mixed...

this few daes abit busy la.. work load alot... busy.. results not as good.. but expected... went out most of the time... study and hang ard... ytd cut finger... bleed like hell... sunday goin SWS... hope it turns out well..

feeling out of love... un-wanted.... fren came to spore find me sia.... dots.. sunday nite flying back le... sad... but nvm... nov i flying there.... Zzz... but i don want go.... sad la... anyway... hope everyone do well for their exams....

-tim signing off...

hmm... happi?

hmm.. today got back alot of results... not gd... as usual... nvm abt tat...

today boring... no life... Zzz... oh ya... went gavi hse... wah.. tat jack ar.. siao kao... jump so high... bark bark bark... haha.. scary...

hmm.. today went home... see mummi... weird.. she came daddy hse... hmm... did they? haha.... i think they ok le la.. got talk... i think is cuz sunday de talk... the pastor advise the parents to not add on any more stress on the child... think they realise le la.... so now shd be okay le... hope so....

ok.. today i tired.. tats all for now....

-timmi signin off...

Lots to say...

this few daes very busy.. moving hse ma... pack pack pack... then unpack unpack unpack.... still must send some of my stuff over to Aust..

oh ya.. my eye stop twitching le.. donno good or bad.. but now i got serious back ache... cannot stand staight, sit write... everything got prob... gastric probs coming back too... still alive thou... oh ya... got 32/40 for chem paper 3... happi =)... 1st in class... hope others oso come out good... physics pass... but not good... hope all goes well..

ytd i went for this study technique thingy held in my parish.. not bad la... lol..
"The Lord Is My Shepherd"
T- Think
L- Listen
I- Image
M- Memory
S- Style
lol... hope it works... anyway, i wont be sad le.. i told myself to be happi always... moody jiu moody.. don spoil others' mood... my probs r mine.. not their... so don be selfish... =)

today leh... packing again lo.. Zzz... back damn pain... pain until i cannot stand up... haha... think is good GG liao la... hope im fine... ohya... i told myself to chiong le... i hope i can do it.... i want to have super good result for Os.. if im doin it... mind as well do it to the best... y waste time getting 2nd when u can get first... and yes.. im a perfectionist... =x

goin out to all those getting back their result... the Prelims are not the end.. Os' the real show... keep moving.. result not good so wat... fins out ur errors.. move on... study hard.. y cry over spilt milk? get urself together and keep moving.. the wrold's round u know... it jus keeps moving.. so keep up the pace...

and to all taking their EOY exams.... guys... if u haven started... pls do... do wat u can.. focus on main points... spot qns.. see trends... if ur brain cannot handle 15 chapts... then select the one u know best and focus... its a risk... but its up to u if u wanna do it... don overwork guys, health is impt too yea? so, don study like siao... u need slp too... if u nv do well then jus move on... u still 101 things to do u know... =x i sound so naggy sia.... to sum up... all the best guys... if got probs pls go clear them.. frens teachers, anyone... need me help... tell me... i try to help.. but cannot confirm yea? >.<

lol... talk so much le... i haven talk abt chalet... i think i wanna cook.... i enjoy cooking... haha.... how many meals? anything u want... those goin leh... can try la... but i cannot confirm u will like my style of cooking... and those goin hor... must be more tolerant of each other kaes? don fight ar... watch out and care for one another... think we no need to spell out the rules bah.. but i hope tat u all will know wat to do... put so many rules then not fun le rite... chalet will be so boring... u uds de... but got somethings is a must la... we will tell u all de... cuz there, we eldest... we must look after everyone... thou we may not be the best.. but as eldest, we have the responsibility... so lets have fun yea? go there is to enjoy de... so now u all must work hard for ur EOY and Os or watever la... then alter we can hav all the fun u want.. =x.. haha.. kaes kaes... wo yao orh orh le... tml got sch...

Nitez guys, all the best yea? mi so excited.. still got alot to say but aiya... too much to type le... oh ya.. pls know ur limits hor.. u know wat i mean.. ahem.. =x

-excited yet worried timmi signing off..

Okie.. i'll be happi~

oh well.. today super sian~Sation again... haha... morning overslept... josh called me at 9+ then i went back to slp but felt uneasy so i checked the time... asked myself; today what day? got wat ar.... Ans; oh shit, got amaths...

changed and went to sch.. did 1 and 1/2 paper.. then went home cuz too noisy... lol..
reached home... eat le jiu slp... until 3+ wake up.. unpack things.. then bathe and eat... now blogging.. lol...

haiz... i think im missing someone... nv call or see for few days le... =
anyway... i'll try to be happi.. =)

-timmi signin off-

Boring!!! Zzz sianing~ rotting~

yet another saining 2 days... Zzz no comments lo... eye still twitching... i feel as if i was ditched.. Zzz.... today, somone smsed me... donno how to reply oso... cuz heard someone say tat the person said tat if i go for chalet, tat person will not go.. so leh... wat shd i do? Zzz...

anyway.. jus reached home from dinner with the usual gang... later gonna play dota with them.. sian sian sian... i think im missing sth... i feel empty.. short of sth... haiz.. i think i know wat tat is but i shall wait for tat something to find me... haiz...

anyway... tat person ask me wat tat person is to me... how shd i ans? haiz... fren...
warever la... sian diao le... hope tml will be a better day...

~timmi signing off~

Video-Shrek Dance Party

video for teachers' day... =)

BlueZ... 蓝蓝的一天。。。

Today was a Blue Blue dae... ytd sth happened... wasnt very happi abt it.. donno la.. shdn't bring it to tml.. anw... jus saw aaron's blog.. he scold me sia... say i stupid... don wanna send him the format.. =/ its not i don wanna send... he ask me tat time i was away... then like tat become my fault... haiz.. afternoon he and dickson called... ask me for help.. wasnt at home ma.. how to send? haiz.. dio meh by them somemore... sad... help ppl still dio meh... then i ask ms ong send them.. she say she send le... but they say they nv recieve... then now my fault... =/ haiz.. haiz... i take over Asst Band Major tat time oso dono wat to do.. no one pass down anything lo... i have to draft them out myself... they want a copy can jus say de ma... last min, then i not at home... trust other ppl to send but donno y nv send.. haiz.. all comes back to me.. i mean... u need help then ask nicely la... let my form teacher know i still chay band things, i will GG until very jia lat de leh.. nv think of others de.. unappreciative... haiz...

anw, today had amaths 1 and history... sure fail le la... haiz.... ytd very moody le.. today like tat.. totally screwed le la.. dam demoralised... but who is there for me at this very moment? no one... alone again... handle everything... haiz... after paper met up with gavi then sec 4s went for lunch... i no appetite... but then i see food then i bad mood.. then ate alot.. until i wanna vomit... =/ crazy mi...
after tat they suggested goin to aaron's hse... then went lo... haiz... wasnt feeling too good... didnt do much la... was very sian 1/2.. haiz... suddenly so much happened... some cannot be mentioned... and wheres tat someone who said will be there when i need u? haiz.. still scold me.. =(

i see no colour now.... everything is in monotone... no rainbow... no mood.. no nth.... haiz... wanna post sth happi but jus carn find any... sad...=[

~commentless me signing off..

wah... busy busy~...

sry ar.. nv blog for 2 days... sat was busy packing my stufF... wah.. backache... lol... now still backache~ =( ok~.. sunday went for nephew's bday party.. my old condo there.. today leh.... after papers le went to edward hse then went back to sch.. meet ray, joshua and shermann.. went to aaron shen's chalet... reach there awhile dickson and aaron called... ask me abt attendance... tried to help but think they don appreciate~ scold me somemore.. haiz... sad~ then later went north point to zap score.. kope alot sia... then took mrt home.. so long... haiz.. on the way~.. a close fren called.. not feeling too good.. tried to comfort him.. hope hes feeling better.. =) rmb.. still got us!!! smile!!!

~~timmi signing off~

Okie... today make happi entry okie?

lol... today after prelims went for lunch then went Aaron hse... haha... abit sian la... learn clarinet, play 02 jam... lol.... but then... i got new scars!!!! aaron scar me.. lol.. but nvm la.. nv think so much... anyway.. smile...





-timmi signing off...

Twitching left eye... omen?

Hmm... today i finish earli.. 10am off.. then hang ard in sch until abt 11.. then went hg mall walk walk... then go home... slp.. ah mah called.. ask me go hg mall.. ok lo... then wake up.. play maple... haha.. then later call josh.. then went to meet them.. Zzz... shermann PS kia... ask us go then he go home... -.-'l|

oh well.. today my eye keep twitching oso... OMEN?! is it a sign? haiz.... scared scared... y like tat... anyway... went josh hse jus now... his bro damn evil... bully me sia -.-lll... Zzz...

jus bathe and had dinner... now blogging... shd i study later? donno.. i try la..
speaking abt studying, today's paper crap la... so difficult... gonna say FAIL as usual... Physics Paper 2... not enough time sia... =( hope 0 lvl not like tat...

look on the bright side... stay happi and smile ppl...

-timmi signing off..

Wat happened????

hmm... today maths 1 and el 2... hai hao bah... not much to comment except admitting the fact tat i spent too much time drifting away again... =/ kept on thinking... haiz... no comments...

anw... today went for luch with gavi and shermann... magic wok again... getting abit sick of the oily food... then later weeong gary and josh came... walk abit, had deserts then went gary hse... nth to do oso... play heart attack... dio pinched by joshua... bleeding leh... weeong oso kana... but nvm la.. i oso got pinch them... >.< went home at abt 6 then re organie my storage..

then now.. blogging lo.. gonna try to study... but tat qn still float in my mind.. lingering abt... disturb my concentration... ZZzz... jus say gavi's nick... seems like hes very very angry... went to read his blog... more or less know is who offend him.. but i oso donno wat happened... cannot comment much... but i hope things will be settled soon... unhealthy to go on like tat...

oh well... i today realise tat my blog all sad sad de... like my life so sad... no happiness de... Zzz... bu zhi dao la.... 9th time le... ha.. how? angel? any suggestions?

and my left eye kept twitching.... 2 days le... haiz... wont wat is gonna happen... ah mah... i need a tarot reading!!! =/

-troubled timmi signing off...

Sian... no time!!!! Y msn cannot work... anw.. super long post for today

sry bloggie... ytd no time blog... today i post 2 okie?=)

-Monday...
today had my first 2 papers.. EL1 and SS... haiz... i sit in the hall and stare blank... mental block i guess... i kept thinking of sth someone told me...Zzz...
sure fail liao la... haiz.. =(

after exams, the sec 4s went out for lunch at Magic wok as usual.. =/ food sucks!!!
i order shark's fin... so pathetic la... so small and doesnt even taste like shark's fin... Zzz... so ex somemore... =/ after tat.. wee, gary and josh came to find us.. then we walk ard.. went library... after tat... aaron, ray and ryan came... Zzz.. made so much noise in the library... =x haiz... nth to do le jiu pei them go food court for their meals...

went home after tat.. on the way... tat qn came to me again... i donno how le la..
haiz... tried to use msn... but cannot... donno y la.. everyone oso cannot use...
i now then realise one day no msn can die de leh!!! anyway... fell aslp after dinner... josh woke me up at 930... tok until 10+ with kenneth and rainald... then they all go slp... then i leh... go play maple lo... haiz... no mood.. die and die.. cuz of tat qn again...

1 am le.. i gonna sms josh tat time then he called... actually he wanna do his work and study for his home econs test de.. but his daddy haven slp then he cannot switch on light.. later sure dio kan... then we tok lo... tok tok tok... until abt 3+ 4+ like tat... then i go try msn.. can work... daffy online.. so ask her call lo... 2 person very bored... tok until 430... she want slp... so we say u go slp while we do ur man tok.. then wake u up at 5 then u go prepare for sch.. lol... but she donno got slp anot la... think she heard everything we said.. =x.. oh well.. she put down le then we oso put down lo... go slp.. tired.. but already 530 le... slp wat?

630 woke up... drop dead... 640 revived... dead again... 7 got screamed at then woke up.. see time then haiz.. gonna be late le... no time shower!!!! idiot!!!! argh!! wash up then change then go sch for Stupid CL exam....

-Tuesday...
today leh... CL exam... so difficult la... i write letter for like almost 1 hr la.. then left so little time for compo... Zzz... took 15 mins to uds the qns... cuz my CL lan dao~... haiz... sian la.. write until can slp... cuz sore eye then got air con ma... eye pain pain... but luckily i wasnt late... still got time to grab a drink.. green tea as usual.. die le.. addicted.. must drink everyday!!!=X

oh well.. had a break... sec 4 gathered at canteen at the usual place.. tok abit... while i stand there.. gona drop dead le.. Zzz.. anw.. went for paper 2... Zzzz.. worse... i do the first one.. er... cloze passage.. 15 mins.. 2 ans out of 10 qns... then i skip lo.. went to the MCQ compre and of cuz the dreadful open ended compre... Zzz... i see the time left like 45 mins for open ended then i tot jus nice... but i read the passage for like 30 mins la... so difficult.. Zzz... haiz... then die lo... donno how ans... Zz.... then left 15 mins still got like 3 more qns then i panic la.. anyhow ans... haiz.. then left 3 mins.. still got 2nd passage then i don intend to do le... just flip to the explain the meaning qns then try to crap sth out.. haiz... shuan le la.. no mood do oso... i donno y i read the passage until i go think abt the qn again... then i tot of a movie i watched... "firefly graveyard" or sth.. wah... tat time i watch i sob sia... then i think then i almost sob.. so sad la.. then story ar... aiyo.. u go watch la... very sad... think cuz the passage abt a mother ma... then tat movie the mother die... then korkor become mother lo.. take care of meimeix.. haiz... sad la..

anyway... after the paper.. got hair check.. i kana as usual.. sideburns and front.. wat ever la... i go home oso nv care.. tml jus try to comb neater lo.. Zzz.. got back amaths test... jus managed to past.. miss choy say she worry sia... i no comments la... she nag... i got pract.. but then stil like tat... wat can i do... haiz... no body at home to teach me.. no one to take care of me.. i bao gao liao leh.. haiz.. nvm la... forget it... jus try harder!!!

oh well.. got back papers le then go foyer... wah... the sec 4 all ps sia.. no one there.. all go home... then i went back staff room lo.. gotta wait for josh oso ma.. needa get tat book from him... then auntie poh lin ask me go help her take the register.. wah.. i scared sia.. go office... later kana caught for hair.... but nvm la... i go there wanna ask the clerk take then i very luan... cannot interpret myself... must be cus i thinkin of the qn again... Zzz... nvm la.. after tat.. shermann called me... then ask me wanna go eat anot then i say ok lo..
he say he waiting for xiao neo then we wait together lo.. later josh came out le.. pass me the book then i ask him wanna go eat anot.. then ryan came.. ask him.. ok lo.. then wait for xiao neo... went hg mall... go eat carrot cake.. =) then later follow them go buy present... then they go find Dickson they all.. his bday ma.. then shermann mi and ryan go home lo...

reached home.. played 02jam.. then sian le jiu go watch tv.. watch until i slp... 8 woke up... switch on comp then go bathe.. had dinner.. not nice de.. =( think cuz i no appetite bah.. Tat Qn again.. nvm.. then now come blog lo... type for 37 mins sia... Zzz.. now gonna try to do some maths... tml maths 1 and eng paper 2... hope i wont have metal block again... bless me!!!

anw... wish all sec 4E and 5N ppl all the best la... -smile- hope tml will be a better day... guardian angel must be with me ok? i need ur help... okie blog... hope i have more time to blog again... smile kae... take care.. see u later...

~timmi signing off... thinking again...

wah... mi so stressed... PRELIMS!!!

haiz... today leh.. woke up at abt 2pm... slept at 5+ again.. carn slp... kept thinking of u know who... anyway... played maple until lvl up...Zzz.. sian..

oh well.. back to main pt... SO STRESSED!!! prelims tml and i haven even studied a word... sian la.. sure fail liao... howhowhow... prelims 2 weeks... 2 weeks go thru paper.. then o liaoz!!! si la... where my darling.. need u to take care of mi liao.. sure fall sick de... today keep sneezing again.. y ar? u missing mi izit? or im jus sick.. haiz... how? i donno how liao...

anyway.. today celebrated daddy's bday... and mummi came... hope they ok le.. jus had dinner... waiting for the cake.. =) daffy oso celebrated her daddy bday today... at her granny's place... lol... tml's daddy, daffy's daddy and KC's bday... wishing them happiness and prosperity!!! all the best!!!

tuesday's dickson's bday... wish him all the best in everything and tat he'll be happi always!!! and of course smooth sailing for ya studies and everything la...

back to me... im still missing u know who... Zzz... hope to see u know who soon... smile everyone..

-love sick timmi signin off...

Mixed Emotions

oh wel.. today lvl up le... finally... stupid maple.... so diff to lvl.. Zzz... the job thing quite fun la... not bad..

anyway... i gonna slp le.. very tired... and sian... and of course.. missing someone... hope i'll dream abt tat someone or sth... >.< nitez bloggie...

-timmi signin off...

missing you...

morning overslept... then nv go for remedial... =( after tat... continue installing the programs... played 02jam... brought julius for hair cut... then came home and SLP... woke up then chiong maple... korkor and i.. 10% intervals... lol...

anyway... whole day no mood.. keep thinking of someone... missing you so much... >.< haiz.. carn call tonite.. jiejie came home... =( nvm... i miss u!!! >.<

Strick it rich? chey... onli monopoly.. >.<

hmm... today morning call someone... lol... scared nv wake up so call 3-4 times... then later continue slp... wah... then rainald joesph hanwen all sms mi.... until i wake up... reply le jiu slp... then wake up by sms and the cycle goes on.. lol...

after tat... woke up cuz miss someone... =( then joseph called... ask mi i goin anot... then i say no... cuz mummi don allow... but then i sneak out later... =) hee.. go joseph hse play majong.. then play monopoly!!! yeah... i own them sia... play until everything mine.. =) too bad not real de.. Zzz..

after tat watch ah mah play FFX.. then everyone went home... mi went church.. wah... so long sia... more then 1 hr... Zzz.. then came home ate dinner... finally... i was like so hungry... =X ahhah... went to bathe after tat... now reformat my comp.. lol... later gonna call someone.... missing someone...

-love someone and miss someone..
-timmi signing off..

Fire? Dio fake again...

Today dio fake so many times... Zzz... go joseph hse awhile then got summon back home... on the way met aaron they all... help then pick ball from the canal then dio meh by some !@#$%^&* old hag... he think he old i scared ar... nv see us throw down the bin say we throw... still take video of us taking it out... we doin it out of kindness okie? nv se don anyhow say.. i curse u!!! fking cb... accuse accuse... go screw then canal la.. argh!!!!

then before seeing aaron, went to another fren hse... pass him sth... then dio fake.. sad.. everytime ask me go then make mi wait outside de.... haiz... donnno y he must always do tat... haiz... nvm la... i broke le... still bought him food... then he still like tat... unappreciative... sad... oh well... i'll jus be sad while he enjoy his fun... =( haiz!!!!!

then went home... then realise no one at home... dio fake again... haiz.. then went joseph hse again.. cuz they say wanna go out for dinner... wah... dio fake again... his mum dial KFC delivery... =/ but nvm la... at least got ppl enjoy eating... =) others happi i oso happi...

this is the interesting part... when zhihan went to bring out the trash... he saw glowing oranging thingy.. then ask us go see... see le... at first we donno wat.. suspect is fire... then went to 15 floor see... wah!!! really fire sia... interesting!!! haha... then later we all go take 161 to Compass Pt there... went to one of the blocks... wah!!! DIO FAKE AGAIN!!! its jus the incenerator.... dots!!! haiz.. then went to CP to buy drink then go home le lo... now blogging and listening song... jus finish bathing...

-timmi signin off...

=) Zzz

nth much happened yts.. went ah mah hse... Zz... not at joseph hse.. Zzz... play majong until very sian liao... morning got woken up by joshua's call.. ask me play o2 jam... Zzz... sian sian... donno y la.. i very sian....

haiz... now oso donno wat to do... they still playing... mi leh.. use comp =).. okie... see u tonite bloggie... =)

New Dae New Beginning

Today's a new dae... and i shall put all misery behind me... hope tat my life will get better... =) actually today goin out for lunch with Woman and sec 4s... but suddenly posponed.. >.<

lol... smile ppl... hee... okie.. mi go do my stuff le... cheers everyone =)

-TimMi Signing off-

Its A Long LonG StoRy...

oh well.. jus reached home.. =) jus now joseph and weeong ask me y i stay with my dad.. lol... haiz... since i told them le... i shouldn't hide it anymore...

here goes the truth tat i'll been trying so hard to hide... =(
A few mths back.. my parents had a tiff over some personal matters... after tat.. they fell out... and my mum left... haiz... wasnt ard to stop her... regretted... i had band tat day... =( oh well..

ever since then.. i'll been running between both hses.. but currently am living with dad cuz its nearer to sch.. its not easy u know.. im sandwiched in the middle.. i don want them to D.... but... its realli difficult.. lately.. i carn contact my mum... which made me real sad... and the darling i speak of in this blog is her... i hope u guys read le wont anyhow go spread tat my darling is someone else... its not nice and oh nvm.. haiz, the reason y i use the name darling is cuz i wanna hide the truth tat stm like tat has happened...

oh well... today its my turn to fall out... i recieve a msg.. from someone... i couldn't explain... haiz... nvm abt tat... tat someone wish mi and darling well... =\... oh well... how many of you guys reading know this is happening to me? do u guys know how much i envy you? having a warm and lovin family? my life used to be so perfect... i had such a huge hse... warm family... money and all... and slowly its all being taken away from me... it always happens this way.. when i finally start to recover from it.. it comes again... haiz... sometimes i jus wanna let go of everything... jus don wake up from slp or sth...

how i wish i had someone to talk to... someone to care for me.. someone to share my troubles... oh well... frens are all i got now.. and my blog... haiz... try having to handle all those + stress from frens + stress from studies + stress from teachers + many many more... esp band... im so attached to it.... i carn leave... alot of things has happened... some confidential... some happi.. most sad... but i still love my band... i donno why...

and now...im feeling lost again... what shd i do... i want my old life back... my family and all... guardian angels.... pls come help me... give me hope b4 i give up hope... haiz... im so super sad now... i need to be alone... sry my fair bloggie..
hope those who read will try to uds...

-timmi signing off =(