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so wat did this crap do today... went out to celebrate weixin's birthday but sadly, gotta leave earli.. exams + mummy = omg. HAPPY 18th birthday u thai slut... haha.. may u be as slutishly bitchy forever. =) oops... haha.. ya, all the best to u! may ur wishes come true!

so sad! i miss out on all the fun.. anyway.. i learn how to swim abit.. after being throw into the pool, with my left contacts running into the back of my eye. haha! i was thinking.. if it was other ppl, what would i have done to them. firstly, stare, then depending on the mood at the moment, punch, kick, slap, pinch.. i dono.. haha.. but ok, it was quite fun... =]

yup.. headed home with the sian mood... and fell aslp in the bus and got woken up... hmm.. oh ya... did i mention... i don like strangles talking to me? haha.. someone irritated the hell out of me today... like! hello... alone time for awhile please... wrong timing luh... caught me in my exam and leave me alone mood... poor thing... haha.. ignores...

so ya... enough crapping.. im hungry again... hmm.. maggie? maybe... haha.. oh ya.. forgot to mention, i saw cherry at tampines... (in case she reads and accuse me of not featuring her) okie.. bye peeps.

.tim

*motivation*

おはよございます～

おげんきですか？

=) yup... rather earli today... haha.. i think i lost my feelings while slping last nite.. i don feel anything.. like a stone... living under the rock... hmm... feel so sian... don feel like doing anything thou... miss using my jap.. maybe i shd blog in jap.. this way.. no one uds... haha... ok... talking nonsense again...

hmm... thou i slept for like 6 hrs.. but it feels as thou i nv... i think i was having a dream? i cant rmb... but there were flashbacks... like im going to die... then suddenly got a life review.. lol... then i start to think... eh.. did i do all those? wow... is it worth it anot... haha... sometimes, its not.. sometimes it is... oh well... only i will know myself...

hmm... 3 papers... just get it done and over with ba.. 1 week... after tat, holiday! hk shopping~ ok... sth to look forward to... =) ok tim.. stop crapping... no one's reading... haha... bye.

.tim

*behind those feelings*

EXAMS!

ok.. reality check timmie... exams are like... next week? OMG!

so how much have i study.. like.. 2 %? omg!~ die ar...

haha... who ask tim.. slack slack slack... not motivated... skip lect, skip tut... funfair ar... see luh.. now have to work so hard... waste time here and there... slap! now wake up and study liao... don flunk! don make ur 2 1/2 years effort go to waste... not worth risking... its jus another challenge that tim will overcome... im tim eh... nth is impossible.. for IMPOSSIBLE = It Means POSSIBLE... =)

today went out for abit... watch abit of fireworks... but whole day.. just have the floating feeling... haha... so tim floated... then dizzy... then blank out... haha.. why! scary leh... please hor.. wan boom also after exams please... 2 more weeks... ok... can one can one... jy! *im scared, i don wan it to happen.. but it just does... i don wan to say.. i don wan ppl to worry...*

hmm.. so now.. shall stop fb and other stuff ba... focus abit... 1 week plus onli.. can one.. after tat can go enjoy all i wan le.. yea... physco myself... haha... yup... look forward to holidays! finally some rest... =)

.tim

*b~ lets jy tgt.. i dono how i can help u but i will support u in watever way i can.. our love is my motivation.*

tots

i have rashes on the back of my neck...

its irritating... ahh! hate it... =( im like scar... sad leh... ugly as i already am.. im even uglier now...

hmm.. went for ichiban udon feast at amk hub today... cuz i felt like eating it... then went for UP 3D today.. hoping i will feel better but no diff... then had bbtea at usual then MOF jap ice cream.. dono wats the name but its nice.. i like it.. =) shall go again soon... haha..

hmm... i have been thinking... how shd i react to some situation.. and im trying to do it... hope things will get better... but how long do i have to do this... holding back is not me... but... i'll do it... for the better of it.. i will... =) i can do this... i will control.. =D

.tim

*endless tots, but jus 3 words for you...*

tiring day...

went out to meet my fren and had ayam penyet at lucky plaza! nice...

tml shall start studying le... jy tim.

test results came out today... its the same old list of old probs... plus a few new ones? haha...

and a whole nex box of 'sweets' hate them but gotta finish them... hmm... =)

.tim

*im scared b... i wan to be well.. we still got lots of plans... hmm.. nathaniel & adeline... lols... so fast decide already ar... haha... hope things will continue to be good*

ups and downs

sunday was a tiring day... ran a few places... haha...

i went home, in a stonning state. then nua on the bed and stare into blank space.

haha... i shall name myself... eh u stoner... stop stonning.... stone stone stone. u rock ar...

haha... i think the human body is wonderful. it has all these fail save mechanism.... it work wonders.

ok... random.... *sneeze* stupid sinus...

.tim

*timmie is strong... he can do it.... i am strong. =)*

sometimes i hate myself for thinking so much.. why am i able to predict wat ppl are thinking? why did i show that side of me..

all i wanted was things to get better.. wat should do now.. i'm sorry.. really really sorry... i don want to loss it.. i regret.. wat was i thinking.. Haix..

wat should i do now...

reflection

=) many things happened this week... so i relflected...

hmm... heres a quote from my good fren.

"don promise sth that u cannot do. cuz if u break it, the person will be even sadder."

i think its damn true lo... like wat we learn in CRM, nv overpromise the customer. however, go the extra mile and ur customer will feel treasured. i guess i am too nerdy.. im applying everything i learn into life... even when i play games... i will calculate rate of return on investment b4 i decide wat to invest on... oh tim... slaps...

hmm... many things happened maybe cuz i think too much? or i rely too much on others... i have tot thru wat happen... and came to a conclusion of how i wan to resolve it... haha... things will get better ba.. i need to bare with it..=) jy timmie..

.tim

*i wan spend time with u*

Bad Day

today is like PMS day lo..

haha.. everyone is stepping on my toes today...

and i hate waiting... haha..

stupid traffic police department... so slow...

if its restaurant city.. i think they died already...

stupid... until now i still don have my pdl.. how to start learning... uhhhh

i wan to drive soon.. shall be a good boy and hope santa give me a car... =)

tim is thinking too much lately... he needs to do sth... but he dono wat...

sian... wat shd i do tml...?

.tim

*imy*

this feeling feels like 27july09,

outside van gogh musuem at Amsterdam, Netherlands.

don feel like talking... just wanna be alone.

.tim

*when teardrops turn dry*

deep tots

what have the boy been doin today?

thinking and more thinking... have been mood swinging since last nite.

i think alot alot alot... many many tots..

today's a rotten mood day for me...

decided to meet up with some of my frens.. hoping to distract myself...

but i think even more... maybe cuz the subject wasnt there for me...

this was wat i concluded.

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when you are down, whos there for u?

when u need someone the most, whos there for u?

who is the person who really understand u.

who is the person who u can trust.

whos can be your eyes, your ears, your support?

who can you rely on?

many other qns pop out... these are just some...

for 19 years of my life... friends come and go... i lived thru it...

once a while, my little guardian angel appears and walk me thru my darkest times.

and today, when my sunshine and rainbow when on holiday..

the person who i want to be with wasnt there...

i dono how to react now... im back to the old self... its again, me myself and i.

i like to think think think. i like to bottle it up.

sometimes, i just don feel like talking... maybe cuz its beyond words.

and sometimes, its nice to have someone who really uds u to be there for u.

know how to cheer u up.. but today... i saw myself thru. me myself and i.

oh well... emo tots again... tats y i decided to add a rainbow to my blog... hopefully, it cheers me up.

.tim

*where were you?*

Relationships

Relationships,
to me, it revolves around 4 key attributes.
1) Paitence
2) Understanding
3) Trust
4) Maintainance

no matter wat happens in a relationship, one has to be paitent and understanding.. and put oneself in the other's shoes and u'll see why they acted that way. sometimes, in a moment of folly, we may sprout insensitive remarks.. humans are humans, we make mistakes... sometimes selfishness overtakes humanity.. ur frens may become selfish-er.. and all u do is to hate them.. have u tot of why this happen? does the friendship between you over the years mean nth? things happen for a reason, choose not to blame but to solve and support.

Trust is very important. no matter wat are the rumours flying around.. no matter wat u think he or she is doin. u should always trust ur fren. isnt that the way things shd be? why should be believe others and spoilt ur wonderful frenship? lols.. things tat i don uds... rumours are rumours.. see for urself to believe... even if its true, there must be a reason tat it happened.. lols...

so wat if u have a wonderful fren.. if u don maintain it... it will be gone soon... haha... relationship is jus like a balancing scale... its a joint effort to balance it.. gif and take... do unto others wat u wan others to do unto u.. but don expect a return for u will be sad if u do get it.. but if u don expect it and u got it.. it comes as a suprise.. isnt it better? lols...

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many a times we see our frens having probs.. but theres onli so much we can do... haha... oh well.. i kinda dono wat im blogging le..

-tim-

*imyhrtwj...*

Holland! (:

hello everyone...

hows life? heard that its like hot in singapore now... hmm.. its kinda hot ytd too.. but today its quite cold... like aircon lo... abit lower ba.. haha... but still.. we're wearing shorts and all... lols..
hmm... everything here is okok ba... practice eat and practice or shop... theres really nth much to shop for... the majority in the town are like.. elderly... so ya.. nth much lo.... but they have nice scenery.. (:

hmm... actually its kinda tired being a leader... haha.. sometimes u wish u could jus let everything go and like.. be a normal person.. all i wan is jus to be a normal person and enjoy my life... haha... and shittiness lo... so many projs... when im away... and if suay suay i got quarrentined i will die a terrible death... really badly... haha.... oh well.. we'll play by the ear ba... hmm... i miss so many ppl... daddy mummy jiejie didi korkor... my other band frens, my classmates and like frens and my Babyy!!!

hmm.. competition is like in 2 days? omg.. scary eh... JYJY!!! we must get the gold.. haha...

hmm.. tim is signing off le ba.. its like.. my bed time.. 1 am already...

.tim
*babyy... i miss u so much... jus a few more days babyy.... imy ily iwy... (:*

hello everyone.

in a few hrs time. tim will be away... for 10 days.. cut off from singapore communications... tats so sad... so so sad... haha...

i was packing whole nite... and like.. ok.. my luggage like so empty can.. omg.. like i forget to bring alot of things like tat... hmm.. how sia...

anyway... projects are stil hanging.. hais.... how sia! tsk! i don wan to be a free loader... tats so irritating... i don wan to be an irritating burden.. lols..

hmm.. dono wat to write le ba... tats all..

take care eveyrone.. i m goin to miss u all...

*hrtwj, please take good care of yourself! thou we are distants apart... but we're right beside each other.. staring at the same sky*

flying soon

haha... yup... todays is like sat already.. and im flying tml..
and i stil have not packed...

oh well.. haha.. do it later ba...

hmm... ytd i screamed at the band.. lol.. sorry... i think i was kinda worked up ba.... not feeling too well too... hmm...=)

anyway... hope things will go well...

tats all fornow... shall blog again later...

byebye...

*ilyb*

wandering thinking reflector

its been a busy day today...
had sch... but its like as if i wasnt there at all... i nv study.. at all! whole day have been thinking and thinking...

maybe trying ur best is not good enough... theres always 101 things to do... ppl say just keep trying and trying... but sometimes.. u try so hard... but they jus don wan to move! wat shd u do then? i carn possibly give up rite? just keep pushing and pushing...

haha... like... i dono how to say lo... maybe it all boils down to me... im not doin a good job ba... its like... maybe i shd have been firmer and stick to my initial plans... wouldnt cause so much trouble for everyone.. and now im like, goin to cause sth bad to happen... wat if nv get it? its in my hands tat this has happen... i need solutions... how how how... talking and motivating jus don work.. go the hard way? how hard shd it be.. the limit? not much time left... there onli so much u can do now... PLEASE let things be better... im running out of brain cells le... i don wan to freak out in the middle of the nite again.. i don wan to be paranoid... i want to trust them! they can do it.. yes they can! i shall give it another shot! i trust i believe.. when u believe it, u will see it...

5 more days... wat shd i do.... what do i have to do... wat will i do...

haha... u know... my stomach is so pain now i can sit up straight... and guess wat... my nose bleed... LOL too heaty le ba... shall drink more water...

*i wan to tell u but i don wan u to worry... its jus like tat [ ] u see... carn be put into words*

hello (:
today is saturday... like in 1 week's time i will be byebye in the plane le... haha.. well.. the pass few days was quite hectic as expected... alot to do alot alot to do... hmm... ytd sth bad happen... and i panicked... and like left abit earlier.. i think i was like white face red eyes? scary... haha.. fortunately i had wonderful exco who i can trust...

oh well.. today i woke up at 645? haha... then slp then wake then slp.. till 11? woke up use comp.. eat lunch and do my entre website... more or less done le ba... =) its simple.. hope its ok ba.. haha.. lalalala... tim ar tim... u still got alot more projects to do and test to study hor hor.. rmb rmb.. list them down..

EnIR
CRM ICA 3
CRM ICA 4
WHP
HBO
HRD
Entre

i don wan to be a free loader hor! i wan do my part! roar!!!! but im gone for like 2 weeks.. with no internet!!! aiyo! how how how!!!! i must do sth abt it... think! tim think!!!!

oh ya... next week everyday band.. onli tuesday free but ya.. end at 6... haha.. not much of a rest day... think i will go practice my part ba... hmm...
oh ya.. thursday 16th july.. FTT 415... haha.. haven even touch the book.. DIE! haha... and yes... i still gotta pack my lagguage! omg... omg omg omg.. haha... siao ar...

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its been a mth of ups and downs...

but im happy abt it..

i see my rainbow from afar...

its a journey i choose...

i live it.. the way i wan.. (:

happi 1 mth babyy.

.tim

yet another sleepless nite

haha! yes.. yet another slpless nite! omg! can feel the weight of my eye lids..
ytd was a hectic day... rush ard.. hmm.. u know.. for the first time... i fell aslp during CRM Lab! omg.. first time! haha... its either the video is boring or im jus too tired... haha.. i think its cuz im overworked... haha...

hmm.. sch ended at 6, rushed for dinner at koufu... the tasteless tom yam ramen.. think my taste buds decided to slp first.. haha.. rush to band room.. like make sure everything is taken care of.. haha.. u know.. ppl talk to me.. its like left in right out? i cannot uds or absorb... OMG... first time.. oh well..
so yup.. i ran between band room and business block.. rushing my project and multitasking at band... haha.. i almost rolled down the stairs... almost... but nv.. =)

my friend got me brownies... its very very very nice okie! really... can feel the love... it got me thru the night ok... till now.. im still munching on it.. =) my motivation.. xD mad mad me... hmm.. went to macs after band and reach home like 1 am.. then chiong the stupid proj... hate it!

Hmm... i shd go prepare le ba... sch at 9.. omg! haha... so much to do.. so much to bring.. and im so slpy...

-zombie timmieboi-

*thanks for being there! -muacks! =)*

more time?

hello...
im back again.. just got home? and think i don need to slp le ba...
projects.. and more projects... hate it...

im flying in 2 weeks... i really have not enough time... schedule clashing... its been almost a mth... haven got a proper one... haha.. i kinda sad... hmm.. maybe one shd learn to listen harder? things loss it's intended meaning when its repeated.. like a joke.. first time is funni.. say a few more times.. it becomes lame... haha...

i really dono wat im thinking... im always on this roller coaster of ups and downs... now im at the down again... wat shd i do? wat am i really thinking? the mind is but an organ... a simple yet complicated one... its kinda having a war now... today is a war day for me... and sneeze sneeze.. its cold...

1 word for me... upset...

tim is signing off to shower and do his proj.. not planning to sleep.. so if u see him, please leave him alone... ty...

-timmieboi-

*i really dono wat to do already*

life is a learning journey

life is a learning journey...
we are learning everyday... today i learnt more about you.. thanks for being there... thanks for understanding... we're both learning... more abt you.. and more abt me... actions speaks louder then words.. but words are easier to understand... it takes time... i dont know everything.. if you dont tell me.. i'll nv know... jus like if i don tell u, u'll nv know.. so let's talk when we shd... haha... im happi really.. im glad theres u... the telepathy.. the co-incidence... they are unexplainable.. but i only know.. i have tat 5 words for u... with a left bracket and a colon....

-timmieboi-
*hrtwj... you're my sugar rush... (:*