i woke up at 1112.

darnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

its so noisy... 8 plus and daddy's making such a din...

9 plus, sister wakes up...

10 plus brother wakes up... rawrrrrr!

i dono wat to do now..

.tim

*into your arms*

november is coming.

november is coming...

its tat time of the year again....

the tots are haunting me again...

i wish they'll stop...

how many people actually know what i am saying?

doubtfully, a handful, literally...

well... i've to live thru it.. no matter wat...

its not the first time anyway.. 3rd time...

right.. now... smile... stop thinking...

.tim

*my shelter, my refuge. tat's you*

hungry

i am hungry.

sushi with joseph, amanda, francesca, betty.

ok ar.. not bad.. but i didnt eat to i explode like wat i wanted to..

band was.... lets not talk abt it...

mummy was talking to me abt saving up.

boy, don spend so much ok... must save up..

for rainy day and also for ur marriage.

i was speechless.. haha... i said.. orh.

i go shower...

goin movie tml. yay!

i have alot of brain activity now. hope it stops soon.

.tim

*i have alot to say*

201009

nth much for today.

woke up, pack my table. waited forever for lunch. continue packing.. wait for phone call. online. showered and headed to woodlands to meet jolie and marcus. yup.. had mos burger... then chat abit, walked ard abit and home home home.............................. see.. it's a boring day. and i think... army changed my brother.. HI MR VAIN! now people wear baggy shirt and shorts and specs no more... welcome the new mr handsome.. he is... im advertising him on my blog.. lelong lelong! but too bad he's taken! too late! in ur face! no wonder ppl say love changes a person... haha... right? wishing the both of u the best best best! not marcus and jolie but marcus and his mrs right.

hmm.. its been a totful day. i feel it's pointless to block the tots. they just come... i've tot, and tot, and tot. i cant come to a concrete resolution yet. so ya.. let it be.. take it as it comes.. anyway... my books fell on me when i opened the cupboard.. so this goes to show, ITS TIME TO CLEAR!... i think im suffering from selective concussion thanks to the books. i don seem to rmb certain things. bah.... SUSHI-ing with band peeps tml! woo. another good time to distract myself!

decipher it yourself ba..

*patience, my turn will come*

.tim

sleepless. i wonder, right?

the following post is a piece of crap.. don read it if u don like talking abt life.

was chatting with halif the sleepless boy last night and i caught the sleepless virus..

i can't seem to fall asleep last night. well, eventually i did but i woke up at 8.

i had many many dreams... and i start to wonder... not wander but wonder.

things are happening. wat can i do abt it. if i don anything abt it. how will the outcome be.

but if i do sth abt it. how much better then, will it be... i wonder i wonder...

19 and 1/2 years of my life... i've been thru ups and downs.

all kinds of shits... all kinds of nice happi moments..

life is about choices... the choices u make, the ppl you meet. its part of a growing process.

i've always complaint abt how stressful sch has been.. and now.. im hoping it starts today.

right now.... i miss sching... at least... it keeps me occupied... studying is good.. u become smarter.

sometimes, u give.. and sometimes u take... dr goh said... 势必寿根优福。i dont know if my chinese is right but giving is better then receiving... in many situations... i've given in... from past till now... i grew from being a selfish "it must go my way" to "watever, as long as everyone is happy" to "i feel there shd be a compromise".. what should my next step be. go my way? watever? or compromise... easier said then done. i know wats the outcome... so just shhh.

i've been typing and typing.. how much is in my head.. how much is said? i guess i'll stop here.

life is short... u choose how to live it.. happi or sad... i choose to be HAPPY.

.tim (happilittleboi)

control stress and not let stress control you.

i think i have been quite worked up and lost my mind a few times...

today i found TONNES of white hair on my HEAD!.. DARN!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm aging too fast.. haha.. its abt time... i tell myself..

tat sentence again!

"Control stress and not let stress control you"

thanks to WW and ah DA who taught me this sentence...

i still rmb it till this day cuz its true tat stressed is desserts spelled reverse.

positive thinking and motivation goes a long way.

yes tim.. u can do this.. its nth compared to wat u been thru last time...

1 man or not.. u still can do it.. HA HA! help is out there... u just need to open ur mouth.

quote no. 2

"shared grief is halved and happiness doubled"

its true tat if u share it.. it is so...

recently.. many of my frens are facing probs...

thou i may not be able to help but i think the ears were enough...

just like they are there for me, im there for them...

hope you're feeling better...

but i came to this tot.

if i can even help myself, how can i help others?

think think think.. i realise.. sometimes the 3rd party sees the situation better...

sometimes the ans is simple, but u are just to worked up or sth tat u don see it..

sometimes all someone needs is jus to let it out.. things will solve by themselves..

well... so much so... there are still things that one cant help..

it's sometimes better to accept it that way... and as for me...

there are things tat i will say and things that i cant... its just like working in the bank..

too much is at stake.. i just cant... please understand...

thanks to those who have been there for me...

so much of talking... i feel tat i grew today... or rather... woken abit...

things tat u cant control then let it be ba... u tired...

it's 2 sided.. just be patient for now.. ur turn will come...

driving was crappy.. thou i mastered the illegal 1 hand turning..

i almost bang car.... but at least i was smart enough to do the biting point thing.

dinner sucked... and my pay cheque has my name spelled wrongly.. =(

hmm.. im hungry.. and band room was cold... and i jus feel like typing none stop..

so here i am crapping..... ok.. im done....

.tim

*i wish*

headache.

nth much happened today.

having a headache now... hmm...

here is a nice song.

There's some things we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

.tim

*its a nice song. imy*

171009

friday 161009

the meeting was lame.

it was with the board of governors...

i did the talking... hope i did a good speech..

ended rather earli...

went for lunch at amk... +koi cafe

then chopped my hair at orchard...

i've got bangs again! =D

tired.. slpy.. went amk for koi again.

no wonder im so poor lately.. koi-ed too much..

went back to sch for orchestra.. self practed alittle..

too tired.. floated to the band room. sat in... and fell aslp at one corner of the band room.

suppered with dr goh and the rest. home. and lets not continue wat happened.

171009

WOW! guess wat i saw when i woke up...

1111. i made my wish.

went back to slp thou...

woke up.. cooked aglio pasta.

ate... nua on the sofa. fell aslp..

stood up too fast... fainted on the floor... ha ha.

help dad with his work.

church.

home. and i had half a salmon to myself. =)

online. suppered.

now gonna slp.

.tim

*i am learning. =) wish ur day went well*

STOP BLAMING ME!

I AM NOT AN INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY STUDENT.

I STUDY BUSINESS!

STOP BLAMING ME FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO FIX THE HOUSE COMPUTERS AND PRINTER ISSUES!

2 PERSON ASK FOR HELP AT THE SAME TIME.. WAT U WAN ME TO DO...

DAMN IT.. FUCKING STOP ASKING ME! IFUCKINGDONTKNOW!

I AM GOIN TO GO OUT NOW.

BYE!

CB.

.tim

BLUR.

today is a blur day...

i seem to be in a slping state the whole day..

i seem to be floating... drifting everywhere..

lunch with mummy, and i said i wan to eat noodles at the chicken rice stall -.-

went home.. sat down.. fell aslp.. wake up.. slp.. wake up and slp..

when i finally decided to take a nap.. i cant slp.. -.- wth...

washed up, dinnered, and went out for a walk..

my fren said.. why u like blur blur emo emo one? like ur shirt pic..

then i like.. hurrrrr... dono.. had some soup... and went walking ard...

walk until dizzy.. blur blur dizzy dizzy.. went home..

rest awhile.. mask and showered.... now uploading pictures...

and its irritating.. cuz its very troublesome to upload.. and im half way..

don wan to leave it half doned...

gotta be in sch for an interview/meeting at 8am tml..

SO EARLI! =( darnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn it...

with moe ppl.. wonder wat they will ask... hopefully send me on a scholarship =x

hope i wont be blur tml... formal wear... -.- and im gonna chop my hair tml.

well.. all the best tim... stop venting here... go upload... and slp...

.tim

*take care*

the little stomach of mine haven been co-operating today...

its very very painful now...

blister on my feet... =( pain...

a mysterious cut on my little finger... =(

i am still smelling tat stupid smell and taste in my nose and throat...

an open wound somewhere...

haunted by guilt...

tired.

and i cant slp.

tml will be a better day... yes it would be...

.tim

*[ ]*

sunday... and a packed week.

nth much today...

i ate dumplings for lunch.. like SUPER ALOT cuz i love them! daddy made wat... its sunday ok.. only day in the week where i can enjoy his cooking... hmm... went out for a walk... and ate chicken rice? and i ate super alot... i dono why.. walked ard.. and home...

going out to celebrate ww's bday tml... then head to sch to get things done...

band.. and not home.. im staying out... wed go home change bag and sch again.. omg..

tue got sectionals? if have means i need to go sch again... oh man... much more planning to do..

alot more to settle.. 2 more weeks.. time table gonna be out on tuesday... maybe i shd bring my comp along... so i can do my work and also... surf the net... haha... tats all for now... ok ok.. i know.. uncap the bottle.. ok ok.. im uncapping.. =)

.tim

*i know u are busy, lotsa things to settle.. jiayou ok! im always here to support*

pricked and scratched.

woken up by phone calls...

settled some stuff... had lunch.. tv abit and went for a walk...

bought some kueh...

today is cousin's wedding...

help my mother set her hair.. and choose her outfit..

but her gold needle pricked and scratched me..

ITS VERY PAINFUL! stupid "ko-lo-san"

tsk... off to church i went...

homed... onlined, dinner.. rested abit cuz i was dizzy...

showered.. and ya.. nth much today...

my medical is booked... dec 8 at 10 am...

remind me... tats all... byebye...

.tim

*where youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu*

091009

hi blog.

today was a sian sian day.. daddy was home in the morning...

noisy! yup... then then then... cuz theres too many ppl at home..

i decided to head to sch.. to print some stuff....

headed off to sch... and wa liao! i nv bring my thumbdrive! tsk!

then went band room for piano... not bad.. i think now it sounds better..

but dono why theres this irritating metal sound when i play A & G#..

stupid.. must get it solved! and i think shd get it tuned too.. abit off ar..

enjoyed myself... immersed myself in music.. embraced by chords and harmony..

woo.. help jojo with some transposing, arrange the room and dinner...

wanted to head home but was rush hr.. so i stayed, wanted to pract but no room! =(

stay in band room use comp.. settle band stuff... update my itunes.. and UHHHH!!!!

i need a new mp3.. not enough space... thou i love mine now, but i think an itouch would be handy.. xD shall save save.. =)

took a long long time to go home.. suppered a packed food.. and after finishing it.. i realise.. ehh, the chilli abit sour ar.. lols.. tml i stomach ache.. i will know why... hmm.. enough crap..

tml shall unpack the rest of my luggage and i dono.. find sth to do ba... cousin's wedding tml.. don feel like going.. haha..

.tim

*all the best, jiayou. im supporting you*

back

its been 2 days since im home...

band was ok... didnt wanna take sectionals but i guess its for the better ba..

dono wat they think but.. i tried... my hand are swollen! =(

went for supper with the clars, 2 tpets.. kfc... not nice... but was quite fun...

today, i was home all day.. planning and planning...

did up a few things and planned many more....

done my pre-enlistment documents... shall book the date tml.

time to put everything into perspective... things haven been going well..

i think i had enough.. i say we do it this way... since no one wan to do it...

u don have much of a choice... live with it...

list of qns... uninformed... blamed...

and all this while... i jus took it all.. so the least u could do is try to help and not create prob.

oh man.. the things i do... many a times i qn myself.. why?

haha... i know my ans... do u know mine? more calling and planning tml...

3 weeks to sch start... 3 weeks to solve it all.

.tim

*let's jiayou together*

byebye

bye bye everyone..

take care ok...

my frens.. elites... everyone.. esp u

bad day

everything is goin bad and i cant help it.

alot of urgent probs cropped up..

clashing schedule and ppl jus throw everything to me..

everything seems to be my fault somehow...

stressed out.. i predict this 6 days there will not be good.

thank you for doing this to me...

feeling uneasy and all.. dont feel like goingi but i still have to go..

nonetheless, i will try to enjoy myself...

enough said... im tired... bye world.

.tim

*i wish i can jus say anything i want, take care...*

smiled. =)

today was a not bad day.

had lunch at pizza hut.

went for desserts at mof.. YAY!

and movie... at first i don like thou.. but i like it towards the end.

i smiled. from deep within today.. woo! long time no smile.

yup.. in 30 hrs or so.. im going away for awhile.

i have still yet to pack and all.. abit don feel like going...

but oh well.. =) gotta drop by a few places to get thigns done tml.

take care everyone else... (esp u, my babyy)

hope everything will be find when im gone... it will be.. rite? haha.

hmm.. tats all for now i guess. and the ah nehs downstairs.. please DIAM.. gui diam liao? mian kun?

.tim

*hee hee.... over the moon already*

i am feeling abit better now.

im goin out for a walk.

take care everyone.

.tim

*ty for cheering me up*

bad bad headache

i'm having a sudden headache attack.

maybe cuz i think too much the whole day?

and im very upset. leave me alone.

wat i did today.

driving in the morning.. which i onli spoke 2 sentence to my instructor.

went off speeding my way.. anyhow drive... argh... im just so DISTURBED!

sadly, the car was still intact... next lesson is on 19th oct.. how far away..

went home... rest alittle.. tired.. had lunch..

entertain my mother's fren who destroy my slp.

showered.. went to sch.. which pissed me off.

carn find the key. went for a run.. hoping to tired myself out to remove all those tots.

onli effective for awhile.. sadly.

band time.. damn damn damn irritated... not with pract but with sth else...

i hope i can jus FORGET EVERYTHING.. ARGH...

can the headache go away? Zzz... anyway... met bro at station.. =)

and tats all for today...

i hope tml will be a better day...

really hope so. [sigh]

.tim

*can u be here for me? jus for now?*

just another boring day.

nth much today...

food was so so... watched abit of drama...

went church and tats it...

weather was hot.. hate it..

tats all.. morning driving tml..

.tim

*i cant help it, i just suddenly miss u alot*

lobster red.

just got home not long ago from PQ's..

the stayover was fun... we had mahjong... swimming...

DVD and chit chat! woo... and of cuz the slp over part....

currently in the lobster red condition.... nv intended to tan at all..

i like my fair skin.. lols.. still, i was alittle burnt..

hmm.. my family went overseas today again... like 9 plus msg me..

bye timo.. we're off to jb to walk walk... then i was like, HUH?! then wat am i gonna do later?

and guess wat... im home later then them.. lols..

ok.. wat did i do on friday?

lets see... went to amk with kit for lunch and headed to sch for meeting...

ended at 4? so we went amk in a random spike of toto craze.. 7 of us bought.. but we didnt win.. haha.. it was for fun anyway! its funni how we talked abt the things we wanna do if we won the prize... yup.. we queued for like 45 mins? =x while the rest went back to sch for wind emsemble..

karlyn and i walked ard, chat alittle till its like 6 plus? then we went our separate ways... me to yishun to pass marcus some stuff.. and her to her daddy's bday.. happi bday uncle..

the train was so SQUEEZEy! argh.. rush hr... then bus home... showered and prepared to meet fren at seragoon and we flew to pq's... yup... im jus crapping... tats abt it... byebye..

.tim

*i'm happi*

just another day

yup... just another day..

did some self pract today...

hmm... mummy talked alot today.. and i actually rmb wat she said..

wow.. pampered myself alittle b4 heading to bed...

my face is GONE thanks to the spring cleaning.. =(

feeling alittle better thou my nose and ears are still blocked.

rmb.. lunch and meeting tml.. yup.. im like back to the everyday band me...

alright.. enough rubbish.. current mood.. deep tots..

hmm.. having stay over at PQ's place.. and SWIMMING.. thou i dono how but ya! play water!

ok.. its gonna be fun.. the sound of it already says its fun.. lol!

alright... time for last min touch ups b4 i slp...

nites tim!

.tim

*smile.*

tired.. and abit sick..

oh man.. the kid has fallen ill!

he has block nose and ears.. don think theres any mind block..=x

a slight fever and flu! thanks to allergies to the TONNES of dust from ytd spring cleaning..

haha.. enough.. wat did he do today?

hmm.. woken up at 10 plus by mr halif over the results!

dum dum toot toot.. my results not say very good la.. but i expected it..

bounded by wat.. WAT TO DO! darn it.. but my GPA still maintain in the 3.4 range.

luckily... if not i wound have bang wall and died... sian 1/2 already la.. my aim of getting 3.8 is a big byebye! haha..

after checking.. watch abit of tv and decided to help mummi clean the hse..

its my hse anyway... i have to do my part in one way or another...

vacuumed and mopped it! clean clean.. i like =)

but my didi soon dirty it with his dirty socks when he came home..

showered and prepare for driving while waiting for lunch..

had my delayed chicken rice lunch at 3... symptoms of full.. i fell aslp..

shitty.. reluctant to leave.. but gotta go for driving...

driving was ok la.. i was practically speeding.. =x abit scary thou..

i mastered my clutch and accelerator pedal skills.. almost stalled..

hmm.. turning was better... woo.. confident already...

tired me... drove to sch today.. how cool is tat... quite la.. alot cars thou..

yup... band.. my ears were block i cant hear myself well...

nonetheless tried to stay in tune and all... tired neh...

and irritated cuz i cannot hear properly...

gotta practice harder tim... get well soon also..

tats all for now ba..

.tim

*im happi theres you*

tired

so tired...

ytd worked...

haha... shall not mention the name.. but quite torturing!

sit there for abt 9 and half hrs collating papers..

paper cuts and numb legs are a norm..

and cuz i wanted to distract myself... i did damn fast..

and so.. hurt myself...

today spring clean the band room..

its damn damn dirty and messy...

other users PLEASE KEEP IT CLEAN! thank you.

thanks to those who came to help! thank you very much!

yup.. cleaned it... climb up and down... took down curtains...

pack the room.. wipe abit... wow.. lucky there were here to help..

if not! i would have died...

i got more cuts today.. not from paper but from sth else.. hais... pain pain!

and old already.. my back is breaking! legs are aching... cant even sit properly =(

i think i breathe in too much dust.. not feeling too well now...

sore throat since a few days ago.. =( scally no tml voice make announcement! i LAUGH!

hmm.. so much so abt my boring and tiring day...

tml results will be out... wonder how i will fair...

and theres driving tml.. and i will be driving to SCH! how cool is tat!

hope everything goes well and im not tat distracted again...

lotsa plans for band.. alot of things to do...

oh well... hi life.. u are back to haunt me... =)

.tim

*i really miss you*

就往另一方想吧

好几天没写日记了。。。

我的电脑终于可以用华语打字了！！ 好开心。

星期六，陪老哥吃午饭。。

然后就上电影院看了 “Gamer"

还好吧。。

然后,两人就没目地的走来走去。。

哈哈。。。 好久没这样了。。

有点怀念以前的日子。。

我说吗。。还好有这个好大哥。。

就是那个会听我发唠哨，陪我一起转可爱，说笑，谈天的老哥

哈哈。。不管发生什么事， 至少还有他来安慰我。。

这就是我生命中的其中一件好事吧。。

==================================

我想，有些事是不能勉强的。。

我担心也没有用啊。。想了这么多。。 做了则么多。。 情况还是没改变。。

有时好像放弃。。 可是就是放不下。。

何必把自己弄得心不在焉，闷闷不乐的。。

就往新方面想吧。。 是你的就是你的。。 别为了默默人而误了大事。。

我还没放弃哦。。 我只是找你说的。。 别那么用心。。

。财财

*im still loving as deep as b4.. hope u are too =)*

yet another tiring day..

woke up at 7... showered and headed over to Comfort Driving Centre at UBI!

i reached like 830? i was supposed to meet at 9 but oh well..

opened my account.. but the test day was shitty!...

when everything was done.. went Hougang for breakfast.. white carrot cake... not nice =(

went home.. sat ard abit.. watch fated to love you with mummy while we did house work... headed for driving at 120.. today is a bad day... maybe cuz i was tired? i was damn distract.. my mind was somewhere else... learnt U turn... and ya.. did a few bad ones and a few good ones... today is a bad day ba... hmm.. but.. i abit auto liao.. i drive and like know when to change lane and gears... not bad ba... and ya.. reminder to self.. please go toilet and don drink so much water b4 driving...

went home... sat ard abit.. went out for dinner with marcus... supposed to meet at 430-5 at yishun... but he had sth to do so changed to 6.. which i was already at yck when i saw the msg... so ya.. headed over to find him at woodlands instead... had dinner with him and his mummy.. i feel weird thou.. had udon? which sucked too.. today's food was DISAPPOINTING!

nth to do.. dono wat to do.. so headed to his house to get stuff.. really dono where to go and it was too earli.. so we sat there... then i randomly said.. clear ur wallet la.. so fat! full of rubbish... and out came the movie tickets.. we had a good 1 hr of fun trying to recall which were the ones we watched... oh.. those good old days.. haha... then ya lo... chat alittle.. clear some stuff.. it was fun...

got bored so we went causeway point again.. starbucks was full.. so we went mac? sat there chat chat and chattttttttttttttttttttttttttttt..... like haha.. nv really talk for some time... tot thru alot of things... realise many things.. learnt a few new things... fruitful i guess... its such a long day... alittle tired... but.. was okie do.. tats all for now... bye bloggie. and ps, my phone sucks.

.tim

*how come things are like tat again?*

tired...

yet another tiring day...

met amanda at citylink at 130.. shopped ard for some presents...

yup.. went a few shops.. was quite tired...

got the presents then headed over to her place to wrap....

and i realise her mother still rmb me as "wu dian qi" which means 5'7"

headed to sch... =)

yay... got 15 mins of piano therapy? haha..

dinner at koufu... tom yam mee.. =) but.. stomach ache..

band pract was good... the songs i like..

got 2nd suite in F by Gustav Holst.

A bernstein tribute by Cp, Leonard Bernstein/ Ad, Clare Grundman

Porgy and bess, James Barnes

Concerto for Alto Saxophone and Wind Esemble!

OMG.. big pieces.. not easy but VERY FUN!

tiring day... but okok ba.. it was not bad i guess..

hmm.. lotsa band plans thou.. like..

spring cleaning next tues... and friday meeting to discuss improvement works to band room.

tml gotta wake up earli to book my tp..

shall go home take a nap b4 driving.. and maybe dinnering out?

see how la hor.. =) alright.. tats all for now...

nites bloggie..

.tim

*it was a quite quite day but i still, i was thinking of u the whole time.*

another tiring day

hey blog...

went for driving in the morning... which i almost overslept..

mummy woke me up at 930.. luckily..

driving was happening? traffic light spoilt..

got police.. and i abit kia dio.. dono how to react..

did my turning quite well today.. need mre practice...

hmm.. got intimidated by lorries and big trucks... must overcome..

yup... thursday gonna book TP with denise. =) 9am.. earli.. then 130 driving.

hmm. got home after driving.. had some food.. and slept alittle..

then went out for a walk with my fren... went paya lebar... headed to town..

shopped alittle.. dinner at thai express... the curry was too spicy.. i had tummy upset..

yup.. went home.. nth much... tml is another long day...

thou i keep complaining abt how boring is hols.. i hope i don need to stress abt anything...

feels like a one man show... ppl faster come back into action... b4 my mind change again...

anyway.. haze was bad.. abit breathing prob.. wonder where it all comes from.. and i suddenly tot. then aeroplane how? then i tot.. if.. the air in europe is much cleaner... and cooling... but abit dry... oh well.. got on the train and i tot.. this air feels like the plane... -.-

today's mood.. was blur to smile to sian to almsot emo... i shd slp soon..

bye all... tc...

.tim

*i wish*

home alone

parents went overseas...

haha.. and i slept in mummy's room..

so shoil can... haha... now i wanna complain.. i wan my own room!

anyway.. back to topic..

saturday.

went ben and jerry's chuck fest wth joseph cindy michelle.

waited very long! and it was so hot! hmm.. went suntec it fair and shopped abit..

now im officially broke.. =( but i guess its worth it.. went flyer popeyes for dinner..

it was great.... went home and onlined.. kbox in the room and watch the proposal. abit lame ar.. i got bored and skipped parts.. finally.. the tired and voiceless me fell aslp...

sunday

woke up by my comp's msn sound.. then ya.. slack abit then went out for lunch with my siblings.. then they all went out.. i went home and slept.. haha.. woke up went church and home.. my didi took forever to come home.. i almost died of hunger.. brought him out for dinner then ya.. home... daddy and mummy is back... dad lost his wallet.. again.. oh well.. byebye macbook... haha... nvm.. xmas is coming...

tml is a long day... gotta wake up earli cuz of my responsibilities.. sometimes i feel its so not worth it.. =( ezlink no money le.. sian.. need top up again.. sbs eat money ar! stoots..

.tim

*misses*

daddy's bday

hello everyone.

today is daddy's bday... lets talk abt wat happened today.

i didnt wake up on time... i don know why.. its a first time..

then.. ya.. i nv cook noodles for him but mummy did... then he went work.

i went out... then i rushed back home in a cab.. but was too late...

he alr ate and went out... but glad hes back and we cut the cake.

happi bday daddy.

so ytd went for marcus' bday.

look at his cake! DAMN NICE CAN! omg... his mummy really pamper him..

he got lotsa presents too...

and i got him a cap and customized it... he liked it.. yay. =)

ytd was also the SMM thing... oh well.... so many certs... omg...

ok.. tim is quite tired today... byebye.

.tim

*you and me.... 4eva*

driving?

today was a happening day i guess...

had the Senior Management Meeting in the morning..

wa liao ask me go at 9 plus.. then do until, help them set up till 11 lo.. wth.

ok nvm.. i was damn nervous abt the speech.. i stumble alittle but the applaused got me going.

after the sharing session.. theres reception and i had to mingle with them.

not bad luh.. they are pretty proud of the orchestra.. GOOD!

they comment on me also lo... which sch are u from?

business? oh... the projects have trained u well.. good speech.. very confident. i went... o.0 Okay~

oh well.. left at abt 1 plus.. (i tot u would come and surprise me, i left clues on the post. haha.)

went home slack abit then went for driving..

was quite excited... ok.. i have to admit.. im not bad....

initially abit dum dum stumble... but.. soon got the hang of it.

b4 the lesson the instructor said, don book ur practical first okay. do it after 4 or 5 lessons.

then after today's lesson.. he said.. ok.. if u are free.. go down ubi and book.. counter 9...

then i was like.. okay~ so i covered wat im supposed to cover for 4-5 lessons in 1 lesson?

fast. omg.. im so EGO.. Slap myself... ok la.. its fun.. had a few police car behind me a few times...

big big lorries... stupid construction workers and 1 pedestrian. confident onli ar.

just washed up and preparing to leave house... marcus's bday at downtown... =) and im HUNGRY like A PIG... rawrrr.... (but i miss you moreeeee...)

oh well.. go celebrate abit and home i come... i said to myself.. okay... no matter wat happens.. stay home and wait.... patience... don try so hard.. wats meant to be will be.... =) (faith and trust in you)

.tim

*i miss you i miss you i miss you so. where are you. wats gonna happen at 12 midnite? 11/08*

tots, tots and more tots.

slept earli last nite cuz the medicine drugged me!

and i woke up at 5. which i went back to slp...

and finally i woke up at 11 plus...

prepared and headed to sch..

went band room to get the WMC dvd covers...

and ya, sorry my lovely piano.. left u there for a mth..

total remedy for me... played on it awhile..

woo... for awhile i was truely in my own world.

but back to reality.. time to head over for speech rehearsal

rehearsal was slow and irritating... we had to set up the lounge too.. sadly..

rehearsed my speech a few times and ya.. tml i shall anyhow.. rmb to look at the pceo.

well.. tat went on.. sweat like a pig... and went home... during the journey.. tots came to my mind.

someone asked me wat have i done for tat person. and i guess... the things i did wasnt tat big or fantastic to be rmb.. oh well.. i decided yup... maybe i shd be nicer... its true tat other ppl have done alot for me.. im really greatful for that.. thanks for being by my side... tim is trying... he is.

of cuz many other tots came to my mind. i shall spare myself of the trouble of having the whole world involed... tml will a busy day for me... 930 reporting time.. end at 1 plus? rush home.. get ready for my first ever driving lesson... after tat.. freshen up and head over to marcus' bday. i guess i wont be staying.. its dad's bday on 9/11 and i said.. i will be waiting at home... i will.. i will.. haha.. oh tim.. oh tim... =)

guess i shd stop here... getting tired... maybe i shd take a break from everything as well... oh nope.. i cant... too much commitments.. oh well.. KIV... oct ba..

.tim

*every moment, every tot. theres a reason for everything. patience*

hello...

haha... so wats been happening in my life?

went for philwinds concert on sunday.. it was good.

went for meeting with Dr Goh on monday afternoon after slping for 3 hrs.

went for allan's farewell after meeting.

got woken up like mad today.

very pek chek. cannot slp! ahh! i like manage to fall aslp then phone ring again... irritating leh...

rush to sch to get sth then rush to meet dr goh ar nafa campus 3.. which i got lost and almost died of hunger. but i found my way. had lunch with dr goh and now im home.

for the past few days. have been chatting abt marriage stuff with my fren.. cuz her bro was getting married.. wish them "white hair till old"... =) managed to feel abit better thou.. but nonetheless. i cant remove the tot from my mind completely.

gonna be busy... have been tied up with band plans... tml gotta rehearse for SMM meeting on thursday.. marcus my best bro bday on thursday. dad bday and a special day for me on 11 sept.

actually alot other ppl bday within the week. like today is ZZ's bday... 10 is marcus, 11 is dad and KC and my special day. and 12 is dickson bday.. and many more coming.... wish everyone wish come thru.. =)

yup.. gonna be busy ba... stil trying to find a suitable driving instructor thou... if cant.. might end up taking sch. hais... hmm.. i change my blog song thou... i think the lyrics is DAMN TRUE and MEANINGFUL.

anyway.. today is random day. shar drew this cute pic. haha.. and i said i shall blog abt it now.. so here i am blogging abt it... see if u are smart enough to figure it out. hint. its from a song.

.tim

*the lyrics from "love of my life" says it all*

comp revived

went shopping with goldfish(tats wat my sister named my fren) today.

like walked thru and fro orchard from one end to the other.

haha.. didnt spend much cuz im saving! ahh! major overspent can!

if this goes on i can eat grass liao... and sadly.. i cant find a suitable work.

went home after tat.. was pretty slpy thou.. i opened up my lappy...

and vacummed this much dust... like this much..

then took out the hdd to retrive some of my docs...

then put everything back..

vacummed the room and REFORMAT IT!

ahh... it feels so empty now.. haha..

i told daddy tat my comp died.. and he said this

"SO?! i tot it had 3 years warrenty?"

then i went.. sian... i tot can get a new one..

but later he said the new acer laptop looks good... can kick..

(hopefully he buys me one. but i wan a macbook instead.. anyway.. better then nth.)

saw 1111 again! yeay! made a wish. hm...

oh well.. so here i am.. blogging and sianing again..

tml goin out! and i wanna start driving soon!

.tim

*i have 3 words for u*

LAPTOP DIED!

went out at 1.
hanged ard.
learn a new song.

went michelle's place chillax.
ya.. shes not drunk. (we believe)
had maggie for dinner... im hungry now.. but! haha.. no eating!
then.. sat by the pool.. talk talk... weixing kicked michelle in.
stupid cindy joseph and mingtjun. THEY TOOK A DOLL and scared me!
yucks.. the doll stared and blinked at me.. if i get nitemares, i'll find u!
rawrrrrrrrrrrrr!

cabbed home. anyway.,.. my laptop crashed! wth lo... i come home cannot on leh.. stuck at windows xp loading page.. ahh! sad! my data will be gone... =( curses... oh man! ahhh! hope tml can on.

oh ya... we saw 1111 while at the pool... i made my wish. =)

.tim
*i wish u were there.. haha.. at least the doll wouldnt come back... the moon was nice too.. =) i wanna spend time with u*

ECP with ryl and shar

hello everyone!

today went bishan for lunch with cheryl and shareen.

had chicken rice.. so much u know.. cannot finish!

cheryl scold me waste food.. cuz i don eat cucumber.. haha

took a long journey bus to ecp... rented 3 bikes and there we go.. haha..

we ride for like 2 plus hrs luh.. excluding the pit stops at jetty and others.

and i conclude... MY BUTT DAMN PAIN!... cannot even walk properly luh.

went parkway for dinner.. walked ard.. shop for bro's present.

haha.. the food sucked. not tat nice.. but i was hungry.. so ya..

=) tim is happi today...




.tim

*ily! my oaohrtwj*

zombie?

hello everyone.

haha.. my sis say i look like a zombie...

i dono... i suddenly have very little emotions..

some of my frens said it too...

anyway... today went shopping....

and desserts at bakerzin paragon...

like omg? haha.. wasnt tat nice ah..

was abit unwell.. puked twice...

maybe eat too much? or saw the disgusting customer service... lol..

shd i? nah.. i think i shall step out of it... tim, u know u cannot get aggitated...

so.. hands off... =)

.tim

*im slowly feeling the emotions back again.. ty!*

hey bloggie.

today is a slpy slpy day.

me slp slp slp slp like a pig...

aha... hmm... i tot quite alot today.

hmm... nth much lo.. tml goin shopping with my fren..

looking forward. =)

heres anotehr nice song!

.tim

*faith keeps me moving =)*

good morning bloggie!

woke up at 11 plus.... and i saw 1111 when i on the comp..

meaning of it? i really dont know.

hmm.. slept at abt 5 ytd...

had a long long long bad dream..

maybe cuz of the movie, haha... i dont really rmb wat it is.

thinking of things to do now...

really need to distract myself.

.tim

hey bloggie.

today was a long day for me.

i went out at like 9.. applied my PDL...

went for lunch with francesca and jojo at ichiban...

haha.. i settled my debts today...

francesca meal.. and omg.. i totally forgot abt allan...

haha.. i suddenly rmb then like.. oh ya! shit.. so sorry!

after food... which was not bad... walked ard...

cuz i was earli? so ya.. decided to kill some time.

went off... like.. sit there and rotted for 3 hrs? did some drawings..

finally ar... free and quiet enough to draw... but i still they they suck.. ugly!

haha.. met up with my frens... chill.. dinner.. chill... movie... and home.

long day! but i enjoyed myself i think.. haha..

oh ya! the movie.. FD4.. is so bloody!... haha... i was abit scared ar.. i admit...

well.. gotta learn to be braver! how to fight war like tat? gotta learn to be strong!

gotta protect myself if not who will do it? =) ok.. blogging rubbish again..

im like.. abit tired.. but yet energetic... i cant seem to slp... lol..

but im not thinking abt anything... just cant slp...

hmm... gotta think of wat to do tml thou.... see how ba!

okie dear bloggie.... tim will continue to listen to his songs... woo...

happi little boi! is back! like last time...

oh ya.. i hate nyp co operate communication dept...

interview wat la... i don wan! =( oh well.. who ask me...

i deserved it... should jus say byebye to everything...

.tim

stupidity

hate myself for being dum.

i know it will happen.

its not the first time.

should have known better.

now things are worse.

remind myself to just my mouth.

less talk.

i have my bottle and book.

use it.

.tim

*im lost, slpless nites. huanted tots.*

hello all...

today is yet another boring day...

went out for lunch then headed home.

drown myself with taptap revenge 2 on my sis iphone...

blast music...

and like.. do nth...

i pack my table.. and vacumme abit..

i was so free, i decided to become a housewife...

this is another nice song.

.tim

*i ran out of reasons to go on. my mind says let go, but my heart is still holding on.*

When I'm With You.

When I'm With You lyrics

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me too
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough
But that's gonna change
Cuz' I'm coming back to show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cuz when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
Cuz I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

the lyrics says it all.

*b~ imylc*

brainwash

its so difficult to forget abt sth..

even thou u manage to..

it lurks in ur mind subconciously.

its been there... the more u don wanna think.

the more u will think.

tell me wat to do now. i cant stop thinking..

.tim

*its been almost 31 hrs. im not upset but rather, im worried. did sth happen to u? please don ignore me.*

boring

its bored bored bored saturday.

woke up by the hse phone.

lied in bed.

thinking.

wash up.

online.

tv.

and now... i guess im gonna shower and head over to church.

haha.. bored like theres no tml.

.tim

*its been more then 24hrs since the last contact*

heavy head...

uhhh... my head feels so heavy..

the air feels so humid.... so moist... breathe until the boi's head feels so heavy...

hmm.. so wat have i been doin today?

nth much.. went out for lunch with joseph... then ya.. head home and did nth..

nua ard... watch tv.. slp abit.. think alot... lols..

the boi's tots:

i was thinking abt wat my fren told me on the last day of sch.

abt this sentence. "有男朋友好像没有男朋友！”

think think think... like..

ya lo... if one is like free, the other is not free.. then seldom meet..

like seldom get to spend time together...

then last nite she asked me... shd she go work..

then i say ya, u shd.. cuz we were saying like... no work no money.. then so free nth to do...

work then scared no time go out... but i think think think.. maybe its good ar... cuz the bf also busy.. u make urself busy u won think so much... maybe it sounds like u're jus lying to urself but at least u feel better... haha... no matter wat... they are still goin strong and tats they way...

no matter wat... they can still rely on each other... they are there for each other when they need.. so sweet! haha...

so tat's one of today's random tots.. and i feel like eating so many things..

ayam penyet... more chilli please..

satay...

laksa...

waraku's hot stone bowl udon!

mof soft serve ice cream...

blah blah...

and also.. to spend more time with my friend. not friends. friend. =)

oh well.. i shall find sth to do.. haha =)

.tim

*waiting patiently for that reply*

hello all...

i chance upon this song...

and i like the lyrics...

In Love With You Forever - Elliot Yamin

I'm gonna mind what my momma once told me
Don't fall in love if you can't fall all th ewway
She said go find yourself a dream girl give her every part of your world
JUst hold on tight and never let her slip away
And when I saw you that rainy nigh tin Cleveland
You lit me up like the sun lights up the moon
And that feeling I felt then
Every day it comes again
Yeah it feels my heart completely
You mean everything to me

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

My mind don't change with the weather
It will stand through the wind and the hurricanes
All around we can see love ain't all it used to be
But that just make smy heart grow stronger
It just makes my love last longer

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

And you are mine, yeah
Cause you are mine, oh yeah
I said you are mine, ohhh

And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
We're always going to be together
I'm never gonna leave you never
I'm in love with you forever till I die
And I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever
I'm in love with you forever till I die
I'm never gonna leave you never
Always going to be together
I'm in love with you forever till I die
Rain or shine
I am yours, you are mine

You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine
You are mine

==================================================

*for you =)*

tell me

change is inevitable.

change is everywhere.

change is good.

change is bad.

hmm.. things have change from many angles in the past few mths...

maybe i am retard or wat but i kinda still living in the past...

i know things are happening.. maybe its jus me... or is it not...

lately... i feel the ans is smurged...

wats the point really...

i dont know...

tell me..

so wat if i don wan it to change...

i guess its time to move...

thou its hard but life gotta go on...

so oh well...

i'll take it as it comes...

thank you for the past.

i appreciated it =)

---------------------------------------

its been days...

days past... things happened...

how long more? tats not was i ask...

but, is this how it shd be? this is was i wanna know.

the habit comes and go...

i saw it came.. i saw it go... and here it comes again...

is this how it shd be?

if its so.. i have to know...

lurking in the dark...

blind, cold, clueless...

wheres the light...

that shining star?

i think i know...

tats for me to know..

------------------------------------------------------

jus some random tots again.. haha... shopped alittle today..

im saving the splurging till im with my frens... later buy wrong things again... then nv wear.. haha... yup... tim is hungry... very hungry... but no appetite... sad... hmm... chocolates... lollipops...

.tim

telepathy or intuition?

do you believe in telepathy or intuition?

have u ever slept and woke up just before your phone rang?

like u know tat person's gonna call you.

have u ever fall sick when someone is sick?

have u ever experience the pain when someone is hurt?

its quite unexplainable thou... its like the 2 person became one... they are linked...

nothing much was said but they know wat each other is feeling...

even if they are far apart.. their telepathy nv fails...

its jus like this "miles apart but always near"

its kind of a good feeling thou.. it keeps you warm on cold nights..

reassure u when u're scared.. its nice... =)

but how many ppl have already experience it? i dono but its good to have.. haha..

jus a random tot in my dreams.. =)

.tim

*i found mine... im glad i did.. imy*

Exams are over.

yup.. exams are over..

lets recap.

E&IR

tim was overconfident and finish the 2 hr paper in abt half the time.. left cuz he wanna go to the toilet... then ya.. later found out he got careless mistakes... oh did he mention.. he drop his temp sticker only to find out after the exam tat it was on his notes... stupidly, he had to run down to get the sticker again b4 he could enter the exams.

WHP

the paper was ok ok ba... nth much.. maybe a B

ok.. so tats so much for the exams.. so wat have this boy been up to lately? seriously! nth much... friday went for sarah and jingsi's bday party at ECP... haha.. =) went off at 6am. and sat nite.. omg... he got virus infection in the stomach again... yes.. again.. so he was puking and shitting all night long... its really gastric pain until like theres no tml.. worse then giving birth.. and ya.. saw the doctor.. but puke again.. glad to know, hes feeling quite ok already.. =)

so wats up next..

tuesday, tats tml.. nth in the day... Dr Goh's concert at esplanade in the evening... hmm.. and carol is asking me to go drink on sunday... LOL...

tim wans to work... hes under-employed... like hes really bored sitting at home doing nth... yup... tats all for now i guess.. till we meet again... see u bloggie...

.tim

*mind control.. im trying my best =)*

.iobelttilippah

tim shall blog abt today.

woke up, wash up, study.. cook mushroom cheese pasta! study.. slp.. study, slp... go out... eat... study... eat.. come home... online.. apologise... ans exam enquires... phone.... shower... online... fb... study.. blog...

okie.. lame... haha... hmm.. went to popseye for supper/dinner? i dono.. haha.. ok lo.. the food is ok lo... like ok... nth special... =x hmm.. ATTITUDE problem employees... but i don blame them.. seems like they are not motivated.. maybe low hourly rate of pay? no benefits? haha.. wat! im a HR student wat... =D yup... tml is EnIR.. hopefuly i can do well to make up for HBO... and ya.. JY for WHP... i am motivated now.. =D

thank you. im really very happi.. and motivated... enjoyed. happi. =)

well.. shall not beomce mr. chatterbox... off to be mr nerd... =)

.tim

*ty.*

First Paper

HBO was shitty... lost 20m straight.. cuz i skip childhood... oh well.. moving on..

wed is EnIR.. hopefully its better... =) was pretty upset cuz i told mummy i this paper sure flunk then she say no luh.. my son so smart sure can get good grades.. wa.. i stress... =x..

slp most of the day, wasnt feeling too well.. haha.. headache ar.. but noe okok le..

im happi today thou.. very happi... =)

this is a nice song.. =)

.tim

*thank you for being my light =)*

Human Behavior

yup.. having a paper on it tml... 9am..

im like not half done but ya.. gonna take it easy..

i don like the module but i think its nice too.. i dono.. haha..

i learn why some ppl act tat way... which makes me even scarier..

oh well.. lets jy ba..

.tim

* =) jiayou kaes. *

[insert title here]

totally moodless and feelingless.

i don't know what to feel, how to feel, when to feel.

i don't know what to do.

i don't know why.

tell me.

.tim

*[fill in the blanks]*

こんばわ～

いと。。。。こちらは、わたしの心の愛。（：

あなたは、おげんきですか？

so wat did this crap do today... went out to celebrate weixin's birthday but sadly, gotta leave earli.. exams + mummy = omg. HAPPY 18th birthday u thai slut... haha.. may u be as slutishly bitchy forever. =) oops... haha.. ya, all the best to u! may ur wishes come true!

so sad! i miss out on all the fun.. anyway.. i learn how to swim abit.. after being throw into the pool, with my left contacts running into the back of my eye. haha! i was thinking.. if it was other ppl, what would i have done to them. firstly, stare, then depending on the mood at the moment, punch, kick, slap, pinch.. i dono.. haha.. but ok, it was quite fun... =]

yup.. headed home with the sian mood... and fell aslp in the bus and got woken up... hmm.. oh ya... did i mention... i don like strangles talking to me? haha.. someone irritated the hell out of me today... like! hello... alone time for awhile please... wrong timing luh... caught me in my exam and leave me alone mood... poor thing... haha.. ignores...

so ya... enough crapping.. im hungry again... hmm.. maggie? maybe... haha.. oh ya.. forgot to mention, i saw cherry at tampines... (in case she reads and accuse me of not featuring her) okie.. bye peeps.

.tim

*motivation*

おはよございます～

おげんきですか？

=) yup... rather earli today... haha.. i think i lost my feelings while slping last nite.. i don feel anything.. like a stone... living under the rock... hmm... feel so sian... don feel like doing anything thou... miss using my jap.. maybe i shd blog in jap.. this way.. no one uds... haha... ok... talking nonsense again...

hmm... thou i slept for like 6 hrs.. but it feels as thou i nv... i think i was having a dream? i cant rmb... but there were flashbacks... like im going to die... then suddenly got a life review.. lol... then i start to think... eh.. did i do all those? wow... is it worth it anot... haha... sometimes, its not.. sometimes it is... oh well... only i will know myself...

hmm... 3 papers... just get it done and over with ba.. 1 week... after tat, holiday! hk shopping~ ok... sth to look forward to... =) ok tim.. stop crapping... no one's reading... haha... bye.

.tim

*behind those feelings*

EXAMS!

ok.. reality check timmie... exams are like... next week? OMG!

so how much have i study.. like.. 2 %? omg!~ die ar...

haha... who ask tim.. slack slack slack... not motivated... skip lect, skip tut... funfair ar... see luh.. now have to work so hard... waste time here and there... slap! now wake up and study liao... don flunk! don make ur 2 1/2 years effort go to waste... not worth risking... its jus another challenge that tim will overcome... im tim eh... nth is impossible.. for IMPOSSIBLE = It Means POSSIBLE... =)

today went out for abit... watch abit of fireworks... but whole day.. just have the floating feeling... haha... so tim floated... then dizzy... then blank out... haha.. why! scary leh... please hor.. wan boom also after exams please... 2 more weeks... ok... can one can one... jy! *im scared, i don wan it to happen.. but it just does... i don wan to say.. i don wan ppl to worry...*

hmm.. so now.. shall stop fb and other stuff ba... focus abit... 1 week plus onli.. can one.. after tat can go enjoy all i wan le.. yea... physco myself... haha... yup... look forward to holidays! finally some rest... =)

.tim

*b~ lets jy tgt.. i dono how i can help u but i will support u in watever way i can.. our love is my motivation.*

tots

i have rashes on the back of my neck...

its irritating... ahh! hate it... =( im like scar... sad leh... ugly as i already am.. im even uglier now...

hmm.. went for ichiban udon feast at amk hub today... cuz i felt like eating it... then went for UP 3D today.. hoping i will feel better but no diff... then had bbtea at usual then MOF jap ice cream.. dono wats the name but its nice.. i like it.. =) shall go again soon... haha..

hmm... i have been thinking... how shd i react to some situation.. and im trying to do it... hope things will get better... but how long do i have to do this... holding back is not me... but... i'll do it... for the better of it.. i will... =) i can do this... i will control.. =D

.tim

*endless tots, but jus 3 words for you...*

tiring day...

went out to meet my fren and had ayam penyet at lucky plaza! nice...

tml shall start studying le... jy tim.

test results came out today... its the same old list of old probs... plus a few new ones? haha...

and a whole nex box of 'sweets' hate them but gotta finish them... hmm... =)

.tim

*im scared b... i wan to be well.. we still got lots of plans... hmm.. nathaniel & adeline... lols... so fast decide already ar... haha... hope things will continue to be good*

ups and downs

sunday was a tiring day... ran a few places... haha...

i went home, in a stonning state. then nua on the bed and stare into blank space.

haha... i shall name myself... eh u stoner... stop stonning.... stone stone stone. u rock ar...

haha... i think the human body is wonderful. it has all these fail save mechanism.... it work wonders.

ok... random.... *sneeze* stupid sinus...

.tim

*timmie is strong... he can do it.... i am strong. =)*

sometimes i hate myself for thinking so much.. why am i able to predict wat ppl are thinking? why did i show that side of me..

all i wanted was things to get better.. wat should do now.. i'm sorry.. really really sorry... i don want to loss it.. i regret.. wat was i thinking.. Haix..

wat should i do now...

reflection

=) many things happened this week... so i relflected...

hmm... heres a quote from my good fren.

"don promise sth that u cannot do. cuz if u break it, the person will be even sadder."

i think its damn true lo... like wat we learn in CRM, nv overpromise the customer. however, go the extra mile and ur customer will feel treasured. i guess i am too nerdy.. im applying everything i learn into life... even when i play games... i will calculate rate of return on investment b4 i decide wat to invest on... oh tim... slaps...

hmm... many things happened maybe cuz i think too much? or i rely too much on others... i have tot thru wat happen... and came to a conclusion of how i wan to resolve it... haha... things will get better ba.. i need to bare with it..=) jy timmie..

.tim

*i wan spend time with u*

Bad Day

today is like PMS day lo..

haha.. everyone is stepping on my toes today...

and i hate waiting... haha..

stupid traffic police department... so slow...

if its restaurant city.. i think they died already...

stupid... until now i still don have my pdl.. how to start learning... uhhhh

i wan to drive soon.. shall be a good boy and hope santa give me a car... =)

tim is thinking too much lately... he needs to do sth... but he dono wat...

sian... wat shd i do tml...?

.tim

*imy*

this feeling feels like 27july09,

outside van gogh musuem at Amsterdam, Netherlands.

don feel like talking... just wanna be alone.

.tim

*when teardrops turn dry*

deep tots

what have the boy been doin today?

thinking and more thinking... have been mood swinging since last nite.

i think alot alot alot... many many tots..

today's a rotten mood day for me...

decided to meet up with some of my frens.. hoping to distract myself...

but i think even more... maybe cuz the subject wasnt there for me...

this was wat i concluded.

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when you are down, whos there for u?

when u need someone the most, whos there for u?

who is the person who really understand u.

who is the person who u can trust.

whos can be your eyes, your ears, your support?

who can you rely on?

many other qns pop out... these are just some...

for 19 years of my life... friends come and go... i lived thru it...

once a while, my little guardian angel appears and walk me thru my darkest times.

and today, when my sunshine and rainbow when on holiday..

the person who i want to be with wasnt there...

i dono how to react now... im back to the old self... its again, me myself and i.

i like to think think think. i like to bottle it up.

sometimes, i just don feel like talking... maybe cuz its beyond words.

and sometimes, its nice to have someone who really uds u to be there for u.

know how to cheer u up.. but today... i saw myself thru. me myself and i.

oh well... emo tots again... tats y i decided to add a rainbow to my blog... hopefully, it cheers me up.

.tim

*where were you?*

Relationships

Relationships,
to me, it revolves around 4 key attributes.
1) Paitence
2) Understanding
3) Trust
4) Maintainance

no matter wat happens in a relationship, one has to be paitent and understanding.. and put oneself in the other's shoes and u'll see why they acted that way. sometimes, in a moment of folly, we may sprout insensitive remarks.. humans are humans, we make mistakes... sometimes selfishness overtakes humanity.. ur frens may become selfish-er.. and all u do is to hate them.. have u tot of why this happen? does the friendship between you over the years mean nth? things happen for a reason, choose not to blame but to solve and support.

Trust is very important. no matter wat are the rumours flying around.. no matter wat u think he or she is doin. u should always trust ur fren. isnt that the way things shd be? why should be believe others and spoilt ur wonderful frenship? lols.. things tat i don uds... rumours are rumours.. see for urself to believe... even if its true, there must be a reason tat it happened.. lols...

so wat if u have a wonderful fren.. if u don maintain it... it will be gone soon... haha... relationship is jus like a balancing scale... its a joint effort to balance it.. gif and take... do unto others wat u wan others to do unto u.. but don expect a return for u will be sad if u do get it.. but if u don expect it and u got it.. it comes as a suprise.. isnt it better? lols...

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many a times we see our frens having probs.. but theres onli so much we can do... haha... oh well.. i kinda dono wat im blogging le..

-tim-

*imyhrtwj...*

Holland! (:

hello everyone...

hows life? heard that its like hot in singapore now... hmm.. its kinda hot ytd too.. but today its quite cold... like aircon lo... abit lower ba.. haha... but still.. we're wearing shorts and all... lols..
hmm... everything here is okok ba... practice eat and practice or shop... theres really nth much to shop for... the majority in the town are like.. elderly... so ya.. nth much lo.... but they have nice scenery.. (:

hmm... actually its kinda tired being a leader... haha.. sometimes u wish u could jus let everything go and like.. be a normal person.. all i wan is jus to be a normal person and enjoy my life... haha... and shittiness lo... so many projs... when im away... and if suay suay i got quarrentined i will die a terrible death... really badly... haha.... oh well.. we'll play by the ear ba... hmm... i miss so many ppl... daddy mummy jiejie didi korkor... my other band frens, my classmates and like frens and my Babyy!!!

hmm.. competition is like in 2 days? omg.. scary eh... JYJY!!! we must get the gold.. haha...

hmm.. tim is signing off le ba.. its like.. my bed time.. 1 am already...

.tim
*babyy... i miss u so much... jus a few more days babyy.... imy ily iwy... (:*

hello everyone.

in a few hrs time. tim will be away... for 10 days.. cut off from singapore communications... tats so sad... so so sad... haha...

i was packing whole nite... and like.. ok.. my luggage like so empty can.. omg.. like i forget to bring alot of things like tat... hmm.. how sia...

anyway... projects are stil hanging.. hais.... how sia! tsk! i don wan to be a free loader... tats so irritating... i don wan to be an irritating burden.. lols..

hmm.. dono wat to write le ba... tats all..

take care eveyrone.. i m goin to miss u all...

*hrtwj, please take good care of yourself! thou we are distants apart... but we're right beside each other.. staring at the same sky*