200110 - Check it out...

study and study.. ib and ib.. argh.. and the paper was not tat easy lo... not enough time to do leh... =( and my hand so stiff... i wan buy new pen! those pen suck. cannot write fast fast... and the table so small... =( my neck pain.. ok.. don complain liao... anyway.. i decided to come home to do my ihrm report which yays! i finished it.. next is the ppt.. then im done..

i am stressed! theres still IB to start.. MCAD to start. BPO to complete.. and compensation! alot to do.. i read the info but am clueless how to start.. die die die.. no time no time! kuai dian.. lets finish those proj asap.. my head goin boom boom boom soon. like my ma say, ah boy, study must on some music, so quiet, i see also stress... ah boy, come eat first.. later then do work.. come ah boy drink coke.. come ah boy.... this and tat... oh my ma.. luv u...

lesson at 8 tml.. omg. can it get any earlier? =( and then theres IHRM presentation at 8 am on friday! omg. wear wat? =( so earli.. on a lighter note, 2am got new album, damn nice...

i have 123456789 things to do and say. but i only have 1 mouth.. 1 mind. its when its all tangled up and u jus go erm.... erm... i dono how to say and u just stare and everything seem to be just ok.. suddenly.. timmi jiayou. control =)

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wish upon the star.

star light, star bright.

you seem so near yet so far.

shinning light, sparkling blink

will you be my guide tonite.

when you wish upon a star.

and give ur dreams a dazzling start

there's hope and faith and trust comes fast

not 2 not 3 but only 1.

wont you come and stay tonite.

.tim

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.tim *i wish upon the stars*

IB SUCKS... anyway... today is not a good day.. aside from buying my frens yakult.. and going on a retail therapy.. i still boomz.. tml will be a better day.. 7 chapters! i can do this... yes i can.. timmi the great.. nothing is impossible for him.. =) i shall go ice cream after the paper.. im not goin for practice tml.. i shall take a break. after 3 years... time for a nap.

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mind over matter. positive thinking.

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.tim *i wan my babyy! i wanna eat chocolate and lollipop and ice cream!*

180110 - a daze

dragged himself out of bed at 7 and headed to sch for a 2 hr tut which he nv listen... got back his SOQM paper and wow.. such a disappointment.. tried to push my meeting forward so tat i could head home and rest.. but nah.. someone was busy.. meeting at 4.. and by the time im done with lunch its already 2.. pointless to head home.. pushed it to 3 pm.. for 27 mins.. pointless.. -.- for wat i go.. do phone meeting la... off to the band room.. lazy to open up, i sat outside and onlined.. guess wat.. i fell aslp on my laptop with my stuff on the table.. alone.. and the construction going on beside me... the noise and stuff.. =\ must be really tired.. dinner tat sucks.. i fell aslp on my waterbottle.. i think i seriously lack slp..

band was emotional.. the songs... i just had to inject so much into them.. where else can i say it out but during music making? the tone and sound tat speaks.. indeed.. music.. and i said tat i will post a long post abt my presidential life.. the 2 years worth of it.. but not now.. once all is settle.. i will.. =) yes, my dear classmates.. i am stepping down already.. don scold me le la.. i know i must study liao.. time to let it go... thanks for being with me.. and udsing me.. thanks...

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.tim *i must be strong.. i will be brave..*

eyes tat speaks.. the fearlessness.. the courage..

eat eat eat. dwaeji

why haven i been updating? cuz i don have the mood to.. anyway... this few days.. i've been eating alot alot alot.. thinking alot alot alot.. ups and downs alot alot alot... i worked... with uncle aunties surrounding me trying to make me talk to them... "ah boy, u very cool ah, don talk.. like the macau casino dealer" -.- can u just leave me alone? i busy enough counting chips..

the little one skipped sch.. and its like sec 1 January onli lo.. small one, please grow up and start thinking abt ur future.. stop playing so much.. and hogging on TV playing Xbox.. let alone the computer.. study eh... grow up liao.. start tinking!

today is a slp and eat day for me i guess... slp eat tv slp eat tv.. totally no mood for studies.. in the quit sch mood again.. but then, i got motivated somehow.. did abit of my work.. but now.. im down again.. oh.. the ups and downs.. its really these ups and downs... one moment u are ok.. next u are not.. i really dono wat to expect next.. can things please go well for once... please...

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God is fair

someone once told me tat daddy god is fair.. theres a balance.. like if u are good in sth, u loss out in other.. someone can have looks.. but are not very smart.. i tot thru today.. im not very good looking.. nor am i ugly.. im not very smart, nor am i dum.. im successful in many ways.. but im a failure in many other things... everyone has his strength and weakness.. i won say i am a good president, theres alot of things tat i could have done otherwise alot better.. but ppl only see the surface.. theres alot to it.. its a very stressful post.. and moreover, u have to juggle ur studies too.. many a times i crumble.. many a times ppl say, u don act like ur caliber... many a times, i find ppl who support me.. and ppl who dont..

every successful person has a "behind the scenes person" supporting him or her.. and in return, u support him or her back.. tolerance, patience, love, care... its a mutual understanding.. one tat is so simple.. yet so complicated.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. it takes 2 ppl to maintain.. it takes 2 person to live.. *i am really praying very hard.. i don wan to loose you*

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.tim *and i try to uds and act on it, cuz i wan u to be happy*

i saw this on disney channel and think its a nice song to share... enjoy..

*for you*

140110 - [ ]

wat a day. 8am lesson. lebin drove us out for lunch.. nice food... thanks! went to NLB to get the CA for compensation project... walked ard alone till i reach suntec half drenched.. =\ my legs are failing me.. tailbone down, my left leg is painnnnnnnnnnnnnful... dinner and walked ard somemore.. walk walk walk... my head was.. aiyo.. don walk so fast... gently walk.. don stomp.. ouch. ouch. ok ok.. walk this way.. siam the crowd..

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one by one.. they are disappearing... they want to go far far away... reel them back.. reel harder.. too much resistance it will snap.. how how... its just me.

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.tim

*for you, for me, for us*

130110 - Pillar of support

sch was -.-! i am damn stressed now.. everything in life is going anyhow... its the time when u just want to say.. i give up. do watever u want.. i don want to care anymore.. but i cant.. oh well.. remind me next time not to go home and leave the hse 10 mins later and be caught in the rain.. my head is going boom boom boom... best if i don have wake up tml.. no one cares anyway...

sight reading today.. ok.. my sight reading improved.. but still a long way to go..am i playing for concert? its in june.. am i enlisted already? i dont know a thing abt it.. anyway... i think its physiological but my chest is painful.. ok, im aching everywhere but my chest is pain.. am i like really crumbling already? breaking down.. dying soon... ha ha ha... maybe i just need a breather.. wat do you do when u keep having this nitemare? is it just u think too much or does it really mean sth? its just me myelf and i... so tim, please bring tim for a break.. before theres no more tim..

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pillar of support

everyone has one or more.. sorry. this pillar is crumbling.. plaster, marble, concrete... whos gonna repair this pillar? whos gonna be this pillar's pillar of support? everyday is jus another day.. nth to hope for.. nth to look forward to.. no motivation.. cuz theres just so much that one has to think about. and its ok. this pillar has decided not to stand anymore.. the pillar has fallen.. who will mend this pillar? one tot too many... maybe.. maybe..

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.tim

*life has lost its colours.. life has lost its meaning.. life has lost its hope... i really really miss you... =(*

130109 - one tot too many

another Pfft day. i fell aslp on my comp ytd.. and my neck almost broke.. woke up at 648 with the.. EH! wat am i doin here? ehh.. now wat time?.. alot of Qn marks.. this taught me tat.. if i am waiting.. don ever close my eye and say.. 5 mins rest... =/

well.. i went back to slp after sending some sms and i couldnt wake up.. so tired... my dad force me to eat and refuse to send me to sch.. and i was late.. great! so i rush to sch for nth.. then rot for 4 hrs.. so much free time = think alot.. = ARGH! anyway.. thank to the 3 jiejies for keeping me occupied.. lunch at kovan.. nth nice.. =/ back to sch for IB tut.

ib ica 1, i got a B+.. ok la.. im happi liao... wheres my reward! oh wait.. no one will reward me.. anyway.. damn bad mood.. went home and gorge myself.. haha.. and slept on the sofa... woo.. and theres canele cheese cake! cake eh.. i like.. made me smile for 5 mins.. at least i did..

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look at the mirror.. who do u see? i am so lost.. i need ans..

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.tim

When You Wish Upon a Star

long time no see... how is everyone? lately alot of things happened... my mind is like boom boom boomz... ha ha ha... anyway... sat went for huifen's 21st.. sunday went for Sparks wind concert..

today i over slept.. presentation at 9am.. i woke up at 907.. damn it! of all days to oversleep.. i overslept on my ppt day... sunday also overslept.. stupid phone.. i wan a new phone.. ARGH! so frustrated eh... omgomgomg! argh.... anyway.. as usual.. things happen.. i learnt to live with it.. im jus a venting machine... oh great... and im aching all over... im like falling apart.. haha.. who is gonna pick up the pieces and put them back tgt?

anyway.. i whine and whine and whine today... and my fren drew me this cuz i said i was hungry and i wanted to eat curry noodles... thank you very much... at least someone made me smile today... thank you.... the others who made me smile.. thank you! =)

OH.. Happy 21st bday huifen.. and her twin.. huiting.. =)

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When you wish upon a star.

the sky was very very clear tonite... the stars were so bright... i made a wish.. lately, its a 1111 spree... some i watch it pass.. some i made a wish.. there was a period where i gave up on 1111.. but it came back to me.. i even saw a mrt with 1111 on the red line... maybe its asking me to make a wish.. haha... oh well.. i dono wat to expect or think already... what will the next step be?

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.tim *imy*

070110 - One Down........

MCAD earli in the morning at 8... i was the earliest lo.. wth... anyway.. i think it went quite well... great job team.. =) drift off to timmi's stonning land... compensation.. last min tut plus crapping = saves the day.. sandwich and ihrm tut...... i don even rmb wat was taught.. slack ard.. waited for my fren then went ms for food.. window shop to douby and home.. i am so tired... i fell aslp unglamly in the train... =( oh ya.. why am i coughing? anw, my other fren made me a name thingy.. simple yet meaningful.. thank you very much..

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Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.
Leonardo da Vinci

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.tim *as much as i try to hold it back, i just can't*

randoms

a list of wants.. what do i really need? i need you lo

i want a lighter laptop.

i want my Macbook pro.

i want my itouch.

i want a nice bagpack.

i want my new phone.

i want new earphones.

i want more nice fitting formals.

i want a new SCRATCH-FREE belt.

i want my pedro loafers.

i want more T-shirts.

i want my own room!

i need and want you

.tim *slp well*

060110 - ups and downs

i am tired. stressed and irritated... i am so FINE now... i am just going to blurrr everythinggg out...

slept late. falling ill.. lethargic to wake up.. but i dragged myself to sch.. totally disregard my tutor and did other proj during his tutorial.. im sorry.. but i just need to do it.. played the EGG game on cheryl's phone trying to beat lebin's high score.. sorry tutor.. i had to destress myself... abit of proj meeting here and there.. had lunch.. went to continue my proj while doing band stuff... i msut multitask.. if not i feel very uneasy.. rush proj, no mood for dinner.. had a waffle.. and half a iced Teh-C.

band was not bad.. i feel suddenly everything feels so loud suddenly.. but the sounds was ok.. my section was in tune.. i am HAPPY abt it.. ups and downs.. voting today.. i am happy cuz of alot of reason.. im emotional cuz im graduating soon.. alot of ppl are falling sick.. take care and get well soon... at this point of time.. im still thinking of quiting sch.. which is totally dum. will continue to tell myself not to do it.

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have u ever felt tat someone has become a part of your life tat its sth like u cant live without.. unknowingly you've become one.. simple things such as the way u speak.. the way you present urself.. the little things they do and you do.. even the way u hold the hand rail in the train mistaking it other things.. haha.. honestly, we are always changing.. some influenced by society.. some by the ppl ard you.. what will happen if theres a suddenly switch? a state of shock maybe?

have you ever have the feeling of "i just know your style, wat u're gonna say, blah blah?" jean grey? nah.. its just the special bond and understanding u have tgt.. one tat not all will understand.. or try to understand at the very least..

actually i also dono wat i really saying already.. i have so much tots inside i dono wat to do with them.. can i like poke a straw and let it all flow out?

treasuring

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i have a ppt at 8am tml morning.. 530 wake up.. now its 230.. and i have alot other stuff to do.. slpless nite again.. and tml is a efffing long day... till 6... oh great... anyway.. this was playing at the aisles of SBM block while walking along it.. tots.

.tim *hey, get well soon kaes*

051009 - First day of school.

oh.. tiring... thou it was just 2 lectures.. seeing my classmates is fun.... all the minor changes.. blah blah... the happenings... haha... the gossips? haha.... hmm.. =) no IB today.. stayed in sch to do proj then had to run some errands.. went shop for my trousers! i got it in the end.. walked a long long way.. tiring.. but the day was pretty much well spent...

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everyday is a blessing for me. everyday, every moment is worth treasuring.. i will...

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.tim *hmm.. still the same 3 words for you..*

stayed up to do MCAD ppt.

i am so mentally drained.

cant stop thinking... yet trying to stay strong.

haha... fb and internet.. oh anything to do with web, i HATE you so much.. web communication is EVIL!

my friend said:"you emo until crazy already ar? can feel you are very sad about something yet you are still entertaining me with your jokes.. are you ok?"

i said: "nah, don worry.. im fine (:"

TIME to slp... nitenite everyone..

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a totally random song playing on my totally random itunes which stuck to my totally random mind. random.

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.tim *hmmm, nah. (:*

040110 - nature's course

No school today.. did some house chores and washed my hoodies... its so heavy! back breaking in a way.. yet makes u feel happi after u get it clean.. wash the rest of the clothes and finally i decided to wash the blood stain away. after so many mths.. BYE. haha... simple lunch while watching bolt.. the show is cute lo.. went sch for band..

i dono why but i was so DISTRACTED. first i walk the wrong way to the mrt.. took the longer route.. then instead of stopping at serangoon, i stopped at potong pasir.. nvm.. train back to serangoon then i took the train to bartley instead of marymount.. am i dum or wat? sighs. went for supper at popeye's after band and half the time i was like.. staring into space? anyway.. the bus was damn cold.. almost froze to death.

king kong was showing on tv when i got home.. watched it.. nice yet saddening.. anyway. today's god msg is worrying.. ok... fb is like crap rite.. but watever is goin thru my mind.. somehow has some link to it.. am i just thinking too much? somehow i don't know.. i think just let things flow ba.. how its gonna be and the outcome.. let nature take its course... oh.. theres so much tots in my mind its so draining me..

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.tim *faith hope trust. i'll respect the decision. patience. or maybe im just thinking too much*

030110 - "ah Choo~"

today is a ah choo day.. woke up 9 plus lo.. dono for wat also.. church home.. eat slp proj eat slp proj... haha.. glad tat mcad is almost done! yay! and i tot tml got sch lo.. so silly! omg.. tml no sch! yay!! but tues have.. aww... haha... nvm... went out in the evening.. and i fat already.. 2 days ago i tried this trousers and it fits nice but no size! but today i wan go buy the correct one.. aww... can fit la.. but abit too fit.. im fat! omg. had laughs... =) otw home.. this song suddenly came to my mind.. its a very old song.. but its nice...

.tim *사랑해요*

020110 - childhood flashback

woke up so earli in the morning.. and the bus dont want co-operate with me.. work was ok.. did wii station.. haha. i have a few flash back of my mummy bringing me to the zoo when i was very very small... hmm.... kfc and home. overslept and when to my fren's mummy's advance bday party. =) the moon was very very bright and round today.

.tim *really really*

high school musical on disney channel again.

.tim

wee hours.. time to leave the house..

woke up with this tune in my head from the same dream..

.tim

010110 - good start.

happy new year. today's good start i guess... got home real late slept quite alot.. had good food.. helped mummy. bathed and went tree hunting.. i had fun today.. crazi crazi unglamly making a fool of myself on the streets.. how often do i do it? seldom. walk till my legs so tired.. but im happy. the moon was very very round and bright tonite.. at least, it made me smile.

on a side note, gotta wake up at 530am tml! Zzz Zzz. GG. and phone died.

.tim *tell me*

311209 - byebye! Hello!

byebye 2009.

its a year full of alot lot lot lot of happenings, challenges, difficulties... of cuz i rmb all the fun i had.. the laughter the friends.. i made new frens.. i rmb them all.. i lost some frens.. one day i will get them back.. =) and of cuz.. BYE NIGHTMARE! u !@#$%^&.

anyway.. 2010 is here.. its gonna be a great, smooth, happening one.. i know it will be.. i made my resolutions.. =) forward 2010.. yay! simple yet memorable countdown.. actually one of the few i ever attended.. definitely one of the happy happy days.

.tim *=)*