sch term is finally starting?
so how will things be?

haha.. roughly have a mental image le ba...

anyway.. i think im always slow eh... i think that sometimes... im so slow.. i don even realise wat has happened... ur closest fren may become ur worse enermy... wa... so fierce... haha... tim tim.. just give up ba... ppl always K.S. u.. u always slow by abit.. haha...ok.. tim doesnt know wat he is blogging...

but ya.. when moments turn into memories... wat ppl don see behind those smiles... well.. tim always say its now now now... no more things of the past.. but he still clings on to his "lost" fren.. frens who were once best buddies... are now... strangers... which makes him emo.. and jus don uds wat happened.. haha.. oh well.. anyway..

I HATE PPL TO TOUCH MY THINGS... like.. ya.. hate it.. please ask b4 taking.. and return after using... hais... and stop eyeing my stuff la... i onli got those left with me le.. stop taking them away from me.. give me some peace... i lost so much already... hais...

*dumdum.. im so sad now... will u cheer me up?*

so now... i have completed my attachment.. like YEAY!!! but also =( ... goin miss my supervisors..... . . . . .. . .. . . .

have been overworked and YEA, sick... haha... can u imagine goin to work with 38.5? lucky im better now... haha.. hmmm.... kinda funni thou... monday wil be back in school already... . . . . gotta JYJY!!!! haha...

i dono wat im blogging.. im jus blogging.. blogging.. blogging....


*dumdum... when moments turn into memories....*

theres onli one me in this world.. and there are never ending things to do... i wonder... i really wonder... when will it all end... its getting more and more personal.. i think tat if i don like vent it out here i will explode soon...

i really really neglected my frens la.. damn it... and i carn free myself up... ARGH... DAMN! i hate it... sorry my frens.. i wish i could.. ireally really miss some of u... but... i dono wat to do now... things at work is getting me and more busy... so is band... i wish i can find help... but... where can it be found? i don even have time to do up my report.. like... =( im really damn irritated by it... im too stretched... i haven even start sch.. lecturers start calling me... like WAT?! Zzz im already so caught up.. and there they go... =/ nv ending thigns to do.. i keep tinking... wat if ... wat if i handed in tat letter? will i be better off now... i tink i will be less stressed up... its so difficult to get things done.. and PPL KEEP THROWING THEIR ATTITUDE AT ME... hais... i can jus accept it... and to all who got nth better to do... COULD U JUS LEAVE ME ALONE FOR AWHILE?

stop asking me for things.. this and tat.. stop it... i might jus walk off if i had enough.. and i already am having enough... i know i should be blogging abt this but who cares... im already losing myself.. i lost my brother, my best frens... my frens.. wat more to loss... i had enough... really... its getting too personal... too personal...

wat for hide all these emotions... and be the puppet slave? do i have a choice? i don think so... who uds? WHO? well.. onli i do... alone in this world... life has been so.. will be so.. and hope will nto be so... my future looks ruin.. by tat one responsibility tat grew..

this is back to his busi self.. now even mroe busy then ever... haha... TIM AR TIM!!! wat a sad life u have.... sometimes i wish i had more time...
i have so much to do... and ppl who are damn free keep ADDing more things for me to do... i already try my best to gif others le.. but they also alot of thigs to do ma... how how how? i need everyone to co operate... yes! if everyone can don delay.. everything will be much easier... everyone is being squeezed.. and its a vicous cycle.. ur delay will delay others and everyone will get affected...

sometimes i wish i have 10 more hrs a day... like 34 hrs.. btu i think i wil still complain 34 hrs is nto enough... maybe maybe... alot of wat ifs... haha... i can onli say... i brought this among myself... i don blame anyone or myself.. this is anotehr challenge i have to overcome.. once i live thru it.. i grow stronger... i BELIEVE tat i can do it... =) okie.. im self motivating again..

i wan to say also tat... sometimes i be nice... and tat does mean im not aware of things... u can lie to me... i know u are lying but i hope u know wat u are doin.... i hope its all genuine... i jus hope so... i choose to believe so... and don go overboard cuz i may jus explode... and its not goin to be a pleasent sight... tolerance has its limits....

and its 1 more week.. and i hope i will have mre time for other thigns... i must start mugging for my studies... i wan better results... no more slacking... study is my main priority... yes... at all cost... =]

i have been neglecting my frens... i am so busy i carn think of a reply.. i carn meet them.. i have to reject them... i try to meet up.. i am trying... i jus need more time in a day... i don wish to loss any... so heres my sincere apologies if i have neglected u.... GOMENASAI.... dui bu qi... sorry.... i really treasure my frens alot.. they support me when im down... encourage me when i wanna give up... and they try to uds when i have no choice but to reject them....

and the more personal side of me... i really wish to do some things.. but i jus don have the time... im so busy... the amt of time i spend at home awake is not even enough to fully charge my mobile... but some may think... if u prioritise ur time well.. u can do it.. or some might even think... are u sure u are so busy... wat can i say... i don have time to care abt it... i have decided to give up on certain things for the bigger picture.. the personal side has to wait... i really have no time.. thou for the past few years.. i have put it aside.. this is another one of those countless time im setting it aside.. i jus hope things will get better.. and i will have more time... time time time.... if there is a time machine tat can stop time... i want it... i need it.... at least get some rest.... i am so tired.. so slpy... i rush everywhre... i think abt everything even in my slp... i can even dream of ans... omg... i NEED A BREAK...

ok... tim... now u speak part of it... its time to slp.. tml is anotehr day... challenge... take care... u can do it... lets wish tat i will not be sick tml again... u can do this... yes u can.. i know u can.. and yes i can... =)

*really no comments... hais... dumdum is really dum... so much i carn say... one day.. its gonna explode... *

こんばわ。おげんきですか？
わたしは　ちむです。
どおぞよおしく。。。。

えと。。。

so how has life been? like tat lo.. so bored.. so lifeless... haha... im so SIAN of everything... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . so monotone...
i jus feel like staring into blank space... wats the motivation in waking up everyday? nth.. haha.. oh well... so sian.. . . . . . . . ... . .. . .. . . . . . hais.... sian sian sian ar sian sian sian.... . . . . .. . .. . .typing nonsense.... . . . . . . . . .

byebye

*わたしのdumdumです。。。＊

aren't they so cute? thanks for all these cheery pictures... =)

sometimes i wish things were different.. but things wont change so jus live with it... =]

*hais... mydumdum.... my dum dum.... mydumdum... my dum dum*

Control and tolerance is the key word for today

*how? same old sentence.. so much to tell u*

yet another day...

jus abit more.. hang in there.. =)

sometimes i jus don understand why things happen...

day in day out worry this and tat...
so busy.. i am like having a full day work.. after tat go for band... then rush home to teach homework.. hais... after tat still got my other work to do... trying very hard to multitask already.. but jus seem to not have enough time... i sometimes jus feel like quiting evrything... don care... jus relax and enjoy.. is anyone else more busy then me? hais! HATE IT.. its worse when other ppl are not being helpful at all... maybe i shd be more selfish..

cuz of this.. i have been losing myself.. i no longer have control over wat i do.. i act like a lunatic.. wat happen to the old me? wheres the happi little boi.. why do i now have to take all those remarks, comments, responsibilities... sometimes being a kid is such a bliss.. so carefree.. so peaceful.. ignorance is a bliss... i wan a break.. i need it.. before i go mad... which i think am 80% mad already...

wat if one day i totally loss myself... will i get admitted to IMH? will i still know who i am? who will rmb me.. who are the true frens.. who cares? who understands?

life has alot alot of question marks.. the optimistic comments and self encouragement seem to have numb off... none of which is helping.. no longer... like a drug overdose.. useless...

if there is a time machine.. i would like to not have alot of things.. sometimes u just feel like u are in all these alone... everyday is jus another day of torture... so busy.. so tired.. i don even have time for myself...

=(

=]

tim is so tired... AGAIN...

but today at least i met up with frens who i haven met in a long time.

*mixed emotions.. =)? or =(? *

tim is so tired.


*i have so much to tell u.. but i don know how... *

hello everyone.. im too lazy to upload other images.. lol..

so the exams are over... like yay! now having my attachment =). so it has been 9 - 6 for 5 days a week. and will be for the rest of the 9 weeks.. so tired.. so squeezy! stupid morning and evening rush hour...
『４９-５＝４４日』がんばてい！

anyway...
friday met up with ilah and halif. walk ard douby area... lol.. ilah bought us donuts for valentines day.. omg.. sweetness... haha.. so we got no where to go.. so we sat at the sofa outside cathay and ate our donuts.. which reminds me of the times where i will walk aimlessly ard with my fren cuz we got nth better to do... sit anywhere and everywhere and chat till the moon goes blue... haha.. the good old days that are like gone forever... how i wish things were still like tat... haha! fat hope? maybe

yup.. so i spend my day slping... yes... slp slp slp slp slp.. after bringing my bro for a swim.. i came back and slept my life away.. i guess im not alone? almost all my frens were slping too.. must be so tired after exams plus ipp... haha.. oh well.. lets hope i will be stress free longer... thou i know wats coming.. enjoy life now while i can.. and i shall try to blog if i can.. thou tats nth much to talk abt.. haha... maybe at least once a week? =) alrighto.. tats all for now... byebye everyone...



-TiM-

*心ぞの人は、どなたですか？　today i dream of u while i was slping.. i dreamt tat we were like before.. so close... i guess i really missed u... hows everything goin? we've not talked for weeks... take care... =)*

today was a long day... i didnt get to study... oh well...
anyway... i guess i have decided on"it"... somehow i think i have to reconsider it... =/ anw... so stress.. >.<

everyone see this.... someone actually drew this to cheer me up... who in this world would actually do this for u? are u jealous? lol... ya.. how many will do this for me... on msn... u know how diff it is to draw? like wow... i wish everyday will be so nice... haha.... hao jiu mei you ren hong wo kai xin le...
tml is study day... anyway.. im attached to Daimler South East Asia Pte Ltd... haha... Mercs again... yup... =) proj and ipp... like bonded... =]

-TiM-

*will u do tat for me? ni you hong guo wo ma? hao xi wang shi ni... hai*

so many things to consider...

wat shd i do...

where are u...

anyway.. morning meeting wit han... =/ then today went out with wen and da.... rot at the salon so long.. cuz ww rebond her hair... but nvm la... then went yishun eat potato.. not bad... its quite nice... then met jolene for dinner... then erm.. home...

tml need to do alot of things.. call han, study.. funeral... thurs also alot of things.. hai.. so stress... exam ar exam.. can u postpone abit later?

*i dono wat to do now... where are u*

i shd blog b4 i get hit on the head tml.. lol..

hmm.. life is busy.. and i realise sth.. no matter how i clean my house... end of the day will be dusty again.. so irritating eh.. i spend 2 hrs a day sweeping, mopping, wiping, cleaning.. omg.. then dirty again... =( omg.. anyway... EXAMS COMING!!!!! AHHHHHH

im so stress.. my face got a bit more dou dou le... =( so sad!!!! i today try to study... but haven 1 chapter i wanna die already... aiyo... i need more motivation...

anyway... i spent 400 ytd... T.T i feel so poor now... ahhhh.... i shd start saving for my overseas trips now... again... lol...

jyjy ar... study study.. don say die.. later twin will hit my head...

-tim-

*i didnt wanan blog but this is for u... wat happen to u? are u okie? im so worried abt u... =( do u rmb wat i said? anything or everything or nothing also can come find me de... FYI, nth went wrong between us... if u know who u are... hai yo.. i wan talk to u de.. but i scared.. dono wat to say.. worried sick =(*

in less then 18 hrs... it will be concert... in abt 23 and 1/2 hrs.. it will be 19 jan... haha... wat if wat i dream of came true? haha...

so wat did i dream of... carn really rmb... but i remember so vividly.. i saw 1111 inside... so is it goin to be 1111 on 18 jan? or 1111 on 19 jan? or wat? i have mixed tots man... haha.. anyway.. tml concert.. JJYJY.. don nervous okie... =) u can do it... smile!

today i rested at home.. im almost fully recovered already... good good... =) haha... being happi is the best way to recover..... nua-ed until so song.. i slp alot also.. anyway.. tml gotta wake up so earli... =( hai... but nvm... jyjy.. its onli 5 am in the morning.. =) u can wake up de... lols.. im so blogging nonsense... maybe this is the last post... haha...

alright.. shall blog again.. somehow...

-TiM-

*was it really like tat? hmm.. wat if i really disappear tml.. im so scared... i dare not tell u.. cuz i know u don like it.. hai... im still hoping u know.. lols.. thou i told u the opp ans.. oh well.. jyjy ba... u happi is the most impt 33*

so tired so tired...

currently waiting for my hair to dry... then i can go slpslp... yeay! im kinda sick... and i skipped lecture today.. how sad... but sick ma.. wat to do.. haha... self denial... anyway... today had my HR presentation... i tink it was kinda lame.. but not tat bad la... shd pass.. hee... and sad case.. my HRM ICA 1 like nv do so well... so sad! but i pass la.. no A =(...

after class, met up with lala to pass her tickets... sorry eh.. cannot pei u wait for kai kai.. dono how u rotted jus now.. haha... my sisters and lif dated me for lunch.. =x and ya... we went KFC... tsk... sick still eat KFC... blame on my lif lif... he wan eat.. haha.. but it was quite shiok la.. =x but then ~~Memories~~ haha... emoed for like 2 mins.. then back to the self denial self... haha.. so optimistic rite... =)

went back to sch and virtually rotted my time away.. i tried to slp but so uncomfy.. it was kinda noisy too.. lol.. but i bet i looked damn unglam jus now... im imaging myself slping in those position.. ~ had pract.. it was cold... then hot.. then cold... Zzz siao siao eh...

anway... thanks for all the nice nice get well soon care and concern showered onto me... =) haha.. thanks ^^

im goin to prepare for bed already... and ya! my nose and lip is red and burning.. so pain! sister say look like luve luve bite.. -.- its pain! ~~

-TiM and his nonsense... yeay! no more proj for now.. *rejoices* -

*today hong ghee pass me some medicine lo... how i wished it was you.. i think eve if u say one get well soon.. don need medicine also next day okie.. haha.. mad.. self deception.. self denial.. i know its impossible.. but im still one siding.. cannot stand myself... tsk... love is such a complicated thingy - - - luv dumdum - - - *

AHHH.. im sick again...

my left arm is so pain... =( dono wat happened.. i cannot straighten it... how am i goin to bring my laptop tml? =/ currently having sore throat and abit of cough... =( y ar.. concert coming then sick... -.-

today.. is a very very very sian day.. things like super go against me... but wat can i do... jus accept it... im so sad... my jap role play... i kinda forgot some of my lines.. sigh... sorry to my grp mates... didnt meant for tat to happen... sorry... thou u don blame me but i blame myself... -.-

everything seems to be jus a wasted effort.. first and foremost... marketing... still haven gotten over tat proj.. then results... the input so much.. output like shit... -.- try so hard stil like tat... can die ar! today i woke up earli.. skip lecture jus to pract my jap... but in the end.. too nervous... or i shd say distracted... i forgot... even when i do things for other ppl... seem to be jus a wasted effort...

anyway... today my mood not good.. so when to find my fren after setting up the stage at the audi... ya.. my hand hurts but i still helped out.. don scold me... i jus wanna do it... zi zhao de rite.. now the hand cannot even straighten.. Zzz.. pei him pract his french role play.. got bored and started folding things... and i folded like this super small crane.. its smaller then a 10 cent coin.. lol

oh well.. tats all for now i guess... im very very very tired...

-TiM-

*the pain tat no one sees... why does this have to happen to me.. why me.. carn u jus even say like a nice sentence jus to cheer me up.. -.- *

oh how sad!!!! i got a C for my bfin proj.. ARGH! hate it... =( y ar.. Y Y Y!

anwyay.. i got a B for my Law Proj.. ok.. not tat bad.. btu i wanted an A...

and i got A for my marketing individual proj ... which is GOOD=)

tml is japica.. i haven even memorise the script.. DIE... really die liao... tml is goin to be a long and busy day for me... jyjy...

*i damn miss u can... AHHH... can i jus text u "eh.. dumdum, i love you"... life is so hard to pass lately... *