reflection

=) many things happened this week... so i relflected...

hmm... heres a quote from my good fren.

"don promise sth that u cannot do. cuz if u break it, the person will be even sadder."

i think its damn true lo... like wat we learn in CRM, nv overpromise the customer. however, go the extra mile and ur customer will feel treasured. i guess i am too nerdy.. im applying everything i learn into life... even when i play games... i will calculate rate of return on investment b4 i decide wat to invest on... oh tim... slaps...

hmm... many things happened maybe cuz i think too much? or i rely too much on others... i have tot thru wat happen... and came to a conclusion of how i wan to resolve it... haha... things will get better ba.. i need to bare with it..=) jy timmie..

.tim

*i wan spend time with u*

Bad Day

today is like PMS day lo..

haha.. everyone is stepping on my toes today...

and i hate waiting... haha..

stupid traffic police department... so slow...

if its restaurant city.. i think they died already...

stupid... until now i still don have my pdl.. how to start learning... uhhhh

i wan to drive soon.. shall be a good boy and hope santa give me a car... =)

tim is thinking too much lately... he needs to do sth... but he dono wat...

sian... wat shd i do tml...?

.tim

*imy*

this feeling feels like 27july09,

outside van gogh musuem at Amsterdam, Netherlands.

don feel like talking... just wanna be alone.

.tim

*when teardrops turn dry*

deep tots

what have the boy been doin today?

thinking and more thinking... have been mood swinging since last nite.

i think alot alot alot... many many tots..

today's a rotten mood day for me...

decided to meet up with some of my frens.. hoping to distract myself...

but i think even more... maybe cuz the subject wasnt there for me...

this was wat i concluded.

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when you are down, whos there for u?

when u need someone the most, whos there for u?

who is the person who really understand u.

who is the person who u can trust.

whos can be your eyes, your ears, your support?

who can you rely on?

many other qns pop out... these are just some...

for 19 years of my life... friends come and go... i lived thru it...

once a while, my little guardian angel appears and walk me thru my darkest times.

and today, when my sunshine and rainbow when on holiday..

the person who i want to be with wasnt there...

i dono how to react now... im back to the old self... its again, me myself and i.

i like to think think think. i like to bottle it up.

sometimes, i just don feel like talking... maybe cuz its beyond words.

and sometimes, its nice to have someone who really uds u to be there for u.

know how to cheer u up.. but today... i saw myself thru. me myself and i.

oh well... emo tots again... tats y i decided to add a rainbow to my blog... hopefully, it cheers me up.

.tim

*where were you?*

Relationships

Relationships,
to me, it revolves around 4 key attributes.
1) Paitence
2) Understanding
3) Trust
4) Maintainance

no matter wat happens in a relationship, one has to be paitent and understanding.. and put oneself in the other's shoes and u'll see why they acted that way. sometimes, in a moment of folly, we may sprout insensitive remarks.. humans are humans, we make mistakes... sometimes selfishness overtakes humanity.. ur frens may become selfish-er.. and all u do is to hate them.. have u tot of why this happen? does the friendship between you over the years mean nth? things happen for a reason, choose not to blame but to solve and support.

Trust is very important. no matter wat are the rumours flying around.. no matter wat u think he or she is doin. u should always trust ur fren. isnt that the way things shd be? why should be believe others and spoilt ur wonderful frenship? lols.. things tat i don uds... rumours are rumours.. see for urself to believe... even if its true, there must be a reason tat it happened.. lols...

so wat if u have a wonderful fren.. if u don maintain it... it will be gone soon... haha... relationship is jus like a balancing scale... its a joint effort to balance it.. gif and take... do unto others wat u wan others to do unto u.. but don expect a return for u will be sad if u do get it.. but if u don expect it and u got it.. it comes as a suprise.. isnt it better? lols...

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many a times we see our frens having probs.. but theres onli so much we can do... haha... oh well.. i kinda dono wat im blogging le..

-tim-

*imyhrtwj...*

Holland! (:

hello everyone...

hows life? heard that its like hot in singapore now... hmm.. its kinda hot ytd too.. but today its quite cold... like aircon lo... abit lower ba.. haha... but still.. we're wearing shorts and all... lols..
hmm... everything here is okok ba... practice eat and practice or shop... theres really nth much to shop for... the majority in the town are like.. elderly... so ya.. nth much lo.... but they have nice scenery.. (:

hmm... actually its kinda tired being a leader... haha.. sometimes u wish u could jus let everything go and like.. be a normal person.. all i wan is jus to be a normal person and enjoy my life... haha... and shittiness lo... so many projs... when im away... and if suay suay i got quarrentined i will die a terrible death... really badly... haha.... oh well.. we'll play by the ear ba... hmm... i miss so many ppl... daddy mummy jiejie didi korkor... my other band frens, my classmates and like frens and my Babyy!!!

hmm.. competition is like in 2 days? omg.. scary eh... JYJY!!! we must get the gold.. haha...

hmm.. tim is signing off le ba.. its like.. my bed time.. 1 am already...

.tim
*babyy... i miss u so much... jus a few more days babyy.... imy ily iwy... (:*

hello everyone.

in a few hrs time. tim will be away... for 10 days.. cut off from singapore communications... tats so sad... so so sad... haha...

i was packing whole nite... and like.. ok.. my luggage like so empty can.. omg.. like i forget to bring alot of things like tat... hmm.. how sia...

anyway... projects are stil hanging.. hais.... how sia! tsk! i don wan to be a free loader... tats so irritating... i don wan to be an irritating burden.. lols..

hmm.. dono wat to write le ba... tats all..

take care eveyrone.. i m goin to miss u all...

*hrtwj, please take good care of yourself! thou we are distants apart... but we're right beside each other.. staring at the same sky*

flying soon

haha... yup... todays is like sat already.. and im flying tml..
and i stil have not packed...

oh well.. haha.. do it later ba...

hmm... ytd i screamed at the band.. lol.. sorry... i think i was kinda worked up ba.... not feeling too well too... hmm...=)

anyway... hope things will go well...

tats all fornow... shall blog again later...

byebye...

*ilyb*

wandering thinking reflector

its been a busy day today...
had sch... but its like as if i wasnt there at all... i nv study.. at all! whole day have been thinking and thinking...

maybe trying ur best is not good enough... theres always 101 things to do... ppl say just keep trying and trying... but sometimes.. u try so hard... but they jus don wan to move! wat shd u do then? i carn possibly give up rite? just keep pushing and pushing...

haha... like... i dono how to say lo... maybe it all boils down to me... im not doin a good job ba... its like... maybe i shd have been firmer and stick to my initial plans... wouldnt cause so much trouble for everyone.. and now im like, goin to cause sth bad to happen... wat if nv get it? its in my hands tat this has happen... i need solutions... how how how... talking and motivating jus don work.. go the hard way? how hard shd it be.. the limit? not much time left... there onli so much u can do now... PLEASE let things be better... im running out of brain cells le... i don wan to freak out in the middle of the nite again.. i don wan to be paranoid... i want to trust them! they can do it.. yes they can! i shall give it another shot! i trust i believe.. when u believe it, u will see it...

5 more days... wat shd i do.... what do i have to do... wat will i do...

haha... u know... my stomach is so pain now i can sit up straight... and guess wat... my nose bleed... LOL too heaty le ba... shall drink more water...

*i wan to tell u but i don wan u to worry... its jus like tat [ ] u see... carn be put into words*

hello (:
today is saturday... like in 1 week's time i will be byebye in the plane le... haha.. well.. the pass few days was quite hectic as expected... alot to do alot alot to do... hmm... ytd sth bad happen... and i panicked... and like left abit earlier.. i think i was like white face red eyes? scary... haha.. fortunately i had wonderful exco who i can trust...

oh well.. today i woke up at 645? haha... then slp then wake then slp.. till 11? woke up use comp.. eat lunch and do my entre website... more or less done le ba... =) its simple.. hope its ok ba.. haha.. lalalala... tim ar tim... u still got alot more projects to do and test to study hor hor.. rmb rmb.. list them down..

EnIR
CRM ICA 3
CRM ICA 4
WHP
HBO
HRD
Entre

i don wan to be a free loader hor! i wan do my part! roar!!!! but im gone for like 2 weeks.. with no internet!!! aiyo! how how how!!!! i must do sth abt it... think! tim think!!!!

oh ya... next week everyday band.. onli tuesday free but ya.. end at 6... haha.. not much of a rest day... think i will go practice my part ba... hmm...
oh ya.. thursday 16th july.. FTT 415... haha.. haven even touch the book.. DIE! haha... and yes... i still gotta pack my lagguage! omg... omg omg omg.. haha... siao ar...

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its been a mth of ups and downs...

but im happy abt it..

i see my rainbow from afar...

its a journey i choose...

i live it.. the way i wan.. (:

happi 1 mth babyy.

.tim

yet another sleepless nite

haha! yes.. yet another slpless nite! omg! can feel the weight of my eye lids..
ytd was a hectic day... rush ard.. hmm.. u know.. for the first time... i fell aslp during CRM Lab! omg.. first time! haha... its either the video is boring or im jus too tired... haha.. i think its cuz im overworked... haha...

hmm.. sch ended at 6, rushed for dinner at koufu... the tasteless tom yam ramen.. think my taste buds decided to slp first.. haha.. rush to band room.. like make sure everything is taken care of.. haha.. u know.. ppl talk to me.. its like left in right out? i cannot uds or absorb... OMG... first time.. oh well..
so yup.. i ran between band room and business block.. rushing my project and multitasking at band... haha.. i almost rolled down the stairs... almost... but nv.. =)

my friend got me brownies... its very very very nice okie! really... can feel the love... it got me thru the night ok... till now.. im still munching on it.. =) my motivation.. xD mad mad me... hmm.. went to macs after band and reach home like 1 am.. then chiong the stupid proj... hate it!

Hmm... i shd go prepare le ba... sch at 9.. omg! haha... so much to do.. so much to bring.. and im so slpy...

-zombie timmieboi-

*thanks for being there! -muacks! =)*

more time?

hello...
im back again.. just got home? and think i don need to slp le ba...
projects.. and more projects... hate it...

im flying in 2 weeks... i really have not enough time... schedule clashing... its been almost a mth... haven got a proper one... haha.. i kinda sad... hmm.. maybe one shd learn to listen harder? things loss it's intended meaning when its repeated.. like a joke.. first time is funni.. say a few more times.. it becomes lame... haha...

i really dono wat im thinking... im always on this roller coaster of ups and downs... now im at the down again... wat shd i do? wat am i really thinking? the mind is but an organ... a simple yet complicated one... its kinda having a war now... today is a war day for me... and sneeze sneeze.. its cold...

1 word for me... upset...

tim is signing off to shower and do his proj.. not planning to sleep.. so if u see him, please leave him alone... ty...

-timmieboi-

*i really dono wat to do already*

life is a learning journey

life is a learning journey...
we are learning everyday... today i learnt more about you.. thanks for being there... thanks for understanding... we're both learning... more abt you.. and more abt me... actions speaks louder then words.. but words are easier to understand... it takes time... i dont know everything.. if you dont tell me.. i'll nv know... jus like if i don tell u, u'll nv know.. so let's talk when we shd... haha... im happi really.. im glad theres u... the telepathy.. the co-incidence... they are unexplainable.. but i only know.. i have tat 5 words for u... with a left bracket and a colon....

-timmieboi-
*hrtwj... you're my sugar rush... (:*

konnichiwa...

today is a sunday... but i don feel sunny at all.. lol..

ytd went for NP concert with miki, denise, kesha and leon...

we saw fireworks during intermission... =) hmm... after tat wanted to go tou hua de.. but kesha and leon gtg.. so miki denise and me walk there.. like WALK u know.. and its so hot... navigated with gps and denise's brain...

omg... ytd i was totally imageless.... sugar rushed all nite long... talking nonsense... singing and whining.. its so not me! there goes my image... LOL... but ya... how often do u see it... hmm.. got sugar low after tat.. emo... haha.. tim is such a nonsense guy... i think everyone is scared of me like after last nite... "keep away" sign... =x

want to drop at AMK then take bus.. but! my ezlink when cash low... omg... so had to jus train straight to hougang instead... =/ oh well.. went home... wanted to do proj but cant concentrate.... yup.. waited and waited.. then decided to slp at 3?

hmm.. sch starting tml... tuesday presentation... like.. omg... hais... its goin to be a very stressful 2 weeks for me! hopefully i find time to meet up with the ppl i need and must meet... hopefully i rmb to pack my stuff... hmmm... shd be employing all possible help to get thru already ba...

-TiM-

anyway... im upset... haha... ok.. i know i shdnt be but.. im like tat wat.. i get jealous very easily ma.. u also know... then then.. like hais.. nvm la.. i don wan talk abt it le... *silently.. beyond words..*

Plan B

Sinfonique 09 is cancelled.
like omg? all the efforts... the planning.. the sleepless nites... everyone kinda put in so much and its cancelled... like.. SAD! but wat can we do... stupid H1N1... hate it... cause so much probs... SHOO SHOO! go away.. don come back... argh....

pack pack pack.. no concert but still got lotsa band pract in preparation for WMC... 2 more weeks! 2 mroe weeks to finish all my proj.. 2 more weeks to perfect my songs... 2 more weeks... jus 2 more... the last lap...

anyway.. today had montfort band BBQ... not bad la hor.. see alot of ppl that nv saw for quite some time le.. haha... quite fun la.. chat abit..

anyway.. today's mood is a roller coaster... i was home like 10 am? slept alittle.. then did work.. then bbq then find fren then home... i dono leh.. today's mood like abit sensitive? and jus got a feeling like my fren nv do the promised thing.. like have fun then forgot abt it already... and i dono watever im doing is rite anot... oh well... shall not think abt it ba... let fate decide... tim is hungry now.. he shall stop here...

-end of rubbish..-

*hrtwj... hais... forgot? / planned? / sianed?.. i really dono wat u are thinking... hais.. so sad*

im jus wondering wat will happen to someone who don slp alot everyday...
i wonder where is the limit... where is the crumbling zone...
i wonder wat will happen when all thing fails...
i wonder when will it all end
i wonder why i even get myself into it
i wonder if theres a time machine
i wonder i wonder....

i know wat to expect
i know wats to come
i know wats the outcome
i know i know

i do not want
i do not need
i do not seek
i do not anticipate

i need more time
i need some help
i need a break
i need myself and my babyy

oh well... thing are bad.. really bad... time to plan.. and plan again... the signs have to be ignore... don have much of a choice... i'll just let it crumble when it needs too... i'll just do the max i can.. and let fate take over...

-TiM signing off and not blogging for now.... take care all-

*hrtwj... so much to say... but just dont know how... the 3 letters say it all...*

Hello... =)
Im like sitting outside the band room now... haha.. came to sch to do work cuz tot i can concentrate... but like no use ar.. still quite distracted... haha... sot de eh..

anyway.. heres a nice video someone showed me... =)
oh well.. shall try to do work now... =)


*timmie loves his honey red tea with jelly... =)*

[someonesaveme!]

oh well.. things happen for a reason? but wat is it? things haven been going well.. like why why why?

its beyond my control... but can i do sth abt it? im trying very hard to stop it from happening.. but it just.. i cant do work.. carn think... carn focus... i need a remedy...

am i just too stress again? but isnt it term break? ain i supposed to be less stress? maybe theres jus too much to do ba... tim! =] bare with it...

i have to control myself... i have to.. i carn be doing wat i do now... i will go crazy soon... and i hate blood.. worse of all.. i don like to see you pek chek..
things will get better in time... =) smile tim... smile.... =)

[the unspoken]

hmm.. looks like its 1 more week added to term break... doesnt mean less things to do lo.. means more pack actually... haven been eating well or slping well since i got ill... haha... like im hungry now but dono wat to eat...

concert in 2 weeks eh.. omg... and in 3 weeks/ 23 more days im flying.... means i need to finish alot alot of things b4 i fly lo... omg... really omg... like not enough time.. seriously... ahh...

the unspoken... the quiet side... haha.. like no one really understands lo... trying very hard to do everything already but ya, its nv ending... and ppl onli see it as tat section of it but not as a whole... actually i also abit dono wat im typing... haha...

10 days... omg... 10 days leh... haha... think i can control la hor... i'll take it as my challenge... oh wait.. i dono wat im bloggin le... haha.. all the i wan to say de things i cannot say... oh well.. byebye ba.. haha.. blogg rubbish again.. spoil market.. later ppl scold me ar... =x

*unspoken... it will get better in time*

wat do u do when u feel helpless....
u have 1001 things to do.. and u are sick...
wat can u do?
wat can u do when u see ppl ard u falling sick and u cannto do anything abt it...
wat can do u when u have alot of obligations...
the amt of load carried is weighing me down...
all i wan is jus a simple life with my honey red tea with jelly
so diff meh.. haha.. tim moodswinging again.. jus ignore...

*i wan to be with you but i think its best i let u rest.. then u can faster ok... ily... my honey red tea with jelly*

so busy eh....

haha.. so many emails abt proj, gotta start doin them all le...
tim tim.. jyjy... still got concert... ahh!... so many things eh.. nv ending...

anyway.. i hurt myself accidentally... ahh... so much blood lo.. but not say very pain also.. haha... but now i very scared of the "piak" snap sound... >.<

oh welll... dono wat to blog le.. but not bad la.. this few days happi.. thou im falling sick.. but im still happi... haha..

*my honey red tea with jelly... i love u so much! im glad i have u by my side.. muacks.. *hugs* get well soon..*

Hello... =)
Im like sitting outside the band room now... haha.. came to sch to do work cuz tot i can concentrate... but like no use ar.. still quite distracted... haha... sot de eh..

anyway.. heres a nice video someone showed me... =)
oh well.. shall try to do work now... =)


*timmie loves his honey red tea with jelly... =)*

absolutely adorable pics.. lols..

here are some pics tat my frens drew for me over the few mths... ain they so cute? omg... ^^

alright.. so the hols are finally here.. but also no rest.. not much of a diff.. haha... cannot stand it... haha... proj.. band... frens... wow... chalet? dono will stay anot... haha... oh well.. tim tim.. accept it..

hmm... so much to do... projs.. concert... WMC... wow... hope everything goes well.. im so bored lo.... haha.. sian... always sian... i dono wat i blogging also... sitting at the back of the band room.... blogging.. haha... frens say.. "tim, u no life lo.. day day band..." haha... band geek.. =x

so bored.. i shall stop here.....

haha.. heres a pic i made... taken while in the plan to london on 13 july... haha... miss the time in vienna.. now its goin to be 1 mth and i will be goin to kekrade... hope it will be as enjoyable... =)

*i wish u would take me away... im so tired.... looking forward to my holidays.. thou u wont be there... haha.. its ok.. tim is always solo...*

haha... im aching all over now... finally got to slp abit more...
ytd i slept at like 4? doing my CRM? haha... oh well..

ytd was nt a very nice day... firstly... not enough slp... slept at like ard 6 and woke up at abt 9? haha... so went to sch for a stupid 2 hr tut which is so so so boring... haha.. then i quarel with my fren... over a small matter... but i think its either im oversensitive ytd or my fren was jus being insensitive.. that last msg sent was like OMG can.. i read le so angry lo... i threw my phone... then my other classmates were like o.oo.oo.o??? wat happened.. so ya.. i had no more appetite for lunch.. there goes the food..

after tat... the grumpy and moody me went to meet my cher... but he was not there.. onli come back like next tues? but hello? tuesday i lesson till 6 eh... he knock off i still having lessons lo.. how to get things done... not much time le.. very stress de eh.... so many ICA.. still must do those things... save me can...

after tat... the even more sian diao de me.. went to get my hair done... haha... was in such a rotten mood tat i say anyhow cut la... then i anyhow dye my hair.. so its like blackish green? haha... grats to me! i am a weirdo monster now...

after tat.. went out with my fren... blah blah.. shant talk much abt this thing.. but i was happi.. yea... yup.. then on the way home... so so angry... haha... oh well.... (i got too worked up i guess... i had another relapse.. and this time i got a jab... saturday still need go back lo... =( hais)

and ya.. home... do proj... feeling so argh.... blah blah... and many other things happen... haha...

this para is for a fren of mine...
i dono why u are like tat lo... tell u liao... i got my reasons... u haven see the full story then so insistent about that issue... then if u don wan to tell me wats wrong.. i will nv know rite... and the way u sms is like.. so hostile lo.. then now u wan to come find fault? whos to blame? wats ur agenda of that post and sms? resolution or find fault... this sms i will rmb forever one lo... "no.. if u treasure our frenship u sms me" like.. i xploded after tat... haha! tim ar tim.... hais...

so yea... tats abt it ba... anyway.. i got a nice nice nice nice nice chicken chop and western goodies platter for lunch.. yeay!!! love my mummy lots... wake up got good food liao... haha... (tim.. must stay happi okie... don get so worked up again.. rmb wat the doctor say..)

*lost for words, just feel like being alone...*

jus wan to nag here...

today napfa... got a new pair of shoes jus for it.. waste money... cuz my old one opened... sadly... hais.. waste time lo... so tired... lesson.. after tat go eat buy shoe go home change go sch napfa... after tat band... so damn tired la...

and reach home.. still need do tut... still need plan event.... still need do so much other things... like... damn damn damn stress la... i still haven do my crm... friday need to hand in le... hais... 3 ica next week... will see how i die lo... 4 days of band.... i still need to do entre... like... really no comments le lo...

*hais... i really dono how to cope now...*

wow.. its like 1220 already... so wat have i done the past few hrs..

lets see.. woke up at 7 plus? went to sch... study.. train napfa stations... and sadly... i think wed i will be wasting my time... can i like go another time? when im like more free? and i nv land properly during one of my attempts for standing board jump... my right knee HURTS! i can straighten my leg...

so ya, after sch went straight for band.. finish like 610 la... =( and band start at like 630? wow.. superman... haha... so much to do! ahh... u see ar... this week must hand in my WHP E tut which is liek 10% of CP and CRM ica1... next week got Human behaviour ICA 1? and HRD ica1? and AUDITION? omg... im so so stress lo... still need to think abt WMC and Sinfonique... ahhh!!!! save me... =( not forgetting the irritating on goin ENTRE! so many tight deadlines...

to my frens... sorry if i offend u or wat... haha... tim is always tim eh.. hope u all uds... quite a stressful life u know.. like sch... then band... then still need to coach my younger bro's studies... yup.... =)

today i was chit chatting with one of my classmates.. and i came to realise that im already in my yr 3.... final year le lo... this 2 yrs... i have been so busy... have i ever like enjoyed my poly life? (except maybe tat few mths when u spend it with me? i was really happi then)
so busy.. so stress... again and again lo... i tell myself.. it will get better.. but it jus gets worse.. haha.. more and more stressed... when will i get to enjoy..

haha... a moth landed on my head lo... jus now... is it a good sign? or a bad sign.. haha... im goin to be so busy.. i can tell... haha.. mon to thur band... plus sch... i hope things get better ba... now.. tonite.. i don need slp le.. alot of work to be done.. lets hope i don fall aslp while trying to do them... okie... dono wat to blog le... and don wan to blog le... byebye...

*mydumdum... im so stressed... really really... but i miss u.. alot alot more.. *

so stress!!!

so much to do!!

so sad!!

so STUPID!!

i cannot stand myself... why am i so stupid... can i stop doin those stupid things? argh.... =( if onli life was easier... its jus not getting anywhere... i am tired le... so tired lo.. many a times... i tired so hard.. but... still getting no where... one day i will jus gif up.. and disappear... byebye...

*=( why?*

hello everyone...

i dono wat to blog.. haha... hmm.. recently very very busy lo.. alot of proj and sch work... erm... ya... now even tut also need do powerpoint eh... very sad eh... like... got sch work.. already drowning le... then got band work also... and soon i need to go work... time to save mroe... i've got plans.. lols... tim ar tim.. haha...

i think hor.. for the past few years.. i become nicer.. then become nasty.. then nice then nasty.. lol.. ok.. i shall conclude.. i shall be nice.. haha.. ok tim.. be nice now... =) stop being nasty.... unless u really have too.. haha...

ok lo.. ppl say until i very bad.. so fierce... but.. don really have a choice ma... i like the middleman... need to meet expectation of so many parties... haha..
u know... so stress ar... haha.. and i always say.. band is not a hotel.. u don come and go as u want... haha... ppl just don uds.. haha.. wat must i do to get their understanding and cooperation... HAHA! tim.. stop dreaming okie.. even ur PEM also say u spending too much time not studying already... haha.. get a life la... haha.. i think i shouldnt be blogging abt this... but oh well.. don really care anymore... 1 tim doin 10 000 tim's work..

lols.. i think i really bad mood this week lo... all my proj like heated discussion... haha.. hope my frens forgive me ar... hor.. haha.. i know u all will uds de... haha.. tim! hang in there okie...

haha.. and i was msging my fren.. and i wrote this...
"i think love is hard to come by, and i think that one should not think so much but jus treasure the moments together..
love is a chemistry.. sometime it goes boom but it has more interesting outcome..
love is like a learning journey.. getting to know each other more and me each day... and thats where u find more things to talk abt.. haha..
love is paitence and tolerance... we learn to see the beauty of imperfection..
love is sweet yet bitter.. too much of anything and it sucks..
love is jus a sweet gift from each other.... learn to love and appreciate...
don think so much... jus let it flow.. be happi and enjoy..."
haha.. then i was thinking.. why i can tell ppl tat but i carn do it for myself...
i always end up doin stupid things.. lol... ya lo.. tim ar tim.. y u so stupid... how many times have u did tat... so stupid lo!!! slap urself...

haha.. ok.. think i abit mad mad le.. ate like 2 lollipops and 3 pandas le... really a not good day for me.. haha... i wan more lollipops and pandas! ok tim.. onli 3 ppl will uds the meaning of tat.. haha... shh.. eat so much sweet later fat.. cut down okie... and u got napfa on wed.. sure fail.. haha...

ok la.. don wan type le.. sian.. very very sian... byebye... go stare at my lollipops...

*TiM*

*feel like talking to u.. but dono wat to say... do u even know?*

today's not a very good day... bad mood...

i hate to be angry... i hate to have to scold ppl... but sometimes, i have to do it cuz of my responsibilities... and today, i quarrel with my fren over something.... which is like damn stupid... ahhh.. hate it... sometimes i think tat this job of my is really ruining my life... ahh!

im so stress u know.. so many deadlines!! and audition coming.. and ahh! concert... ah!!! managment~~~ ahahah..... tim is goin mad mad... today i was so worked up... i had no appetited to eat.. and during tat 30 mins when i was so angry... i started trembling... i think i shd go for anger management... haha... bad temper...

*mydumdum, i was so sick and scared jus now... how i wish u were here... could you comfort and take care of me like before? =) miss u so much.. as usual... i wonder what are ur tots...*

hello!

jus tot of blogging... tml goin to run in the morning... but like so earli.. but have to.. for napfa sake... haha... hope my back will be better.. =)
deadlines are coming nearer... tim tim.. tim to start working hard... jyjy!

*mydumdum, i really wan to know wat u are thinking... miss you so much*

hello everyone..

its 2 weeks into sch.. haha.. hows everything? hmmm.. so so lo.... =)
yup... and tim is abit more motivated now.. need alot more... lotsa deadlines.. i dono how but i sprain my neck and shoulders.. got a weird feeling abt it... but shan't comment on it here... yup...

napfa on 20 may.. like.. OMG... 2 weeks time? can i jus skip it.. sure fail anyway... let me train liao then go take can? haha... or can i jus excuse myself from it totally? haha...

dono wat to blog liao eh... haha.. and aiyo.. hate ppl to advertise on my blog.. Zzz... slap..

*mydumdum - counting down till i smile... feels like forever... ahhh...*

tim tim tim...

tim lacks motivation... everything is so sian sian sian...

*dying to hear dumdum say it*

im here to blog nonsense again...

how ar.. my report like not goin anywhere... so distracted.. so inefficent... =x...

tml welcome tea.. wonder how things will be... haha...

*i miss u... so much... mydumdum.. but i carn tell u*

sch term is finally starting?
so how will things be?

haha.. roughly have a mental image le ba...

anyway.. i think im always slow eh... i think that sometimes... im so slow.. i don even realise wat has happened... ur closest fren may become ur worse enermy... wa... so fierce... haha... tim tim.. just give up ba... ppl always K.S. u.. u always slow by abit.. haha...ok.. tim doesnt know wat he is blogging...

but ya.. when moments turn into memories... wat ppl don see behind those smiles... well.. tim always say its now now now... no more things of the past.. but he still clings on to his "lost" fren.. frens who were once best buddies... are now... strangers... which makes him emo.. and jus don uds wat happened.. haha.. oh well.. anyway..

I HATE PPL TO TOUCH MY THINGS... like.. ya.. hate it.. please ask b4 taking.. and return after using... hais... and stop eyeing my stuff la... i onli got those left with me le.. stop taking them away from me.. give me some peace... i lost so much already... hais...

*dumdum.. im so sad now... will u cheer me up?*

so now... i have completed my attachment.. like YEAY!!! but also =( ... goin miss my supervisors..... . . . . .. . .. . . .

have been overworked and YEA, sick... haha... can u imagine goin to work with 38.5? lucky im better now... haha.. hmmm.... kinda funni thou... monday wil be back in school already... . . . . gotta JYJY!!!! haha...

i dono wat im blogging.. im jus blogging.. blogging.. blogging....


*dumdum... when moments turn into memories....*

theres onli one me in this world.. and there are never ending things to do... i wonder... i really wonder... when will it all end... its getting more and more personal.. i think tat if i don like vent it out here i will explode soon...

i really really neglected my frens la.. damn it... and i carn free myself up... ARGH... DAMN! i hate it... sorry my frens.. i wish i could.. ireally really miss some of u... but... i dono wat to do now... things at work is getting me and more busy... so is band... i wish i can find help... but... where can it be found? i don even have time to do up my report.. like... =( im really damn irritated by it... im too stretched... i haven even start sch.. lecturers start calling me... like WAT?! Zzz im already so caught up.. and there they go... =/ nv ending thigns to do.. i keep tinking... wat if ... wat if i handed in tat letter? will i be better off now... i tink i will be less stressed up... its so difficult to get things done.. and PPL KEEP THROWING THEIR ATTITUDE AT ME... hais... i can jus accept it... and to all who got nth better to do... COULD U JUS LEAVE ME ALONE FOR AWHILE?

stop asking me for things.. this and tat.. stop it... i might jus walk off if i had enough.. and i already am having enough... i know i should be blogging abt this but who cares... im already losing myself.. i lost my brother, my best frens... my frens.. wat more to loss... i had enough... really... its getting too personal... too personal...

wat for hide all these emotions... and be the puppet slave? do i have a choice? i don think so... who uds? WHO? well.. onli i do... alone in this world... life has been so.. will be so.. and hope will nto be so... my future looks ruin.. by tat one responsibility tat grew..

this is back to his busi self.. now even mroe busy then ever... haha... TIM AR TIM!!! wat a sad life u have.... sometimes i wish i had more time...
i have so much to do... and ppl who are damn free keep ADDing more things for me to do... i already try my best to gif others le.. but they also alot of thigs to do ma... how how how? i need everyone to co operate... yes! if everyone can don delay.. everything will be much easier... everyone is being squeezed.. and its a vicous cycle.. ur delay will delay others and everyone will get affected...

sometimes i wish i have 10 more hrs a day... like 34 hrs.. btu i think i wil still complain 34 hrs is nto enough... maybe maybe... alot of wat ifs... haha... i can onli say... i brought this among myself... i don blame anyone or myself.. this is anotehr challenge i have to overcome.. once i live thru it.. i grow stronger... i BELIEVE tat i can do it... =) okie.. im self motivating again..

i wan to say also tat... sometimes i be nice... and tat does mean im not aware of things... u can lie to me... i know u are lying but i hope u know wat u are doin.... i hope its all genuine... i jus hope so... i choose to believe so... and don go overboard cuz i may jus explode... and its not goin to be a pleasent sight... tolerance has its limits....

and its 1 more week.. and i hope i will have mre time for other thigns... i must start mugging for my studies... i wan better results... no more slacking... study is my main priority... yes... at all cost... =]

i have been neglecting my frens... i am so busy i carn think of a reply.. i carn meet them.. i have to reject them... i try to meet up.. i am trying... i jus need more time in a day... i don wish to loss any... so heres my sincere apologies if i have neglected u.... GOMENASAI.... dui bu qi... sorry.... i really treasure my frens alot.. they support me when im down... encourage me when i wanna give up... and they try to uds when i have no choice but to reject them....

and the more personal side of me... i really wish to do some things.. but i jus don have the time... im so busy... the amt of time i spend at home awake is not even enough to fully charge my mobile... but some may think... if u prioritise ur time well.. u can do it.. or some might even think... are u sure u are so busy... wat can i say... i don have time to care abt it... i have decided to give up on certain things for the bigger picture.. the personal side has to wait... i really have no time.. thou for the past few years.. i have put it aside.. this is another one of those countless time im setting it aside.. i jus hope things will get better.. and i will have more time... time time time.... if there is a time machine tat can stop time... i want it... i need it.... at least get some rest.... i am so tired.. so slpy... i rush everywhre... i think abt everything even in my slp... i can even dream of ans... omg... i NEED A BREAK...

ok... tim... now u speak part of it... its time to slp.. tml is anotehr day... challenge... take care... u can do it... lets wish tat i will not be sick tml again... u can do this... yes u can.. i know u can.. and yes i can... =)

*really no comments... hais... dumdum is really dum... so much i carn say... one day.. its gonna explode... *

こんばわ。おげんきですか？
わたしは　ちむです。
どおぞよおしく。。。。

えと。。。

so how has life been? like tat lo.. so bored.. so lifeless... haha... im so SIAN of everything... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . so monotone...
i jus feel like staring into blank space... wats the motivation in waking up everyday? nth.. haha.. oh well... so sian.. . . . . . . . ... . .. . .. . . . . . hais.... sian sian sian ar sian sian sian.... . . . . .. . .. . .typing nonsense.... . . . . . . . . .

byebye

*わたしのdumdumです。。。＊

aren't they so cute? thanks for all these cheery pictures... =)

sometimes i wish things were different.. but things wont change so jus live with it... =]

*hais... mydumdum.... my dum dum.... mydumdum... my dum dum*

Control and tolerance is the key word for today

*how? same old sentence.. so much to tell u*

yet another day...

jus abit more.. hang in there.. =)

sometimes i jus don understand why things happen...

day in day out worry this and tat...
so busy.. i am like having a full day work.. after tat go for band... then rush home to teach homework.. hais... after tat still got my other work to do... trying very hard to multitask already.. but jus seem to not have enough time... i sometimes jus feel like quiting evrything... don care... jus relax and enjoy.. is anyone else more busy then me? hais! HATE IT.. its worse when other ppl are not being helpful at all... maybe i shd be more selfish..

cuz of this.. i have been losing myself.. i no longer have control over wat i do.. i act like a lunatic.. wat happen to the old me? wheres the happi little boi.. why do i now have to take all those remarks, comments, responsibilities... sometimes being a kid is such a bliss.. so carefree.. so peaceful.. ignorance is a bliss... i wan a break.. i need it.. before i go mad... which i think am 80% mad already...

wat if one day i totally loss myself... will i get admitted to IMH? will i still know who i am? who will rmb me.. who are the true frens.. who cares? who understands?

life has alot alot of question marks.. the optimistic comments and self encouragement seem to have numb off... none of which is helping.. no longer... like a drug overdose.. useless...

if there is a time machine.. i would like to not have alot of things.. sometimes u just feel like u are in all these alone... everyday is jus another day of torture... so busy.. so tired.. i don even have time for myself...

=(

=]

tim is so tired... AGAIN...

but today at least i met up with frens who i haven met in a long time.

*mixed emotions.. =)? or =(? *

tim is so tired.


*i have so much to tell u.. but i don know how... *

hello everyone.. im too lazy to upload other images.. lol..

so the exams are over... like yay! now having my attachment =). so it has been 9 - 6 for 5 days a week. and will be for the rest of the 9 weeks.. so tired.. so squeezy! stupid morning and evening rush hour...
『４９-５＝４４日』がんばてい！

anyway...
friday met up with ilah and halif. walk ard douby area... lol.. ilah bought us donuts for valentines day.. omg.. sweetness... haha.. so we got no where to go.. so we sat at the sofa outside cathay and ate our donuts.. which reminds me of the times where i will walk aimlessly ard with my fren cuz we got nth better to do... sit anywhere and everywhere and chat till the moon goes blue... haha.. the good old days that are like gone forever... how i wish things were still like tat... haha! fat hope? maybe

yup.. so i spend my day slping... yes... slp slp slp slp slp.. after bringing my bro for a swim.. i came back and slept my life away.. i guess im not alone? almost all my frens were slping too.. must be so tired after exams plus ipp... haha.. oh well.. lets hope i will be stress free longer... thou i know wats coming.. enjoy life now while i can.. and i shall try to blog if i can.. thou tats nth much to talk abt.. haha... maybe at least once a week? =) alrighto.. tats all for now... byebye everyone...



-TiM-

*心ぞの人は、どなたですか？　today i dream of u while i was slping.. i dreamt tat we were like before.. so close... i guess i really missed u... hows everything goin? we've not talked for weeks... take care... =)*

today was a long day... i didnt get to study... oh well...
anyway... i guess i have decided on"it"... somehow i think i have to reconsider it... =/ anw... so stress.. >.<

everyone see this.... someone actually drew this to cheer me up... who in this world would actually do this for u? are u jealous? lol... ya.. how many will do this for me... on msn... u know how diff it is to draw? like wow... i wish everyday will be so nice... haha.... hao jiu mei you ren hong wo kai xin le...
tml is study day... anyway.. im attached to Daimler South East Asia Pte Ltd... haha... Mercs again... yup... =) proj and ipp... like bonded... =]

-TiM-

*will u do tat for me? ni you hong guo wo ma? hao xi wang shi ni... hai*

so many things to consider...

wat shd i do...

where are u...

anyway.. morning meeting wit han... =/ then today went out with wen and da.... rot at the salon so long.. cuz ww rebond her hair... but nvm la... then went yishun eat potato.. not bad... its quite nice... then met jolene for dinner... then erm.. home...

tml need to do alot of things.. call han, study.. funeral... thurs also alot of things.. hai.. so stress... exam ar exam.. can u postpone abit later?

*i dono wat to do now... where are u*

i shd blog b4 i get hit on the head tml.. lol..

hmm.. life is busy.. and i realise sth.. no matter how i clean my house... end of the day will be dusty again.. so irritating eh.. i spend 2 hrs a day sweeping, mopping, wiping, cleaning.. omg.. then dirty again... =( omg.. anyway... EXAMS COMING!!!!! AHHHHHH

im so stress.. my face got a bit more dou dou le... =( so sad!!!! i today try to study... but haven 1 chapter i wanna die already... aiyo... i need more motivation...

anyway... i spent 400 ytd... T.T i feel so poor now... ahhhh.... i shd start saving for my overseas trips now... again... lol...

jyjy ar... study study.. don say die.. later twin will hit my head...

-tim-

*i didnt wanan blog but this is for u... wat happen to u? are u okie? im so worried abt u... =( do u rmb wat i said? anything or everything or nothing also can come find me de... FYI, nth went wrong between us... if u know who u are... hai yo.. i wan talk to u de.. but i scared.. dono wat to say.. worried sick =(*

in less then 18 hrs... it will be concert... in abt 23 and 1/2 hrs.. it will be 19 jan... haha... wat if wat i dream of came true? haha...

so wat did i dream of... carn really rmb... but i remember so vividly.. i saw 1111 inside... so is it goin to be 1111 on 18 jan? or 1111 on 19 jan? or wat? i have mixed tots man... haha.. anyway.. tml concert.. JJYJY.. don nervous okie... =) u can do it... smile!

today i rested at home.. im almost fully recovered already... good good... =) haha... being happi is the best way to recover..... nua-ed until so song.. i slp alot also.. anyway.. tml gotta wake up so earli... =( hai... but nvm... jyjy.. its onli 5 am in the morning.. =) u can wake up de... lols.. im so blogging nonsense... maybe this is the last post... haha...

alright.. shall blog again.. somehow...

-TiM-

*was it really like tat? hmm.. wat if i really disappear tml.. im so scared... i dare not tell u.. cuz i know u don like it.. hai... im still hoping u know.. lols.. thou i told u the opp ans.. oh well.. jyjy ba... u happi is the most impt 33*

so tired so tired...

currently waiting for my hair to dry... then i can go slpslp... yeay! im kinda sick... and i skipped lecture today.. how sad... but sick ma.. wat to do.. haha... self denial... anyway... today had my HR presentation... i tink it was kinda lame.. but not tat bad la... shd pass.. hee... and sad case.. my HRM ICA 1 like nv do so well... so sad! but i pass la.. no A =(...

after class, met up with lala to pass her tickets... sorry eh.. cannot pei u wait for kai kai.. dono how u rotted jus now.. haha... my sisters and lif dated me for lunch.. =x and ya... we went KFC... tsk... sick still eat KFC... blame on my lif lif... he wan eat.. haha.. but it was quite shiok la.. =x but then ~~Memories~~ haha... emoed for like 2 mins.. then back to the self denial self... haha.. so optimistic rite... =)

went back to sch and virtually rotted my time away.. i tried to slp but so uncomfy.. it was kinda noisy too.. lol.. but i bet i looked damn unglam jus now... im imaging myself slping in those position.. ~ had pract.. it was cold... then hot.. then cold... Zzz siao siao eh...

anway... thanks for all the nice nice get well soon care and concern showered onto me... =) haha.. thanks ^^

im goin to prepare for bed already... and ya! my nose and lip is red and burning.. so pain! sister say look like luve luve bite.. -.- its pain! ~~

-TiM and his nonsense... yeay! no more proj for now.. *rejoices* -

*today hong ghee pass me some medicine lo... how i wished it was you.. i think eve if u say one get well soon.. don need medicine also next day okie.. haha.. mad.. self deception.. self denial.. i know its impossible.. but im still one siding.. cannot stand myself... tsk... love is such a complicated thingy - - - luv dumdum - - - *

AHHH.. im sick again...

my left arm is so pain... =( dono wat happened.. i cannot straighten it... how am i goin to bring my laptop tml? =/ currently having sore throat and abit of cough... =( y ar.. concert coming then sick... -.-

today.. is a very very very sian day.. things like super go against me... but wat can i do... jus accept it... im so sad... my jap role play... i kinda forgot some of my lines.. sigh... sorry to my grp mates... didnt meant for tat to happen... sorry... thou u don blame me but i blame myself... -.-

everything seems to be jus a wasted effort.. first and foremost... marketing... still haven gotten over tat proj.. then results... the input so much.. output like shit... -.- try so hard stil like tat... can die ar! today i woke up earli.. skip lecture jus to pract my jap... but in the end.. too nervous... or i shd say distracted... i forgot... even when i do things for other ppl... seem to be jus a wasted effort...

anyway... today my mood not good.. so when to find my fren after setting up the stage at the audi... ya.. my hand hurts but i still helped out.. don scold me... i jus wanna do it... zi zhao de rite.. now the hand cannot even straighten.. Zzz.. pei him pract his french role play.. got bored and started folding things... and i folded like this super small crane.. its smaller then a 10 cent coin.. lol

oh well.. tats all for now i guess... im very very very tired...

-TiM-

*the pain tat no one sees... why does this have to happen to me.. why me.. carn u jus even say like a nice sentence jus to cheer me up.. -.- *

oh how sad!!!! i got a C for my bfin proj.. ARGH! hate it... =( y ar.. Y Y Y!

anwyay.. i got a B for my Law Proj.. ok.. not tat bad.. btu i wanted an A...

and i got A for my marketing individual proj ... which is GOOD=)

tml is japica.. i haven even memorise the script.. DIE... really die liao... tml is goin to be a long and busy day for me... jyjy...

*i damn miss u can... AHHH... can i jus text u "eh.. dumdum, i love you"... life is so hard to pass lately... *

actually i don wanna blog one... but here goes

i don like ppl to watch me and qn me... i feel like a criminal.. invaded... anyway... if u have probs, i listen.. i have nv once felt u were annoying... so u don have to say sorry for disturbing me... and another thing is tat sometimes u say things that don make sense... like i always say.. is it worth it.. why would u wanna care so much... ppl try so hard to cheer u up... and there u go... no one cares... it gets tiring at times.. and i have given up...

i have to care abt the welfare of others.. aside from mine... i try so hard.. but, everything seems to be my fault in the end.. i don uds why... if u are my fren.. should u be trying to help me instead of adding on? i really don uds... have i been used? like always.. USED... hai... when will this ever end... im gona be tat self reliant self sufficient guy again... 1 boi, 1 life, 1 self....

anyway... i have been reminded of the embedded word since 2005... am in a super bad mood now... im not goin to say much.. tak care all.. byebye

*so near yet so far... life have since became monotonous*

lets talk abt wat happen this 2 days.

wednesday.. i became a superman... ICT presentation at 9am, then i requested to go first cuz i gtg.. haha.. and yea.. i finish at 920? but my group like do abit wrong eh.. hope everything will be fine... hope won get lousy marks... thanks group for all ur hard work.. and helping with the editing.. sorry i gtg earli...

okie.. so 920 ended... i like walked super fast to the mrt.. my legs almost broke... took a train to cityhall... rushed to esplanade... reach at 1005... superman... my leg cramped halfway while walking to esplanade... =( stupid legs.. lousy... production meeting was okie... but so paiseh.. i was late... =( had lunch with the ppl who went... Dr Goh, Alvin, star, aidil, hong ghee, allan. initially wanted to go back sch find halif, but he nv reply my sms... so i changed plans.. i wanted to go home to slp.. cuz i was slpy.. but sister carol jio me go DMJ (Da Ma Jiang).. lol.. okie.. i agreed.. but when i reach home.. i feel like slping seh!

ok, so i was late.. i fell aslp ma.. =x meet jj, carol, ryl, whit, and reen reen.. went jj hse for dmj session.. haha.. i accidentally wont abit more chips then carol.. then u can see ryl complaining in the tag board... but it was fun.. and i was quite lucky? always the last card of the game... then i hu... haha.. they wang me... =x after tat.. went to sch for pract with reen reen.... didnt had dinner.. after pract went s11 at amk with ZZ and jolene... reach home late...

Thursday...
i woke up earli to do the schedule for open house... then went to sch.. at interchange ilah smsed say shes sick... aiyo! nv tc.. tsk.. get well soon okie.. halif also sick le.. how can... my brother sick.. tsk... nv tc.. tsk... take care ar.. smile more okie... haha.. happi little kiddos.. anyway, tiff smsed and ask if wanna postpone... after much tot.. we decided to cancel.. so i took a bus home.. at the stop i alight i saw my mum.. caught up with her and pei her to hg mall.. ate... then i made a new pair of glasses.. its like SO EX =( im broke again... but im happi.. spending is my happi drug... xD

went home.. i went clean frenzy again.. i went to pack my clothes.. i realise tat i have alot alot of clothes tat i have not wore... and they are yellow already... so off they go... bye bye... some are still clean.. so i put them aside.. i don like them anymore.. lol... see who don mind, pass them.. so wasted lo, if i throw.. so ex.. =( i shd not buy so much clothes... again.. while packing.. i found alot of other things.. i found many boxes... many bottles... filled with star, turtles, hearts, double hearts, letters, cards, presents, pics, cranes.. which icarn resist but to read them all again.. -.- yes.. i read them all.. there were nice memories.. but i emoed again.. the pics, letters, memories =(

oh well.. tml got HR proj meeting.. then open hse.. hope everything will be fine.. =)

-TiM-

* i miss you i miss you i miss you so so so much... dum dum... looking at them, i tot of the past... but then u are my present.. and i wanna be with you more... its rather impossible anyway.. shd slap myself awake.. stop dreaming.. how many days which seems like eons have i not seen u =/*

+Have i used up all my luck?+

i really wonder wat when wrong.. lets go down the list... i have been pretty tied up with everything... im so busy busy... =( really busy.... did i use it all up already? or have i mistakenly gave it away... onli i know...

last friday was marketing submission.. i tried my best to make it as perfect... i did not slp alot... like 2 hrs for thursday? why is it tat i still left out some points.. nvm... friday i went to print... i skip lect jus to print... 1) i printed 2) i binded 3) i forgot to print some appendices 4) i reprint at IT block.. 5) i left my 2 thumbdrive there cuz they are attached tgt.. 6) i forgot abt it... 7) i realise more errors 8) i carn find my thunb drive... 9) i stayed back to print and edit 10) i press sth wrong and my data jus printed and printed... i spent $7 plus on waste paper.. -.- 11) i didnt eat... 12) i feel like dying... 13) i dono y im so distracted maybe im really missing u badly

nvm... wat a day rite.. weekends, tired my best to make the proj possible.. my group members helped... but but but.. i still didnt slp alot... trying to make things good and reasonable... lack slp de me.. arrange to reherse with shareen at 1130 cuz she got MMLee performance at 12... nvm.. no time to eat... then later print print print... things went wrong.. nvm... meet the rest at 1, some where late.. reherse.. not enough time... nvm... went to class... and shitty irritates me.. nvm... then hungry me.. trying to make everyone feel less nervous, entertains them.. presentation, everyone overtimed.. my group was the last... 1) sch comp don have my font type.. it was screwed... 2) we tried to present faster... 3) some lect came in and chase us halfway while we were presenting.. 4) my lect interrupted us and skip many parts... 5) cut cut cut.. so much... im so sad... all the hard work my group has put in like gone down the drain.. wat seem to be a almost perfect marketing plan with the most asthetically prestige designs wasnt presented... wth... all the sleepless nites.. all the effort... washed down... thanks...

i have 2 icas tml... starting at 8 am... finance and efma... i feel so tired.. but concert is nearing.. i feel the need to attend.. i went... now im back... im so tired... hungry cuz i nv ate a proper meal the whole day.. onli a pack of my favorite panda panda.. sitting here, thinking... wat else do i have to do...

1) sinfonia booklet (band)
2) sinfonia production meeting (band)
3) open hse... excuse letter blah blah (band)
4) finance ica (sch)
5) efma ica (sch)
6) ict Proj (sch)
7) HR proj (sch)
8) jap test next week which i haven got the script (sch)
9) finish packing the hse
10) alot alot other things... personal stuff.. other stuff.. =(

im so tired of everything.. y must i entertain them.. i was so sian 1/2 i left almost immediately after pract today... didnt wan to see anyone... i tried to act normal.. maybe they were jus normal... jus i was too sensitive...

and to you.. i have so much things to tell u... but i dono how to say... i feel like jus slping and not wake up...

and ppl ppl are not helping by keep changing things.. like the data for the booklet.. its damn confusing.. so wat is it that u wan.. maybe i shd jus QUIT! and leave.. i have said this again and again.. i wanna leave.. but im still here... its ok.. jus abit more.. bare with it... i can do it.. i won die b4 sinfonia... let jus hope things go well.. if ppl attitude me.. so be it.. i don wan to care anymore... its time i have more time for myself... i need some slp.. some rest.. a vacation.. a break....

bye, i don feel like typing anymore...

*dumdum, where are u... how was ur test... i wanted to msg u but i don think u wanna read it.. oh well.. everything is not going tat well.. wat happened... i feel like talking to you.. but i dono wat to say.. i see you, thou u nv talk to me.. but im also contented... hai.... i really dono wat i writing le.. i give up... im so confused now... wat are u to me... are u tat impt to me?*

2009 is here~
happi new year all... haha... hope u guys have a joyous and merry new year...

hmm, new yr resolution? i dono leh.. haven really tot abt it...
1) be more hardworkin?
2) be a nicer person?
3) save more money?
4) spend more with with my family and frens?
5) better time managment...
6) be happi little boi... but be matured when needed
7) love u even more?
8) learn and care more abt u?

anyway... marketing proj is coming to an end.. like FINALLY! it this goes on any longer.. i think i will die soon... =( so nonsense... so much to do.. argh.. lets not ask y... anyway... ict is almsot done too.. yeay! we are efficient.. =) presentation for google reader was a breeze? i haven got to say anything and he went like.. okie.. next group.. then i huh?! i haven talk leh.. he say no no, its done already.. then we all, o.o oh ok lo.. haha.. next week 3 ica.. efma, bfin and ICT presentation... =( gotta prepare for JAP test too... and HR proj.. AR!! busy.. and SINFONIA.. and the many other things... =( i need more time...

halif and carol still doin marketing nw lo.. poor them.. tml i will see zombies.. jyjy ar! faster finish... lets not ask y are they so busy now... u know i know we know can already... jus like i say "tell me y am i doin all these again?" hopeless....

my back is super aching... now its the right shoulder blade... =( i dono wat happen! i need to find time to do alot of things leh... seee a doc, get my specs made... alot alot other things.. =( so busy!

anyway.. lets jyjy! haha... hor shareen and halif... JY!

-TiM-

"i'll be back so soon u won't have time to miss me. look after my heart,i've left it with u" will u be so sweet to say tat sentence to me? i miss you like 24/7... and you don even know.. lol... i shd stop all these... i think i think...