140210 150210 - CNY

新年快乐！万事如意！年年有余！身体健康！万事如意！吉祥如意！让顺财更大家拜个年！

ji jia lu yi! seng li tua tang! seng ti jian kang! gong xi gong xi! cai cai ga le bai ni lor~ dai geh jing ni soon soon lee lee! huat ah!

gong hei lei! zhu lei xin nian kuai le! zhu lei guo ge hou nian!

oh! i got limited language~ anyway.. happy new year everyone! here's wishing everyone a prosperous and great new year! huat big big ok! yup.. this 2 days have been busy entertaining ppl.. selling smile.. answering questions.. typical.. so are u working already? nope, im gonna finish my poly next week, after my exam.. oh, u study poly(glass in dialect) ah? i study plastic leh~ diao... so lame lo.. omg... but funny la.. now i know why am i so lame.. cuz they are lamer...

alot of questions lo.. haha.. got gf anot? blah blah blah... and the typical.. don go pierce ur ear ok.. no tattoo.. no this no that.. lols.. save me! anyway.. i think im getting more and more ego.. many went "blink blink" wa, so handsome now ah.. (ju lai ju yan dao lor~) haha.. at first it was nice.. then later like alot ppl say then like.. immune.. so last year i was a taiwan model.. this year im a korean band boy.. so wat am i next year? (botak chao tar pao)

the year was ok.. not alot of red packets this year.. small small only.. awww.... but i realise alot of things.. i must continue to uphold the image and expectations of the elders.. i must not stain the family name.. and stick to my baba nonya roots and traditions.. wat ever i do i need to consider the elders... haha.. but will i? =) some yes, some no. it depends.. as in, i wont become a hooligan or social disturbance.. still maintaining the high maintainance boy image..

and ok! im determined to save up. i really have alot of clothes. i shall start wearing them. stop buying more. alright.. thats enough nonsense.. hope u had some fun decoding the dialect~

.tim *oh, just take it with a smile =) *

130210 - Shopping Spree. Clean the house.

Friday.

Last day of sch.. went out with my classmates.. we shop and shop and watched a movie.. haha.. i realise.. i like to buy on impulse.. and i found my new shopping partner.. right clement? and i shall change my style so halif cant guess...spent alot.. i shd cut down.. the day was pretty good =) i had fun.

Saturday.

i woke up earli to clean my area.. yup.. its not 100% clean but its clean ok.. cleaned the whole hse.. and my irritating bro onli know how to sit there and watch.. then walk ard when u are mopping.. haha.. deserve a slap rite? and he just splash water on the floor.. next 2 days cannot sweep or mop oh.. stupid boy.. and worse of all... i can onli tolerate... cny cannot flare up.. oh well!!!!!

did i mention.. my gold chain almost broke while vaccuming the floor? technically it came loose but it hang on my neck till half the hse was sucked clean.. when i saw it.. oh oh.. i am fat. i ate alot.. and i look fat.. =x

anyway.. happy chinese new year. happy holidays. happy valentine's day.. haha.. thou im single but ya.. wish all the couples long long smooth smooth stable relationship. =D yup.. take care.. have fun =) and timmi shall keep the rest of his tots somewhere else.. nitenite! long day tml!

.tim *happy valentine's day*

120210 - 1 question too many

not a good day. trying to smile.. which i did.. last compen tut.. abit sad... did a small tribute thing for fun cuz i felt like doing it.. did personality test.. i understand alot of things.. now i know why.. rushed home to change.. and went out..

lets say i tried too hard to smile? haha.. shopping was ok. i saw alot of things i like but i didnt buy. not in the mood. someone asked me a question which spark off too much of a tot. i am goin off now. good nite. bye.

its been 3 days.. i have 1 more day.. lets spam panadol..

.tim *and the balloon popped. in the end... 1 more day for fever to subside. pls go away*

i just saw this on american idol... its a nice song..

.tim *突然好想*

100210 - .tim's life as a high maintainance boy

tiring tiring day.. sch was short.. 1 hr then i went for lunch and shop alittle.. and i fell sick.. -.- headache.. i shd rest soon... anyway.. back to main topic...

a few years back, my aunts say i very guai blah blah.. then my dad said.. u don see he like tat.. he's very high maintainance.. which i think is quite true.. looking at my last mth's card bill.. omg... i shd really cut down on buying nonsense.. =) the amt im spending is quite alot.. haha.. if lets say, i go to work with my diploma as an entry in the HR department.. i cant even support half my spending.. lets say i go accounting.. still cannot! i was looking at where i spent my stuff.. then i realise.. haha.. food food food.. clothes clothes.. and buying other tings... i shd stop! TIME TO SAVE UP! no more spending! time to save for a car..

oh ya.. i dono wat i ate wrong or wat i did wrong.. the boy has fallen.. a few days b4 cny.. omg! i must recover b4 cny! no seafood! no fired food.. no nuts... no soft drinks for now.. no more lok lok dip =x awww...

.tim *i got weird nitemares and its scary*

090210 - Dwaeji tokki....

lets see... i overslept my 9am tut.. =( i am a pig. haha! anyway.. hungry hungry... meet them for abit of food. thanks ilah! haha.. tml my turn ok! lecture.. ib rehearsal.. IB! omg.. i like bullet train can.. speed thru.. really speed... will i get a speeding ticket and 12 demerit points? =x i was tired.. i fell aslp on the table soon after...

bought some food cuz i was DAMN hungry... very very hungry.. went home.. fell aslp.. tvtvtv.. food.. more tv and phone and now.. blogging nonsense... omg... on a side side side note.. I WANT EAT POPEYE FRIED CHICKEN! badly.. haha.. uhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i wan i wan...

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how shd i put it...

at times... even the independent gets dependent... haha.. then theres this 冲动。

oh oh! anyway... its frozen! so ya.. nvm~

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.tim *theres a longgggggggggggggggging*

090210 - Burppppp~

the day started pretty well.. no lessons but IB meeting at 10. woke up rather earli today.. as if i know i have to take care of some stuff.. yup.. gotta help someone at 11.. tot it would last till 12 so i could go for lunch but nope.. ended at almost 2.. i am HUNGRY! waited for ms tan to come back cuz i need to make sure the report zoe entrusted me is safe in ms tan's hands.. and of cuz, my peer evaluation form. =] yup. met my fren for some food and walked ard.. and food and home.

as the day come to an end. it's really quiet.. small one sick. no one at home.. blah blah.. abit emo ah.. maybe cuz i was really tired.. and someone lost her stuff and like become my fault ah.. cannot ask for help nicely meh.. i really have sch till 5 wat. which office hours is like over? how to call.. and its not just school. its my final presentation! oh well. focused on preparing my cue cards for tml. i am all set for the last ppt.. =) make it a blast! 9 am sch tml.. omg. i shd slp.. i am really tired today.. really... and sorry for burping so much.. couldnt help..

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my day ended with this song in my head... the person who made this quite emo ah.. haha..

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someone gave me joy when i was stressed. thank you.

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.tim *thou it only lasted for awhile, you still made my day =)*

.tim's life as a bandsmen in NYPSO

Year 1

Night class every tues.. cant attend tues pract so i decided to stop for 1 sem. joint back during year 1 sem 2. named as the Golden hair monkey by audrey chan! and the ah beng who can play flute.. LOL... the year past by.. i cant remember much that happened..

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Year 2

band was starting to pick up.. voted as Vice-President cuz of sinfonia.. oops. next time don so helpful.. starting to blend into band well.. alot alot of friends.. happy happy year.. first event as VP was investiture.. i still rmb.. rushing to school after attachment with a someone who always get me cookies and make sure that im well taken care of. thanks hasniza, fahmi, yvonne for helping me with the event.. it was fun... vivid memories..

then was clubcrawl, freshmen orientation and sinfonique 08... then came along my senior good friends.. allan sarah marcus and many more.. it was the start of something new.. i was really blending into them alot.. they have became an inseparable part of my band life.. thank you for the fun and joy! i still rmb celebrating jason and ray's birthday at the band room at 12.. with my bleeding finger and someone who freaked out.. haha.. funny and memorable

Summa Cum Laude Youth Festival 2008 @ Vienna, july.. my first overseas band trip! ppl who i remember vividly.. marcus my elder brother! Charlene little sister. cheryl NG, my classmate and good fren! Jolene JIEJIE! ALVIN president.. and meifen and alot alot of ppl.. this trip was a very happy one.. its the really someone supporting u time of life.. u are busy with managing the ppl.. then ppl come along helping.. thanks jolene for shouldering my big big load.. sadly, many do not see the real pic.. wonderful memories with marcus korkor, charlene and cheryl! i really miss those time.. thanks bro for taking care of me when i was sick.. and see to my well being everyday.. i can onli say.. aisinilela.. =) and francesca! i rmb u too ok! don think i forgot abt u.. i rmb alot of things ok...

back to sg.. then came TEP attachment.. i still rmb skipping class to the movies with someone.. skipping lesson to study with someone.. hanging so much with someone that i became friends of the classmates.. haha.. till now we are still friends.. wow.. can say, its one of the happiest times of my poly life.. watch movie almost every week.. eat tgt.. do everything tgt... and then came rumors... lame lo.. curse u all rumor makers.. nth better to do is it? and came the downfall of the friendship.. sad... lost contact for some time...

sinfonia 2009

don rmb much.. mr tan's last concert.. quite emotional.. thank you alvin president for teaching me alot of things.. jolene for helping and teaching.. and the comm.. and alot alot of ppl... it was a good year..

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Year 3

elected as President. balancing sch life.. attachment and band.. its the time when u feel the full force of the stress.. first sem was ok.. i dono why.. but it was.. just that towards the end of sem 1.. things start to happen.. haha.. this time.. someone from the past came into my life.. a fren for 5 years.. supporting me in watever way she can.. thou the short short sweet time we spent. and the on off friendship we had.. and the silly things i did.. we still are friends.. she nv failed me.. always supporting me.. thank you.. amanda

WMC 2010

my 2nd trip with the band.. it was pretty different.. my seniors are not ard anymore.. its on me now.. happy times with my section.. funny silly arguments with ppl.. mr bao gao liao.. finally.. the stress was too great and i broke down.. its the time when u feel so alone.. u miss ppl.. and alot of problems occur.. u just wan to give up.. u wan to go home.. yup.. the first time i cried in 4 years? the last time i did was sec 3.. when my seniors grad.. haha.. cried in the city square of Amsterdam.. how no face.. spot by ppl.. haha.. "u eat already? wan eat ice cream?" haha! why make someone cry and later say that.. its funny but thanks.. i appreciated it.. yup.. im sorry for shouting at u too.. but, guess we were both TOO over.. cried and cried walked ard.. emo.. i really miss people.. oh well.. alot of thigns happen... H1N1? haha.. surprise sms.. surprise fb msg.. thank you... and stupid u ppl.. if u are not helping jsut shut up la.. don have to back stab me.. no balls ah u.. got balls say infront of me la.. asshole.. call urself an alumni and professional band player.. pui! and rumors again.. haha.. it really brought me down.. back to sg.. up to someone to cheer me up which tat someone did.. thank you..

sinfonique 09

postponed.. delayed.. many things happened.. i was DAMN EFFING stress.. thank you ppl for helping.. esp u.. ahda! thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. during this time... sth good tat was happening in my life got screwed up.. but came another support.. haha.. i still rmb.. going supper with my friends. =) nth much i can remember..

long lost friend.

then came my long lost friend... time heals i guess... started talking again.. it silly and we laughed over it.. silly rumors.. omg.. slap those ppl man.. haha.. you say i know u so well.. but do u know me? now, my long lost fren is lost again... where are u! i got alot alot to tell u! haha.. you got new fren again is it? forget me again.. tsk tsk.. how can..

life as a president was indeed very very stressful.. i gave up on many RS that i could have taken on.. i gave up on my friends.. sorry, i had band.. and they go.. u everyday also band.. no life ah.. and i can only smile... people come and go in life.. those who cant uds u leave u.. those who can, stay with u... who can and who cant.. i know..

i made new friends.. i wake out of my shell.. friends in band.. i will rmb down the long road in life.. thank you for making my life in band.. wonderful.. benny, jason, sar, joseph, hasniza, ray, fancesca, denise, xinhong, benji, jinyu, xinying, huijun, seeha, hafiz, yuqi, miki, jolene, eunice, geraldine, kaixin, vivien, wanie, esther, kheeyang, nelson, alex, eugene, alvin, edward, karlyn, meifen, louis, shumana, that tbone girl, rahayu, kesha, chun kiat, faizul, hweeling, tat tpet boy, eugene pang, kitying, rouzhen, caroline, nathelie, sarah, allan, yvonne, and many many others.. MR TAN, DR GOH, LAOSHI, TSAI LAO SHI...

THANK YOU!

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its quite emotional to think back.. i really miss the time i have in band.. of cuz, i think faster then i type.. so my tots are alot alot more then this.. i really miss alot of people.. haha... oh oh.. tim is so emo now... NEXT BATCH! rmb to make YR 3 farewell grad ceremony AKA installation a bang i tell u.. if not i take gun "bang" u then u know.. i wan my throphy and my cert! =) love my band.. hate my band.. its a love hate relationship.. i love them more thou.. i will miss u.. NYPSO.. now and forever be.. a part of my life.. to greater heights! CHEERS! next batch comm... need help or advise can still come to me... =) i wan the band to remain one of the top tertiary bands! next P! good luck and take good care of the band!

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.tim *emoemo, i wan hughug*

060210 - God is fair

toilet thinking.. god is fair.. yup! he is.. lets take me for an example..

im ok, quite good looking.

im ok, quite smart.

im ok, quite talented.

im ok, quite successful.

im ok, quite well presented.

im ok, quite well looked upon.

but but but...

wats bad abt me? cuz god is fair.. if u are good in sth, u are bad in others ah.. no one is perfect.. but u can work ur way to perfection. so wat is my weakness? complaisant, weird, moodswing, emotional? haha.. wats bad about me?

i was doing my uni application.. SMU NTU NUS.. i see my grades.. i see my achievements... wa! not bad ah.. thou im like onli 3.448 GPA and the cut off for smu is 3.5, ntu 3.7 but still... not bad ah.. my CCA max already and still counting... 34 pt... but but but.. all these achievements didnt come easy... the hard work.. the blood.. the sweat... the tears.. the sacrifices.. i will work harder.. i will be successful.. my life plans.. my future is bright =) haha.. those who didnt manage to see it.. too bad.. not many ppl have a second chance.. maybe thats why im always too good for anyone.. oh well.. LONER! haha.. okok.. i shd stop.. i shall be patient.. for now.. study la boy..

and darn. i have to go to sch to open some door in the evening tml. anyone wanna date me for dinner? haha... oh ya, reminder to self.. start studying for exams soon.

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flash back flash back

turn back turn back

stop stare stop stare

let go let go

look far look far

when moments turn into memories.. things i will rmb for life... haha.. still clinging i guess

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.tim *if i could turn back time. i would have held on tighter. haha*

tell me how?

skip what happened today. anyway.. gastric pains are kinda hard to deal with.. back to main topic ba... its really not that i force myself to don see you.. its not tat god made it that way.. i am trying very hard.. i am.. its not an overnite thing.. give it some time.. please?

everything seems to come down hard on me.. even the slightest.. if i don even bother.. i wont even ask.. i really dono wat else i can do already.. im really at my edge.. i am trying.. i am... if anyone know how to settle my weakness of being unable to spot things i shd.. please tell me.. oh tim.. oh tim.. maybe.. maybe... i am really tired.. i shall go.

.tim *i could put them into words.. i want to say.. .......................................................................*

030210 - Hilarious much day.

the usual morning routine.. and i will nv wear 3 layers to sch again.. and omg! some girl left her red droplet on the mrt seat! lols! icant stop laughing.. everyone was like.. go there. see then the eewww disgusted face then walk away.. haha! hilarious much! BPO ppt was ok.. first time i don need to ans QnA? but i feel weird.. haha.. cheryl and clement made me so nervous.. cuz we are the first group... and they werent here yet! but alls well..

CNY is around the corner... so i went for a new hair cut.. same style thou.. and recoloured my hair.. I NV CHANGE MY HAIR COLOUR OR STYLE OK! im still quite into my current hair style =) tired much.. i sat there for 3 hrs.. looking after jolie, joanne and erica's laptop.. haha.. happen to see me so they deposit there while they went shopping... tired much i went home after the hair thing.

hungry like mad i had to wait till 8 to eat. and my dad spike my drink and food.. there was wisky in them! omg.. i was so hungry i was like gulping the drink.... then i realise why my coke like leave a warm feeling in me? -.- my dad mixed drinks for me and my mum.. thanks ar.. nv tell me.. knowing i am alcohol intolerant.. i shall not continue on the rest of the nite.. i am plain, really being weird according to many ppl...

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hungry? is it a hunger for food or sth else? can be water u know.. or power.. or frens.. or love.. or even slp.. haha... decifer..

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.tim *My couch feels so empty without u. imy*

020210 - motivated~

the day was pretty much motivated.. lets see.. i drag myself up as usual.. left home damn earli jus to renew my PDL.. YAY! i can drive again.. haha.. went to sch.. i was so earli i had time to print my transcript.. then go photocopy it.. then go certify it.. then photocopy more.. then get some food... then go lecture? omg.. i was DAMN earli.. and guess wat.. i didnt fall aslp during BPO revision lecture! i think sitting near zoe is good... she got the aura that makes me stress.. like OMG.. her pen doesnt stop.. haha.. i shd right?

then came the 3 hr long break. lets see.. ate half a mac meal cuz 1) my double cheese had pickles which i took them out. 2) my fries has salt when i say large fries no salt. 3) my ice tea was rather.. ice water.. siew tai ah? or was it ice tea o? haha.. went to print some stuff again.. then i dono.. tour ard the school? ibrc, print shop. south. ELDC. IB was okok.. but i fell aslp in the end.. sorry ah.. haha.. oh ya! shareen's group! the qn i ask right.. i wanted to ans myself one.. =x oops.. no offence..

off to bring my fren out for icecream which when we arrive, it was close! wTh. dinner and home. and its been projs.. and mini proj till now.. oh.. im such a good script writter.. 1 hr gao tim! yes.. i am back! wooo hooo.. efficient and wonderful me. muacks.. love myself.. haha.. okok.. i shall stop promoting myself.. and sadly.. gastric buddy is back =( i ate ok! why u come find me? tsk.. go away! ok. time to slp.. gotta wake up earli to choose my presentation wear... nites.. timmi continue to smile!

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its hilarious

i was thinking abt the things i did.. and the things ppl are doing now.. omg. i laughed.. like.. why do we like to bicker and make things difficult for each other? like wat i did to shiteng.. lol.. i jus had to right.. cuz i was bored.. alright... no offence.. i'll be nicer to everyone from now on.. wat for make myself upset right? come timmi.. smile! its contagious.. go spread it.. =)

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On this day, God wants you to know...

... that as you surrender to divine providence in your life, you will feel lifted and carried and held. All is well, all is well, all is well.

all is well.. haha! i did a reading just now and i was happi.. really happi.. then fb gives me this.. all is well.. haha.. ok.. tat shall continue to motivate me for now.. =)

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.tim *smile with me. dance with me. sing with me. SMILE OK?! =)*

010210 - Start of something new

today is the first day of feb.. also the 1 yr for my hand phone and also the start of sth new... yup... did project till 8 plus in the morning! omg! took a short nap and woke up to do somemore project... and yup.. to sch to hand it in and do some band stuff... went out for a walk and some food with my friends...

the day past like a daze.. its like u are watching a movie? no tots or actual feelings.. just been living it like an empty shell.. haha.. like wat my fren say.. you are WEIRD! u are exceptionally weird today.. u keep talking but you don make sense.. haha... yup.. u know, an empty vessel makes the most noise.. and these projects are really kind of a killer... i shall not talk abt wat happen but ARGH! i wan to slap u u u u u u u and u... oh well.. live with it.. 3 more projects.. jy timmi.. remember to smile!

310110 - the end of the month and the start of sth new..

well.. the day been pretty much dull.. proj the whole day and really unmotivated... ate super alot.. i don know why.. anyway.. went out at nite... hmm.. can say.. really alot of things happen.. and i dono how to put it to words... an end? a new beginning? oh man.. i can see myself 3 years ago.. me and my ice cube... and its gonna be zombie for the next... i dono.. 3 yrs b4 it happen? or when the sun is warm enough.. tml maybe? anything can happen.. haha.. *but i am still holding on*

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Whats there to regret and blame when it was well spent? i see a lifetime more of happiness =) its my new perspective.. wat i regard as a life.. *yup.. thank you for giving me a life*

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.tim *this space will stay vacant for you for now*

300110 - reflections

a quiet day.. alot of tots.. and reflection.. haha.. sometimes i miss the past... but still.. told myself the future is better! so look forward! today is also a gorge myself day.. kinda ate alot today.. really alot.. whole day.. think so much already.. try to physco myself to think otherwise but nah.. not workable.. my stand still so strong and stubborn.. haha... and do u believe in magic? i was in church.. the usual.. then when i open my eyes.. "1 msg received" =) like magic...

went out for dinner.. =) and its another full moon nite.. full moon!.. many many tots... anyway.. im pressed with deadlines.. 4+1 project.. monday, BPO submission.. tuesday IB! wed bpo presentation. thursday mcad... friday! and monday compen... i am stressed! wooo.... can't wait for all the projects to end!

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like a kid. i do silly things. but the heart is pure. a genuine smile =)
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.tim *i have faith!*

Collection of memories of the week

The Importance of planning for the future

met with whitney's aunt the other time.. and one of her qn is so wat are u planning to do after graduation.. can say.. lucky tat i already planned my life... i could answer.. but then again.. so what about the others who didnt plan.. its not just answering a question but its ur life.. i think whitney's aunt carried herself well.. very professional, very pose.. in chinese.. got 气质.. in whitney's terms.. got 脎气. even in school we learn "Failing to plan is planning to fail" which brings me to my 2nd tot.

The German's way of doing things

germans tend to always plan.. plan A plan B plan C and so on.. why? cuz they wanna make sure everything goes well.. contingency plans.. from young.. i've been taught to do so.. spontaneous thinking.. contingency planning.. things i use to think "wat for.. its a waste of time" but has proven useful in life.

Importance of carrying urself well

first impression counts. alot of ppl say. i don go for looks.. but in real life.. light travel faster then sound rite? u see someone b4 you hear them.. can say, im very vain.. for a reason.. has it done me any harm? no. in fact. its been good. but some ppl made it so -.- meet a lecturer in school tat day... and she was talking abt some HR competition with my classmate.. and she ask. eh, timothy nv join meh? no wonder u didnt win.. u nv ask him to wink at the judges.. i was abit offended.. like.. its been like this for some time.. alot of ppl say.. but i shoo it away like a joke.. but judge for yourself la.. i did my work ok.. i don go around winking to everyone for my grades.. HA HA HA. i am not a HIMBO... WHATEVER la... unimportant tots.

Always look on the bright side of life

even since the creation of http:/timmislife.blogspot.com, how many of u actually rmb this phrase? its been there.. somewhere.. always.. life is full of ups and downs.. many a times... u lost urself.. then u find urself back again.. then things happen that pull u down... its like nv ending right? then u can tell others how to handle but cannot handle yours.. kinda laughable.. i realise this.. and its time i find myself back... the very successful.. smart, talented, well carried. well looked upon.. independent me.. woo.. CNY COMING! i must be ready for the questions abt this apple.. stressed but i will spell it back wards.. desserts...

more recollection when i can recall... that's all for now.. smile timmi

.tim

No Motivation to do anything at ALL!

Ring, Ring.. hello, soul.. time to come home!

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make a guess.

.tim

290110 - gastric?

another long sleepy day. lessons in the morning and yup, fall aslp again.. had super sweet mac breakfast hotcakes.. my fren say if i everyday eat can go chop off my leg already.. but its been some time since the last sweet experience i can recall.. been blunt and bitter.. had a little surprise for halif.. hope u are dam happi abt it! we know u know ah... =)

went MS with st,clement,halif,whitney,cheryl to celebrate halif's bday.. bowling, lunch and movie.. shopped alittle for my stuff.. retail therapy again.. oh man, how long can this last? must solve the root of the problem soon.. if not its like.. dono how say la... we watched "my ex" a thai love horror movie.. it was quite scary in the beginning and wasnt in the mood for it.. wanted to leave but hey.. maybe i can scare some tots away.. but it was more of a gore then scare... i was dam grossed out but the blood.. 1) i cannot tolerate a puddle of blood infront of me.. 2) i cannot tolerate the sight of knifes slicing thru and blood squirting out.. 3) its been sometime since i see someone flying down and blood flooding the road.. all in all... i was more shocked then scared... walk ard alittle b4 goin off.. alot was said otw... alot of tots

went out for a chat with my fren. yup.. feel better in some ways.. and yet... questions in another... my stand is still the same.. but somehow.. its getting more painful in a way.. quite heavy ah.. and oh no. i think i forgot abt dinner.. my stomach is PAIN! and im burping hydrochloric acid with enzymes in them..

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On this day, God wants you to know...

... that there are Divine signs and messages galore if you learn to look for them. What is that song lyric that is stuck in your head? Which book do you keep hearing about? What animal appeared suddenly as you were driving down the road? These signs may be an answer to a question you have. Take the time to unravel the mystery of these messages.

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signs.. read read read.. wat if u read wrongly how? next week is proj week.. i really need to solve this soon.. the final lap.. i can't stumble now.. i can't.. how shd it be approached.. how shd it be solved? nth cant be solved.. nothing such as forgot or nth to say.. excuses.. its a matter of willingness... timmi! u must solve it! don hide in ur shell! but it takes 2 person to solve too..

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.tim *endeavor for logic... seek the t*

i fell aslp on the sofa... and i had a dream..

people say usually, u dream about the thing u were last thinking about b4 u fell aslp.. and suddenly it feels so real.. oh gosh.. maybe this song might help visualize the dream.. maybe i shd go back to sleep..

.tim *i really do*

280110 - mind control

sleepy sleepy long and tiring day. half the time i tried to really listen in class... half the time i fell aslp.. went out for lunch with my classmates and shopped alittle.. cuz my brain was too dead to think.. ate super alot.. home, shopped alone otw home.. took a 10 min nap and went out to the night bazaar by the central..

did stupid and silly stuff today cuz i was sleepy? like running to my lecturer to take her photo in the lecture hall and soon realise it was so dum.. reflects badly on me.. unglam and im so not living up to my reputation.. oh watever.. wat else, i posed stupid ugly post for photos... cuz my soul drifted off..

the whole day have been about mind control.. filtering tots and controlling emotions.. in the end, alone at the bazaar.. i let go.. ha ha ha.. nvm.. tml i will try harder.. good job timmi. tml jiayou.. the moon was my comfort tonite.. shinning brightly, welcoming me home.. the moon.. alright.. back to mind control.. shan't rant again.. i shall "swallow them down" as wat miss tan said...

.tim *i tried to resist.. but i couldn't.. i'll try harder tml.*

260110 - getting the better of me.

time for therapy... don read it if u think its redundant.. i just need to rant.

another day. little slp. rush project onli to know it has been changed again.. now i have to redo it again. =( tired. hr seminar was ok. .learnt sth.. had to trouble to ask ms tan for help with my other projects.. thank you.. band was good.. sounded real nice.. emotional. cuz its my last practice as a band member and a president. the next time i step in, i will be alumni. i want to post abt my 2.5 yrs in band. not now.. but i will.. after these projects.

proj proj proj. tut tut tut... other things... it makes me wanna put my hands up in despair and say.. i really give up.. its the time when i am most emotional and i will tend to be oversensitive and think too much.. for now, i know i will be so.. and i will be grumpy.. just bear with me for awhile.. chinese new year is coming... and its 4 days after my project submission. i really have no time.. give me money also no use... i have no time to shop.. its the time of your life when u say.. i wish there was someone here to accompany you and support u thru all these "shit"... i really dono wat happened to me.. im so damn emotional lately.. wth is wrong man.. wat happen to ME! i know i can do this.. i use to be able to.. i need to find myself back.. thou i still don rely on others.. but like i said many times before.. every successful man has a supportive wife or whoever that person is.. i tired to recall who was this person.. and i have my ans..

im sorry to all my frens if u think i change.. i am no longer myself.. i don mean to walk pass u without noticing u... i really dont. i don mean to ignore wat u said... i really didnt hear.. i don mean to be grumpy or emotional or whatsoever.. just bear with me.. ignore me if cannot stand me... for i am alone in this.. i know.. for now i am.. theres only me left to help myself.. im not being pessimistic.. don rely on others.. maybe this is why i decided to throw my phone. sorry phone.. i don mean to abuse u.. i really am giving up in many aspects of my life.. i said this to someone.. its like the icing to ur life.. it makes ur life nicer and sweeter.. without it, thou its more difficult but u still live.. i am counting down to the day i say. NO MORE PROJECTS! i must bring myself out to relax. if not, who will? those who don uds u and add probs to u and are not impt ppl.. let them go.. u have too much to handle for now.. if they are really ur frens.. they will be understanding enough and will support u... just a willingness issue

i must manage my time. i must manage my derailed life. i must SCORE well for school. i must continue to be a good son. i must and i will. how? i dono, i will fine tune it on the way.. for now.. jy timmi.. u can do this.. yes! after all these. i will buy myself an itouch or iphone as a reward. my self motivational reward. maybe go on a holiday.... save up tim! since u won be hungry when u are stress.. since u have no time to shop for cny clothes. since u have no blah blah blah.. i will stop.

.tim*sometimes i just wish this particular u is really non imaginary and here to support me*

all too sudden

im home now. after so long.

i'll be out soon again.

this day is really.. a day..

cab uncles are vicious.. pretend to be concerned over ur swollen eyes and later short change u.. how vicious.. i have nth to say.. even the cab uncles wan to bully me.. now.. i am beginning to disregard wat you call.. a life..

.tim *its broken.. am trying to mend it but its too broken*

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

where am i now? in school

wat am i doing? cooling down and doing my proj

Why am i here? cuz i ran away.

wat happened?

sth happened which made me unstable and the small one at home keeps irritating me. my aim of going home early today was to do up my projects and keep myself busy and not think about other things that have been haunting me. so finally i couldnt take it and i wanted to ask him wat the prob was that he need to throw his tantrums again. rude as he always is. he scream at me. i tolerated. and it happened again. so this time i screamed. and i decided. i will go out. he slammed his door. i went him and talked to him. and ok. since u don like me to be ard. i shall make myself disappear.

everything in my life is goin fucked up right now. my angel.. where are u? packing my stuff and leaving home, i saw my mummy.. i know she wan me to stay home.. but theres just so much happening within me i think its best for me to take a break.. im sorry mummy.. i know u will be reading this.. sorry for putting u in a spot.. both are your sons.. u love both as much... for now.. let me go.. if theres anything.. jus give me a ring... im sorry...

for the rest of the things happening in my life.. i dono wat to do abt it anymore.. wat ever u wan to do.. i have no say.. just do.. i gave up on my life.. its getting so out of hand. i don know how to solve it anymore... let me drown and be on my way for judgment up above.

.tim *and im still hoping.. will my strong faith bring me light in this dark hr?*

buerbong!

school work is driving me nuts.. 4 projs.. compen, ib, mcad, bpo.... 4 papers soon.. stress is an understatement.. and this is jus about school.. maybe the time has come.. really... please don come.. =( im very tired. but i cant slp. i have to be strong.. i will be.. timmi!

.tim

*for once. i am really wishing very hard.please don fail me.. please.. for once.timmi. control.. don let it flow out.timmi.. be strong.my wish! please come true.. please…*

250110 - Gorge myself day.

have been eating alot alot alot alot lately... began my day pretty well.. i drag myself out of bed and went to sch... to remind myself to be happi, i drew a smiley face on my left palm using permanent marker which wasnt quite permanent. SOQM tut... miss ong mentioned this sentence.. we shd remove all non-value-add activities in our lives cuz theres really no value in doin them.. which is think is quite true.. hmmm...

oh well.. after sch went to east point Han River for steamboat to celebrate ilah's and halif's birthday.. hey ilah! hope u like the present =) halif u wait ah... be patient.. who went? jj, carol, shareen, ilah, halif, lebin, clement, sufri, ST and me. ate super alot.. gorge myself... anyway... thanks lebin for the heartpumping lift =)

headed back to sch.. super tired. slept on the train.. ate half my dinner. band was ok. i shall pract more. headed home. however well the day went.. it ended with a =( maybe i shd tattoo the smiley face on my palm.. or use a more permanent marker.. good nite.

.tim *you are my value add*

240110 - pain!

force myself to wake up earli to go church.. and rest abit at home b4 heading out to get some stuff... yup... I WENT OUT! wat to do.. if i don do it, who will? i am dying of pain right now... and my mummy scold me.. so its pill and bed time... anyway, thanks to the ppl who accompanied me today on such short notice. =)

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On this day, God wants you to know...

... that if you relax, it comes. Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand - relax. If you relax, it is there. If you relax, God shows you the way.

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.tim *can u hear the beat? =)*

240110 - hey boy! take care!

woke up quite earli after trying so hard to slp... renovation at home! omg. laid down.. cant move alot.. eat and eat and eat and eat.. i feel FAT! went off to work... sian, today alot of uncles! but nvm, i had some fun entertaining myself.. and letting them win... 3 hrs none rest standing... when i walk, i can hear the cracking.. haha.. i shd rest soon.. really...

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i read this somewhere on the net..

in order to help others, help urself first.. cuz usually u are more concern of the other person then you will put down ur issues and help.. after some time, u may feel like.. u have alot of probs.. and the other person is always complaining.. u might feel irritated? cuz u got ur probs too.. and the other person is not able to help.. but on the other hand, if u nv say it out, the other person cannot possible guess right? haha... so, help urself first.. just say it out.. cuz its these small things that make u know more abt each other... =)

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.tim *yay, i think u are happy which equals to i am happy too.. yay! =)*

220110 - Clumsy boy

PPT in the morning... i almost lost my finger while making my "tv" and i was nervous while presenting.. i dono why.. anyway... i left my shoes in the tut room! wth.. thanks ks and tiff for getting them for me.. =) gave ilah a mini surprise bday brownie icecream candle thing.

went off to meet yh at 313, made a cake for the 3 girls... had food at swensens which was a horror. really horrible service... OMG! anyway.. i wan eat more ice cream... and sorry tiffany, 1) i spilled water onto her bag. 2)i drop the broacher holder into the food. 3) i drop the menu onto her food.. haha.. im so clumsy today... lastly.. sorry everyone.. i drop half the cake! OMG! timmi! wat happened to u! wake up wake up. walk ard with them... tiff, yh, ks, sh.. till one point, i started to feel uneasy.. then stone.. then dizzy.. then decided.. its time i head home. and the train was pack =(

got home, took a nap.. felt terrible.. and got it checked.. hope everything is fine! i have to survive the next 2 weeks healthy.. after tat.. i don care.. =)

.tim *i did my research = i know how to handle now)*

its a very tiring day, presentation at 8 am later.. timmi don oversleep! jiayou! rmb drink red bull tml.. and plans and plans.. oh~ tired...

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it still leak despite trying so hard to prevent it. "druuup~ one drop, two drop....."

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.tim *Create new moments.*

200110 - Check it out...

study and study.. ib and ib.. argh.. and the paper was not tat easy lo... not enough time to do leh... =( and my hand so stiff... i wan buy new pen! those pen suck. cannot write fast fast... and the table so small... =( my neck pain.. ok.. don complain liao... anyway.. i decided to come home to do my ihrm report which yays! i finished it.. next is the ppt.. then im done..

i am stressed! theres still IB to start.. MCAD to start. BPO to complete.. and compensation! alot to do.. i read the info but am clueless how to start.. die die die.. no time no time! kuai dian.. lets finish those proj asap.. my head goin boom boom boom soon. like my ma say, ah boy, study must on some music, so quiet, i see also stress... ah boy, come eat first.. later then do work.. come ah boy drink coke.. come ah boy.... this and tat... oh my ma.. luv u...

lesson at 8 tml.. omg. can it get any earlier? =( and then theres IHRM presentation at 8 am on friday! omg. wear wat? =( so earli.. on a lighter note, 2am got new album, damn nice...

i have 123456789 things to do and say. but i only have 1 mouth.. 1 mind. its when its all tangled up and u jus go erm.... erm... i dono how to say and u just stare and everything seem to be just ok.. suddenly.. timmi jiayou. control =)

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wish upon the star.

star light, star bright.

you seem so near yet so far.

shinning light, sparkling blink

will you be my guide tonite.

when you wish upon a star.

and give ur dreams a dazzling start

there's hope and faith and trust comes fast

not 2 not 3 but only 1.

wont you come and stay tonite.

.tim

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.tim *i wish upon the stars*

IB SUCKS... anyway... today is not a good day.. aside from buying my frens yakult.. and going on a retail therapy.. i still boomz.. tml will be a better day.. 7 chapters! i can do this... yes i can.. timmi the great.. nothing is impossible for him.. =) i shall go ice cream after the paper.. im not goin for practice tml.. i shall take a break. after 3 years... time for a nap.

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mind over matter. positive thinking.

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.tim *i wan my babyy! i wanna eat chocolate and lollipop and ice cream!*

180110 - a daze

dragged himself out of bed at 7 and headed to sch for a 2 hr tut which he nv listen... got back his SOQM paper and wow.. such a disappointment.. tried to push my meeting forward so tat i could head home and rest.. but nah.. someone was busy.. meeting at 4.. and by the time im done with lunch its already 2.. pointless to head home.. pushed it to 3 pm.. for 27 mins.. pointless.. -.- for wat i go.. do phone meeting la... off to the band room.. lazy to open up, i sat outside and onlined.. guess wat.. i fell aslp on my laptop with my stuff on the table.. alone.. and the construction going on beside me... the noise and stuff.. =\ must be really tired.. dinner tat sucks.. i fell aslp on my waterbottle.. i think i seriously lack slp..

band was emotional.. the songs... i just had to inject so much into them.. where else can i say it out but during music making? the tone and sound tat speaks.. indeed.. music.. and i said tat i will post a long post abt my presidential life.. the 2 years worth of it.. but not now.. once all is settle.. i will.. =) yes, my dear classmates.. i am stepping down already.. don scold me le la.. i know i must study liao.. time to let it go... thanks for being with me.. and udsing me.. thanks...

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.tim *i must be strong.. i will be brave..*

eyes tat speaks.. the fearlessness.. the courage..

eat eat eat. dwaeji

why haven i been updating? cuz i don have the mood to.. anyway... this few days.. i've been eating alot alot alot.. thinking alot alot alot.. ups and downs alot alot alot... i worked... with uncle aunties surrounding me trying to make me talk to them... "ah boy, u very cool ah, don talk.. like the macau casino dealer" -.- can u just leave me alone? i busy enough counting chips..

the little one skipped sch.. and its like sec 1 January onli lo.. small one, please grow up and start thinking abt ur future.. stop playing so much.. and hogging on TV playing Xbox.. let alone the computer.. study eh... grow up liao.. start tinking!

today is a slp and eat day for me i guess... slp eat tv slp eat tv.. totally no mood for studies.. in the quit sch mood again.. but then, i got motivated somehow.. did abit of my work.. but now.. im down again.. oh.. the ups and downs.. its really these ups and downs... one moment u are ok.. next u are not.. i really dono wat to expect next.. can things please go well for once... please...

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God is fair

someone once told me tat daddy god is fair.. theres a balance.. like if u are good in sth, u loss out in other.. someone can have looks.. but are not very smart.. i tot thru today.. im not very good looking.. nor am i ugly.. im not very smart, nor am i dum.. im successful in many ways.. but im a failure in many other things... everyone has his strength and weakness.. i won say i am a good president, theres alot of things tat i could have done otherwise alot better.. but ppl only see the surface.. theres alot to it.. its a very stressful post.. and moreover, u have to juggle ur studies too.. many a times i crumble.. many a times ppl say, u don act like ur caliber... many a times, i find ppl who support me.. and ppl who dont..

every successful person has a "behind the scenes person" supporting him or her.. and in return, u support him or her back.. tolerance, patience, love, care... its a mutual understanding.. one tat is so simple.. yet so complicated.. it takes 2 hands to clap.. it takes 2 ppl to maintain.. it takes 2 person to live.. *i am really praying very hard.. i don wan to loose you*

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.tim *and i try to uds and act on it, cuz i wan u to be happy*

i saw this on disney channel and think its a nice song to share... enjoy..

*for you*

140110 - [ ]

wat a day. 8am lesson. lebin drove us out for lunch.. nice food... thanks! went to NLB to get the CA for compensation project... walked ard alone till i reach suntec half drenched.. =\ my legs are failing me.. tailbone down, my left leg is painnnnnnnnnnnnnful... dinner and walked ard somemore.. walk walk walk... my head was.. aiyo.. don walk so fast... gently walk.. don stomp.. ouch. ouch. ok ok.. walk this way.. siam the crowd..

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one by one.. they are disappearing... they want to go far far away... reel them back.. reel harder.. too much resistance it will snap.. how how... its just me.

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.tim

*for you, for me, for us*

130110 - Pillar of support

sch was -.-! i am damn stressed now.. everything in life is going anyhow... its the time when u just want to say.. i give up. do watever u want.. i don want to care anymore.. but i cant.. oh well.. remind me next time not to go home and leave the hse 10 mins later and be caught in the rain.. my head is going boom boom boom... best if i don have wake up tml.. no one cares anyway...

sight reading today.. ok.. my sight reading improved.. but still a long way to go..am i playing for concert? its in june.. am i enlisted already? i dont know a thing abt it.. anyway... i think its physiological but my chest is painful.. ok, im aching everywhere but my chest is pain.. am i like really crumbling already? breaking down.. dying soon... ha ha ha... maybe i just need a breather.. wat do you do when u keep having this nitemare? is it just u think too much or does it really mean sth? its just me myelf and i... so tim, please bring tim for a break.. before theres no more tim..

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pillar of support

everyone has one or more.. sorry. this pillar is crumbling.. plaster, marble, concrete... whos gonna repair this pillar? whos gonna be this pillar's pillar of support? everyday is jus another day.. nth to hope for.. nth to look forward to.. no motivation.. cuz theres just so much that one has to think about. and its ok. this pillar has decided not to stand anymore.. the pillar has fallen.. who will mend this pillar? one tot too many... maybe.. maybe..

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.tim

*life has lost its colours.. life has lost its meaning.. life has lost its hope... i really really miss you... =(*

130109 - one tot too many

another Pfft day. i fell aslp on my comp ytd.. and my neck almost broke.. woke up at 648 with the.. EH! wat am i doin here? ehh.. now wat time?.. alot of Qn marks.. this taught me tat.. if i am waiting.. don ever close my eye and say.. 5 mins rest... =/

well.. i went back to slp after sending some sms and i couldnt wake up.. so tired... my dad force me to eat and refuse to send me to sch.. and i was late.. great! so i rush to sch for nth.. then rot for 4 hrs.. so much free time = think alot.. = ARGH! anyway.. thank to the 3 jiejies for keeping me occupied.. lunch at kovan.. nth nice.. =/ back to sch for IB tut.

ib ica 1, i got a B+.. ok la.. im happi liao... wheres my reward! oh wait.. no one will reward me.. anyway.. damn bad mood.. went home and gorge myself.. haha.. and slept on the sofa... woo.. and theres canele cheese cake! cake eh.. i like.. made me smile for 5 mins.. at least i did..

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look at the mirror.. who do u see? i am so lost.. i need ans..

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.tim

When You Wish Upon a Star

long time no see... how is everyone? lately alot of things happened... my mind is like boom boom boomz... ha ha ha... anyway... sat went for huifen's 21st.. sunday went for Sparks wind concert..

today i over slept.. presentation at 9am.. i woke up at 907.. damn it! of all days to oversleep.. i overslept on my ppt day... sunday also overslept.. stupid phone.. i wan a new phone.. ARGH! so frustrated eh... omgomgomg! argh.... anyway.. as usual.. things happen.. i learnt to live with it.. im jus a venting machine... oh great... and im aching all over... im like falling apart.. haha.. who is gonna pick up the pieces and put them back tgt?

anyway.. i whine and whine and whine today... and my fren drew me this cuz i said i was hungry and i wanted to eat curry noodles... thank you very much... at least someone made me smile today... thank you.... the others who made me smile.. thank you! =)

OH.. Happy 21st bday huifen.. and her twin.. huiting.. =)

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When you wish upon a star.

the sky was very very clear tonite... the stars were so bright... i made a wish.. lately, its a 1111 spree... some i watch it pass.. some i made a wish.. there was a period where i gave up on 1111.. but it came back to me.. i even saw a mrt with 1111 on the red line... maybe its asking me to make a wish.. haha... oh well.. i dono wat to expect or think already... what will the next step be?

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.tim *imy*

070110 - One Down........

MCAD earli in the morning at 8... i was the earliest lo.. wth... anyway.. i think it went quite well... great job team.. =) drift off to timmi's stonning land... compensation.. last min tut plus crapping = saves the day.. sandwich and ihrm tut...... i don even rmb wat was taught.. slack ard.. waited for my fren then went ms for food.. window shop to douby and home.. i am so tired... i fell aslp unglamly in the train... =( oh ya.. why am i coughing? anw, my other fren made me a name thingy.. simple yet meaningful.. thank you very much..

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Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.
Leonardo da Vinci

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.tim *as much as i try to hold it back, i just can't*

randoms

a list of wants.. what do i really need? i need you lo

i want a lighter laptop.

i want my Macbook pro.

i want my itouch.

i want a nice bagpack.

i want my new phone.

i want new earphones.

i want more nice fitting formals.

i want a new SCRATCH-FREE belt.

i want my pedro loafers.

i want more T-shirts.

i want my own room!

i need and want you

.tim *slp well*

060110 - ups and downs

i am tired. stressed and irritated... i am so FINE now... i am just going to blurrr everythinggg out...

slept late. falling ill.. lethargic to wake up.. but i dragged myself to sch.. totally disregard my tutor and did other proj during his tutorial.. im sorry.. but i just need to do it.. played the EGG game on cheryl's phone trying to beat lebin's high score.. sorry tutor.. i had to destress myself... abit of proj meeting here and there.. had lunch.. went to continue my proj while doing band stuff... i msut multitask.. if not i feel very uneasy.. rush proj, no mood for dinner.. had a waffle.. and half a iced Teh-C.

band was not bad.. i feel suddenly everything feels so loud suddenly.. but the sounds was ok.. my section was in tune.. i am HAPPY abt it.. ups and downs.. voting today.. i am happy cuz of alot of reason.. im emotional cuz im graduating soon.. alot of ppl are falling sick.. take care and get well soon... at this point of time.. im still thinking of quiting sch.. which is totally dum. will continue to tell myself not to do it.

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have u ever felt tat someone has become a part of your life tat its sth like u cant live without.. unknowingly you've become one.. simple things such as the way u speak.. the way you present urself.. the little things they do and you do.. even the way u hold the hand rail in the train mistaking it other things.. haha.. honestly, we are always changing.. some influenced by society.. some by the ppl ard you.. what will happen if theres a suddenly switch? a state of shock maybe?

have you ever have the feeling of "i just know your style, wat u're gonna say, blah blah?" jean grey? nah.. its just the special bond and understanding u have tgt.. one tat not all will understand.. or try to understand at the very least..

actually i also dono wat i really saying already.. i have so much tots inside i dono wat to do with them.. can i like poke a straw and let it all flow out?

treasuring

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i have a ppt at 8am tml morning.. 530 wake up.. now its 230.. and i have alot other stuff to do.. slpless nite again.. and tml is a efffing long day... till 6... oh great... anyway.. this was playing at the aisles of SBM block while walking along it.. tots.

.tim *hey, get well soon kaes*

051009 - First day of school.

oh.. tiring... thou it was just 2 lectures.. seeing my classmates is fun.... all the minor changes.. blah blah... the happenings... haha... the gossips? haha.... hmm.. =) no IB today.. stayed in sch to do proj then had to run some errands.. went shop for my trousers! i got it in the end.. walked a long long way.. tiring.. but the day was pretty much well spent...

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everyday is a blessing for me. everyday, every moment is worth treasuring.. i will...

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.tim *hmm.. still the same 3 words for you..*

stayed up to do MCAD ppt.

i am so mentally drained.

cant stop thinking... yet trying to stay strong.

haha... fb and internet.. oh anything to do with web, i HATE you so much.. web communication is EVIL!

my friend said:"you emo until crazy already ar? can feel you are very sad about something yet you are still entertaining me with your jokes.. are you ok?"

i said: "nah, don worry.. im fine (:"

TIME to slp... nitenite everyone..

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a totally random song playing on my totally random itunes which stuck to my totally random mind. random.

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.tim *hmmm, nah. (:*

040110 - nature's course

No school today.. did some house chores and washed my hoodies... its so heavy! back breaking in a way.. yet makes u feel happi after u get it clean.. wash the rest of the clothes and finally i decided to wash the blood stain away. after so many mths.. BYE. haha... simple lunch while watching bolt.. the show is cute lo.. went sch for band..

i dono why but i was so DISTRACTED. first i walk the wrong way to the mrt.. took the longer route.. then instead of stopping at serangoon, i stopped at potong pasir.. nvm.. train back to serangoon then i took the train to bartley instead of marymount.. am i dum or wat? sighs. went for supper at popeye's after band and half the time i was like.. staring into space? anyway.. the bus was damn cold.. almost froze to death.

king kong was showing on tv when i got home.. watched it.. nice yet saddening.. anyway. today's god msg is worrying.. ok... fb is like crap rite.. but watever is goin thru my mind.. somehow has some link to it.. am i just thinking too much? somehow i don't know.. i think just let things flow ba.. how its gonna be and the outcome.. let nature take its course... oh.. theres so much tots in my mind its so draining me..

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.tim *faith hope trust. i'll respect the decision. patience. or maybe im just thinking too much*

030110 - "ah Choo~"

today is a ah choo day.. woke up 9 plus lo.. dono for wat also.. church home.. eat slp proj eat slp proj... haha.. glad tat mcad is almost done! yay! and i tot tml got sch lo.. so silly! omg.. tml no sch! yay!! but tues have.. aww... haha... nvm... went out in the evening.. and i fat already.. 2 days ago i tried this trousers and it fits nice but no size! but today i wan go buy the correct one.. aww... can fit la.. but abit too fit.. im fat! omg. had laughs... =) otw home.. this song suddenly came to my mind.. its a very old song.. but its nice...

.tim *사랑해요*

020110 - childhood flashback

woke up so earli in the morning.. and the bus dont want co-operate with me.. work was ok.. did wii station.. haha. i have a few flash back of my mummy bringing me to the zoo when i was very very small... hmm.... kfc and home. overslept and when to my fren's mummy's advance bday party. =) the moon was very very bright and round today.

.tim *really really*

high school musical on disney channel again.

.tim

wee hours.. time to leave the house..

woke up with this tune in my head from the same dream..

.tim