theres onli one me in this world.. and there are never ending things to do... i wonder... i really wonder... when will it all end... its getting more and more personal.. i think tat if i don like vent it out here i will explode soon...

i really really neglected my frens la.. damn it... and i carn free myself up... ARGH... DAMN! i hate it... sorry my frens.. i wish i could.. ireally really miss some of u... but... i dono wat to do now... things at work is getting me and more busy... so is band... i wish i can find help... but... where can it be found? i don even have time to do up my report.. like... =( im really damn irritated by it... im too stretched... i haven even start sch.. lecturers start calling me... like WAT?! Zzz im already so caught up.. and there they go... =/ nv ending thigns to do.. i keep tinking... wat if ... wat if i handed in tat letter? will i be better off now... i tink i will be less stressed up... its so difficult to get things done.. and PPL KEEP THROWING THEIR ATTITUDE AT ME... hais... i can jus accept it... and to all who got nth better to do... COULD U JUS LEAVE ME ALONE FOR AWHILE?

stop asking me for things.. this and tat.. stop it... i might jus walk off if i had enough.. and i already am having enough... i know i should be blogging abt this but who cares... im already losing myself.. i lost my brother, my best frens... my frens.. wat more to loss... i had enough... really... its getting too personal... too personal...

wat for hide all these emotions... and be the puppet slave? do i have a choice? i don think so... who uds? WHO? well.. onli i do... alone in this world... life has been so.. will be so.. and hope will nto be so... my future looks ruin.. by tat one responsibility tat grew..

this is back to his busi self.. now even mroe busy then ever... haha... TIM AR TIM!!! wat a sad life u have.... sometimes i wish i had more time...
i have so much to do... and ppl who are damn free keep ADDing more things for me to do... i already try my best to gif others le.. but they also alot of thigs to do ma... how how how? i need everyone to co operate... yes! if everyone can don delay.. everything will be much easier... everyone is being squeezed.. and its a vicous cycle.. ur delay will delay others and everyone will get affected...

sometimes i wish i have 10 more hrs a day... like 34 hrs.. btu i think i wil still complain 34 hrs is nto enough... maybe maybe... alot of wat ifs... haha... i can onli say... i brought this among myself... i don blame anyone or myself.. this is anotehr challenge i have to overcome.. once i live thru it.. i grow stronger... i BELIEVE tat i can do it... =) okie.. im self motivating again..

i wan to say also tat... sometimes i be nice... and tat does mean im not aware of things... u can lie to me... i know u are lying but i hope u know wat u are doin.... i hope its all genuine... i jus hope so... i choose to believe so... and don go overboard cuz i may jus explode... and its not goin to be a pleasent sight... tolerance has its limits....

and its 1 more week.. and i hope i will have mre time for other thigns... i must start mugging for my studies... i wan better results... no more slacking... study is my main priority... yes... at all cost... =]

i have been neglecting my frens... i am so busy i carn think of a reply.. i carn meet them.. i have to reject them... i try to meet up.. i am trying... i jus need more time in a day... i don wish to loss any... so heres my sincere apologies if i have neglected u.... GOMENASAI.... dui bu qi... sorry.... i really treasure my frens alot.. they support me when im down... encourage me when i wanna give up... and they try to uds when i have no choice but to reject them....

and the more personal side of me... i really wish to do some things.. but i jus don have the time... im so busy... the amt of time i spend at home awake is not even enough to fully charge my mobile... but some may think... if u prioritise ur time well.. u can do it.. or some might even think... are u sure u are so busy... wat can i say... i don have time to care abt it... i have decided to give up on certain things for the bigger picture.. the personal side has to wait... i really have no time.. thou for the past few years.. i have put it aside.. this is another one of those countless time im setting it aside.. i jus hope things will get better.. and i will have more time... time time time.... if there is a time machine tat can stop time... i want it... i need it.... at least get some rest.... i am so tired.. so slpy... i rush everywhre... i think abt everything even in my slp... i can even dream of ans... omg... i NEED A BREAK...

ok... tim... now u speak part of it... its time to slp.. tml is anotehr day... challenge... take care... u can do it... lets wish tat i will not be sick tml again... u can do this... yes u can.. i know u can.. and yes i can... =)

*really no comments... hais... dumdum is really dum... so much i carn say... one day.. its gonna explode... *

こんばわ。おげんきですか？
わたしは　ちむです。
どおぞよおしく。。。。

えと。。。

so how has life been? like tat lo.. so bored.. so lifeless... haha... im so SIAN of everything... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . so monotone...
i jus feel like staring into blank space... wats the motivation in waking up everyday? nth.. haha.. oh well... so sian.. . . . . . . . ... . .. . .. . . . . . hais.... sian sian sian ar sian sian sian.... . . . . .. . .. . .typing nonsense.... . . . . . . . . .

byebye

*わたしのdumdumです。。。＊

aren't they so cute? thanks for all these cheery pictures... =)

sometimes i wish things were different.. but things wont change so jus live with it... =]

*hais... mydumdum.... my dum dum.... mydumdum... my dum dum*

Control and tolerance is the key word for today

*how? same old sentence.. so much to tell u*

yet another day...

jus abit more.. hang in there.. =)

sometimes i jus don understand why things happen...

day in day out worry this and tat...
so busy.. i am like having a full day work.. after tat go for band... then rush home to teach homework.. hais... after tat still got my other work to do... trying very hard to multitask already.. but jus seem to not have enough time... i sometimes jus feel like quiting evrything... don care... jus relax and enjoy.. is anyone else more busy then me? hais! HATE IT.. its worse when other ppl are not being helpful at all... maybe i shd be more selfish..

cuz of this.. i have been losing myself.. i no longer have control over wat i do.. i act like a lunatic.. wat happen to the old me? wheres the happi little boi.. why do i now have to take all those remarks, comments, responsibilities... sometimes being a kid is such a bliss.. so carefree.. so peaceful.. ignorance is a bliss... i wan a break.. i need it.. before i go mad... which i think am 80% mad already...

wat if one day i totally loss myself... will i get admitted to IMH? will i still know who i am? who will rmb me.. who are the true frens.. who cares? who understands?

life has alot alot of question marks.. the optimistic comments and self encouragement seem to have numb off... none of which is helping.. no longer... like a drug overdose.. useless...

if there is a time machine.. i would like to not have alot of things.. sometimes u just feel like u are in all these alone... everyday is jus another day of torture... so busy.. so tired.. i don even have time for myself...

=(

=]

tim is so tired... AGAIN...

but today at least i met up with frens who i haven met in a long time.

*mixed emotions.. =)? or =(? *

tim is so tired.


*i have so much to tell u.. but i don know how... *

hello everyone.. im too lazy to upload other images.. lol..

so the exams are over... like yay! now having my attachment =). so it has been 9 - 6 for 5 days a week. and will be for the rest of the 9 weeks.. so tired.. so squeezy! stupid morning and evening rush hour...
『４９-５＝４４日』がんばてい！

anyway...
friday met up with ilah and halif. walk ard douby area... lol.. ilah bought us donuts for valentines day.. omg.. sweetness... haha.. so we got no where to go.. so we sat at the sofa outside cathay and ate our donuts.. which reminds me of the times where i will walk aimlessly ard with my fren cuz we got nth better to do... sit anywhere and everywhere and chat till the moon goes blue... haha.. the good old days that are like gone forever... how i wish things were still like tat... haha! fat hope? maybe

yup.. so i spend my day slping... yes... slp slp slp slp slp.. after bringing my bro for a swim.. i came back and slept my life away.. i guess im not alone? almost all my frens were slping too.. must be so tired after exams plus ipp... haha.. oh well.. lets hope i will be stress free longer... thou i know wats coming.. enjoy life now while i can.. and i shall try to blog if i can.. thou tats nth much to talk abt.. haha... maybe at least once a week? =) alrighto.. tats all for now... byebye everyone...



-TiM-

*心ぞの人は、どなたですか？　today i dream of u while i was slping.. i dreamt tat we were like before.. so close... i guess i really missed u... hows everything goin? we've not talked for weeks... take care... =)*

today was a long day... i didnt get to study... oh well...
anyway... i guess i have decided on"it"... somehow i think i have to reconsider it... =/ anw... so stress.. >.<

everyone see this.... someone actually drew this to cheer me up... who in this world would actually do this for u? are u jealous? lol... ya.. how many will do this for me... on msn... u know how diff it is to draw? like wow... i wish everyday will be so nice... haha.... hao jiu mei you ren hong wo kai xin le...
tml is study day... anyway.. im attached to Daimler South East Asia Pte Ltd... haha... Mercs again... yup... =) proj and ipp... like bonded... =]

-TiM-

*will u do tat for me? ni you hong guo wo ma? hao xi wang shi ni... hai*

so many things to consider...

wat shd i do...

where are u...

anyway.. morning meeting wit han... =/ then today went out with wen and da.... rot at the salon so long.. cuz ww rebond her hair... but nvm la... then went yishun eat potato.. not bad... its quite nice... then met jolene for dinner... then erm.. home...

tml need to do alot of things.. call han, study.. funeral... thurs also alot of things.. hai.. so stress... exam ar exam.. can u postpone abit later?

*i dono wat to do now... where are u*

i shd blog b4 i get hit on the head tml.. lol..

hmm.. life is busy.. and i realise sth.. no matter how i clean my house... end of the day will be dusty again.. so irritating eh.. i spend 2 hrs a day sweeping, mopping, wiping, cleaning.. omg.. then dirty again... =( omg.. anyway... EXAMS COMING!!!!! AHHHHHH

im so stress.. my face got a bit more dou dou le... =( so sad!!!! i today try to study... but haven 1 chapter i wanna die already... aiyo... i need more motivation...

anyway... i spent 400 ytd... T.T i feel so poor now... ahhhh.... i shd start saving for my overseas trips now... again... lol...

jyjy ar... study study.. don say die.. later twin will hit my head...

-tim-

*i didnt wanan blog but this is for u... wat happen to u? are u okie? im so worried abt u... =( do u rmb wat i said? anything or everything or nothing also can come find me de... FYI, nth went wrong between us... if u know who u are... hai yo.. i wan talk to u de.. but i scared.. dono wat to say.. worried sick =(*

in less then 18 hrs... it will be concert... in abt 23 and 1/2 hrs.. it will be 19 jan... haha... wat if wat i dream of came true? haha...

so wat did i dream of... carn really rmb... but i remember so vividly.. i saw 1111 inside... so is it goin to be 1111 on 18 jan? or 1111 on 19 jan? or wat? i have mixed tots man... haha.. anyway.. tml concert.. JJYJY.. don nervous okie... =) u can do it... smile!

today i rested at home.. im almost fully recovered already... good good... =) haha... being happi is the best way to recover..... nua-ed until so song.. i slp alot also.. anyway.. tml gotta wake up so earli... =( hai... but nvm... jyjy.. its onli 5 am in the morning.. =) u can wake up de... lols.. im so blogging nonsense... maybe this is the last post... haha...

alright.. shall blog again.. somehow...

-TiM-

*was it really like tat? hmm.. wat if i really disappear tml.. im so scared... i dare not tell u.. cuz i know u don like it.. hai... im still hoping u know.. lols.. thou i told u the opp ans.. oh well.. jyjy ba... u happi is the most impt 33*

so tired so tired...

currently waiting for my hair to dry... then i can go slpslp... yeay! im kinda sick... and i skipped lecture today.. how sad... but sick ma.. wat to do.. haha... self denial... anyway... today had my HR presentation... i tink it was kinda lame.. but not tat bad la... shd pass.. hee... and sad case.. my HRM ICA 1 like nv do so well... so sad! but i pass la.. no A =(...

after class, met up with lala to pass her tickets... sorry eh.. cannot pei u wait for kai kai.. dono how u rotted jus now.. haha... my sisters and lif dated me for lunch.. =x and ya... we went KFC... tsk... sick still eat KFC... blame on my lif lif... he wan eat.. haha.. but it was quite shiok la.. =x but then ~~Memories~~ haha... emoed for like 2 mins.. then back to the self denial self... haha.. so optimistic rite... =)

went back to sch and virtually rotted my time away.. i tried to slp but so uncomfy.. it was kinda noisy too.. lol.. but i bet i looked damn unglam jus now... im imaging myself slping in those position.. ~ had pract.. it was cold... then hot.. then cold... Zzz siao siao eh...

anway... thanks for all the nice nice get well soon care and concern showered onto me... =) haha.. thanks ^^

im goin to prepare for bed already... and ya! my nose and lip is red and burning.. so pain! sister say look like luve luve bite.. -.- its pain! ~~

-TiM and his nonsense... yeay! no more proj for now.. *rejoices* -

*today hong ghee pass me some medicine lo... how i wished it was you.. i think eve if u say one get well soon.. don need medicine also next day okie.. haha.. mad.. self deception.. self denial.. i know its impossible.. but im still one siding.. cannot stand myself... tsk... love is such a complicated thingy - - - luv dumdum - - - *

AHHH.. im sick again...

my left arm is so pain... =( dono wat happened.. i cannot straighten it... how am i goin to bring my laptop tml? =/ currently having sore throat and abit of cough... =( y ar.. concert coming then sick... -.-

today.. is a very very very sian day.. things like super go against me... but wat can i do... jus accept it... im so sad... my jap role play... i kinda forgot some of my lines.. sigh... sorry to my grp mates... didnt meant for tat to happen... sorry... thou u don blame me but i blame myself... -.-

everything seems to be jus a wasted effort.. first and foremost... marketing... still haven gotten over tat proj.. then results... the input so much.. output like shit... -.- try so hard stil like tat... can die ar! today i woke up earli.. skip lecture jus to pract my jap... but in the end.. too nervous... or i shd say distracted... i forgot... even when i do things for other ppl... seem to be jus a wasted effort...

anyway... today my mood not good.. so when to find my fren after setting up the stage at the audi... ya.. my hand hurts but i still helped out.. don scold me... i jus wanna do it... zi zhao de rite.. now the hand cannot even straighten.. Zzz.. pei him pract his french role play.. got bored and started folding things... and i folded like this super small crane.. its smaller then a 10 cent coin.. lol

oh well.. tats all for now i guess... im very very very tired...

-TiM-

*the pain tat no one sees... why does this have to happen to me.. why me.. carn u jus even say like a nice sentence jus to cheer me up.. -.- *

oh how sad!!!! i got a C for my bfin proj.. ARGH! hate it... =( y ar.. Y Y Y!

anwyay.. i got a B for my Law Proj.. ok.. not tat bad.. btu i wanted an A...

and i got A for my marketing individual proj ... which is GOOD=)

tml is japica.. i haven even memorise the script.. DIE... really die liao... tml is goin to be a long and busy day for me... jyjy...

*i damn miss u can... AHHH... can i jus text u "eh.. dumdum, i love you"... life is so hard to pass lately... *

actually i don wanna blog one... but here goes

i don like ppl to watch me and qn me... i feel like a criminal.. invaded... anyway... if u have probs, i listen.. i have nv once felt u were annoying... so u don have to say sorry for disturbing me... and another thing is tat sometimes u say things that don make sense... like i always say.. is it worth it.. why would u wanna care so much... ppl try so hard to cheer u up... and there u go... no one cares... it gets tiring at times.. and i have given up...

i have to care abt the welfare of others.. aside from mine... i try so hard.. but, everything seems to be my fault in the end.. i don uds why... if u are my fren.. should u be trying to help me instead of adding on? i really don uds... have i been used? like always.. USED... hai... when will this ever end... im gona be tat self reliant self sufficient guy again... 1 boi, 1 life, 1 self....

anyway... i have been reminded of the embedded word since 2005... am in a super bad mood now... im not goin to say much.. tak care all.. byebye

*so near yet so far... life have since became monotonous*

lets talk abt wat happen this 2 days.

wednesday.. i became a superman... ICT presentation at 9am, then i requested to go first cuz i gtg.. haha.. and yea.. i finish at 920? but my group like do abit wrong eh.. hope everything will be fine... hope won get lousy marks... thanks group for all ur hard work.. and helping with the editing.. sorry i gtg earli...

okie.. so 920 ended... i like walked super fast to the mrt.. my legs almost broke... took a train to cityhall... rushed to esplanade... reach at 1005... superman... my leg cramped halfway while walking to esplanade... =( stupid legs.. lousy... production meeting was okie... but so paiseh.. i was late... =( had lunch with the ppl who went... Dr Goh, Alvin, star, aidil, hong ghee, allan. initially wanted to go back sch find halif, but he nv reply my sms... so i changed plans.. i wanted to go home to slp.. cuz i was slpy.. but sister carol jio me go DMJ (Da Ma Jiang).. lol.. okie.. i agreed.. but when i reach home.. i feel like slping seh!

ok, so i was late.. i fell aslp ma.. =x meet jj, carol, ryl, whit, and reen reen.. went jj hse for dmj session.. haha.. i accidentally wont abit more chips then carol.. then u can see ryl complaining in the tag board... but it was fun.. and i was quite lucky? always the last card of the game... then i hu... haha.. they wang me... =x after tat.. went to sch for pract with reen reen.... didnt had dinner.. after pract went s11 at amk with ZZ and jolene... reach home late...

Thursday...
i woke up earli to do the schedule for open house... then went to sch.. at interchange ilah smsed say shes sick... aiyo! nv tc.. tsk.. get well soon okie.. halif also sick le.. how can... my brother sick.. tsk... nv tc.. tsk... take care ar.. smile more okie... haha.. happi little kiddos.. anyway, tiff smsed and ask if wanna postpone... after much tot.. we decided to cancel.. so i took a bus home.. at the stop i alight i saw my mum.. caught up with her and pei her to hg mall.. ate... then i made a new pair of glasses.. its like SO EX =( im broke again... but im happi.. spending is my happi drug... xD

went home.. i went clean frenzy again.. i went to pack my clothes.. i realise tat i have alot alot of clothes tat i have not wore... and they are yellow already... so off they go... bye bye... some are still clean.. so i put them aside.. i don like them anymore.. lol... see who don mind, pass them.. so wasted lo, if i throw.. so ex.. =( i shd not buy so much clothes... again.. while packing.. i found alot of other things.. i found many boxes... many bottles... filled with star, turtles, hearts, double hearts, letters, cards, presents, pics, cranes.. which icarn resist but to read them all again.. -.- yes.. i read them all.. there were nice memories.. but i emoed again.. the pics, letters, memories =(

oh well.. tml got HR proj meeting.. then open hse.. hope everything will be fine.. =)

-TiM-

* i miss you i miss you i miss you so so so much... dum dum... looking at them, i tot of the past... but then u are my present.. and i wanna be with you more... its rather impossible anyway.. shd slap myself awake.. stop dreaming.. how many days which seems like eons have i not seen u =/*

+Have i used up all my luck?+

i really wonder wat when wrong.. lets go down the list... i have been pretty tied up with everything... im so busy busy... =( really busy.... did i use it all up already? or have i mistakenly gave it away... onli i know...

last friday was marketing submission.. i tried my best to make it as perfect... i did not slp alot... like 2 hrs for thursday? why is it tat i still left out some points.. nvm... friday i went to print... i skip lect jus to print... 1) i printed 2) i binded 3) i forgot to print some appendices 4) i reprint at IT block.. 5) i left my 2 thumbdrive there cuz they are attached tgt.. 6) i forgot abt it... 7) i realise more errors 8) i carn find my thunb drive... 9) i stayed back to print and edit 10) i press sth wrong and my data jus printed and printed... i spent $7 plus on waste paper.. -.- 11) i didnt eat... 12) i feel like dying... 13) i dono y im so distracted maybe im really missing u badly

nvm... wat a day rite.. weekends, tired my best to make the proj possible.. my group members helped... but but but.. i still didnt slp alot... trying to make things good and reasonable... lack slp de me.. arrange to reherse with shareen at 1130 cuz she got MMLee performance at 12... nvm.. no time to eat... then later print print print... things went wrong.. nvm... meet the rest at 1, some where late.. reherse.. not enough time... nvm... went to class... and shitty irritates me.. nvm... then hungry me.. trying to make everyone feel less nervous, entertains them.. presentation, everyone overtimed.. my group was the last... 1) sch comp don have my font type.. it was screwed... 2) we tried to present faster... 3) some lect came in and chase us halfway while we were presenting.. 4) my lect interrupted us and skip many parts... 5) cut cut cut.. so much... im so sad... all the hard work my group has put in like gone down the drain.. wat seem to be a almost perfect marketing plan with the most asthetically prestige designs wasnt presented... wth... all the sleepless nites.. all the effort... washed down... thanks...

i have 2 icas tml... starting at 8 am... finance and efma... i feel so tired.. but concert is nearing.. i feel the need to attend.. i went... now im back... im so tired... hungry cuz i nv ate a proper meal the whole day.. onli a pack of my favorite panda panda.. sitting here, thinking... wat else do i have to do...

1) sinfonia booklet (band)
2) sinfonia production meeting (band)
3) open hse... excuse letter blah blah (band)
4) finance ica (sch)
5) efma ica (sch)
6) ict Proj (sch)
7) HR proj (sch)
8) jap test next week which i haven got the script (sch)
9) finish packing the hse
10) alot alot other things... personal stuff.. other stuff.. =(

im so tired of everything.. y must i entertain them.. i was so sian 1/2 i left almost immediately after pract today... didnt wan to see anyone... i tried to act normal.. maybe they were jus normal... jus i was too sensitive...

and to you.. i have so much things to tell u... but i dono how to say... i feel like jus slping and not wake up...

and ppl ppl are not helping by keep changing things.. like the data for the booklet.. its damn confusing.. so wat is it that u wan.. maybe i shd jus QUIT! and leave.. i have said this again and again.. i wanna leave.. but im still here... its ok.. jus abit more.. bare with it... i can do it.. i won die b4 sinfonia... let jus hope things go well.. if ppl attitude me.. so be it.. i don wan to care anymore... its time i have more time for myself... i need some slp.. some rest.. a vacation.. a break....

bye, i don feel like typing anymore...

*dumdum, where are u... how was ur test... i wanted to msg u but i don think u wanna read it.. oh well.. everything is not going tat well.. wat happened... i feel like talking to you.. but i dono wat to say.. i see you, thou u nv talk to me.. but im also contented... hai.... i really dono wat i writing le.. i give up... im so confused now... wat are u to me... are u tat impt to me?*

2009 is here~
happi new year all... haha... hope u guys have a joyous and merry new year...

hmm, new yr resolution? i dono leh.. haven really tot abt it...
1) be more hardworkin?
2) be a nicer person?
3) save more money?
4) spend more with with my family and frens?
5) better time managment...
6) be happi little boi... but be matured when needed
7) love u even more?
8) learn and care more abt u?

anyway... marketing proj is coming to an end.. like FINALLY! it this goes on any longer.. i think i will die soon... =( so nonsense... so much to do.. argh.. lets not ask y... anyway... ict is almsot done too.. yeay! we are efficient.. =) presentation for google reader was a breeze? i haven got to say anything and he went like.. okie.. next group.. then i huh?! i haven talk leh.. he say no no, its done already.. then we all, o.o oh ok lo.. haha.. next week 3 ica.. efma, bfin and ICT presentation... =( gotta prepare for JAP test too... and HR proj.. AR!! busy.. and SINFONIA.. and the many other things... =( i need more time...

halif and carol still doin marketing nw lo.. poor them.. tml i will see zombies.. jyjy ar! faster finish... lets not ask y are they so busy now... u know i know we know can already... jus like i say "tell me y am i doin all these again?" hopeless....

my back is super aching... now its the right shoulder blade... =( i dono wat happen! i need to find time to do alot of things leh... seee a doc, get my specs made... alot alot other things.. =( so busy!

anyway.. lets jyjy! haha... hor shareen and halif... JY!

-TiM-

"i'll be back so soon u won't have time to miss me. look after my heart,i've left it with u" will u be so sweet to say tat sentence to me? i miss you like 24/7... and you don even know.. lol... i shd stop all these... i think i think...

hello everyone... was away and busy so nv blog... haha
im gonna be busy again so won blog tat often...

SCHOOL starts TML! like.. ARGH! i haven enjoyed my hols yet... lol
hols have been proj proj and more proj... a 3 day chalet... and boredom... there was one day i went out with my bro... tats like tat only time i kinda enjoyed myself... the rest were like, PROJS! . . .=.=

chalet was normal... nth much... haha... i missed the BBQ! like how can i rite... busy typing report in the chalet... till when i finally went down.. there was like.. hmmm... NTH left... lol! dum dum me... but someone brought me some satays from downstairs.. THANKS =)

well.. lets hope for the best.... sinfonia is coming... jyjy... hectic schedule..

-TiM-

*u nv come... so long nv see you! miss you so so so very the much... ni hai ai ze wo ma? hao xiang ba xin li de hua dui ni shou.. ke shi jiu shi kai bu liao kou*

busy busy... proj is like a killer killing my almost killed brain... everything has anything possible but impossible is more of a norm...

when will i get a break! tsk!.... oh well.. time to start working hard ba...

this few days dono is it the weather or is it jus me... but ain feeling as well as i shd be... same old probs visiting during the proj thinking process... nonsene... nonsense... time to stop crapping and start grabbingggg timeeee....

*even jus a word of concern would be so useful now... ytd was a disappointing day... im ill! floating.... ~ ~*

おはよございます！
おげんきですか？

haha, life has been a bore of projects and more projects... anyway.. lets go down the days~~

Sunday
initially supposed to go zoo with sarah, shuwen, mabel<3Weisong, brian and marcus... but was raining so change to kbox... okie they can really sing! and dumdum me onli know 2 songs... lol! time for a revolution! after tat shu and mar left early cuz they had sth on... rest of us ate at the market and home~ oh ya, my char kway tiao sucks...

monday
nth much happened today... marketing project~ ya.... but my members like very scared me like tat... am i tat roar!? haha... anyway... went for a haircut... ok la.. not tat bad... looks ok... but i still think i wan it shorter!

tuesday
Hr project... saw yc and yh in north canteen.. chat alittle then proj... went amk hub to do proj... needa observe ntuc fairprice Xtra HR thingy... ended up shopping! as usual... then then.. nth le lo..

wednesday
went out with ah kent, shihua<3jeremy...>

thursday...
i didnt wake up today at my 1111 timing... jojo la.. tsk! call me at 1107.. tsk! anyway.. gonna pei him for movie.. if not he 1 person very sian... hmm... evening got band... 4 plus then meet jingjing... heee and yeay! today shall be my sims2 day! wahaha!

okie... craps and more craps and enough craps.... さゆなら！

-テーイモシ-

*yet again, im trying to give up on u le... hai... hidden feelings tat no one knows*

updates updates.

yeay! holidays are here.. but i got 4 projects! omg! holidays are so gonna suck.. >.<>

ytd went JJ's hse for mahjong with carol and shihua... lol.. not bad ar.. i learn to play with tai.. max i got is 8 tai! woo... so fun.. but nv play with money la... then they left and i slack and played sims 2.. haha...

oh oh... ICAs are over, i got 31/35 for EFMA! yeay.. and i got full marks for my wiki proj! yeay! and lets see... overall for ICT i got 80 plus % = dist.. haha.. better keep this up.. i wan at least an A for everything.. haha... got reward ma?

hmm.. i think im starting to crap again.. haha.. so many things to buy.. i need a new pair of glasses, a new hp, itouch, more clothes and hmm... more money to squnder away.. lol..

thursday! twilight! haha... yeay.. im so lame...

ok.. gtg prepare to go to sch for band le... later still got meeting.... ~~ got the wan to go yet don wan to go feeling... lol

-TiM-

when am i goin to see u... u seem so near yet so far.. what am i to you... i have been hiding so hard.. but even my frens saw thru my mask... and halif said this to me.. without knowing who you are...

[If u are destined to be together, no matter how much you resist, you will still end up together -halif]

hello everyone, its been so irritating.. lets see wat i did ytd....

woke up super earli dispite tats nth to do.. then like.. rot my day away...
bored... evening time got so bored i decided to go msia to shop.. yup.. went with sis... its so irritating! so many ppl... some are so STINK!! omg.. then inconsiderate ppl... cut our queue still act like shes correct.. its like... shes such a disgrace to her race... i shall not mention is who lo... the check in is so long and slow... =/ by the time i offically can shop, its like 7 already.. but nonetheless.. ishop like no need money again.. haha.. bought some tops and a present... =)

reach home at like 12 plus? chit chat awhile and slept... oh ya.. my specs broke~ omg =( time to get a new one.. when i got the time... so its lens for now... hopefully my eyes can take it... haha.... and shd i get omnia ? dono wat phone to get... sian!

now gonna find some work to do ma... tml holiday! yes!

-TiM-

*were u refering to me tat time? i really don mind being with you... 愛している*

こんばわ！　おげんきですか？

hello everyone... past few days was a terror... =( haha.. but things are goin on.. woo! alumni performance was not tat good.. lol.. all come, nv tune nv warm up jus sit and play.. and.. haha..not very nice la.. haha.. but i believe the band has potential.. jus new more synergy and practs.. =D

its been a week since i went for NYPSO pract... kinda miss it thou... and i still got 1 more week without band pract... i wonder how am i goin to survive..

sch work was kinda a terror.. alot alot to do.. alot alot to memorise.. and i have no time.. haha.. i slp everywhere i go man... everywhere! bus, toilet, lecture, tut, even i can fall aslp while eating halfway.. -.- must be the TV.

im so crapping in my post... and i wanna watch my show! faster holiday can? and i wanna go out with my fren! fren.. ya fren... not frens... -.- craps..

anyway... shall think of wat to blog soon... enough crap..

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Checklist
=Studies=
ICT ICA = GONE
HRM ICA = GONE
Business Finance Project = 65%
Business Law Project = 50%
EFMA Project = 60%

=Band=
Blazer = 80%
Sinfonia 09 = 2%
2 weeks no you = 10 more days

=Others=
Bill ($142) = 20%
Find a Financing Job = 0%
Spend time with you = dono, carn even see you lo

=Key indicators=
Efficiency Level = 40%
Kiddo-ness = 93%
Missing you = 99%
dying to see you = 100%

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haha... i slack the whole of today can... i have been slacking.. slp and eat and slp... -.-... and die... my phone is dead le... my # key is dead... no hp... =( plan still long way to 21mths... lol... no comments...

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Checklist

=Studies=
ICT ICA = 0%
HRM ICA = 0%
Business Finance Project = 30%
Business Law Project = 0%
EFMA Project = 20%

=Band=
Blazer = 80%
Sinfonia 09 = 2%
2 weeks no you = 15 more days

=Others=
Recover my lost items = 2%
Bill ($142) = 20%
spend time with Frens = 5%
Find a Financing Job = 0%
spend time with family = 20%
Spend time with you = dono, carn even see you lo

=Key indicators=
Efficiency Level = 10%
Kiddo-ness = 93%
Missing you = 99%
dying to see you = 100%
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-TiM-

*lets go back in time, spend those days again.. thou theres no title no nth.. but we were happy*

ICA AND PROJECTS X(

aiyo.... alot alot... =( no time... mon tue wed got alumni... wed got concert.. wed got ict ica, thursday got HRM... aiyo!

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Checklist

=Studies=
ICT ICA = 0%
HRM ICA = 0%
Business Finance Project = 30%
Business Law Project = 0%
EFMA Project = 20%

=Band=
Blazer = 80%
Sinfonia 09 = 2%
2 weeks no you = 16 more days

=Others=
Recover my lost items = 0%
Bill ($142) = 0%
spend time with Frens = 5%
Find a Financing Job = 0%
spend time with family = 10%
Spend time with you = dono, carn even see you lo

=Key indicators=
Efficiency Level = 32%
Emotional Stability = 50%
Mental soundness = 50%
Kiddo-ness = 80%
Missing you = 99%
dying to see you = 100%
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omg... as u can see... haha.. im not very free....

-TiM-

*i wanna see you, can we go back in time?*

PROJECTS = MADNESS

siao siao... so many projects and icas... =( like nv ending leh... omg... so much to do... !!! sian.. see, november sickness.... can nv get it away from me... 3 yrs of the same thing... hate it... no more band pract for me for 2 weeks... =( i think i can die... like no food for me like tat.. anyway.. next week goin back to sec sch for alumni band... hai hai hai... dono how will it be like... oh well.. hope for the better.... i dono wat to talk abt le le... blog post ends here...

*im thinking of you!!! i miss u!!!! hai! do u feel the same for me? or is it only me....*

mini PotLuck

haha... halif and i decided we shd reward ourselves for the many ica and projs... so he decided to make brownie and i make origini!... haha... and we extended the outing to our classmates... haha...

lotsa food!!! got nuggets, wedges, chips, twistis.. brownie, onigiri, cookies...haha... all very nice... and i think everyone enjoyed themselves... right? haha...

lol... we shd have more of this... soon... wooo...

got home and got bored... slept.. .woke up.. chat with meizi... and she entertained me with this qn.. wats the diff with jumping from 20th storey and 2nd storey... haha... ans is below...

haha.. tml goin sentosa.. then go ks concert... woo!... so lame.. i dono wat to blog abt.. haha... =) tats all for now ba... =D

こにちわ！
hello!, haha... im so lazy to update lately...
have been in the procrastinating mood...
watch my drama "恶作剧之吻" till like siao siao...
lets see.. i have law, jap, ict, efma ICA! haha... and i haven study!, let alone do my projects... haha... time to start bucking up le... wake up wake up!

currently in class feeling super bored? haha, new conductor is coming later, wonder how pract will be like.. hope everything goes well... =D gotta welcome him with alvin later.. sian leh.. dono got enough time for dinner anot.

anyway... lotsa funni funni qns for me to ans ar~ 天啊！为什么要的时候就不来。忙的时候一大班！
so sian nehs... haha... oh welll.. lesson ending soon.. shall try to blog soon... byebye!
さよなら！

oh ya! tats this irritating guy in my class... even his voice irritates everyone... haha

-tim-

so stress and so busy!!! ahh, alot alot to do... =(
and so irritating when its so noisy and u cannot think... and so irritating when ppl come and say stupid things... cannot stand ppl who ask alot and ppl who dono when to shut up.. and ppl who dono wat is call coax ppl happi... -.- -.- -.- this symbol very nice meh... cannot use =) meh... anyway, today i nv see my 1111, 11/11 de 1111... sad

shall update soon again ba... feelings so ARGH now.. still got ICT to study and EFMA to do... no need slp, hungry again....

haha... hello everyone... jus a quick post ba.... today i went to do my NE project at Images of Singapore @ sentosa... haha... not bad ar... managed to get my mind off some issues... went with a bunch of pretty girls and 1 guy... haha...

went ard sentosa after visiting it... went to the beach... but no sun.. =( haha... it later on rained... =( oh well.. picnic at the shelter.. =)

See the pretty girls..

eh.... carol!! u also act cute.. cannot say me.. =)

my grp members

the zi pai instints... =)

Picnic?
they went on some ride.. which i cannot sit... =(
SOS smoke signal?
erms... bikini anyone?
group photo inspired by me.. im a good photographer... =)

-TiM-

*i wan you... =( badly... were u implying to me but don dare to say it out?*

lets start with his ba... lol... i think i posted this pic b4 but jus gonna post it again.. =) anyway.. i fixed my bloger prob.. yeay... it was some setting... =)

Sinfonique 08

this was the strings during rehersal


look at mabel on the grand... omg... chio seh... i also wan..=)


anyway.. sinfonique was great... a super big thank you to all the COM members esp logistics QM welfare.... and of cuz the members... =) and HUIMIN!!!! she took care of the stage management very well.. lighten my load alot lo... xie xie ni!!!! =)
thou i was veyr very tired and unwell.. i still manage to enjoy myself...
accidentally cut myself while moving the banner thou.. and the cut is jus nice at the play i hold me flute.. lol.. and theres blood stain on my FLUTE!!! omg... =( thx bro for help my with the plaster... =)


one down.. .and anotehr is here... tanjong pagar performance for MM Lee, 9/11. sunday lo.. omg... busy leh.. and stressed... miss alot of lesson due to band... and alot project leh.. i like dying here.. lol.... lets jyjy ba... okie.. i stop here... =)


-tiM-


*i miss everyone.. esp you*

hello everyone... till date, my blogger is still stuck with this sucky font colour... lol.... anyway... stress ar.. alot to do man.. my left eye twitched for days... ! tsk... shall take it as i not enough slp ba... haha...

TML is concert day le... 大家加油!!! がんばって！

=) tired....

dono wat to blog abt leh... hmm.. busy lately lo... very busy... but also good ar... keep me distracted.... oh well.. lets talk abt today...

currently jus finish helping out with the script... hope its ok.. today lesson at 8am can? omg... and i was such a bitch... i did super bitch stuff like booking seats the bitchy way... lol... and shooing ppl off... omg.. y am i so bitchy today... feeling guilty now.. and ya, im underdressed today.. =( uggly...

band was tiring... today am very busy... and tired... but its good to know that there are ppl who care for u =) esp when its ppl u care alot for... lols...

lets look forward to the concert... =D gambatte...

i dono wat to blog... lols... but still blog la...
sat went for alumni... haha... super not paying attention =x...
and i kinda screw up... oops...

currently craping on msn with charlene..really crapping.. SUPER CRAP!!! CRAPPY CRAPPING.... lols... but it sounded so real lo.. omg... haha...

tml goin shopping.. yeay.. am kinda happi... =)
but my blogger still cannot change font colour!!! =(

eee... y my blogger so much prob one... y i cannot change font colour and all.. Zzz... =(

anyway... today nth much ba.. ended lessons at 11 plus? and ate with my classmates, old and new at south... had ebi curry rice.. ya, i know i cannot eat prawn but.. haha.. ate cheese hotdog, 1 piece of super fat and oily chicken.. and yeay! chocolate milk tea.. but not tat nice leh.. like love my koi cafe... =)

went to meet gene and alicia at cheers... chit chat alittle and went to band room to arrange chairs... had to help help... =) pei benny go mac... then went back lo... rot rot rot... jason came... hafiz came... later the rest came.... lol..

they had orchestra pract... i went self pract with jason and hafiz... i kinda anyhow play.. =x... miki joined soon after... and she is DUMD! she nv wear her shoes and we got locked out.. lol.. had to go first floor to go in.. and i went bare footed.. lol... cuz she was wearing socks... lalala... band... band band band....

after band went supper.. but i still don have any appetite.. so i drank honey lemon.. its was sweet.. abit too sweet but i still like it.. cuz its sweet... =x went home after tat....

tats all for today's boring entry...

*im tired*

super tiring day... almost died... my hip hurts! cuz i kinda fell.. oh well.. nth much le ba... bye...


*im goin thru so much now... are u even aware?*

actually i really dono wat to blog abt one... think think think... everyday blog same thing.. wat i did today.. its like super boring lo.... anyway.... lets still try to blog.....

monday i got news abt my IPP... its in Feb 09, hai.. shd i get my own company? or wat... gotta prepare for WMC also... and theres alumni concert in feb.. and theres sinfonia in jan... like alot leh... =( anyway... i told weixiang tat i will try out for the alumni band.... i dono i can manage anot leh.. alot alot to pract... and sch work.. tsk tsk... u know la... stressed...

sch work... oh well... trying very hard to catch up seh... hmm.. shd be able to.. confident in myself... =) and i finished the week's tutorials already... shall try to finsh up next week's too.. then i have more free time... =)

this few days is totally moodless... ABCDEFG de moodless.... =/ lol, there are times i got tired and i jus take all those stupid comments and remarks.. lazy to shoot them back... wat for... pointless... oh well.. lets look forward to tml.. =)

-TiM-

wat is love... a feeling? a state of happiness? why are the memories flashing back again and again like it was jus ytd... the many heart warming moments.. the emo self mutilation times... the images.. the memories.. when will they die.... deep down inside... the place where it's all hidden... the slit u made... has been garshing out blood for years... when will it heal... when will it stop... time heals... true for others... not for me... i wish i wish... i hope and hope.. it all ends in vain... tired... beaten... saddened...

~SMILE~

thx to all who tried to make me smile... im smiling already =D

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is he smiling?
is he day dreaming?
who is he dreaming of?
wat is he dreaming of?
the ans.....

-TiM-
*the times when emotion takes over*

Stress!

ahh... so stress can.... finance do until @.@ then go do marketing management... Zzz so many long winded qns... kns... i gave up doin some of it... hais.. shall shower and do my jap.. =/ SO MUCH TO DO CAN?! WTH! and the place is so messy! ahhh! spoilt my mood... y don i have my own room... =/ and y is my tep result still not out! ARGH...

anyway... bad mood bad mood... =/ ! y i bad mood still need act happi and take entertain others?! i feel so lazy to reply anyone now... ppl always ask me why don i care more abt them or for them... i feel like telling them, y don u care more abt me instead... its not all abt you you you... tired of everything! rawr! given up being mr nice guy.... wei shen me mei you ren lai hong wo kai xin ne?

-TiM-

*tired liao.. very tired.. pffft...*

>^^> SMILE <^^<

*can u do jus tat?*

Saturday, 181008

woke up at 930... blogged ytd stuff.... cuz i cannot slp liao... dono y... haha... i think i woke up on the wrong side today.... i woke up EMO... haha... rare leh! its tat time of the year again... haha.. anyway... went to sch meeting.. blah blah... i was in a terrible mood.. did lots of stupid actions and made a fool out of myself... and ALVIN... ur VP don have guai pi la... haha.. =x

after meeting went amk... alvin drop us off cuz he was on the way back to change.... its quite funni thou... he drink the herbal tea then spilled on his pink shirt... lol... and i had to finish it cuz someone wanted to pour it away... and alvin haven even drank it... hor jolene... lol... lunch at amk... sub way.. half a sandwich... i totally no appetite... omg.. tmd... bad mood ar.... si bei bad... went to shop for bro's gift...

went admarity sec for the concert... wow... OP juniors very good wor... haha... great job bro... nice conducting! haha... =D after concert, kana forced to eat... lol.. ate double cheese meal... then went home after tat....

no one at home... win liao... super sian... online lo... listen songs... watch jap band music video... chit chat... and now... goin to slp... =)

-TiM-

*hais*

Friday, 171008

lessons at 9, EMFA seems okok ba... Marketing management... wow.. she talk damn fast can.... shes quite funni actually... but shes onli gonna stand in for 1 session. after lessons, went mac for light food... had a double cheese cuz no appetite.

went home... ate again.. cuz mum cooked... abt of fried rice and spaghetti... and i slept... again... like a pig... woke up at 4, showered and went to meet the rest for NUSWS concert... and dum dum as i am, i forgot to bring my ticket and luckily i realise it at kovan.... went back to retrive my ticket from my stack of notes and of i go again...

meet up with jojo, elvin and bro.... jolene joined soon after.. they were hungry... i wasnt tat hungry.. haha... ate a strawberry roll.. but nah... not nice! -.- went VCH and waited for the rest...

concert... Da Capo'08 ok la... not tat bad.... but sitting in tat VCH... many tots flashed in my mind.... things from the montfiesta in secondary sch to the many concerts i attended there and of cuz the ppl i attended with... ahh! also emo-ed! lol... and of cuz.. vienna came into the picture.... i wish we could re-live tat time there again... oh well... jus goes to show... how much i miss it.. =\

supper at mac.. ate double cheese and chocolate sundae... yes... im so not watching my healthy diet... =.= im growing so fat le.... omg... no more caramel frappe and supper for me seh... later out of shape jiu GG...

caught the last few trains home... jolene and her sister came to find me cuz they got no where else to go to ton.. so we set downstairs and rot... chit chat... blah blah... and they asked me if i wanna go for bro's concert tml.. wa, i didnt know... lol... nonetheless, i shd go support him! JYJY!! kambatte!

alright, i admit im jus venting my furstrations here... lol... let me nag la... not like i can to someone now... oh well.. b4 anyone gets bored reading... lets end it here... shall go prepare for meeting at 1245 in sch mac later... ya.. got meeting.... must find time to study man... i wan my As fot the sem..

-TiM-

*its gonna come to a point of chin-cai-ness soon*

Thursday, 161008

today, i realise how stress i am.... haha... lessons as usual... today was HRM... i kinda like this module.. sounds fun.... and i got sabo-ed by halif... module rep... =.= oh well... ok la... shd not be a prob.. =D

lessons ended very earli... like 11.. then we went amk to eat... i ate super alot can... lets see... wanton mee? then you tiao... then share chui quey and chee cheong fan with shi hua... like omg, i ate so much.... but it fills the emptiness... haha... went home and SLP....

got woken up.. very bored... decided to go sch... met france for dinner at hg mall... ate my jap curry rice.. went sch.. they sectionals... i do tutorial... i like dono how do leh.. die le la... finance... =( i need an A... i wan A for everything.... haha... speaking of it, i wan my tep results... ahh!!!! =( so long le still not out... its toturing.... and i still haven finish memorising my hiragana...

band - needa get the name list ready for WMC.. needa send in the application le leh... =( and i forgot abt it... ahh! sorry alvin... next... the thing im incharge of... ok la... not bad... progressing, they finally ans my call.. but how to do it when some ppl don reply ur emails... tsk... next is blazer... oh.. needa get the list done.. who haven make.. must call them up... AHHH... i don like it... so much to do neh... and of cuz.. i need to pract my parts... next week mr tan is gonna like test us... later i cannto play bu shi diu shi wo de lian ar... tsk tsk... but... i think i will survive.. haha... lets do it tgt... JYJY!! woo... P+VP + good committee = POWER... =D

ok la.. i shall slp soon.. tml 9am... =( rush hr again... lalala... i think im hungry again... nitez

-TiM-

*wat is love? i tink im getting to busy for it liao*

Wednesday : 151008

hello everyone.. quick post then slp le.. today nth nth nth.... lesson at 9... kana molested in the bus again.. super packed... hate the morning traffic... had ICT... the tutor quite fun la... end at 11 then went home.... couldnt slp cuz had things to do.... then went back sch for NE which was like at 3... then went to band.. sectionals... couldnt play.. nv warm up.... then went for dinner at north... PRATA... fat seh... then band pract lo...

band was ok ok ba... i realise my vibrato frequency and miki's is similar... GOOD! haha... improvements... sound also okok la... today play until super song! woo~ went mac for supper with hong ghee , france allan and bro =)... onli drank my frappe cuz suddenly don feel like eating... and the first cup got coffee taste then i go change.... wa.. im such a bitch rite.. but then.. no caffine for me.... no choice... haha.. she changed one for me.... haha...

tml start at 9 seh.. Zzz... rush hr again... anyone wanna drive me to sch? ^^v

haha... shd be finish at 11 ba... cuz HR lecture 1 hr... then first tutorial ma.. lesson plan say 1 hr... diao.... go sch 2 hr nia... shall slp at home tml.. then do hw.. then finish up my band work!.... haha... wat shd i wear tml? tml eat wat... sian.... nitez all...

*say you love me*

Tuesday, 141008

was too tired and sian to blog ytd, so here i am blogging now..

tuesday lesson started at 8am! omg... finance was ok... law was... Zzz... i kinda slept in lecture... lol... had jap lessons after tat... the tutor make it sound so cute lo... like must Sa jiao like tat... this is wat she taught us to say...

はじめまして

ha ji me ma-shi te

わたし　Timothy 　です

wa ta shi de su

どおぞ，よろしく

do-o zo, yo ro shi ku

おねがいします

o ne ga i shi ma-su

1　いち ichi

2　に ni

3　さん san

4　よん yon

5　ご go

6　ろく ro ku

7　なな na na

8　はじ haji

9　Q

10　じう jiu

lalala... still got alot more la.... and we must memorise the hiragana... like... OMG!!! so many seh.. i write the xi zhi until sian also cannnot rmb... haha....

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Evening time met the blazer man.. today very little ppl came onli lo... waste time... left at 6 to visit jason at SGH... blazer man gave me a lift to paya lebar... lol... thx! then train down... i walk alone seh... scary... don like hospitals... =D jason is recovering... GET WELL SOON oh!!! =)

-TiM-

*あいしてる [] []*

Monday, 131008

today is the first day of school. i am very very tired! lessons were so so onli lo.... first day got tutorial do already.. and today.. we had a 3 hr break... OMG... waste time... we went amk pizza hut today... like spend quite alot too... haha.. oh well... and it rain.. i was so paranoid lo... i scared my white shorts get stain... =(

went back to sch... bought some notes then went for class.... boring ar... and im so slpy lo... Zzz... lessons ended at abt 530? went band room to deposite my stuff and wait for the others for dinner.. had chicken rice... but im still hungry... nv eat... band was ok... starting sound wa... omg de lo... but progressly got better.... and jerold commented tat i got thick sound when mr tan ask miki to tune to me... wa~ happi seh.. first time ppl praise me... lol... but... more work has to be done... so busy ar!!!! tired leh.

tml lesson at 8... so tired... gonna slp soon... but im so hungry now.. nv go for supper... tml finish at 12.. but gotta rot until like 4!!! omg.. wait for the blazer man... aiyo! shall think of sth to do ba.... ohya... yanhua got me a shirt from hongkong!!! THX girl!!! i like it alot alot... shall post a pic soon.. =)

-TiM-

*silently loving*

*ye shi ze jiu shi wo de ai fa ba.. mo mo de shou ze ni*