasing us ard isnt the rite way... we were once ur students and we did do our part didnt we... so don push us ard... thx you...

oh well.. tat all abt band... i'll try to pop by more often... really miss u guys...
but theres nth much i can do...

well.. life jus such a bore.. nth much to do... laming ard... slack... trying to stay happi and help ard... nth much to rejoice abt.. anyway... CNY coming le.. wish everione a happi lunar new yr bah... wish u guys good luck... xue ye jing bu... wan shi ru yi.. smile...

-TiM signing off~ *monty monty monty*

sian...

moodless... lol... very sian la.. donno wat to do.... play maple oso sian... donno y... but everything is sian to mi... kaes.. tml aaron they all goin for rehersal...
wish them luck...

tats all for now....

-tim signing off... (Zzz)

sian sian sian.... abit absent-minded...

donno y abit blur these days... take very long to reply ppl... maybe thinking abt too many things bah... oh well... ytd celebrated my sis' 21st bday.. lol.. happi bday to her... had bbq and the cake was... beyond discription... too nice le la.. =x... abit jealous...

anw... jus died twice in maple.. its so bloody diff to train la.. and i died twice.. lame... diao... sian !!!

donno la... abit luan diao liao... haven slp again... later sure dio meh by some ppl de... =x=x.. not i don want slp.. my bed got raided.. like my zombie map.. oh well...

hope got someone to train with mi.. like last time like tat.... so fun la... can par tor and play at the same time... =x... hmm... not par tor all the time la... cuz some are jus frens... hee... now train along very sian de.. okie la... tats all for now....

-tim signin off..

Zzz moodless... PEACE people... peace...

this few days very sian.... bu shi kan yi sheng jiu shi zai jia li... haiz.... oso donno wat to blog bah....

okie.. abt my tagboard thingy... u guys are free to read and all.. u wanna comments, can... by all means... but sometimes... watever u wrote may backfire on yourselves...
i went to look out the work blog in the oxford dictionary... did it on longman's too... went to dictionary.com too... i used many sources.. so my conclusion is tat.. blog = online diary... diary = my life... so watever i wanna talk abt... is my prob... i don mind comments... but pls make them sensible... donno meaning can always check dictionary... im 16.. goin 17 soon.... i think i know wat im doin... u are not my parents... don tell mi wat to do... even my parents respect my comments and tots... im a person who enjoys freedom... im not one u can order ard and cage mi up... hope u uds... im not shooting at anyone... i don wanna open fire... y waste my time... im better off talking on the phone etcetc... u think i so free?

now.. as for using my tagboard as a warzone... i have no comments... even if i have.. i don wanna say it out... oh ya... before u wanna debate with mi... pls have the most reliable sources and the best arguement before u look mi up... check my history... i onli lost my debates with my very close ones.. cuz i don wan them to be sad... i can say tat im nice to everyone... cuz im neutral.. but when u form a negative impression in mi.. i'll rmb it... so becareful... oh ya... pls read more eng books and all... cuz sometimes its really hard to comprehen wat some of u wanna say.... not aiming at anyone hor... if u think im aimming at u... tats onli watu think... don jump to conclusion... rmb... the wall has ears and eyes... i know more then wat u think i know...

well... if u don like it here... u can leave.... i nv point a gun at u saying;"if u don come and read abt mi... i'll kill u... " uds? not too profound rite... my eng not very good de.... its average nia... uds bo? i use singlish liao hor.. buai hu heen, mai lai... bo nang jio le... =x im so bad... and again.. this is jus a general statement... not aimming at anyone....

hmm... life's like tat... always got some ppl who wanna bad mount u and all... y someppl remain quiet? u think they're gullible and u continue... wellwell.. u are very wrong.. they are the most dangerous.... they look harmless.. but is more dangerous then u think.... u think u are in the grp.. well... sometimes ur frens jus let u join for fun... they don treat u as a fren.. rmb.. u look for activities to go... ur frens choose which to go... uds? not aimming at anyone again....

kaes.... before another comment on my essay type entry... tats all for now... its a good practise for GP papers anw.... =x

-Tim signing off.... *pissed*

bday.... good / bad...

today leh. i oso donno good or not la... not really in the right state of mind.... but many turned up... was very glad they did... well.. went kbox... after tat went to esplanade for food... im super tired la... i reach home.. no need lie down oos can slp.... Zzz... still feeling weird.... as usual... as i predicted.... the things came true... /=

here are the pics...

wow... ah mah got 2 girls to pei... one daph one lala


my left view? with daph trying to take my pic


My right view!!!! we have Han the great and rain


hmm.. donnow at this is.. romantic view?


a funni ray pic?


another ray funni pic thing


Bday girl cutting her cake


Aaron's back view? abstract..


my favorite of the day.. us ur imagination.... wat do u see? sail? lol.. i see more

-why-

This few days... thou got happi times but alot of unfortunate events happened too...
there are somethings in life tat we carn explain... examples are why things happened... why do u learn to treasue the things ard more onli when they're gone? i always tell myself to be happi... cuz i want the ppl ard mi to be happi... don wanna affect them... but its jus so tiring to fake out a smile everyday.... sometimes u jus need a break.... how i wish i could be in a coma now.... lying in hospital.... care free... how i wish this was jus a night mare... how i wish i could wake up from it.... sigh sigh sigh.... later today, im gonna celebrate my fren's birthday... i'll be happi... jus cuz i don wanna spoil 13 ppls' mood.... well... hope tat things go well for this fren of mine cuz this outing was specially planned for u... u said u nv celebrated ur bday b4... so this yr.. i will go no matter wat... i treat u as a fren... hope u treat mi as one too...

relationships are impt in life... some ppl don like them... some ppl love them... as for mi... i think its the way one handles relationships tat create tat impression in one's mind... they must be set out clear... don leave it in a mess... i regretted living many of my relationships in a mess... i've been running away.. hoping tat time will settle everything for mi... but in the end... everyone suffers... be it ur frens... family.. loved ones... etc... i need a break... a break from all these... i need to set my mind clear... i need to draft out my rules and regulations.. i don wanna hurt anyone anymore... or be hurt... its not nice to have tat feeling in u... so don do it to others too... i really apologise to those i hurt so deeply... i want to do sth abt it... but i donno how... pls teach mi... tat remoseful feeling nv wears off... onces its there.. its like a scar... even when u are truely happi.. it wont last cuz once u see the scar.. u recall the bad memories....

the wise once said: "one must be forward looking.. treat past failures as a lesson... don look back, don regret... live life to the fullest" tats how im brought up... i love details... everything must be perfect.. but wat is perfect... well.. theres nth perfect in this world....

to those who read this far... grats to u.. for u know mi better... read on if u want... if u think this is lame... well.. i have to agree.. cuz my mind is in a daze right now... i donno wat to do... my eyes... they look watery... but im not crying.. my mind is as blank as a sheet of paper... i feel cold... i feel lost...

many ppl always ask others "why is it my fault?" well.. it depends on how u take the situation.... i used to do tat... but now i ask... have i done wrong? if i did... wat did i do wrong... well.. this is so random... totally no link....

do u think being a hamburger paddy is fun? well.. i don think so... i don like to be in the middle... i don like to get involved in others' business... i really dont... i don wish to lose any of my frens... its really difficult u see... "A" tells mi this... "B" tells mi tat... i carn side any party... i wanna be neutral... but i carn... sigh... well... i hope tat ppl will be less of a busy-body and jus mind their own business.... don ask others to pass message... u put them in a very difficult spot... if theres a prob... settle it urself... and im not aiming at anyone... do not misunderstand...

i get mad easily cuz im jus too sensitive.... i always tell myself to be opened... accept all ideas and critics... no matter wat they say... i will listen... but sometimes... i'll get mad... and i don like to show it out... do i look gullible? free frake... no i don.... i will fight if theres a need... im not a all talk and no actions... when i say sth... i mean it... if someone challenges mi.. i'll settle it... it has happened before... i fought with many ppl... i ended with bruises... and i don gif up unless im dead... im like a bull when im mad... almost impossible to stop.. for im in a sub conscience mind... if i fought and stop... im still in a clear state of mind... Right Dan? right mel? right mich... i fought with u guys many times when we were younger... and its my dad tat whack the sense back into tat rock hard skull of mine... i really regretted fighting... its not nice.. i don mean it.. if i did fight... remember to knock the sense back into mi...

i always try to be nice to others... some ppl complain... some ppl take mi for granted... but i always try to remain neutral unless i really dislike u... i wouldn't open fire at anyone for no reason... u attack mi... i'll attack u... tats my principle... if u wanna cold war... i'll cold war... if its official... i'll put our differences aside and get the job done... im quite petty actually... i say i don rmb things... i got STML... well.. sometimes i jus don wann bring it up...

Sunday, 21st Jan 07... how will it be? how will things turn out... i sort of predicted somethings already... as usual... jus like wat happened the day b4 m9... i predicted... will it happen again... i hope not... i don want things to go wrong... i don.... i need a break, realy really need one... im tired.. veryvery tired.... im afraid to slp... im afraid i'll remain aslp... im scared... im lost... what shd i do? wheres my angel? wheres the person i can rely on? where are u? now... im here... alone... cold... lost.... no one to support... no one to comfort...

im sry to those who read this and got affected... i truely am... but i need to pen this down... b4 i self mutilate again... alls bad... im sry...

-Tim signing off..

so far so good ^^

so far leh... i managed to stay happi.... but hor... GG liao la... my HP bill bao like donno wat... i sms like 1348 la... call for like 2182 mins la.. GG liao.. dio meh like donno wat.... but nvm la... mummi say she help mi pay... hee... donno y but my parents suddenly very nice to mi wor... weird... my dad still say wanna upgrade the hse internet... 0.o weird....

maybe hes doin well bah... so he good mood lo... hope he remains like tat... hee..

hmm sunday goin celebrate my fren's bday... hope everything goes well... tml i'll post some pics.... =) kaes... tats all for now...

-tim signing off...